Chapter 150: Those Past 01
Lu Yao didn't care about saying that he liked others, just this sentence saved his heart and immediately opened it, and blood flowed all over his chest!
He choked up and said: "It's me who is stupid, I am cheap, you don't care if I am waiting for you to come back at home, and you don't need me to give you any birthday, so many people care about you and love you, and try their best to make you laugh, why send me one!" ”
His cynicism tightened Lu Yao's heart, and she cried and yelled at him: "Lu Junfeng, don't say these words again!" ”
But he didn't plan to do what she said, he looked at her coldly, "Ah Yao, why don't you want to listen to me say these words?" You don't want to listen to me, is it because Meng Zhichao is talking to you too much? ”
Lu Junfeng was already heartbroken by Lu Yao, and when he was hurt to the extreme, he actually had a sense of hatred!
He couldn't control his mouth and heart anymore, he was even more excited because of the painful expression on her face, because the pleasure he got from hurting her made his eyes red, "In addition to telling you that Xia Xianwen's family is poor and broken, and Dad is a rotten drunkard, what else did Meng Zhichao tell you?" Does that mean I'm with her? We didn't come home from school and went out on dates together, and we didn't come home in the middle of the night, and I hugged her and kissed her......"
Lu Yao covered her ears hard, she shook her head desperately with tears in her eyes, "Don't say it again, I don't understand what you're saying, I don't want to hear you say these things at all, I don't want to hear it!! ”
"You believe whatever Meng Zhichao says, but you don't even want to listen to what I say! Ah Yao, have you ever put me as a person and my heart in your heart? If you had, how would you believe what they said? What I have tied to you for so many years is everything I can give you, all I have! ”
The disgust and resistance she showed towards Xia Xianwen just now showed that she had completely believed this rumor, and her belief made him fall into endless pain and disappointment.
It turned out that Lu Yao had never really entered his heart, if she knew him well enough, she should have understood that he would never like anyone but her!
No one can replace her, and in this life, he is ready to live for her and die for her!
But she believed those ridiculous rumors so easily, she would rather trust others than take a good look at her own heart!
What he exchanged for so many years of love for was the sentence "You like Xia Xianwen so much"!
Gentma Irony!!
"These are all of your own volition, I have never taken the initiative to ask you for anything, you have also said that you don't care what I think, like me is your own business, these words are all promises you have made to me more than once, and why do you accuse me of not taking you to heart now...... You say one thing and do another, people like you don't deserve my liking at all! ”
Lu Yao learned from the pain, and a mocking smile appeared on his tear-stained face, "Oh, in this way, you and Xia Xianwen are really a good match, you should be together!" Lu Junfeng, you are really not wrong at all, you are different from us, you will never come to the same end in this life......"
"Ah Yao......" He was already unconscious in pain, and shouting the word "Ah Yao" seemed to use up the last bit of strength he had left.
She turned her back to him, her shoulders twitching with tears.
"If you don't want to believe me, if you ...... If you don't want me anymore, then I can only leave your world......"
When Lu Junfeng closed his eyes in despair, Lu Yao finally raised his head, she thought she had heard it wrong, she wanted to tell from his expression whether he was joking or sincere when he said that sentence just now.
But the surging tears had already blurred her vision, and her heart suddenly swelled up with panic, and she wanted to ask him what he meant by "leaving your world", and if he decided not to want her?
She felt the panic and fear of the sky falling, and she suddenly wanted to take back all the words she had just said, she could do what he said, make a wish to blow out the candles, and celebrate her birthday together like every year in the past!
She wondered if they could stop arguing, stop the cold war, and reconcile......
When Lu Yao was about to say something, there was a sudden knock on the door.
Lu Yun chose to knock on the door with the key.
When Lu Junfeng opened the door for him, he knew that Lu Yun had heard everything he said to Lu Yao just now, and he had been standing outside the door since they started arguing.
Lu Yun didn't change his shoes, walked straight to his daughter, and looked down at his daughter who was crying with tears on her face.
"Dad......" Lu Yao couldn't care about the fact that the matter between herself and Lu Junfeng had been known by her father, and what kind of shock she would be when she knew, she only felt endless sadness and grievances now.
"Ah Feng, you go back to the room first."
Lu Yun turned his back to Lu Junfeng, he couldn't see the expression on Lu Yun's face at this time, but his act of sending himself away made him feel strongly uneasy in his heart!
