I didn't expect Shen Jingyun to say this about me, it felt like I had betrayed him and become a cheating person mentally.

Looking back, I have always been obedient and let him handle it, but this time, it was as if all the resentment was aroused by his slightly mocking questioning.

I couldn't help sneering and said: "I miss anyone, I don't have to carry you, when, where, and what I want, do I have to get your permission?" ”

Shen Jingyun looked at me calmly, squinting slightly, but his eyes, which had always been calm and detached, flashed with a hint of suppressed anger, looking extremely dangerous.

I remembered today's daytime, his ruthless shot, and for some reason I was a little scared, and I couldn't help but stand up and take two steps back.

Shen Jingyun sneered and asked me, "Lin Xiaoshuang, in this way, in the end, you are afraid of me?" ”

After he said this, his eyes, which were still dangerous before, suddenly had a trace of sadness. My heart hurts, but the phrase "Ruolan" is like a nightmare, and his words mocking me and Helian Cheng are like firewood in the flames of anger.

I said in a fit of rage, "I'm not afraid of you, but please don't interfere with my freedom." I opened my mouth and closed my mouth as if I was sure what I was doing. ”

"Aren't you thinking about Helian Cheng?" Shen Jingyun's expression had completely regained his calm, and when he asked me this question, it was as if he was asking me if I had dinner today.

I felt chills inside me, he didn't really care about me.

Perhaps, he had some feelings for me, that little affection, and brought me to his heart. Then, he showed me mercilessly that in front of me, there will always be Lin Ruolan, a peak that cannot be climbed.

"Heh, what about Helian Cheng I suppose? If you don't do what you want, you're going to kill me? After saying this, I regretted it myself, and I didn't understand why I had to speak to Shen Jingyun with such an attitude.

Shen Jingyun was silent, and the night wind blew between me and him, raising the placket of his clothes and my hair.

Obviously standing very close, but at this moment, it was as if they were torn apart, farther and farther away, until they could no longer see each other.

After a while, Shen Jingyun spoke: "It's very windy tonight, the night is very cold, no matter who you're thinking about, I hope you go back to sleep early." ”

After speaking, Shen Jingyun turned around and left.

I looked at his back, tears blurring my eyes. It was no longer interesting to stay here, so I sat quietly for a while after he left, and then returned to Xiaohe's house.

I was so tired that I couldn't sleep. I can't suppress the impulse in my heart.

Now that we've drifted apart, I don't want to be enemies with each other, and if the ending comes to an abrupt end here, it's more or less a good feeling when we still have a little bit of love for each other.

I was very numb and packed my things, in order to avoid letting Xiaohe's family and Shen Jingyun see something, some daily necessities, such as combs, facial cleansers, etc., I didn't put them in my luggage.

I rummaged through it a little more, and I still had some money on me, which should be enough for me to escape.

The next morning, after getting up, I was doing everything as usual, but I didn't see Shen Jingyun.

Xiaohe's mother told me that Shen Jingyun had something to leave for me before going out this morning. In the past few days, he will use the spiritual spring here to recuperate from his injuries, and when he has recovered from his injuries, we will leave this village.

After telling me these words, Xiaohe's mother hesitated a little, and she told me, "I don't know what's wrong with you two? When he got up in the morning, Mr. Shen was a little awkward. I pressed him and he said let me bring you a sentence depending on the situation, and if you want, he wants to have a long talk with you tonight. ”

"As for me, I don't know what kind of situation it is, so I can bring this sentence to you, I thought about it just now, and I just told you it all. Miss Xiaoshuang, think for yourself. ”

I don't know what Shen Jingyun wants to talk to me about? But I always feel that trust is like the most fragile thing, difficult to build, but easy to overthrow.

I persevered for three months with the greatest enthusiasm, as if I believed, and when I hugged back with the sentence "Ruolan, don't go", I had a hard time believing Shen Jingyun.

I always felt that what he talked to me and what he said to me, no matter how much it moved me, was not true. It's like yesterday during the day, he told me that he always thinks of me every day, asking me if I won't be snatched away by Helian Cheng, the kiss that fell on his forehead was so sweet. But at night, in his sleep, he went crazy and missed another woman.

I don't want to talk to him, like an ordinary person, I don't want to give a liar a second chance to lie to himself.

