Chapter 139: "Me" and "You"
In the past, Chen Jianjun often oppressed people with power, but today he showed his fragile side, and Zhang Weizhao could intuitively feel his pain. So her attitude is no longer so detached:
"Your Majesty," Zhang Weizhao said softly, "I am a doctor, a heart doctor, and it is my duty to heal the sick." So when you are plagued by illness, I will naturally do my best to heal. β
"I don't believe in your gentle patience just because I'm a patient! Do you do the same with all your patients? "Chen is like a child when he sees Jun's true feelings.
Zhang Weizhao thought for a moment and said, "I admit that I was extraordinarily dedicated when I healed you. Or go all out, so to speak. Because you are the emperor, I have a great deal of reverence for the imperial power, and I am also afraid that I will not be able to afford the consequences if I make a mistake. At the same time, your safety is linked to the fate of many people, to whom I have an account. β
"That's it? Just because I'm an emperor? Chen Jianjun said disappointedly, but he felt unwilling: "Could it be that at those times, especially during the time when you accompanied me in meditation, the words we said, such as the fate of being born, such as the heavy suffering that you had to face even if you were born in the emperor's family, those heartfelt conversations, and those deep understandings, were all just because you were in awe of my imperial identity?" β
Zhang Weizhao couldn't answer right away, and after a while, she let out a long sigh and said, "No, it's not just because of this. β
Chen Jianjun's eyes were immediately full of hope again: "I just know that it's more than that!" In this world, no one understands me like you! There is no one like you who can keep me warm in the cold and calm in the hard. You are a unique treasure in the world! β
"And then?" Zhang Weizhao smiled bitterly: "What are you going to do when you come to this conclusion?" β
"I want you to be by my side at all times! In the next 100 years, there will be a place for you in my mausoleum! I've thought about your title, how about using the word 'Zhen'? Chen Jianjun was in high spirits.
"What do you want me to do with you?" Zhang Weizhao continued to ask.
Chen Jianjun didn't notice the slightly helpless and mocking look on Zhang Weizhao's face: "You will be my favorite concubine, and you will also become my royal doctor." You will be able to stay in the palace closest to the Qianqing Palace, and the Xinuan Pavilion will also allow you to come and go as you please, so that we can paint and enjoy the paintings together. I will give you a favor that all others can't match! β
Zhang Weizhao smiled and let out a long sigh: "Your Majesty, it seems that you have forgotten one thing. β
Chen Jianjun said: "What's the matter?" What you want, what you do, you just say. β
"In all your assumptions about our relationship, there is no 'me'." Zhang Weizhao said.
"What?" Chen Jianjun didn't understand what Zhang Weizhao was talking about.
"I mean, you've been talking for a long time, you're talking about what I can do for you: I'm going to make you less miserable, I'm talking to me to make you feel comfortable, I'm going to make you healthy. All you see is my function, you don't see my existence. β
"What do you mean by not seeing your presence? You will be the most favored concubine in the Forbidden City, one person under ten thousand people. I can't give you the name of the queen, everything else you need. Even if you want to benefit your master and family, it's easy, your master has been named a heavenly master, and your family, as long as they can be found, I can give them hereditary titles. What more kind of existence do you want? Chen Jianjun was even more surprised.
Zhang Weizhao shook his head: "None of these can reflect the existence of 'me', unless it comes from my will and choice." β
"And what are your wishes and choices?" Chen saw Jun's throat rolling up and down, and he felt nervous inexplicably.
"My wish is that I only want to be your healer, and nothing else. What you just said, the experiences you like, the deep connection and companionship, as a healer, I can provide you with no need to be a favorite concubine. β
"You mean, you'd rather be a healer than a favorite concubine?" Chen Jianjun's face showed deep suspicion: "Do you know what I told you just now, how many people can't dream of it?" β
"That's not my choice." Zhang Weizhao replied calmly.
Chen Jianjun was so angry that he wanted to throw his sleeves, but he held back. He walked around in front of the bookcase, suddenly turned to Zhang Weizhao and said, "What else do you want?" You're trying to negotiate with me like this, aren't you? Do you have to be a queen to be satisfied? Do you know? Even if it was ...... back then"
Even Jin Ling'er back then failed to sit on the queen. This is what Chen Jianjun couldn't help but say.
But how could Zhang Weizhao not guess what he wanted to say? But even if she could guess, she didn't care.
"I'm not talking to you about the price. I'm just talking about my own choice. You have been ignoring my wishes and choices. β
This question made people vomit blood, Chen Jianjun tried his best to calm down and sit behind the table: "Then you tell me, to be a doctor and not a concubine, why did you choose like this?" β
"I don't want to be around someone who only sees my function, but doesn't see my true existence as a person. If you only value my features, pay me and I'll provide services. β
Chen Jianjun held his forehead with his hand, and circled around this question endlessly tonight.
