Chapter 140: Choice
This discovery is like another thorn in Chen Jianjun's heart. He endured this pain, and an unfathomable expression appeared on his face:
"Zhaoming Zhenren is a cultivator, how can he talk to you about marriage? That's good, when you get married, marry the crown princess, and make the second concubine, you can make her change her name and surname, and enter the palace to be a waiter. Although her reputation is not high, you can pamper her more, and others will naturally not look down on her. This will not hinder your reputation, but it will also fulfill your thoughts, don't you think? ”
After Chen Jianjun finished speaking, he looked at Chen Youcong, only to see Chen Youcong kneeling on the ground, hanging his head and not speaking. Chen Jianjun listened attentively to the movement inside, and Zhang Weizhao, who was locked inside, was also silent.
Chen Youcong didn't speak, and Chen Jianjun didn't force him. As time passed, the pride in Chen Jianjun's heart rose higher and higher: Look! The so-called person who understands you is nothing more than that. If he can only give you a place to choose an attendant, do you still think he knows you best?
"Father," Chen Youcong finally raised his head: "If you were able to make Jin Guifei Niangniang the queen as you wished, would you live a much happier life, father?" Chen Youcong's eyes were sincere and profound, and there seemed to be a hint of sympathy in the depths of his eyes.
Chen Jianjun was not wary of Chen Youcong suddenly saying such words, his face changed suddenly, and after a while, he said in a low and suppressed voice: "Why do you ask that?" ”
"Erchen felt that his father was not happy in this life. Maybe you don't realize it, but I remember it very well, when I was a child, I used to see you frowning when you didn't laugh, and even if you laughed, you didn't smile so happily. At that time, I thought, if I can be more obedient and do a little better, you will be a little happier, you will talk to me more, you will smile at me more. But no matter how hard I try, you still frown......"
Hearing these words, Chen Jianjun couldn't help but feel ashamed in his heart. As a father, he really paid very little attention to Chen Youcong. But this shame did not make him gentle, but only made him more angry, and he burst out:
"Since you were named the crown prince, you have thousands of honors, and the queen mother loves you so much, what are you lacking?"
Doesn't this sentence also apply to the father? You are the most noble person in the world, do you feel that this life is complete, happy, and satisfied? Chen Youcong raised his head, looking for Chen Jianjun's eyes, wanting to make eye contact with him.
Chen Jianjun stood up and paced in the room to avoid Chen Youcong's persistent gaze, and said, "Now it's time to talk about your marriage!" What do you do with me all this talk to me? ”
"Father, there are many elegant and chaste ladies in your harem, but I don't think you are happy. Even when you doted on Concubine Jin back then, you weren't happy with her. Erchen didn't want to repeat this life. Erchen just wants to have a confidant, and his life is enough! ”
Zhang Weizhao was still in the Xinuan Pavilion, and he would hear the conversation outside clearly. At this time, Chen Youcong kept mentioning Jin Guifei, which made Chen Jianjun feel very embarrassed. And what embarrassed Chen Jianjun the most was that Chen Youcong actually proposed that he only need to be accompanied by a confidant in his life! This means that he not only wants to marry Zhang Weizhao as a concubine, but also is not ready to accept other concubines. Chen Jianjun knew that he was a fool and dreamed, but he inexplicably felt ashamed of himself.
"Don't you even ignore the ancestral teachings?" Chen Jianjun reprimanded: "As the crown prince, you have the responsibility to spread the branches and spread the branches of the Chen clan and broadcast the heirs!" As long as there is one woman in your life, you can tell the story! ”
"Father, if there are constant battles in the harem and the heirs die at every turn, it is better not to give birth to so many!"
"Bold!" Chen Jianjun was furious: "Is this what you should say to your sovereign father?" With your words, I will cure you of your sins!" ”
"Why? Father, why are you not angry when these things happen to you clearly, but you are so angry when I say it? Chen Youcong has always been deferential to Chen Jianjun in the past, but today he will not let him in the slightest.
"Are you complaining about being unkind?" Chen Jianjun's face was as black as the bottom of a pot.
"When I was young, I was often locked in a closet, and I often complained about you." Chen Youcong sighed and said.
"What?" Chen Jianjun suddenly turned his head to look at Chen Youcong.
"Actually, I don't blame you, because I didn't know you at the time. I was often locked in a closet, in the dark. My mother would try to stay with me as much as possible, but she would often go on duty and not be by my side all the time. I couldn't be more familiar with every crevice in that cabinet, every grain on the wood. Sometimes, when it's late and I'm hungry, and no one comes, I think, maybe everybody has forgotten about me, maybe I'm going to starve here......"
