Shu Xiaoman did not tell Chen Yuanxi that depression had tormented her to the point that her life was worse than death.

Since a few months ago, since she last visited the prison, and Chen Wanxin, Zheng Kai, and Gu Xi learned everything about Chen Yuanxi for more than ten years, she has been unable to give up all day long.

Mo Qian committed suicide, Luo Yang was executed, a group of Mo people and Chen Tianjiao's family scattered, Wang Wankun and Rao Yu also surrendered and went to prison, Chen Yuanxi really kept his promise and testified for the couple Their cooperation in the process of obtaining evidence, they were only imprisoned for two years, Wang Zhengjuan asked for her husband's consent and support, put down her two-year-old child for the time being, and went to find Zhou Nannan alone. The Wang couple was grateful and confessed to Wang Zhengjuan that they were the initiators who forced her to get married in the past. All this, Wang Zhengjuan sent WeChat to Zhao Yuan word for word. Zhao Yuan has two mobile phones, he usually only takes his work number when he goes to work, and in the work number, except for the people in the scope of work, only Shu Xiaoman, Nanny, Gu Xi, Zheng Kai, these people's WeChat, and the rest of the contacts are in another mobile phone, and the mobile phone is generally placed at home. When Shu Xiaoman saw WeChat, he hesitated for a moment and deleted it.

Before Chen Wanxin was imprisoned, she wrote a letter about bribing officials and falsely accusing Chen of falsehood, and sent it to Zhao Yuan's residence. Shu Xiaoman, as his wife, received the letter. This letter did not reach Zhao Yuan's hands.

When she visited the prison, she learned that Chen Yuanxi's second father, Hongxuan, had self-judged, and before self-execution, Zhang Dong, who had accompanied Chen Yuanxi for more than two years, was shot to death.

Chen Wanxin was imprisoned, Zheng Kai was running for life, although Gu Xi recovered well after surgery, he was no longer the jade son at that time, Zhang Anan found a job as a music teacher, took Wang Xiang's parents by his side, took Wang Shixiang with him, and lived an ordinary and simple life.

All people seem to have their own place, to live and live for themselves.

She stood in front of Wang Xiang's cemetery, the past was one after another, one after another, straight into the stars in the sky, the same sky, similar year after year, but different year after year. When she was about to stand, she had an illusion of loneliness.

She is the only one who married someone who seems to want to marry, and lives the life of Mrs. Zhao, who is well-fed and respected. Mr. is dignified, personable, wealth and prestige are rising, she seems, at the peak of her life, enjoying the incomparable envy and compliment of the world, but she does not know that the height is unbearable.

Zhao Yuan refused to take her out of any banquet that required the husband and wife to appear on the same stage on the grounds that she was in poor health after giving birth, and on the grounds that she was busy with work, she never took herself out except for accompanying the child, and only when her parents, Zhao Yuan's father-in-law and mother-in-law came, she could get Zhao Yuan's care and tenderness for a few days.

She was like, cut off from the world.

Shu Xiaoman has been sleeping in separate beds with Zhao Yuan, and after coaxing the children, they went back to their rooms. Whoever the child wants to sleep with, the nanny will lead him to the bedroom. For fear of delaying Zhao Yuan's work, Mengxi, who had been noisy since childhood, has always been carried by herself, and Mengyuan, who was already silent, preferred the quietness and simplicity in his father's study, and became more and more silent. In her spare time, she carefully took care of the room, for fear that the children would tear up all the items related to Lin Wenxi, otherwise, Zhao Yuan would be angry alone in the room, or would not return for several nights.

He is enduring it, and she is also enduring it, after more than a year of married life, she has never experienced any honeymoon, and she has fallen into the deep pool of eternal silence.

In fact, even if they shared a bed in the past, it was just a different dream, and Zhao Yuan could not indulge in love with himself at any time. Zhao Yuan couldn't understand such pain, he gave Shu Xiaoman enough freedom, and also gave Shu Xiaoman enough to fall.

She thought of Instructor Zhang during military training, with thick eyebrows and big eyes, and trained Zhao Yuan and Lin Wenxi seriously.

She remembered that Zhao Yuan shouted to Lin Wenxi: "One, one, two, two, two, one." ”

She remembered the blood-colored eyes painted by the two people, the sound of the piano in Dongchuan, and the wedding of Yun Che and Zhu Ziping, and remembered Zhu Ziping and said: "If two boys or two girls fall in love, please don't break them up, because their love requires more and more courage." ”

She finally remembered that Zhang Anan had told Shu Xiaoman after she got married.

"Xiao Man, I didn't finish the previous story with you."

"Brother Xi, there is a girl who loves him, and she has waited for him for eight years, until he told her in person that he fell in love with the boy who once left for him, and she let go to pursue her happiness. She, in the end, let go. She married a good man and lived happily... ”

Wenxi has always been a person... And himself, tied his man to his side with a child.

Xiang, in the end, you finally understand. But I don't understand yet.

Shu Xiaoman's tears slowly seeped into the cold cement cemetery, and somehow two drops of water oozed out of the tombstone, like tears falling from heaven.

Shu Xiaoman often saw that in a large area of snow, a lonely figure walked silently alone, the wind and snow were all over the sky, he was getting farther and farther away, and she knew that he had always been there...

Shu Xiaoman walked very suddenly, and after taking an overdose of **, he committed suicide by throwing himself into the lake.

In the medical records in her drawer, Zhao Yuan found out that she had already suffered from severe depression, and he had never set foot in this room except to see the children before.

A suicide note was sent home a week later.

The last sentence: "Wang Xiang's death is finally clear, and I don't know if I should know the moment when death is coming?" But, at least, A-Yuan, you know.

