Once, I thought that the essence of love was very simple, that is, you love me, I love you, and then everyone was happy and happy together.

Therefore, on many nights when I have a little leisure, when I am bored and watching TV at home, I will have an abnormal incomprehension of certain plots, such as why the heroine obviously loves this, but chooses that one for one reason or another, causing a huge pain for a pair who really love each other.

At that time, I always thought in my heart, why not choose the person I love directly under pressure? If it were me, I'd ......

What can I do? And today, I finally realized this mood, people are not plants and trees, who can be ruthless. In front of many realities, in front of many feelings, one's love is not the biggest. Those feelings of emotion or guilt will also take root in the heart, making people fall into a moral dilemma.

When I was young, I always thought that I could control the whole world, at least control everything about myself.

Now I realize that I am not great at all, not only can I not give myself the master, but I also can't redeem anyone.

I, Shen Jingyun, Helian Cheng.

I couldn't resist hugging Helian Cheng tightly, and I could still feel the warm temperature of the blood flowing from his neck, and Helian Cheng's consciousness was a little blurry, just pulling my sleeve tightly.

I looked at Wei Mushroom helplessly but nervously.

Wei Mushroom is still young, this kind of emotional entanglement between adults is definitely not something she can sort out, not to mention the messy situation now, she looked at me, a little unbearable, swallowed a mouthful of saliva with difficulty, and then said to me: "Sister, I have no choice." This is a technique that Lord Helian sealed for him in order to save Helian Cheng's life. The Helian family originally used the ......"

"Mushrooms, to the point, okay? I can't listen to that much right now. Helian Cheng began to twitch in my arms, I could feel a cold force hitting his body one by one, but it was temporarily suppressed by a warm energy, but the warm energy became weaker and weaker each time, I was in a hurry, there was really no way to listen to so many causes and consequences.

"The point is, sister, the pill I fed Helian Cheng just now can only delay him temporarily, and he can live a little longer. I couldn't save him, and no one here could save him. The poison is so powerful that I felt it just now. If you want to save him, unless you are a person from a Buddhist sect, or an ancestor-level person. Wei Mushroom didn't dare to be verbose at this time, and directly told me the result.

"Then I'll take him to my grandfather now." I immediately saw hope and tried hard to pick up Helian Cheng. What I can do, I'm a cultivator, and my strength is greater than that of ordinary people, and I put Helian Cheng on my back, and I'm going to rush outside.

"Sister!" Wei Mushroom couldn't bear to call me, I turned around, and looked at Wei Mushroom with impatience and anxiety in my eyes.

Wei Mushroom looked sad, shook his head at me again, and said, "Sister, it's useless." Fifth grandfather, he is not good at healing. Moreover, my pill can save Helian Cheng's life for ten minutes at most, and he will be awake for a while, no more than six or seven minutes. I know a bit about Xuanhuang techniques, and this judgment is correct. Why don't you take advantage of this time to ask Helian Cheng what he has to say and what he wants......"

Wei Mushroom's words were like the most ruthless sentences, taking away the temperature of my body little by little, until my whole body was cold.

If Helian Cheng dies, I will forever fall into a purgatory of guilt.

And I found that some people, even if you don't have love for him, have feelings that are not lighter than love, and you are willing to pay all the price and wish him live.

Helian Cheng is such a person to me, I can give him everything, but I can't give love, but it doesn't mean that his weight is lighter than his lover. But why did he ask me if I wanted love?

My soul was about to be torn apart by this tangled feeling, but now, in front of me was an even more cruel problem, and Wei Mushroom seemed to have pronounced his death sentence.

I stood there, carrying Helian Cheng on my back, as if I was standing at the peak of the most desperate, unable to be saved, let alone redeemed.

And at this time, Helian Cheng's voice came from his ears, very weak: "Xiaoshuang, let's go over there." ”

I looked up, tears rolling down my cheeks, Helian Cheng said that there was a pond into the village, and there was a sparse forest next to the pond.

I barely thought about it, and ran towards that side quickly with Helian Cheng on my back, although I am a cultivator, but in the end it is a woman, this speed almost squeezes all my strength, but I don't feel tired, all I think about in my heart is now, Helian Cheng has to agree to any request, I don't want his life at the last moment, leaving any regrets.

I ran, and Helian Cheng's laughter came from behind me: "Xiaoshuang, where are you going to run behind me, it's good here." ”

His voice was weak, but he spoke coherently. But as Wei Mushroom said, does he only have the last six or seven minutes of his life left to be sober? I looked up, I had already run to this grove, and I was too sad to notice it.

"Let me down, I know I'm going to hang up, and in the last moments, I just want to be alone with the two of you." Helian Cheng said.

I put down Helian Cheng and asked him to lean against a tree as comfortably as possible, I didn't know what to say, I grabbed Helian Cheng's hand, and I could only cry loudly.

