In the evening, Aunt Hu and Chu Ya went to the rooftop garden to enjoy the coolness.

Aunt Hu went to talk to other fellow villagers, but Chu Ya saw Guo Linhao in the pavilion being smoky.

She raised an eyebrow, she didn't really like the smell of smoke, and she didn't like secondhand smoke.

So, she just stopped and stood not far from the pavilion.

Seeing this, Guo Linhao quickly extinguished the cigarette in his hand, "Sister Ya, come and sit down." ”

"Cigarettes are not a good thing after all, you smoke less."

When Chu Ya saw his smoking gesture, he knew that he had been smoking for a long time, and he could be regarded as an old smoker.

"I know, it's just to relieve my boredom."

Guo Linhao smiled and took the initiative to change the topic, "Do you still have phantom limb sensation now?" ”

"Absolutely. Phantom limb sensation, let's not want to get rid of it in this life. ”

When Chu Ya said this, there was an indescribable sadness in her expression.

When she was hugging, she never felt how good it was to have healthy limbs.

When she became disabled with her amputation, she found that when she woke up in the middle of the night, she always imagined that she could turn back time.

In the past, when I was studying, I once read such a sentence: The body is skinny, and the parents who receive it dare not destroy it, and filial piety is the beginning.

At that time, Chu Ya only knew the meaning on the surface, but she didn't know the sadness behind it.

also because she suffered such a car accident, and suddenly she also had an understanding of this sentence.

The hair and skin of the body are received by our parents, and we must take good care of them so that they cannot be damaged, or worse, lost. The consequences of hurting ourselves are our own immeasurable sorrow and pain.

If something happens to you as a child, your parents who love you must be the most worried person in the world, and they will shed tears for you, but their tears are just unspeakable sadness.

Only by living well can people have the energy to do what they want to do. Do what you once fantasized about, but never realized.

Guo Linhao said suddenly: "After I had a car accident, the girl I was originally pursuing, she was my first love, and I retreated......"

"And then you give up on yourself? Give all your fiery side to the people who care about you? ”

Chu Ya smiled knowingly, and could understand him very well.

At this time, Guo Linhao was just smoking, he didn't really give up on himself, otherwise he wouldn't have come to wear a prosthetic. Right is just for a moment, there is no way to accept. And the existence of phantom limb sensation will always make them wake up in a dream, always thinking that their feet are still there. The taste of going from heaven to hell cannot be told to others.

If you don't have it, you won't have such a painful loss.

"I ...... Not worthy of her ......"

Guo Linhao's tone was inexplicably sad.

After Chu Ya heard it, she realized what he meant, "When you are able-bodied, you feel worthy of her." Now, you say that you are not worthy of her, then can I understand that you have low self-esteem. ”

“……”

Guo Linhao did not speak.

His silence has already given the answer.

After experiencing an accident and disability from a normal person, no matter how confident and sunny a person is, he will also have an inferior complex.

Even if you are a normal person, who can guarantee that you are 100% free of inferiority?

It's just that inferiority can only be conquered by oneself.

Chu Ya glanced at Guo Linhao deeply, and suddenly changed the topic, "If you graduate from high school, what do you want to study?" Or rather, what do you want to do. I majored in computing and application in middle school, and majored in accounting in college. ”

"I want to study animation design."

"That's good. There is also an animation city in Guangzhou, and Shenzhen is also developing well. The animation industry has strong development potential. ”

Guo Linhao asked casually, "What about you?" You shouldn't have a job right now, right? ”

"Well, I don't have a job, I'm going to write a novel, write and play."

"Writing a novel? You? ”

"What? Looks like hell. ”

"You told me that you used to work at the Postal Savings Department, which was in the Department of Finance, and you suddenly said that you were going to write a novel? This...... That's a bit of a big span, isn't it? ”

Chu Ya raised her eyebrows, "Well, it's really not related to my previous profession. However, who stipulates that anyone who writes a novel must be written by someone who has a literary background? ”

"Then come on! When you publish a book in the future, give me an autographed book! Guo Linhao smiled and wished her heartfelt blessings.

Chu Ya bowed her head gently, "Okay." If nothing else, I'll be leaving here the day after tomorrow. You have to practice hard and don't be lazy. ”

"You're gone so soon? What is your mobile phone number? Also, we haven't added QQ yet! ”

Guo Linhao was a little surprised, she had only been here for a few days, and she was going to leave so soon.

Chu Ya smiled slightly, "Come, you remember my mobile phone number, and my QQ." We can be contacted at any time when it is free. ”

"Okay."

Guo Linhao nodded again and again.

This night, Guo Linhao and Chu Ya talked a lot.

When Chu Ya returned to the room, it was already past ten o'clock in the evening.

She said to Aunt Hu: "Mom, you inform Auntie, and say that tomorrow night, let her bring Yan Xu over, and we will leave here early the day after tomorrow." Anyway, this prosthetic leg, we just need to let them outsource it tomorrow, and we should go back. ”

"Okay, I'll call her tomorrow morning."

Aunt Hu will understand.

After her daughter meets Yan Xu tomorrow, the relationship between them will be completely ended.

……

The next day, the weather was clear.

Chu Ya asked the technician to package the prosthetic leg, and when she got it, she only felt ugly!

If she hadn't seen the outer packaging of the Delin prosthesis, she would have thought that the prosthetic might be so ugly.

can be the same thing, if you have two pieces in your hand, there will inevitably be a comparison, and this comparison makes Chu Ya naturally dislike this. Not to mention that the outer packaging is ugly, the point is that it is difficult to walk.

She even recognized the sentence in her heart: Compare goods and lose them!

Although this is a free prosthetic, Chu Ya dislikes it for being ugly and dislikes it for being difficult to walk. To put it mildly, she is reluctant to lose it.

On the one hand, she is using it as a backup.

Second, it is the government's concern to support the disabled.

If the material of the knee joint can be used better, and the outer packaging can be better, it is estimated that it will be more acceptable to the disabled, instead of taking it home to seal the dust, but continue to use crutches.

Everything is settled, and you can go home the next day.

In the evening, Chu Ya had just finished dinner, but she saw Yan Mu and Yan Xu coming.

Yan's mother still brought a pot of hot soup over, when she looked at Chu Ya, her expression was a little complicated, and her hair was gray on both sides of her temples at this time, "I can't do much for you, I can only make some soup for you, don't dislike it." ”

"How can you dislike it? It's just that you bothered to make soup for me. ”

At this time, Chu Ya had already seen everything away. Therefore, she treated the smiling face that Yan's mother could unfold, just a smile, but it was polite and alienated.