Three years later.

These three years have been a long time for me, as if five or six years have passed.

At first, it was hard to imagine how long it would last on this fishing island, but now it is not too difficult to think about it.

I am on this fishing island, although all kinds of facilities are still relatively complete, after all, Heyang wanted to build according to the model of the resort before, but almost all of them were just decorations, and they could not be put into use at all.

So except for the weekly supplies that Heyang delivers, I can be self-sufficient.

I almost opened up my own farm, planted crops of all sizes on the plots that could be planted, and I seemed to have transformed myself as a medical worker into an agricultural worker.

The previous life was a little tiring for me, although I missed the people and things of another country in my heart for the past three years, but here I also fully enjoyed what a slow life is.

Although Shi Heyang got electricity here, but for me there is no means of communication, I lost contact with the outside world, I am like isolated from the whole society, in addition to watching TV every day, all kinds of places, reading books, and collecting marine creatures that are constantly washed up by the sea, under such a rhythm of life, my whole heart has become very calm.

At first, the two female guards were willing to stay with me and watch me for a high salary.

It's as if the two of them have been specially trained to stay all day without talking.

I am a woman who loves to talk, I didn't adapt to this kind of life at the beginning, I often spoke to them, and then I got a solemn face, and after a long time, I naturally didn't want to be bored, so I often talked to the sea.

After this year of such days, the first person who couldn't stand this life was the doctor.

On a scorching afternoon, on a small island without air conditioning, everyone was sweating hot, and at the moment when the helicopter carrying life supplies was about to start, the doctor grabbed the handle of the plane and jumped straight on.

So one of the women followed suit, and the other woman was left to keep her alive.

At that time, Heyang wanted to see how I lived like an ant, so he simply changed from delivering supplies once a week to only once a month, which stimulated me to start looking for a way to survive on this island.

This also led to my own psychological problems gradually, which became more and more serious and even a little distorted.

The anxiety that I felt before was getting worse at this stage, and sometimes I would throw the oil drum far away for some reason.

I once asked the woman who was left behind, "Why don't you go away with the others?" ”

She looked at the sea helplessly and replied to me: "If it weren't for the hopelessness of life, she would also want to grab the plane and leave, and she wouldn't use this way to make money." ”

The hopelessness of life......

Probably my life can be best described in these two words.

Later, I learned that she still has three younger siblings in her family who need her to earn money to support, she has not gone to school, so she can't find a suitable job to get a lot of money to support her family, because Shi Heyang gives a lot of money, so she took the risk to do such an errand.

"What about you? Do you still have expectations for life? The woman suddenly turned her head to stare into my eyes and asked without any waves.

But her question stirred up waves in my already calm heart.

I thought about it, but I suppressed this emotion, and finally shook my head and said in a low voice: "I don't have any expectations for a long time, except for the lack of money now, I can count what I want, and someone sends food and clothing every month, and it would be good if I lived like this all the time." ”

"No, I think you should still have expectations, I see you writing the same name on the beach almost every day, and then watching the waves wash it away, how can you have the same name in your heart if you don't have expectations?"

I looked at the woman in a daze, and my body was shaking wildly.

I always wanted to blind my heart and tell myself that I had lost hope in life a long time ago, but this woman uncovered my scars alive and made my own mind unusually clear again.

I know that I have countless anger and unwillingness in my heart, and I often write this name, in fact, I want to find this unwillingness in him one day.

Probably my ideas are too dirty, so God has never given me such a chance to return to him.

But that was only the earliest idea, but as time went on, it drifted away.

As for whether I want to love him or not, I told myself that I don't know, but at least I don't want to love anyone anymore.

To know that it takes so much to love someone, even time, life, and freedom, I would rather not have met him when I was in a bar.

Now I just want to be able to go back to my daughter, and the other people and things are long gone for me, and nothing is worth regretting.

I often wonder what Mia has become at this time, she is almost seven years old, and she has probably become a little beauty.

