On November 12, 2013, Chiba wrote a journal on the concept of life and death, "Looking down on the warmth and coldness of people in the world".

"Look down on the warmth and coldness of the world"

The concept of life and death

The understanding of the process: spiraling, fluctuating forward, cherry blossom scattering

Understanding of Destiny and Endeavor: The general direction and general position of the route are fixed, but the effort can be slightly changed on this basis

The understanding of value: all objects, interconnected, transcending time and space, and becoming one

Understanding space-time and reincarnation: The transformation between matter takes place in a multi-dimensional space-time platform, including the dimension of consciousness

A person's life. Saying that it is long, it makes people feel tired of saddle horses; To put it shortly, as short as a meteor is only a moment.

When people live in the world, they are always surrounded by parents, brothers and sisters, lovers, children, and friends. The reason why people can survive in this kind of family environment is probably due to the reproduction tradition of human beings and the surrounding living environment. But these people are just bad people at a certain time in our journey. When we lose these figures, we can only go on the road alone.

Who do you think of at this time? Childhood memories are always the warmest and most carefree beautiful fragments in the heart. Most people will think of a little friend who is about to lose a sandbag, and imagine what it will be like if they don't see each other for many years? Even if you want to meet, but the mountains are long, the water is long, and you don't even know where they are now, how can you turn your thoughts? This is a kind of amazement, I can't tell whether it's sad or sad, the taste is like tasting tea, drinking it tasteless, and even the residue is unwilling to throw away.

Everyone is alive in two. One is superficial to cope with society; One is the inner one, which is used to regulate oneself.

When you open your eyes, everything is not a rehearsal, but a performance. Meals, work, children, housework, socializing, God has already arranged it. There won't be a minute more, not a second less, it's what it should be, it's life not a show.

Since we are alive, we must have the idea that we are alive. For the sake of this idea, we have to do what we have to do, to say things that we don't like to say. Ignore your true feelings like a madman. Of course, sometimes we can only do this, and only by doing so can we get what we get. Is the world your own? Understanding this problem, no matter what I do, my heart seems to be more calm. There must be distress, and when we turn around and put ourselves in a private space, we will remember what we look like and have the opportunity to love ourselves.

In one's own space, one will have a rich mood to move around. When he was happy, he hummed a little song, after tidying up his housework, he flipped through the books he had bought a long time ago, and walked one journey after another with the pen and ink of others, enjoying the scenery from place to place; You can be a romantic poet or a wise philosopher, and restore a vivid version of yourself. When I really don't even bother to read a book, I put on a few sad, melancholy, and bleak music, quietly soak myself in it, let my thoughts wander here, think about things related to me, and sometimes, I laugh when I think about it; Sometimes, tears flow silently when I think about it......

I've always considered myself a very impersonal person. There is no strong class concept, no sharp arms, and sometimes you can't even see the direction of feng shui. It becomes a habit to be indifferent to everything, as if there is no enthusiasm and emotion gene in the body. Not even the most fundamental hypocrisy. Therefore, I am sad. I am often angry at how I have such a mentality, in the face of great joy and sorrow, like a glass of cold water, I can't tell whether it is still or surging, but I replace sadness and excitement with deep thought, and watch the clouds in the world rise and fall with indifference. Obviously, I was tormented by some thoughts and thoughts, and I couldn't sleep well, and I was miserable, and I even wanted to find someone and talk about it in detail, so that my mood would be blue and blue sky from now on! When this desire is to be realized, I searched all the phone numbers and turned over my friends, but in the end, I could only keep the noise. Life experience has taught me that there are some things that are only suitable for oneself, and some things that can only be known to oneself. When you go alone, some pain can only stay in your heart forever. I am crazy and impetuous inside, but my appearance is still sunny, and I smile and smile at everyone around me and the me in front of everyone.

Who can escape the fate of walking alone? After the prosperity, it is empty; A false dream, a false dream, why bother to move the heart? Downish on everything, underlook at everything; Everything in the world is doomed, we just want to experience it again, experience the joys and sorrows that have been set up a long time ago, and the warmth and coldness of human feelings!