Finally, he couldn't bear it anymore and said in a deep voice: "You said that I didn't see your real person, so the prince can see your real person, right?" β
Zhang Weizhao knew that Chen Jianjun would have this question after all. Whether she answers or not, as long as Chen Jianjun asks this question, this is no longer a matter between the two of them, but will also pull Chen Youcong into the war.
In that case, it is better to answer truthfully.
"I think he can see some." Indeed there are some. Zhang Weizhao, as a modern person, still can't share many ideas with Chen Youcong at this stage. However, Chen Youcong has always paid attention to her needs, tried to understand her, and learned more and more about her.
"What do you mean to be able to see some?" Chen Jianjun snorted coldly and said this.
"He understands and respects my ideas."
"You're lying!" Chen Jianjun suddenly shouted angrily: "What your existence and your thoughts are all excuses!" You see that I am old and sick, so I want to take the lead and trap the prince, don't you? Everything I promised you today, you think, he can give it to you in the future, maybe he can make you a queen, right? Dream your big dreams! Everything he has is given by me, and if I want to take it back, he will be nothing! β
Zhang Weizhao was also annoyed: "What do you give him or don't give him, it's a matter between your father and son, what does it matter to me?" Whether he understands me or not, it's between me and him, and it's none of your business! Whatever you do to your son, I can't control. You can't control what I do to him! β
Obviously, it was Chen Jianjun who made the first difficulty, but when he heard Zhang Weizhao say this, he sat on the chair behind the bookcase like a thousand arrows piercing his heart, his chest rose and fell, and he didn't say anything for a long time.
After calming down for a while, Chen Jianjun was finally able to speak as usual, and said to Zhang Weizhao: "You go inside." He said and pointed to the inner room of the West Warm Pavilion.
Zhang Weizhao stood still.
"Get in! I'm not going to do anything to you! Chen Jianjun only felt that he and Zhang Weizhao were about to roar if they couldn't say a few words, and after yelling, they often regretted it, so he slowed down his voice and said, "I'll let you see how he understands you." β
Zhang Weizhao sighed and said in his heart, the time to test human nature has come. She didn't like such moments, because she knew better than anyone else how complex, fickle creatures people were.
Chen Jianjun saw that she was still standing still, walked over and grabbed her by the arm, dragged her to the inside, and then closed the door.
"Someone". Zhang Weizhao heard Chen Jianjun calling outside the door.
Wynne walked in.
"I have something to ask the prince to come over and discuss." Chen Jianjun said.
"The old slave will go." Wynne took the command.
"You don't have to run errands at night. Get a kid in. Chen Jianjun said seemingly nonchalantly.
Wynne bowed his head and replied, "Yes." Standing at the door, he summoned a little eunuch who was standing on the porch in the distance, and ordered him to go down in front of Chen Jianjun. The little eunuch hurriedly ran away.
Not long after, Chen Youcong came to Xinuan Pavilion.
Chen Jianjun sat quietly behind the table, and discussed with Chen Youcong about the important government affairs of the past few days for a while, and then the conversation changed:
"In the past few days, the queen has come to talk to me about family affairs, and said that the prince is now sixteen years old, and the wedding cannot be delayed any longer. During this period of time, my father has been not good and has delayed your affairs. The queen has also seen a few ladies for you, and in a few days arrange a flower-viewing banquet in the imperial garden, invite these ladies to come over for a banquet, and you can also see each other in person, which ladies are in your favor. β
Chen Youcong didn't watch out for Chen Jianjun suddenly opening this topic, and couldn't find a more suitable excuse in a hurry, so he had to say: "My father's health is just getting better, and my son can't bear to make my father tired because of this matter, so let's discuss it later!" β
Chen Jianjun ignored him and said to himself: "The queen's niece Yu Miaoqing is a good candidate, she is very liked by the queen mother, and she is also familiar with you." I see that she is very smart and virtuous, why don't you make her a concubine? You choose a few more women to serve as second concubines. β
Chen Youcong listened to Chen Jianjun's gentle tone, but every word could not be refuted. He knew that today's things would not be good, so he pulled off his clothes and knelt down:
"Father, you know, your son's heart belongs! Unless he is married to Zhang Weizhao, his son does not want to get married! β
Chen Jianjun expected that Chen Youcong would continue to shirk, but he didn't expect him to say it so directly. He suddenly realized that at some point, Chen Youcong's style of speaking became more and more concise, and he rarely spoke those hesitant, ambiguous, and ambiguous clichΓ©s. This style of speaking is exactly the same as Zhang Weizhao.