The next day, when I woke up, the whole person was confused, insomnia has been bothering me for three years, or even earlier, but I have not been able to go to the root, so this time if I return to Shanghai, I promised myself to see a psychiatrist and face up to my current situation.

When I woke up, I didn't see Shi Xiangnan, and I looked up and down the whole room back and forth, but there was no sign of him.

Even when I ran out and ran around and didn't see him, I immediately had a bad feeling in my heart that he had abandoned me and abandoned such an imperfect me.

Obviously, he swore last night that he would take me home, but after a sleep, he turned around and disappeared.

I even began to suspect that he was just playing tricks on me this time, to see if I was having a hard time.

He's a bad guy who tricked me into bed, but left me behind, and if I meet him again in the future, no matter how much rhetoric I have, I won't let him go.

When I went back, I sat on the big bed in a daze, looking at how warm the bed had been before, but how ironic it was now.

I tore off the sheets in hatred, and I couldn't stand the anger anymore.

The fire in his heart seemed to be unable to contain and he was about to jump out, and he almost turned around and smashed everything in the room that could be dropped.

He yelled while throwing me: "Shi Xiangnan, you big liar, you have deceived my trust in you, deceived my expectations of you in the past three years, why do you want to do this to me." ”

When the whole house was almost broken, I ran downstairs again and took out the things in the living room and even the kitchen and smashed them.

No one could understand my feelings, I thought I was crazy, I must have been crazy to do something like this.

When everything was gone, and there was nothing to fall, I slowly slid down against the couch.

I buried my face in my lap and began to cry uncontrollably, why did I give hope last night, but now I have cut off this hope, and even let me see the despair in my eyes.

I started tugging at my hair constantly, trying to get a little bit of vent by hurting myself.

But the more I squeezed, the more it hurt, the more it hurt, the more it hurt, and the cycle went on and on, and I felt like I was stuck in an extreme cycle and couldn't get out.

But there is indeed a sober place in my heart, and it reminds me all the time, He Anning, don't torture yourself anymore, just treat it as if the time has never been to the south.

Listening to this voice, it seems that everything yesterday is like a dream, and it seems that there is a kind of inner demon that keeps pestering me, and I can't breathe.

So far, I always feel that Shi Xiangnan owes me a lot, and it is this kind of inner demon that makes me so extreme now.

I cried for a long time, and when I looked up, I saw a man walking towards the villa with the first rays of the morning sun on his head.

I looked at this man in a trance, thinking to myself, isn't it already gone?

But I don't want to think about it anymore, I stand up and ignore what it looks like, messy or crazy.

The only thought I have now is to catch this man, and I don't let go, and I don't let go of death.

So I shook off the clutter around me, didn't even have time to put on my shoes, and ran almost all the way barefoot, hugging him before he could react.

He was obviously stunned, but I didn't care, I still hugged it tightly.

Rao was a second ago I hated him for abandoning me, but when I saw him this second, I still hugged him tighter... tighter.

Shi Xiangnan stretched out his arms to hug me, comforting me like comforting an injured kitten and puppy.

"I woke up and didn't see you, I searched everywhere and couldn't find it, and even smashed a lot of things like crazy, I thought you gave up such an imperfect me, I'm so scared." I didn't wait for him to ask me what was wrong, I spoke up before him.

Shi Xiangnan listened to my words and hugged me tighter, as if he wanted to melt me into his body.

"I'm sorry, it's my fault, there won't be anything like this in the future, I promise you'll wake up and see me by your side in the future."

His voice was still so dull, so deep that it was so deep that people liked it.

I cried even more violently on his shoulder, don't look at me for the past three years, I have lived quite happily and strongly on this island alone, but I am a woman after all, I have my weaknesses.

Needless to say, Shi Xiangnan is naturally my weakness.

I don't know where I got the courage to raise my head and bite his lip on the initiative, just like he was last night.

He didn't care that there was another person standing there beside him.

I don't think I'm embarrassed, probably the person who felt embarrassed had already turned around and walked into the villa.

I couldn't care about the other person anymore, I just cared about the man in front of me, and I took the initiative to climb his neck and kiss him until I was about to suffocate.

I have never been so proactive, especially in the past three years, I have been so autistic, and I can kiss him so fearlessly, you can imagine how determined I am to him.

Shi Xiangnan was also a little stunned by my initiative, and it wasn't until my kiss was dry that he turned his mind in exchange for the initiative, and finally we kissed each other all over the body without strength before stopping.

It wasn't until I got off him that I found out that the man who was standing in the villa was Fu Chen.

