is obviously the person I want to see the most, and the words I want to hear the most, but why do I hesitate and hesitate so much?

I think it's probably because my love for Shi Xiangnan is a little relenting, I'm afraid, I'm afraid that there will be any variables in the love between us, even if I know that Shi Heyang is dead, I'm a little afraid.

I pushed open the door and walked quickly in the direction of the villa.

When he left, he didn't forget to hug his arms tightly, and even grabbed them tightly, and two deep red marks appeared on his arms.

I thought maybe my anxiety was back and I wanted to pick up something and smash it, but I caught a glimpse of a figure following behind, so I had to press it down.

But the nails had sunk deep into the flesh, and although there was an uncontrollable pain in my body, it was not as bad as my heartache.

Just as I walked to the door of the villa and was about to open the door to enter, the person behind me walked up quickly, stretched out his arm and encircled me in his arms, and I could feel his body trembling slightly.

Although after three years, I was a little repulsed by the proximity of his body, but compared to my stiffness, he seemed much more natural.

Presumably, women have been indispensable in the past three years, otherwise how can it be so natural.

I was about to push him away, when I heard his voice pass through my ears, and a sentence came: "It's my fault, I should have taken you away a long time ago, even if you are dissatisfied and unwilling, I hope you go back with me, I won't resist how you want to take revenge on me." ”

His words seemed to see me through, and after only seeing this for a while, he already knew my psychologically distorted revenge mentality.

"You know what I think?" I looked up and looked at him with tears in my eyes.

He has always been smart, he can guess my thoughts in a short time, he must know me very well and know me very well, and he knows me as a person.

So I don't want to deny anything in front of him either.

Do you want to go back?

It's been my main choice now, he hugs me, but my hands are still hanging in the air and I don't know where to put them.

"If you don't come with me, I'll stay with you, I've already arranged it over there, the company has someone to take care of it, and I don't need to come forward, I have expected this result this time, so I'm also ready to stay here with you for a long time, and I hope you can give me a chance to stay with you for a long time, and also give yourself a chance to take revenge on me."

His tone was flat, but his eyes were particularly determined.

I thought there was no reason why I didn't agree to him, so I gently stroked his back: "For me, are these difficulties that have been encountered all these years worth it?" ”

He let go of me gently, gently stroked my broken hair with his hand, and asked me in a dull voice that almost sank to the bottom: "I should ask you this, have you ever suffered so much to love me?" ”

I didn't dare to look at him, and it was false to say that I didn't hate, but because I loved him to the extreme, my hatred for him caused me to want revenge.

So I lowered my head, put my head against his chest and said slowly: "It's dark, it's not safe to fly back, I'll go back with you at dawn tomorrow." ”

"Good!" He took me in his arms, tighter.

And his body trembled even more.

After a long time, I gently pushed him away, and he grabbed my hand very tightly, and I held him with my backhand, and led him slowly on the island.

He was waiting for me, really waiting for me, I thought I was forgotten in the corner by him, but I didn't think that he had already seen me as the most important person in his life.

When I walked around the perimeter of the villa, Shi Xiangnan tried to kiss me again and again, but I was asked to find all kinds of excuses to pretend to move away.

As a result, when I returned to the villa, as soon as I entered the house, I had no way to hide, and was directly stopped by the man behind me against the wall.

The sound of his heavy breathing was heavy and heavy in my ears, and my heart was beating out of rhythm.

Shi Xiangnan didn't let me go this time, grabbed my hands against the wall, and kissed my lips fiercely, so that I didn't have the ability to resist at all.

I was so desperate that I was about to put my hand down and put it further into my clothes, but I held him hard.

"When you go south, you ......"

He didn't give me a chance to speak, he just picked me up and walked towards the stairs.

I began to struggle, and although I knew that my strength was nothing compared to his, I still had some resistance.

Probably my resistance to him made him a little impatient, and he directly changed from holding to carrying.

My head swelled all of a sudden, and my face swollen and patted his back: "Shi Xiangnan, you let me down, don't bully people as soon as you appear, can't you have something else to do when you see me?" ”

But he ignored my resistance, entered a bedroom on the second floor in three steps and two steps, threw me directly on the big bed, and then pressed his heavy body down, leaned on me and whispered in my ear: "There is not a day in the past three years that I don't miss you, I think you are about to go crazy, and when I see you again, I finally can't help my heart and body, and I can't wait to completely melt you into my body and my heart, don't refuse me anymore." ”

Listening to his words, my body has already become soft, I still can't be cold and hard from the beginning to the end, and finally emotion prevails over reason, and he is for me, I can't be indifferent, and I can't not be unmoved.

