I slowly raised my head and looked at Qiao Chenfeng, yes, it was time for him to do what he had to do.

He had said before that he wanted to go to the UK to continue his studies, and of course I knew that he was reluctant to stay because of me.

Now that I have become Mrs. Shi, he should also know that there is no need to waste time on me, I have delayed him for many years, and now it seems that he finally sees it.

So I smiled and said: "Chenfeng, you are finally willing to plan for yourself, I know that you are going to the UK to study, maybe you will meet the woman you like in your life in a different environment, and when you come back, you will find that I He Anning This woman is really nothing good, right." ”

He lowered his head and nodded sullenly: "I thought I wouldn't see you before I left, tomorrow's plane, go to the UK for a year, your sister I have already handed over to other doctors in the heart surgery, I believe you are the wife of the major shareholder of this hospital, they will not snub He Xinyan, you don't have to worry." ”

I really don't know what way I should use to express my gratitude to Qiao Chenfeng for so many years, because I found that I couldn't express my friendship with him by saying anything.

I had no choice but to nod my head again and again, and finally found that many words were like huge stones in my throat, and in the end I only replied: "You have taken care of my sister for so long, thank you, Chenfeng." ”

He still didn't want to look at me, I don't know if he didn't dare to look at me, his head kept tilting to the other side, but when he turned around, I saw that his eyes were red.

When I made eye contact with him, I could only smile at him, and I couldn't give anything else.

Qiao Chenfeng put his hands in his pockets, stood up and let out a long sigh, frowning and asking me: "This marriage, are you because you love him?" ”

I also want to ask myself this question, do I love him?

Yes, it may not be very deep, but I am sure that I love him, and I already love him more and more deeply at this moment, otherwise I would not be so madly jealous of another woman.

Immediately, I nodded affirmatively and responded to Qiao Chenfeng: "Yes, I not only love him, but I can't extricate myself on the road of loving him deeply." ”

……

I left Qiao Chenfeng to sit alone in the corridor, and when I turned around and entered the medical technology building through the side door, Gu Wanwan was leaning against the door frame, looking at me meaningfully.

"How is it, ma'am, you finally go to work." Gu Wanwan always looks ridiculous when she sees me.

I walked over briskly and put my arm around her: "So you know, too." ”

"He Anning, you are married to Shi Xiangnan, what a focal point of a character, who can not know, on TV, on mobile phones, the news headlines everywhere are so hot that they can't be more exciting news of the times, I haven't seen you for more than half a month, goodbye you are a wife again, please give your best friend an explanation."

I told her all the details of what had happened, and she looked at me with wide eyes and an expression of disbelief: "What? Is there anyone in the world who looks exactly the same? ”

"I haven't seen it, it's just that countless people have instilled in me all day yesterday that there was such a woman before."

"Even if it's a yarn, even if this woman is standing in front of you now, you can straighten your back, you are the official Mrs. Shi, if you love Shi Xiangnan, let him fall in love with you while he is still Mrs. Shi!" Gu Wanwan looked quite relaxed when she spoke.

I frowned and looked at her as if the sky was falling: "Eldest sister, what you said is so light, I love him, but I think I can't make a man who loves other women fall in love with me." ”

Gu Wanwan pushed me to stand in front of the mirror in the bathroom, looking like she hated iron but not steel: "Look at yourself yourself, what's wrong?" Don't say you're tall, what's the matter, you're still a modern independent woman, can you be confident? Since he looks like the woman he likes when he is in the south, take advantage of this to make him fall in love with a different you, and it is best to make him unable to extricate himself. ”

Gu Wanwan said so firmly, as if I could really make Shi Xiangnan fall in love with me.

Actually, I never thought about whether Shi Xiangnan would fall in love with me, he asked me to be Mrs. Shi, it must be that I have the value of use, at best, both sides are mutually beneficial, and I try to help him get everything he wants, and he can help me as much as possible.

"Do you still want to divorce after both parties have used it? He Anning, you open your eyes and wake up, since you love him, take the initiative to attack, it's not difficult. Gu Wanwan couldn't stand my entanglement and procrastination anymore, and pulled my body to shake non-stop.

What she said also makes sense, in addition to using each other to marry him, I also have selfish intentions, of course, because I love him and want to be with him, so Wanwan's words have caused a ripple in my heart.

I found that Gu Wanwan will always be the one who can pierce the window paper.