He stood in the room and looked at us embarrassedly, then turned his head and said apologetically: "I always went to the beach to pick me up just now, but I was not good, I didn't know how to go when I got off the helicopter, and I didn't find it for a long time, so I called Mr. Shi, and let Mrs. Shi always leave when you misunderstood." ”

I was a little embarrassed when he said this, so I simply pulled the corners of my mouth: "Why are you here?" ”

"Mr. Shi ordered me to help you pack up your things and take you home yesterday, Mrs. You have been wronged in the past three years, but Mr. Shi is not happy, how long you have been gone, how long has he waited, please don't blame Mr. Shi."

I looked at Fu Chen and really sighed.

It's good to have such a caring person by Shi Xiangnan's side, who has been with him for so many years, and at least he can feel warm when I'm not there.

Hearing his words, I shivered a little, and then nodded.

Actually, I didn't have anything to pack, and when I was thrown to this island, I started from scratch, so how I got here, I planned to go, and I didn't take anything with me, because I didn't have any nostalgia for this place.

So I turned my head to lean on Shi Xiangnan and said in a low voice, "Let's go, let's go now." ”

When the helicopter took off, I didn't feel how excited I was, and I didn't feel much about leaving the island.

It wasn't until the helicopter landed on the rooftop of the hotel in Haicheng and watched the cars in the city that I felt like I was in a different world, and I finally returned to the city.

We didn't even stop too much in Haicheng, Fu Chen booked the nearest flight, and an hour later, Shi Xiangnan took me on a flight back to Shanghai.

On the plane, I have been in a bad mood, probably because I am not used to flying, and I always feel that the movement of the plane makes me extremely upset.

Even though Shi Xiangnan gave me a piece of stability, my mental state was not very good, my brain was groggy when I fell asleep, and even after waking up, the whole person was in a very anxious state.

It just so happened that the flight attendant was handing out lunch to the passengers, and I asked the flight attendant directly for a cup of strong black coffee.

As a result, I heard the man next to him say to the flight attendant very calmly: "Thank you for not coffee, please replace the coffee with a cup of hot milk." ”

I looked at him with some apprehension: "I can't sleep well, but my mind is muddy, maybe it would be better to have some coffee." ”

His eyes showed a sense of distress, he held my hand, and spoke to me gently: "Don't drink this kind of thing if you have insomnia, drink some hot milk, stabilize your mood, get home and take a hot bath, I have arranged for a doctor, I'll take you to the doctor when you're rested." ”

His palms were warm, and as I held my cold fingers, I realized how much I needed the warmth of the man in front of me.

……

I don't know how long I slept, but the plane finally landed at Shanghai International Airport.

The moment I walked out of the gate, the oncoming cold air made me shiver unconsciously.

Shi Xiangnan took out a long coat from the suitcase, he was like a father helping his daughter dress, intimate and meticulous.

I looked into his inky eyes, which seemed to be full of pampering with each glance, and then took me by the hand and walked out of the airport.

I don't seem to be able to adapt to the weather in Shanghai, I haven't experienced such a cold and hard wind for a long time, after all, the temperature on the fishing island is like spring all year round, so I keep shivering.

Seeing this, Shi Xiangnan picked me up, I looked at him in surprise, but he smiled indifferently: "Wrap your arms around my neck, so that it can be warmer." ”

His steps were very steady, until an old driver in the parking lot ran over to take the luggage in Fu Chen's hand and nodded to the south, I realized that this was the old driver of the Shi family.

I should still remember the way home, Shi Xiangnan asked Fu Chen to leave first, and then the old driver drove us back.

Now that I really set foot in this city again, the city that gave me so many nightmares, and now that I am back, looking at this situation that has barely changed, I really hope that he and I can go all the way smoothly and without any obstacles.

When the car was halfway down, I suddenly grabbed Shi Xiangnan's hand and couldn't help but ask him, "Mia, what is Mia doing now?" ”

He looked at his watch and replied to me: "I'm in class now, Fu Chen will pick her up in a while." ”

"But I really want to see her now, for three years, I have been imagining what my daughter has become, whether she will remember me, the moment I got off the plane, my heart thought even more." I expressed my thoughts aggrievedly.

Shi Xiangnan did not object, but hugged me into his arms, and then ordered the old driver to take me in the direction of Mia's school.

My heart was beating wildly again, and I even rubbed my hands together, not knowing what it would be like when we met again.

When children are young, they will forget people and things very quickly, and I am worried that after three years, Mia will be unfamiliar to me.

Probably seeing my panic, he put a deep kiss on my forehead, and then whispered to me, "Don't worry, Mia hasn't forgotten you." ”