I could feel his heartbeat beating so badly, even before, the two of us were not as honest with each other as we did this time.

I stretched out my hand and took the initiative to hug him and wanted to cater to him, but his body froze suddenly, and then raised his head buried in my chest to look at me and said, "Although it has been three years, although you have a grudge against me, you still love me, don't you?" ”

I thought that the past three years had already settled my impetuous heart, but I didn't expect that when I met Xiangnan, all the steel turned into nothing in front of him.

After a long time, I finally said to him with a little choked up: "I have never forgotten you, I admit that I still love you, but I also hated you, because I knew you to make my life so unbearable, and even thought about seeing you again, I wanted to take revenge on you, but I ......"

Shi Xiangnan suddenly stretched out his hand to cover my mouth, buried his head in my neck, and said to me in a slightly hoarse voice: "Don't say anything, there will be no more obstacles and tribulations between us, and the road will be smooth in the future." ”

After saying that, he didn't care about anything and began to pull my clothes one by one.

Xu hadn't done anything like this for a long time, and I was a little shy, so I was shy at first, but then I couldn't wait, which seemed to show how different I was.

Anyway, I couldn't refuse the enthusiasm of this man who was actually thirty-six or seventeen years old, but seemed to be thirty, and finally let him succeed with me.

Although I'm a little annoyed that I'm too impulsive, but there's no need to struggle with him after thinking about it, I've promised to go back with him, and we haven't divorced after remarrying before, we're still husband and wife, so that's it. The behavior of the bed is also normal, so he simply no longer clings to it, but acquiesces to such behavior.

And this time Shi Xiangnan worked harder than the last night we remarried together, so that my whole person finally lost half of my strength.

Although my body was also happy and satisfied, I still kept scolding him in my heart, and he seemed to keep tearing me down, making my whole body ache.

Eventually, when he fell silent, he took me in his arms and let me fall asleep in his broad arms.

However, I have anxiety disorder, and the resulting insomnia still afflicts me in the middle of the night.

I could only get up in the middle of the night and stand in front of the window in the dark and look out at the night.

After standing for a long time, suddenly someone behind me put a dress on me, and I didn't have to think about it to know who it was.

He hugged me from behind, breathing evenly in my ear.

"Why are you having insomnia again?"

Shi Xiangnan knows me, he knows me better than anyone else, and my every move seems to have never escaped his eyes.

I replied slowly, "Talk to me, no one has been able to talk to me for the past three years, most of the time I'm like a psychopath, talking to myself." ”

He rubbed his stubble against my neck and replied, "Okay, I'll be with you." ”

"Are you sure you really want me to come back to you? It's been three years, maybe I'm not the first me you knew, I have encountered so many hardships and ups and downs, I have experienced the most difficult torment in my heart, although I have survived, but I want to tell you frankly, I may have predicted that I have a mental illness, it may be difficult to cure, and living with me like this, you may have to endure more torment in the future. ”

After listening to my words, Shi Xiangnan put his arm around me and tightened it, but did not speak, and I did not get an answer from him.

I laughed at myself a little, but it's understandable to think about it, no one wants the people around them to have serious mental illness, this is a mental problem, after all, it's a pillow person, what a dangerous thing.

If it were me, I wouldn't be so happy to give an answer.

So I closed my eyes and was about to break out of his arms, but he didn't let go, and let me tighten into his arms.

Just when I thought he couldn't accept me like this, Shi Xiangnan's voice finally sounded at this time: "No matter what kind of you are, I won't let go, I imagined any possibility before I came, but I never thought of letting you go again, so I will find you the best psychiatrist to cure your heart disease." ”

Well, he really speaks, and he can capture the hearts of others.

I had no choice but to snuggle into his arms and nodded: "Okay, I believe your words, as long as it is what you say, I will believe it unconditionally." ”

When I was lying in his arms, my heart suddenly became very calm, and I had not been calm for a long time, just like when I first came here, and my impetuous heart slowly precipitated.

Whether it's my heart disease or my love, I have to face it well, and I don't want to escape all my problems from now on.