It was a rain, no, it was supposed to be a rainy season.

Every day, I get up, step on the cold floor with my bare feet, my eyes are half open, I open the light blue and beige curtains, I look out of the glass door, and then I look at the sky through the glass window, is it gray?

What I want in my heart is a piece of gray that I can't see in the distance......

In my impression, gray is the rainy season!

It's still a little cold, and there's a little humidity in the air. Bright, at this time, for me, is a superfluous luxury!

Counting the steps, like a walking corpse, he appeared on the top floor, raised his head, looked at the sky that was not bright enough, and felt so dazzling. The helpless smile is also a kind of ridicule, mocking himself for being afraid of the slightest light.

Looking at the gray sky expectantly, thinking, when, they will fall on my hair, my outstretched palms, and then wet the gray tiles under my feet, and finally, I can make an excuse.

Rain, did you hear what was in my heart, so you gathered all your friends as I wished, and jumped from the invisible clouds to the world naughtily, and, again and again, day after day.

You're not just wetting the ground, you're wetting my parched heart.

The room was so dark that I didn't have to run to a dusty place to practice, I didn't have to stand like a fool in the cold wind, I didn't have to do anything I didn't like. Write an essay, draw a picture at random, and listen to your favorite song while lying lazily in bed.

If you don't want to think about anything, you don't have to do anything. Because of the rain outside, it gradually became heavier and heavier, as if a rain could erase all my thoughts. Moreover, you can be a lazy cat at home in the open!

In the rainy season, I was like a duckling out of a storybook. It can't swim, but because of the sudden wind outside, a storm, and even, when the weather is clear, it also makes an excuse: the weather is finally clear, and it should have a good time! Missed the learning ability, and in the end it could only walk in a croaking manner.

Even if it's to make excuses, I'm not as calm as a duckling.

Every time I open my eyes, the gray I see makes me feel at ease for a while, however, then, I blame myself and start to hate myself, why do I reject one thing so much? Why can't you be happy to do something that makes others happy, even if you don't like it?

The day, after all, is clear, not only do I not even have the mood to play, but the long rainy season still makes me just feel in a trance, but it contains all my contradictions.

Now I know that I did something I didn't like, and it was done well, but it wasn't really bad!

Because I always knew that no one could stop me from doing what I wanted to do, but I was really sorry for what I didn't want to do! It's just that I made an exception, just for my mother's smile, I went to learn a driver's license.

Later, I thought about it, am I too easily led by other people's emotions? Isn't it okay for me to only do what I want to do, why do so-and-so for the sake of other people? If I am really such a person, I will be a failure!

The sense of self is too strong, however, he has become a coward, looking for high-sounding excuses for what he doesn't want to do, it is better to move forward bravely!

If I had let go of my strong consciousness at the beginning and kindly accepted something that was beneficial to me and happy to my family, I would not have had a dim and dark week!

It's also a lesson!