Lu Yao cried so sadly in front of him, as a father, he didn't feel sorry for her and comfort her, nor did he ask the reason, let alone scold the "white-eyed wolf" he raised for his daughter, he broke himself apart, what did he want to do to Lu Yao?
"Go back to your room." Lu Yun spoke again without hesitation, although it was still a polite tone, but his voice sank significantly, with a strength that could not be refused.
After Lu Junfeng returned to the room, Lu Yun and Lu Yao never changed their positions, and the two were still standing face to face in the living room.
Lu Yao cried very sadly, but Lu Yun, as a father who loved her, stood motionless in front of her, just watching her cry like a tearful person, and he even faced her with a expressionless and indifferent face.
Finally, after Lu Yao gradually stopped crying, Lu Yun spoke, "Have you cried enough?" When you've cried enough, come in with me. ”
Lu Yao looked at the back of his father walking into the room, and was a little stunned for a while, and he didn't know why, could it be that she was crying dazzlingly, Lu Yun's expression when he spoke to him just now, was it...... Abhor?
Lu Yun only turned on a desk lamp, although the lamp was quite bright, but the radiation of the light source was limited after all, and it could only shine around the desk, and this circle of light plunged the whole room into deeper darkness.
When Lu Yao pushed the door open and entered, he was sitting on the desk, his eyes stunned when he fell on a photo on the desk.
This is a family photo, they just bought this house in S City that year, and when the family was working together to paint the wall, they took such a photo under the down-and-out image of each of them covered in paint.
Lu Yao thought that this photo had been put away by Lu Yun like other relics about her mother.
It was the first time she had seen him look at a picture of her mother.
He once took away all the photos of her mother in her hand, and his explanation was that he was afraid that she would touch the scene, and he thought that the endless cycle of longing would affect her life, and he hoped that she could slowly let go of her mother's thoughts for her good.
But it turned out that he didn't put this photo away, maybe he still took it out from time to time, thinking about the person in the photo while looking at it.
When Lu Yao knew that his father was missing his deceased wife, he had the same panic as Lu Junfeng just now.
Lu Yao's unknown panic comes from why his father remembered his deceased wife when he had an emotional dispute between his daughter and his adopted son.
What's the connection?
For some reason in her mind, something suddenly popped up that Lu Junfeng had inadvertently said to herself, and he said-
Yao, what if your mother's death has nothing to do with me?
"They all say you look like your mother, and when you laugh, your eyes are like a pair of beautiful crescent moons. You are cold and arrogant, but you inadvertently exude the innocence and beauty of a little girl, so you have become the person that many boys secretly treasure in their hearts, they like you, but they dare not come closer, and they follow you unrelentingly in their gains and losses. ”
In his father's words, Lu Yao actually heard a certain familiar opinion, which was the tone of "you and us" that Lu Junfeng denounced to her with burning words!
Lu Yao had the urge to turn around and run out of this room, but she knew that what Lu Yun would tell her today was probably something more shocking than "you and us"!
Lu Yun turned around and looked at his daughter who was standing in the room, in a dim light because there was no light.
His eyebrows couldn't help but bend down, and he softened his voice and said to her: "Yaoyao, but I have always felt that you are not like her at all except for your eyes, you are more like a member of our Lu family, and you do not belong to the Yin family." You, like me, are all from S City, living in an ordinary family, and have a heart that is not shocked by honor and disgrace. Your overly realistic approach to reality and your mean attitude towards certain things are really similar to me, and I always thought you weren't like your mother......"
"My mom...... My mom was like that...... people? Lu Yao couldn't believe what Lu Yun said, why did he want to try his best to clear the connection between his daughter and his wife, and feel glad that she was "not like" her mother and complacent?
In his mind, what kind of person is her mother?!
"Yes, a person like your mother," he didn't give her any chance to escape, his eyes firmly locked on Lu Yao's shocked and helpless face, and he repeated to her word by word, "A person who tramples on other people's feelings for her at will, plays with a person's whole life in applause, and looks down on you in his heart while falsely thinking that the snake has coaxed you to death......"
"Daddy, you...... Do you even know what you're talking about? Lu Yao couldn't listen to a word anymore, her whole body was trembling, but she still interrupted her father without hesitation.