Before dinner, Zhang Weizhao returned to the Qianqing Palace, first went to the Maoqin Hall to say hello to Chen Youcong, and then went to the Yixian Palace to change clothes. As soon as he changed his clothes and sat down to drink tea, Chen Youcong came in from outside the hall, walked directly to the place where Zhang Weizhao was sitting and held one of her hands.

The people serving in the hall hurriedly retreated, and Chen Youcong held Zhang Weizhao's hand, pulled her up, and hugged her tightly into his arms.

The so-called day is like every other autumn!

"Early tomorrow morning, you will go to the court with me! You'll be waiting for me in the back when I go to politics! Chen Youcong said stubbornly in Zhang Weizhao's ear.

Zhang Weizhao patted Chen Youcong's back, as if he was coaxing a child.

Chen Youcong's personality is peaceful and steady on the surface, but deep down in his heart, there is an unusually persistent and enthusiastic part, but he has not had the opportunity to fully express it in the harsh environment of the past.

This part is actually the most similar place between him and Chen Jianjun.

Chen Youcong grabbed Zhang Weizhao's hand and put it between his hands, and confirmed again: "Come with me, okay?" ”

Zhang Weizhao looked directly into his eyes and said, "From tomorrow onwards, I won't go to the morning court with you anymore, okay?" ”

"Why?" Chen Youcong's brows furrowed.

"Because, I want to have time to plan my own things." Zhang Weizhao wanted to expand women's education and also wanted to establish a maternity hospital.

"Okay, okay, yes, you have your own business." Chen Youcong let go of his hand and stood up. After taking two steps in the house, he stopped again.

"You're upset, aren't you?" Zhang Weizhao asked.

Chen Youcong did not speak.

"Why are you so upset? I just don't accompany you to the court, but I'm in the palace, not far from you, and you can see me as soon as you go to court. Zhang Weizhao stood up, walked to Chen Youcong's side, and looked up at him.

"I don't think I'm right." Chen Youcong smiled reluctantly after a long time.

"What's wrong?" Zhang Weizhao asked.

Chen Youcong sat down and asked Zhang Weizhao to sit next to him. His voice was very low, and he said with a sense of shame, "If you're not with me, I'll keep thinking about something very bad. ”

"What's bad?" Zhang Weizhao continued to ask.

"It's so unlucky, I don't want to say it."

"If you don't say it, will you stop thinking about these things?" Zhang Weizhao did not relax.

"Can't stop." Chen Youcong thought for a while and said: "Sometimes I strictly forbid myself to think about it, but I can't help but those scenes will run in front of my eyes." ”

"This stuff, if you try to tell it, maybe it will dissipate."

"Really?"

"You can try."

"Good!" Chen Youcong closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and then opened his eyes again and said, "If I can't see you, I think you'll die." Speaking of this, Chen Youcong's voice began to tremble slightly. I would think that if you weren't in front of me, maybe someone would put poison in your soup, maybe in tea, maybe in water. I would have thought what I would do if I left you and when I came back, I saw you lying on the ground bleeding from all seven orifices. Chen Youcong's hands also began to tremble.

Zhang Weizhao held Chen Youcong's hand tightly and said, "This is not the present, it is the past. What happened to Concubine Niangniang will not happen to me again. ”

"I know! I know! Chen Youcong smiled bitterly, "But I can't control my head." ”

Zhang Weizhao thought for a while and asked, "Is there any similarity between your current life and your life before the death of Concubine Shu?" ”

Chen Youcong lowered his head and groaned, and said after a while: "Yes." At that time, I was hidden in the peace hall all the year round, and I did not see the light of day. My mother still has to be on duty, and she can't be with me all the time. When I was alone, I felt very lonely, and I often prayed to the gods in my heart that one day, I would no longer have to hide, and my mother would not have to be on duty, and that I would be able to accompany me every day. ”

Speaking of this, Chen Youcong stopped, as if he had to accumulate strength before he could finish the next words:

"The gods seem to have heard my prayers, and the day has finally come. The first emperor recognized me as a son and named my mother a concubine. Finally, I don't have to hide anymore, and my mother doesn't have to be on duty, and she can be with me every day. I was really happy, so happy that I felt that the good days were not mine, but stolen by me. Sure enough, it didn't last long......"

Chen Youcong's chest rose and fell, and after a while, he continued: "Now, we are together, I am very happy, I have never been so happy in my life. But this joy also made me feel uneasy. Chen Youcong said this, but he didn't want to say any more, and only held Zhang Weizhao's hand tightly in his palm.

Zhang Weizhao sighed, stood up, took Chen Youcong's head sitting in the chair in his arms, and whispered over and over again: "This is a thing of the past, this is not our current life." Joy is not necessarily associated with pain, and there is no damnation on living happily. ”

Chen Youcong hugged Zhang Weizhao's waist and buried his face deep in her arms, filling his chest with her breath. This is his favorite moment, and his pain Zhang Weizhao can always see and comfort. The two people are so intimate that it seems to be one.