This situation can be recalled, but it was already clear at the time.

- Xiao Man's masterpiece. ”

After reading the letter, Zhao Yuan hugged his head tightly and covered it in the quilt, and in the quilt, there was a dull and suffocating cry.

It's just WeChat, phone, all blocked by Chen Yuanxi. Once upon a time, once upon a time, I may have made a phone call and a few WeChat messages to make meeting an instant, don't you know how far away the Yiren are at this moment.

Zhao Yuan returned to Tianfu Township, and he asked Liu Lanhua to be a nail household and not to be demolished. He was moved to tears by Liu Lanhua's words.

"Even if our house is not demolished, other houses have been demolished and rebuilt, and this is not the original place."

In Zhao Yuan's heart, the shadows of many people crossed in an instant.

He passed by the compound of the original township government, which became a community, and he saw many children playing there, each holding a mobile phone, dotting and scratching, and the poplar tree, which was finally cut down and uprooted because it blocked the entry and exit of vehicles in the community.

He had been to the lotus pond, the lotus pond had been filled, and the bungalows had been covered on it, and then the dissolving moon in the courtyard, and the faint breeze of the catkins pond.

He had been to the small school on the top of the hill, where a tall telecommunications tower had been demolished.

He had been to Yangtze County, where he had lived in a home that had been donated to a welfare home as a branch for the elderly.

He had been to the small town, where he used to live, where the transfer procedures were complete, and he had changed to a new family.

Zheng Kai's house.

"Akai, two children, I'll leave it to you." Zhao Yuan said very painfully, and then whispered to Mengyuan Mengxi, who had been wiping his eyes: "Baby, Dad went to find your Dad Lin, you may not be able to come back for a while, and your Uncle Kai will also take good care of you." ”

"Daddy, you have to come back early, Mom... Mommy doesn't want us anymore. Mengxi's eyes were already red and swollen from crying, but Mengyuan didn't speak.

"Mengxi, this is your Aunt Wanxin, this is your aunt. They'll hurt you, too! Zhao Yuan let go of his hand painfully.

"Daddy lied to me!" Zhao Mengxi cried loudly: "Dad's sister is called aunt, dad doesn't have a sister, my sister and dad don't look like each other at all... ”

"Mengxi is good, I am your father Lin's sister." Chen Wanxin tearfully took out a cherry-flavored candy and gave one to Mengyuan and Mengxi.

"A-Yuan, have you really decided?" Zheng Kai sent it far away.

"Children, please, I miss them, I'll come back and see... You and Wanxin must be happy. Zhao Yuan turned his head suddenly, and saw a pair of children still leaning against the door and looking at him, unconscious, and couldn't help tears slipping down.

"Remember, bring Gu Xi back together, Wanxin and I miss him very much!" Zheng Kai's eyes turned red.

A year ago.

Smalltown Prison.

"Brother, why don't you tell him about Zhang Shouxi."

"Bastard! The body could not be found in the pond for several days, and when your people heard that an unclaimed homeless man had been cremated there, they ran to get the ashes and bring them to Zhang Dong! The money is lost! People's fathers and mothers have taken the ashes away, how can you break this oolong? ”

"But where did Zhang Shouxi go?"

"Where have you been, hell knows! said that he hurt his brain and lost his memory, but he only remembered that his name was Zhang Shouxi, did he still arrest him back?

There are two ** people, one is Zhang Dong and the other is Zhang Shouxi, you remember, Zhang Dong is dead! There is no such person in the world! ”

。。。

Half a year ago.

"Gu Xi, Sister Wanxin is about to be released from prison, you just go with me, what does she think?" Chen Yuanxi asked.

"I know she and Brother Kai will be good to me, the kind that is too good to be true... But Brother Kai, I'm so tired. Sister Wanxin and Brother Kai have already recognized Wang Xiang's parents, and they have to take care of An An often, do you let Brother Kai and her live like this for the rest of their lives? ”

"Are you still thinking about Brother Kai?" Chen Yuanxi asked with a smile.

"How can I not read it, he dropped something in my heart. However, I've saved it well! I only hope that he and Sister Wanxin will be okay in this world, always, all the time! Gu Xi smiled, her eyes red.

The backs of the two disappeared together in the deepest part of the sunset.

Half a year later.

A train goes to the easternmost city.

Zhao Yuan heard that an event had been held in a temple there, and there had been news of Huang Xiya.

He carried two reunited statuettes, full of hope, leaning against the car window, outside the window, spring, summer, autumn and winter whispering, alternating changes.

Another train to the westernmost city.

In the car, two girls were happily talking.

One girl said, "Why are you so excited? ”

Another girl said: "Half a year ago, the president of the listed company in G City, named Zhao Yuan, posted it on Weibo, saying that he was going east to find his lover's mother!" His lover's mother should have been found! ”

Another girl said, "He's so handsome!" ”

The girl said, "I always feel like we're the one across from us... It seems that the person Zhao Yuan said... ”

The two girls were busy taking pictures quietly and leaving messages on Weibo. The two boys on the opposite side leaned side by side and fell asleep, and tears slowly overflowed from the eyes of one of the boys.

From the headset he let go, there was a faint singing voice like this:

"The world is like God's game,

made him and her,

and I and you were made.

Sunlight placed on the left,

Moonlight placed on the right,

He has forgotten us in the gap between the sun and the moon.

Black light, blazing cold.

You are the sun and I am the rain,

You are the light, I am the shadow.

The black hair in general,

Eyes in general.

The sky is always in tears,

The joys and sorrows are more ruthless.

Does anyone know that Mo is raining,

Time that can never be reached.

The lights of the city,

It's a wandering star.

I'm in Sanshengshi,

Heaven is endless... ”