Does she still remember her mom now?

I often dream of Mia running towards me the moment she sees me in a beautiful dress, and often wakes up with tears streaming down her face.

So if there is an expectation, probably only Mia is my expectation.

……

After talking to this woman, everything went back to the way it was before.

She still stopped talking, and turned a cold face at me, and I had to go about my own thing.

This kind of life lasted for a short time, and suddenly one day I saw a news on TV, and this news made my life change for a long time.

"Now is the time of news information, report a piece of news, Shi Heyang, then the general manager of the Times Group, has been killed in the explosion, six years ago in the name of other companies invested in the name of the fishing island project has been abandoned for a long time, has now been re-taken over by the Times Group, and recently by the special development team into the re-development, hoping to bring new tourism projects to our country."

Seeing this news, I admit that my heart has been shaken, will that person come? Is he still waiting for me?

I don't think so, if it were, it should have come a long time ago, so why wait three years?

For the next month, helicopters often circled over the island, and it didn't take long for them to fly away again.

Each time I just looked up and went on doing my own thing, kind of turning a blind eye.

On my birthday, I looked at the sky and wondered when I would be able to celebrate my birthday.

So I drove the car, wanting to go to the beach to dig some nails, and the woman on guard sat in the co-pilot as always, but changed her cold face, this time the gentle face made people feel a lot more comfortable.

Probably she also knew that Shi Heyang was dead, so naturally the task of guarding me was over, and all she could do now was wait with me, waiting for that opportunity to leave.

We drove all the way to the beach, but halfway through, the car ran out of gas, and I took a closer look at the fuel gauge and it was broken, no wonder I didn't notice the low fuel level, so I had to get out of the car and go to the trunk to get a bucket of spare oil.

Helplessly, the woman had to find a place to solve the internal emergency, so I had to take the heavy oil drum from the trunk alone.

Just as I was struggling to unscrew the lid, put on the nozzle of the oil gun, and lift the bucket with all my might, someone helped me lift it from behind.

I didn't look at her, but I looked down to see if there was any oil leak and said, "You have been in a hurry for a long time, it's almost half an hour", but I looked down and saw not a woman's shoes, but a pair of men's leather shoes stained with some dust.

My heart was beating so hard that my hand holding the oil drum began to tremble.

Looking up, a delicate suit is lazily open, and what you see above is a familiar face that has been engraved in my mind.

He took the bucket from my hand, and as soon as he spoke, the deep, mellow voice tore at my eardrums.

"How can you be a woman to do such a thing, let's go, I'll take you home."

One sentence that made me almost burst into tears, not because of the phrase "I'll take you home", but because of the previous sentence.

While I was still looking at the man distractedly, his hand had already been taken by him and he walked in the other direction.

"Hey, you let go of me, I've done everything I can do as a woman in the past three years." I struggled to pull out my hand and shake him off.

He stopped and turned to look at me, but he didn't speak.

I went back and lifted the drum back into the trunk, and in the process he came over and helped me get into the car.

Until the woman came back, she took the initiative to sit in the back seat, and Shi Xiangnan also took the initiative to sit in the co-pilot.

Eventually, I turned the car around and drove back, and then asked him as if nothing had happened, "Isn't there a special R&D team here?" Why do you want a big president to come here? ”

He didn't look at me, but looked outside and said in a low voice, "I just want to find you, I want to take you home." ”

My heart was beating wildly when he said it, and I stepped on the brakes urgently, thinking that I had practiced early tomorrow, and if I saw him again, I would take revenge back, but why couldn't I do anything to retaliate at this moment.

While he was still pondering this, the person next to him chuckled: "Why do you want to stay on this island?" ”

"Can't you? I've lived here for three years......"

Before he finished speaking, he pretended to be me and looked at me: "My daughter is still at home and looking forward to you going back every day, don't you want that home?" ”

Of course, I understood what he meant, and I wouldn't bother with him, so I eased my emotions: "Give me time to think about it." ”