So I looked at myself in the mirror and asked helplessly: "I don't know what kind of emotion he has for me now, is he a friend?" Are teammates who take advantage of each other? Or is it a stand-in? Let him fall in love with me, at least the other party has a little different emotion for me, so that I can have the motivation to take the initiative. ”

"He Anning, I have obeyed you, why are you suddenly not open to feelings? Also, anyone who estimates that they will be somewhat confused when facing the person they love. ”

She shook her head and continued, "Actually, you can test him and see if you have some weight in his heart. ”

I looked at her puzzled: "Let's hear it, what can I do?" ”

Gu Wanwan is really an emotional expert, I just threw this question, she looked at me indifferently and hooked the corners of her lips: "Hurt yourself." ”

"No, absolutely not, how can this be." I rejected Gu Wanwan in one bite.

How could I do such a thing, of course, not because I was afraid of pain, but this kind of "doing" is the most unbearable drama I usually can't watch.

I don't want to take risks like that, especially with my sister's life to gamble on my own happiness.

Gu Wanwan raised her eyebrows and looked at me: "I didn't let you do something to hurt yourself now, your foot was injured before, including you told me that he was kidnapped and rescued, are there any details that you can find out?" ”

I tried hard to recall those details, but I found that I couldn't find that point, maybe Shi Xiangnan really didn't have any special feelings for me, maybe he was really good at disguise, and I couldn't catch the slightest signal.

I just sighed and shook my head.

"Well, maybe it's not realistic to recall these things now, after all, no one can capture the past moments in memories, if you don't want to be a little pretentious by him, then wait until the next time you get hurt to see what his attitude is."

"Gu Wanwan... You... Curse me to hurt. ”

"Don't you want to? Does he have feelings for you now, has he started to burn in your heart like a small flame? ”

Gu Wanwan looked at her watch, gently raised my head, and pinched my face: "Okay, Mrs. Shi, if I don't have an operation right now, otherwise I will definitely drag you directly to the Peninsula Hotel for a self-help meal, you are now the wife of the richest man in Shanghai, and you will not give up if you don't black." She winked at me and squirmed away.

I looked at the back of Gu Wanwan leaving and smiled silently.

I don't know where I got the luck to have such good friends in my life.

She always thinks about me, makes me feel ashamed of her, she has always taken care of me like a sister, afraid that I will be hurt, but I always enjoy all this she gives with peace of mind, thinking of this, my eyes are a little blurred.

Really, I don't know when I started to become emotional, a little thing can make me feel moved, if Gu Wanwan stood in front of me at this time and saw me like this, she would definitely be able to laugh.

Ever since Gu Wanwan told me this, it was like a seed had been sown in my heart, and it gradually began to take root in my heart.

I really started to care about Shi Xiangnan's attitude towards me, people are like this, the more I don't think about it, but the more crazy thoughts breed.

……

I was quiet in my office for a while before I got up and went back to the Mid-Levels Villa.

I looked at my watch, it was already ten o'clock in the evening, and I hadn't received a call from Shi Xiangnan at this time, and probably he hadn't gone back either.

What was he doing on this day?

Is it accompanying Qin Yanran?

Just now I wanted to know what kind of attitude I had in his heart, but at this moment, I didn't go home in the middle of the night, and no one asked, what kind of attitude should be clear at a glance.

I drove the car down the neon avenue of Shanghai, and I suddenly smiled helplessly when I thought of some unrealistic ideas about this day.

I looked up and pulled down the rearview mirror, and saw in the mirror that my lips were red and my teeth were white and my face was beautiful, and the red eyeshadow set off the delicate eyes. ”

I drove the car all the way into the mid-level villa, there was no light, it was dark, there was no popularity, as if I had returned to the scene after I married Xiang Hao, déjà vu.

I don't know how long I have to be alone on such a day, I felt the darkness all the way into the bedroom, and the moment I turned on the light, I clearly saw the water cup and pills on the bedside table, and I was immediately surprised that I couldn't open my mouth.

I rub, did I forget to take the medicine again?

It's been a big day, thinking that I am now in the safe period, and it is within 72 hours, there should be nothing wrong, but fortunately, I remembered, I immediately picked up the water cup and took the medicine in one go.

In this way, I lay alone on the two-meter-wide bed, looked at the stars outside, and fell asleep.

And that night, Shi Xiangnan didn't come back, and there was no phone call, and I didn't ask about it.

I seem to have become accustomed to not interfering in anyone's life, I know exactly what Shi Xiangnan hates, and the best state for me and him is to leave a way out for ourselves.

But is there a way out for me?

Where is my retreat?