Chen Jianjun clenched his teeth tightly, and said in a hoarse voice: "Do you remember?" Didn't you forget everything that happened when you were a child? When did you remember? ”
Chen Youcong did not answer his question, but continued: "At that time, my mother told me that my father was the emperor of Dayan and the most powerful person in the world. If I am well-behaved and obedient, one day, he will come and pick me up, take me out, recognize me as his child, I will have a lot of good food, there will be many people to play with me, and I will never have to be locked in the cupboard again. At that time, I would complain to my father in my heart, why didn't he come to recognize me? Why didn't you come and pick me up? I waited day after day, and finally waited for my father. Who knows, I waited for my father to come, but I lost my mother forever. When he said this, Chen Youcong's voice choked.
Chen Jianjun only felt powerless, and the words of reprimand and questioning reached his throat, but he couldn't say it.
"Yes, Father, I have remembered everything from the past." Chen Youcong began to answer Chen Jianjun's question: "The year before last, I had a serious illness, I had a fever for a few days, and I had a lot of dreams during the illness, and I slowly remembered all the past events. ”
With Chen Youcong's words, Chen Jianjun thought about it, yes, it should be from that time on, he always felt that something was wrong with Chen Youcong. Before that, although the father and son did not spend much time together, as long as they met, Chen Youcong would always look at him with admiration, expecting a little care and affirmation from him. After that, Chen Youcong became more and more silent when he saw him, and often avoided looking at him. He thought that this was because Chen Youcong had grown up and was more calm and introverted, but he didn't want to have a deeper insider.
It's no wonder that Chen Youcong's envelopment of Jin Guifei in the past two years has always been lukewarm, and he has turned a blind eye to a beautiful embryo like Ye Tongying.
Thinking of this, Chen Jianjun only felt annoyed and angry, and snorted coldly: "I really misjudged you!" On weekdays, I only say that although you are a little gloomy, you are always a well-behaved child, and I don't think your scheming is so deep! You obviously have a grudge against me and a hatred for Concubine Jin, but you only pretend to be nothing. A dark-minded person like you is not worthy of being a quiet person like Zhaoming Zhenren, so you should die of this heart as soon as possible. ”
Chen Youcong's lips trembled, he actually knew, he couldn't make his father understand his mind. But Chen Jianjun reversed black and white so much, it was still like pouring a basin of cold water on his head when he counted nine cold days.
He really wanted to ask his father, his mother died in such a tragic way, did he never want to give her justice?
Doesn't he, a son, have the right to mourn his mother? Don't have the right to refuse to admit that the enemy of the mother is the mother?
In addition to needing his son to pass on the mystery, does he have a little father-son affection for him?
However, Chen Youcong knew that he would never be able to answer these questions.
What Chen Jianjun wants is not a son, but a prince who can consolidate his throne and let him explain to his ancestors and the government and the opposition, and he wants a prince who listens to him, can't have his own thoughts, can't have his own emotions, and revolves around his mind at any time.
Therefore, for Chen Youcong, his insistence on Zhang Weizhao is not only because he longs for a sincere feeling, but also because of his insistence on himself: he wants to be a flesh-and-blood person, if he is a living dead, what is the meaning of living?
Therefore, he kowtowed deeply to Chen Jianjun, then straightened up and said, "Father, you can order me not to accompany Ah Zhao for life with the power of a monarch, but my heart of longing for her can not be interrupted by any force. ”
As he spoke, he stood up from the ground and bowed his hand to Chen Jianjun: "Erchen retires!" ”
Before he retreated to the door, he heard Chen Jianjun drink: "You give me back!" ”
Chen Youcong stopped.
I saw Chen Jianjun squinting his eyes and said, "I can give you a chance to get your wish." However, you have to pay a price. ”
Chen Youcong said: "What price? ”
Chen Jianjun raised his chin slightly: "Marrying Zhang Weizhao or being the prince, you can only choose one of the two." If you insist on marrying her, you can no longer be a prince. If you want to keep the crown prince, you can't marry her. Decide for yourself. ”
Chen Youcong's eyes widened slightly, staring at Chen Jianjun, and Chen Jianjun also looked back at Chen Youcong without showing weakness. It was the first time that father and son had looked at each other with such sharp eyes, like a confrontation between a lion king and a young challenger.
After a while, Chen Youcong retracted his gaze, lowered his head, and let out a long sigh.
Chen Jianjun smiled imperatively.
"I choose her!" Chen Youcong raised his head and said clearly.
"What?!" Chen Jianjun's pupils almost contracted into pinholes.
"I choose her!" Chen Jianjun repeated loudly, as if announcing to the world.
"You actually, you actually ......" Chen Jianjun could hardly find suitable words: "Where are you in the world!" The position of the prince is not as good as a woman!? ”
"It's not just for her, it's for myself! If people can't even be honest and insistent on their truest emotions, how can they be different from the walking dead? Does the world need a puppet as an heir? ”