Out of the village, I was lucky enough to catch a passing truck to the nearest town.

When I arrived in town, I hurried to the station in the town to buy a ticket to the nearest city, but when I passed by an inconspicuous place, I looked at the ordinary little shop and couldn't help but think for a while.

"You've only been in the car for a few days, so there's no need to eat like this, right?" Shen Jingyun's tone was slightly disgusted, but there was a hint of a smile in his eyes, he pulled a piece of paper and handed it to me.

"No, how good it is here, there are hot dishes, there are hot soups, and you can eat bowls and bowls of rice. Don't stop me, I'm going to eat enough. "I don't mind Shen Jingyun's dislike at all, I have been holding back in the car for too long, even if I eat in such a small restaurant, I feel as if I have arrived at a five-star hotel.

"Forget it, I don't care about you." Shen Jingyun said lightly, but he didn't care about my feelings, turned my face, took a few pieces of paper, and helped me wipe the greasy on my face.

"What are you doing?" I blushed all of a sudden: "Everyone else is looking at us?" ”

Indeed, people like me and Shen Jingyun, who are obviously not from the town to eat at such a small restaurant, are more eye-catching, and Shen Jingyun is still a handsome guy who attracts attention everywhere he goes.

"Others, do I know anyone else?" Shen Jingyun put down the paper in his hand, put a chopstick fish in the bowl for me, and looked at me with disgust again: "Tell me, what kind of woman are you?" Even if a prisoner has been in prison for a year, is there no tigress like you who eats and crosses the river to feed? Nor do they wipe their faces. ”

"What is a tigress crossing the river in search of food?" I almost choked, and the little warmth he had just wiped my mouth for me was immediately dispelled away by his poisonous tongue.

"That's you." Shen Jingyun looked very innocent, but he smiled warmly and said to me, "Eat quickly." ”

I don't know why, people live in reality, and always feel that memories are good, but at the time they didn't have any feelings, this moment is worth cherishing and collecting.

My eyes were a little sour, the people at the door of the store were already looking at me strangely, I lowered my head and turned around and left in a hurry, the excitement of running away in my heart had faded. It was replaced by a kind of sourness that made it difficult to breathe, and I was afraid that if I breathed hard, tears would fall.

I bought a ticket to the nearest city, and tiredly called Nanfeng in the town's unusually simple waiting hall.

"I ran away again, don't ask me why, anyway, I left Shen Jingyun again, I'm afraid I won't be able to go back this time." My nose was sour, but I still wanted to say this painful thing to Nanfeng in a mocking tone.

"Where are you?" Nanfeng really didn't ask anything, only said four words, a little anxious, a little worried.

"Nanfeng, am I embarrassed like this. Every time I leave Shen Jingyun, I have nowhere to go? All call to find you, at a loss...... When did I become like this? "But I didn't answer Nanfeng's question directly, I just wanted to talk.

Whether I am embarrassed or in pain at this time, I can only tell in front of the south wind, and I can only not be strong in front of the south wind.

"Is this the time to say that? Lin Xiaoshuang, if you want to be hypocritical, come to me to be hypocritical. If you are reluctant, go back to Shen Jingyun, don't talk and cry like a fool at the station, since it is miserable, why let others see jokes? The south wind was as sharp as ever, but these words warmed me faintly.

I sniffed, wiped away the tears that were about to come out of my eyes, and said, "I now have less than 300 yuan in my whole body, and I don't have anything of value to pawn." Then I bought a ticket, and I still have more than 200 left, and I came to you, and I didn't have enough money. ”

"Where did you get your ticket?" Nanfeng took a deep breath and asked me.

"XX City." I gave the name of a small city.

"When I arrived, buy something to eat, charter a car directly to my door, and then call me, and I will go downstairs to give money." Nanfeng said the solution in one breath.

"I don't want it, I have a shadow on taxis." I refused outright, and the experience of being dragged to the crematorium morgue was enough once.

"It's a real trouble, you wait for me. I'll call you in two minutes. Nanfeng said very directly and hung up the phone.

Although the station in this town is simple, the flow of people is very crowded, and all the nearby villagers come and go, and such a flow of people gives me a great sense of security.

Shen Jingyun has been busy for three months, although he once said that he is a lot safer, but I have never had much security. I'm now used to staying in crowded places.

But for some reason, I looked at everyone and felt suspicious.

When I was a little nervous, my phone rang, and I quickly picked it up, it was the south wind.

"If you're lucky, there's an airport in that small city you're going to. There are several flights to the provincial capital every day, and I booked you a ticket online, which is a transfer ticket. When you arrive at the airport in the provincial capital, you can just transfer to another flight. I don't believe that all those strange things can catch up with the plane. Is the ID card on me? Finally, Nanfeng asked.