Helian Cheng's hand is not as warm as before, some are just cold, this time is clearly sad enough, but I still think of countless Helian Cheng's goodness, my acquaintance with him...... We don't get along much, but how can he bring me warmth, support to helpless me, or even save me every time he appears?

The more I thought about it, the more sad I became, I felt that even if Helian Cheng was alive, everything he owed him would not be able to be repaid, and if he died, what would I do?

"Ahem......" Helian Cheng squeezed my hand and coughed, and when I looked up, I found that his face was getting more and more white, and a large mouthful of blood spurted out with his cough, hanging on the corner of his mouth.

I cried helplessly, reaching out to wipe his blood, but I couldn't wipe it clean!

Helian Cheng! Every time you appear, you are like a "holy father", you seem to only look at me with a smile every time, give me support, give me strength, tell me that there is you no matter what, so what do you mean at this time, you come to help me, save me? Are you taking revenge?

The more I thought about it, the more sad I became, the more sad I cried, and the blood stains couldn't be wiped clean.

Suddenly, my hand was grabbed by Helian Cheng: "Xiaoshuang, don't cry." You cry ugly, you say, how could I fall in love with a girl like you? ”

I looked up, through the hazy vision of tears, Helian Cheng was looking at me, still with that smile on his face, I hated that smile to death, I suddenly realized that it didn't matter if he frowned at me and scolded me, why did he keep laughing like that, I was choked, but I still barely suppressed my emotions, sobbed and said to him: "You say, isn't it a very long story?" ”

I vaguely remember Helian Cheng saying that he was so close to me because there was a long story.

"Hahaha......" Helian Cheng smiled, but he couldn't help but laugh and cough at the same time, as he coughed, he would always cough up cold blood, and even the blood had become cold.

I cried and hurried to stop him from laughing, I was afraid that he wouldn't even be able to do this for six or seven minutes.

But he hugged me and said, "Don't move, let me hold for a while." It's hard for you to remember this, but I don't have time to tell you this long story now. ”

"I'll talk about it later." I was in Helian Cheng's arms, choked up and couldn't help myself, I was stubborn and insisted on letting him speak later, in fact, I don't know if I was comforting him or myself.

"Silly girl, I'm afraid there will be no future." Helian Cheng smiled slightly, I just wanted to say something, but he hugged him tighter, and he said, "Don't talk, listen to me." I knew I was going to die, but I wasn't really scared. Because at least if I die, it won't be so painful, and I see that you will eventually return to Shen Jingyun's side one day, watching you be happy, and I can only wait silently. ”

Hearing Helian Cheng say this, I was so sad that I couldn't even breathe, and subconsciously said "No, no", but nothing? Even I don't know.

"Xiaoshuang, I'm actually not that great. I can't give you up to Shen Jingyun, and then comfort myself that you love Shen Jingyun, I should do this. As I said, I'm your friend anyway, just because I'm afraid that if I don't say that, I won't even have a chance to look at you and get close to you. Actually, I want to hug you and have you...... And I know in my heart that you care about me, you just care like a big brother. But, even so, I want to have you. ”

I hugged Helian Cheng tightly and whimpered in pain, at this moment I could feel his life passing, how could I watch him die like this? I said seriously: "As long as you don't die, we will be together, I say seriously, really." ”

Yes, I'm sincere at the moment, if Helian Cheng doesn't die, what if I'm with him? I owe Helian Cheng more than one life anyway, he saved me several times, even if I use this life to repay Helian Cheng's love? Is love or something necessarily a necessity? I don't dare to think about Shen Jingyun, but after all, I don't owe Shen Jingyun.

Besides, Shen Jingyun is so good, I am not a woman he has to do, there is still a trace of Lin Ruolan in his heart, right?

"Don't be stupid, why do you want to be so reluctant for me? I know you love Shen Jingyun...... As I said earlier, if I die, it's a good thing, I don't have to watch you love each other in agony. And you don't have to worry about me painfully sandwiched between you and Shen Jingyun. Helian Cheng's voice became so small that he felt as if he was so tired that he was about to fall asleep.

I raised my head suddenly, hugged Helian Cheng tightly, choked up and said, "Don't, Helian Cheng, you fool, you are not allowed to die!" I said, as long as you live and survive, I will marry you and we will be together. ”

No one can doubt my sincerity at the moment, I am very serious.

Helian Cheng was a little confused, with a smile, and asked intermittently, "Really, really?" It's like a dream...... Death, before death, I can hear this, it turns out, it turns out that death is also very ...... Very good. ”

"Helian Cheng, you don't want to die, you survive, don't you want me to marry you?" I cried almost hoarsely.

At this time, a footstep came, and a deep voice sounded: "He won't die, you let him go first, and I will stabilize his situation immediately." ”

I know whose voice it is. In addition, I heard another footstep, which was to turn away with infinite loneliness and decadence.