However, when this extreme satisfaction is felt, there is always some uneasiness that arises. What is this uneasiness? Chen Youcong struggled to capture it in his heart. There was a dim feeling in his dimness, as if this moment of integration was in the moment when he revealed his pain and she healed and embraced. And his uneasiness lies in the fact that whenever Zhang Weizhao is sad and depressed, she always needs to be alone, instead of coming to seek his comfort and help.

Is that really the case? Why is this happening? Chen Youcong felt that he had to think about this problem.

The consequence of this conversation was that Zhang Weizhao began to accompany Chen Youcong to the court again.

The empress only interrupted for a day, and then began to accompany the emperor to the court again, which made many people worried.

At this time, even Xie Qian couldn't sit still. He has a lot of expectations for Chen Youcong, and he expects Chen Youcong to become the master of Zhongxing of Dayan and redeem the decline of Dayan during Chen Jianjun's reign. Since you want to be a Ming Jun, you can't be so childlike. Even the last dynasty has to bring the queen, which is very detrimental to establishing the image of a wise monarch who is decisive in killing.

Of course, Xie Qian privately persuaded Chen Youcong, and Chen Youcong replied: "Taifu, I have not given the queen's family more than the standard courtesy, nor have I spent the treasury to buy jewelry for her and build a Qibao Tower. She just came to accompany me through this section of the road to the court, and then accompanied me back. She has never stepped into the court, nor has she interfered in political affairs, how can this be linked to the country and the world? It's just my family business. ”

Knowing that it was difficult to persuade Chen Youcong at this time, Xie Qian was silent for the time being.

It was difficult for Xie Qian to persuade Chen Youcong directly, so he began to work Zhang Weizhao. He sent a letter to Zhang Weizhao through Zhang Luan and Lian's family, asking Zhang Weizhao to pay attention to his demeanor as a queen, and to be dignified and dignified as a queen, and to be an example of female morality, instead of learning the methods of those favored concubines, so that the emperor indulged in the private affairs of his children.

At about the same time, the Empress Dowager also expressed the same meaning to Zhang Weizhao when Zhang Weizhao was walking with her.

When he first began to accompany Chen Youcong to the court, Zhang Weizhao also felt that this kind of behavior should not be in line with the laws of this era. But she wasn't sensitive to these rules, so she didn't take them very seriously. But after receiving such euphemistic warnings one after another, Zhang Weizhao began to truly realize that the daily life of her and Chen Youcong would affect the nerves of so many people.

The so-called royal rules permeate every bit of life in the Forbidden City, stipulating the boundaries between kings and ministers, husbands and wives, and masters and slaves.

Because he is a king, she is a minister, he is a Qian, and she is a kun, so she can't trespass, and he can't express too much enthusiasm for her. Because if he has too much affection for her, he will be easily countered by her and disrupt the order.

But the human mind has its own internal order, and this order will not be changed by the rigid requirements of the external laws.

It is not surprising that Chen Youcong was triggered by the psychological trauma of her early years on the occasion of her new marriage, because love is a very penetrating thing.

Over the years, Chen Youcong's trauma has been hidden deep under the personality mask of his good boy, and the trauma is as deep as the face is. But his intimacy with Zhang Weizhao gave him the opportunity to open his mask and reveal his true self, and those traumas were exposed one by one.

Zhang Weizhao felt that the best way to do this was to accompany him as much as possible and create a safe space for him to wait for his wounds to heal.

However, Zhang Weizhao's idea obviously could not be approved by most people, including the Empress Dowager and Xie Qian.

Xie Qianjian wrote for the first time, but failed to persuade Zhang Weizhao, and once again borrowed the hands of Zhang Luan and Lian to deliver the letter. This letter is no longer so polite, but quite bluntly said that the emperor's recent actions have been improper, and the queen should reflect on whether she is a woman who has a moral deficit. Because a virtuous empress will speak directly to the emperor, instead of seducing and indulging the emperor's inappropriate words and deeds.

And the Empress Dowager also found an opportunity to tell Zhang Weizhao not to indulge Chen Youcong in nonsense. She knows that Chen Youcong and Zhang Weizhao are both good children, so don't mess up the etiquette because of the newlywed.

These two incidents made Zhang Weizhao discover a misunderstanding of herself: she thought she knew about this court. But what she had known in the past was that of a bystander, and when she was in the middle of it, it was so different.

She seemed to suddenly understand why Chen Jianjun and Jin Ling'er had those paranoid behaviors, because the "normal" space value was too narrow, and there was no place reserved for their choice.

The criticism from Xie Qian and the Empress Dowager is all out of the purpose of "for your good", and this is for your good, but with great pressure. This kind of pressure from people close to you is not at all less lethal than an attack from a hostile camp.