"Yes." Since you want to run away, how can you not bring something important with you.

"Don't cry, be strong. Now that you've decided to leave him, you can only cry to me. Because if you cry to anyone, he doesn't know. Cry to me, at least I can scold you for a while. Nanfeng said to me word by word.

Fortunately, no matter what my life has become, the south wind is still the familiar south wind, I smiled and looked up, desperately held back tears, and said: "I know, you are the strongest and smartest." ”

"Xiaoshuang." The south wind suddenly called out to me.

"Huh?" Nanfeng's sudden emotional tone made me a little uncomfortable.

"Hug, I'm here." Her tone softened suddenly.

And I covered my mouth all of a sudden, and endured it for a long time before I stopped my voice and scolded: "Dead girl, don't be numb." ”

"You're the dead girl, can you stop?" Nanfeng scolded me with a smile, and then told me a few more words before hanging up the phone.

With the support and comfort of the south wind, my heart finally got rid of that deadly loneliness, from the confusion of being at a loss, to becoming firm again, and I was no longer afraid.

After a long journey, I finally got on a plane to S City near the middle of the night.

In the meantime, when I was waiting in the departure hall, my mobile phone rang more than a dozen times, all of which were calls from an unknown number, and I didn't answer. Just made a phone call to Nanfeng, said the approximate time of the plane, and turned off the phone.

I don't have any proof of who the strange phone number is? But for someone like me who has no relatives and few friends, who will call me, and a dozen of them? I can only think of Shen Jingyun.

His previous number has long since become empty because he has not been used for too long, and it is not surprising that he has an unfamiliar mobile phone number now.

Did he finally find out that I was gone? What kind of thoughts and feelings would he have? Will you be worried and sad because I'm gone? Thinking of this, I felt a hint of revenge in my heart, but I couldn't sit still for a moment.

Fortunately, I turned off the phone ruthlessly, otherwise, I was not sure that the next call would have been picked up? And after picking it up, he coaxed me softly, and I would say to him desperately, "Come to me." ”

These are just associations, and the heart that has just been quiet for a short time, because these dozen or so phone calls have opened the valve of longing and worrying, and it can no longer be closed. I leaned against the window of the plane and cried, and even a young man next to me couldn't stand it and tried to hand me a tissue, but I didn't respond.

I wonder if I'm doing the right thing this time. didn't even give Shen Jingyun a chance to explain.

The collapse of trust is certainly a reason, and everything he says feels like a lie to me.

The more important reason is, how to interpret the dream talk? It's not something he can control at all. What will he say once it is spread out? At that point, I'm afraid Shen Jingyun has no way out, I'm afraid he looked at me calmly and said, "Lin Xiaoshuang, yes, I really can't forget Ruolan, can you give me some time?" ”

If that's the answer, should I give him time? If I don't give it, what will he do if he begs me? Given, no matter how big my heart is, I can't tolerate the man I love, in front of me, I have been thinking about another woman.

It was a day worse than hell.

I left, but I saved each other an embarrassment, set him free, and would not miss his true love because of the little feelings he had for me.

Am I hypocritical? I don't know...... I just remember the shame of a girl being beaten in front of so many people in the ancestral hall, and I still remember every early morning when I got up early, enduring the hard work of being picky and making cattle and horses.

A lot of wits and courage, a lot of forbearance and strength, and even a few births and deaths, what is supporting me?

For a wait, I have already let go of my self-esteem, and in the end, I picked up my self-esteem and walked away in embarrassment, isn't it because the answer I got back was a "Ruolan"?

Shen Jingyun won't know my mood for nearly hundreds of days and nights, how can he see my longing eyes when he is in the distance? Encourage yourself for resilience over and over again?

Thinking of this, my tears flowed more and more unstoppable, but this time, I didn't give him any more tears.

The plane slowly stopped, and I completely wiped away my tears, and the young man next to me was relieved, I was sure that it wasn't a plane with a psycho who had been on the plane all the way.

After getting off the plane, I went to the toilet and soothed my swollen and hot eyes with cold water.

Then, combing my hair again to make myself look refreshed, I walked out with a natural smile.

I didn't push it up, I just smiled naturally, because I knew that the south wind was waiting for me, a new life was waiting for me, and I cried enough on the plane.

After picking up my luggage, I walked out of the exit quickly, and when I looked up, I saw that Nanfeng was standing at the front waiting for me.

I ran to her quickly, and she rushed over and hugged me.

"Dead girl." Nanfeng choked up again and called me with a smile.

"I'm not dead, I'm fine." I hugged the south wind tightly, feeling that in this world, I still have so much support.