Recently, his diary is rarely narrating, and large sections of self-theory and copying have begun to appear. We know that this is a sign of his extreme weakness in his heart, only people who are not confident enough and constantly doubt themselves will continue to obtain the courage to support them from the external environment to stand up, and only when faced with insoluble psychological contradictions will there be frequent self-arguments.

Yes, an extremely dark negative mental suggestion is emerging. That is, "I don't completely follow the teacher's method, and now I will definitely die, if I ......, then ......, I won't ......, I'm sorry for ......." As long as one question gets stuck a little, he thinks in that direction. Negative hints will produce panic, panic will increase the pressure, and there will be a problem of not being able to wait for the end of the exam to be relieved.

No matter how he comforted himself later, even if he knew that it was unscientific to listen to the teacher completely, many classmates did not fully listen to the teacher, and he couldn't get rid of this negative mental hint because he had to adapt to local conditions, vary from person to person, etc., just like a black Chiba, reminding him all the time, "I can't do it, I deserve it!" If you don't listen to the teacher, you're finished! ”

"The Chinese teacher told you not to touch anything visual, but you told yourself that you only watch 10 minutes of cartoons every day, just 10 minutes"

"The English teacher told you to write an essay first, but you felt that it was easier for you to do reading first"

"Chemistry Teacher ......"

He dug out at least a little bit from almost every teacher's words that he didn't exactly follow them.

It brought him to the brink of collapse.

English teachers often mention in class, "There is no mountain that cannot be climbed, there is no river that cannot be flowed, and there is no problem that cannot be solved".

He also found some theories to enrich himself, such as:

There is no transparent silk thread on the puppet's body, not a shadow that flickers and shortens in the skylight, I am me, and I don't need to be manipulated and commanded by others.

The biggest reason for a person's failure is that he never dares to fully trust his own ability, and even thinks that he will definitely fail.

Probably due to the bad influence of animations such as the Hokage, he is more middle and second, and often mentions "sealing", "unsealing", "awakening", "transformation", and "energy release" in his diary. It's like some of the words and words of the mad scientist Rentaro Okabe in the Gate of the Stone of Destiny, only he can understand.

Think of yourself as a piece of red-hot iron, vaporize the cold water that someone else has poured on you, and don't let it cool down.

Effort is the best way to respond to insults, and from the contempt of others, you can see your own insignificance.

All wise men are "fools". Only by losing no time in speaking and closing your mouth just right, can you protect yourself in the dealings with your boss.

There are 30 days left in the college entrance examination.

Intentionally planting flowers and flowers, unintentionally planting willows and willows into the shade, flowing water on the beach is not intentional, and the white clouds are unintentional.

Now he spends less time watching animations than 10 minutes a day to 5 minutes a day.

He set himself two goals, the realistic ones are:

Language 110, Mathematics 120, Foreign 120, Matter 100, 90, Sheng, 80, a total of 620 points

The Unreal Goal is 750 points.

Then add 20 points for ethnic minorities each.

He wrote down a list of seventeen people in their class who could communicate in Hmong, some were sixth-graders, some were junior high school students, and some were newcomers. He barely used Hmong to talk to his classmates, especially the five girls, and he forced himself to use Hmong when communicating with them. It's almost time to take the college entrance examination, so I realized this, maybe it's too late.

At the same time, he began to notice one of the girls, the representative of their Chinese class, Li Shilan, and silently observed.

There are 12 days left before the college entrance examination.