Chiba came in and was worried about whether to buy a computer, and he consulted with his high school classmate Pu Lingqing about it.

Xia Qianye: Have you bought a laptop?

Pu Lingqing: I bought it.

Xia Qianye: What do you buy a computer for?

Pu Lingqing: What?

Xia Qianye: Or what do you do online?

Pu Lingqing: Watching Harbin TV, listening to songs, chatting, and checking information.

Xia Qianye: Do you want to watch unfamiliar TV and listen to unfamiliar songs?

Pu Lingqing: Well, generally.

Xia Chiba: I usually go to an Internet café once a week to download cartoons.

Pu Lingqing: Well, we have almost bought all of our dormitories.

Xia Qianye: Well, in this case, my Internet fee is about five yuan each time, about 20 yuan a month, and sometimes it will be more, which may be about the same as the Internet fee after buying a computer, and I want to buy it mainly because of this.

Pu Lingqing: Then buy one, anyway, computers are not very expensive now.

Xia Qianye: Well, I'm afraid that in the future, there will be a lot less votes for poor students in the class.

Pu Lingqing: Will it affect this?

Xia Qianye: People in the class may think that you are not poor.

Pu Lingqing: We are almost all favors.

Xia Qianye: Actually, it's also true, fairness is only superficial, and we are about the same.

Lingqing Pu: Yes, so it doesn't matter if you buy a computer or not.

Xia Qianye: Well, thank you, I don't have to worry about this, in fact, I don't dare to buy it, what I'm most afraid of is this, listening to you say this, it shouldn't have much impact.

Pu Lingqing: It's okay.

Xia Qianye: I'll call my parents later.

Pu Lingqing: Yes.

Chiba received a light of salvation from this issue that he feared the most.

But the light was very faint, like a candle, and although it gave him light, it was extinguished by the wind. He turned on his self-blame mode again.

Chiba's self-blame mode: If I can control myself to only watch cartoons once a month, I won't have to buy a laptop. If I can only log in to QQ once a week, I can save a lot of time to examine myself.

Chiba's self-blame pattern: Maybe what you see is just the appearance, your parents borrowed enough money from relatives and put all * into your card at once. Do you know that every time your parents gently ask you if you have any money, they have very little left in their pockets? Did you know that you also have a younger brother who is studying there, and he is waiting for you to come and provide him with education in the future? Look at your grandfather, in order to save phone bills, every time he just said a few very important words, he asked if there was anything else? So it hung up. Think about your grandmother, every day at five o'clock in the morning to get up and eat a little leftovers, and walk five or six miles of mountain roads with a few people in the village to pick wild onions, wild onions have to be dried before they can be sold, and a pound is only a few cents. Maybe you're just looking at the world from your own perspective, or maybe you're only seeing a kingdom that you reflect in your heart. Or maybe your glasses with filters and the illusion you're in at the moment have left you with only one side of the story.

Chiba's self-blame mode: Think back to the comrades-in-arms who rushed to the front along the way, as well as the fallen cannon fodder, look at your original dream, you are no longer just yourself, you can't give up here, you represent your fallen comrades-in-arms, and represent all the people on your side. Now you are left, you must not fall, if you fall, your war will be lost!

Chiba's self-blame model is very strong, he always imposes responsibilities that do not belong to himself and then uses this to spur himself.

The hope I just saw from Pu Lingqing is like a rainbow after the rain, although it is colorful, but the sun is gone. After he examined himself like this, he was even more determined not to buy a notebook now. Not only that, but he also decided to spend three months building up an image of poverty to win sympathy after being admitted to graduate school, and then buy a computer.

He further lowered his monthly living expenses from the original 300 yuan a month to 275 yuan a month.

He didn't have what he needed to do instead of lowering his consumption, but how to make more money.