Hatsuyuki has always encouraged Chiba to become a teacher, and she also discussed with him where to become a teacher in the future. In the days accompanied by the first snow, Chiba was much bolder than before, and he also had the courage to interact with the girls in the class normally, and he also made several speeches. He felt that all the first snow he needed had been given to him, and he didn't have much needs at that time, and he could usually talk and be together in the future, so he would be satisfied.

On April 15, 2011, he told Ao Chuxue on the phone about a draft he had prepared two days earlier, which he had planned to tell her when he was very familiar with her, and he didn't want her to help share the pressure. The original manuscript reads as follows:

Xia Chiba's original manuscript:

Title: Power

Some words, I want to wait until I'm good enough for you to say, now I think it's time to say, today I want to call again, sometimes I'm not so strong, I have some things that should be borne by myself, in fact, I'm not an only child, I have a younger brother, he and his parents work in the field, I heard my relatives say that there from the first grade to apply for a household registration book to read, now it's almost between the first grade and the second grade, my mother told me not to worry, wait until I graduate from college, I don't know if it's true, if it's like doing it here, many college student subsidy policies will not be available. And I have to take back all the money I have previously funded and fine, and if you are classified as one of your relatives after your parents, it will not have any impact on your studies, after all, there is no difference between one more relative and one less relative, it will only make me more motivated. I already owe a lot to my relatives, I don't want to owe anything to the new relatives, after all, you are not Li Shilan, you only study for three years, I am not Ji Zhiwei, I am not engaged in research, I don't want you to wait for me for so long, in fact, I also know that the reality is cruel, if the family conditions are good, it will be better to go to graduate school, although you must be a teacher, but if you can't be a teacher, the road will be a little wider. I have several goals, I want to make myself better, when I have good conditions in school, I can reduce some of the burden on my parents, if I am strong enough, it will make my relatives live better, and it will also make you happier, I want to go to the best school to get the best treatment, learn more knowledge, for now, even if I don't go to graduate school, I have to learn everything I need in three years, I can go out, even if I go to graduate school, I can be admitted to a better university.

In the evening, when he made a phone call in the Cultural Square, the lighting was not good, and he did not fully express the content of the manuscript, so he roughly said a few meanings:

First, his family is not very good, in the countryside, and he has a very young brother.

Second, he wants to go to graduate school, and she only needs to study for 3 years, and he doesn't want her to wait 4 years.

Third, he is not as powerful as Ji Zhiwei, and she is not like Li Shilan, he may not be able to give her a good life. (The college entrance examination is his eternal pain!) ）

Then, he added a little more.

Fourth, he compared them to Jia Baoyu and Lin Daiyu.

When he said the second and third points, he cried, and cried very sadly.

Confusion will not only harm yourself, but even the people you want to protect.

All human suffering is essentially anger at one's own incompetence.

The most painful thing in life is not the lack of choice, but the inability to do anything.

When I was a child, I was always very happy, and when I gave a piece of candy, I felt that life was sweet; Give a smile of encouragement and feel that you can win the world; To put it simply, I feel that the world is destroyed, all because of simplicity and ignorance, and I never think about the inextricable links behind things. Happiness is always not long, pain is eternal, the more you grow up, the more emotional, the emotion is nothing more than how hard life is, why can you never return to the simple loveliness of happiness when you give some sunshine and warmth?