Although I had such thoughts, on the surface, I smiled casually and said to Xiaohe's mother: "I have nothing to do with him, he wants to talk, and I am here at night." Xiaohe, don't worry. ”

When Xiaohe's mother saw me like this, she was completely relieved, and said to me with a smile: "I'll just say, what can happen?" The two of you like each other, and I can see it as an outsider. ”

I didn't say anything more, smiled and wanted to enter the house. But suddenly I thought of something, and asked Xiaohe's mother like a joke: "Xiaohe's mother, you told me, when Xiaohe's father is drunk or asleep, will he call your name?" ”

My abrupt question made Xiaohe's mother a little flustered shyly, and she couldn't help patting me with disgust and said, "You girl, why would you ask such a question?" However, at that time, I had an argument with Xiaohe's father, and I heard from his best friend that he was drunk and would call my name. Later, when I talked about it, I blamed him for calling me by name in front of others, and he told me that he couldn't help it, if he didn't think about it in his heart, he wouldn't be able to call him. ”

"You are so dear." I said with a smile, in fact, my heart was already torn apart.

I also want to find a reason for Shen Jingyun, even if someone tells me that this is a normal thing, I will want to pretend to paralyze myself and make myself believe that he just shouted this unintentionally.

But now, how can I fool myself? It seems that in my heart, I still want to have a long talk with him, even if he lied to me.

Now it seems that it is nothing more than a joke.

I went back to the house, opened the window, and threw my luggage out.

My window is facing the backyard of Xiaohe's house, and normally they don't come to the backyard.

After doing this, I walked out of the yard as if nothing happened, pretended to be walking in the yard, and went to the backyard, and got my luggage out of the yard. Anyway, Xiaohe's house is in the middle of nowhere, and I don't worry about someone taking my luggage. Even if I did, I had enough phone and money with me to get me out of here.

But I was a little reluctant to Xiaohe, so after doing all this, I spent the morning playing with Xiaohe, laughing heartlessly, not like a person with a heart at all.

But Xiaohe seems to admire Shen Jingyun very much, and when he talks to me, he always reveals his idea of wanting to be Shen Jingyun's apprentice in the future. I don't know what kind of psychology I had, I remembered Helian Cheng's arrangement for Xiaohe's family, and told Xiaohe with a smile, saying that there is actually a big brother named Helian Cheng who is also very capable, saying that Shen Jingyun is too ungentle, and being his apprentice will be spanked, and being Helian Cheng's big brother's apprentice will have delicious food and will not be spanked.

Speaking of Helian Cheng, Xiaohe has an impression, he has never seen Helian Cheng, but he asked me, is it the big brother who smiles very well? Said it was his mother who told him.

I said, "yes." ”

Xiaohe muttered to himself, he must not be fierce if he loves to laugh so much, but he thinks Brother Shen is cooler.

I don't know where this little kid learned the word "cool", but I feel that I can't convince Xiaohe, and I am a little excited. Shen Jingyun's indifferent and detached guy, what's so good?

In the midst of such frolic, it was already time for lunch, and Shen Jingyun came back unexpectedly.

There was no tacit understanding between the two of us about last night, and during the meal, he was as silent as ever, while I talked and laughed as if nothing had happened, happy.

As an outsider, Xiaohe's family naturally can't see the turbulent undercurrent between me and Shen Jingyun.

A meal, eating in harmony.

Shen Jingyun was going out again in the afternoon, but before leaving, he asked me: "Lin Xiaoshuang, your soul has also been a little traumatized, do you want to go to Lingquan together?" ”

I exaggeratedly said, "Do you think I'm embarrassed to bathe with you men and women?" ”

"I didn't mean that, I..." Shen Jingyun was in a hurry to explain, looking so cute and exciting.

I subconsciously kept every bit of his beauty, and said: "I'm joking with you, you go to recuperate today, I'll go tomorrow, you remember to leave me some aura, otherwise there is no difference between the spiritual spring and the hot spring." ”

"You even know about Reiki?" Shen Jingyun was quite surprised.

I laughed and said, "I'll tell you later." ”

Shen Jingyun didn't ask much, turned around and left.

Looking at his back, I silently said goodbye. I don't know if there will be a chance to meet in the future, I feel sad when I think of it, but I can't hold back my tears.

During my lunch break, I excused myself from sleeping and wanted to go out for a walk, and walked out of the river's house.

I went around to the back of their yard, took my luggage, and in the quietest hour of the afternoon, I dragged my luggage alone and silently left the village where I had been three months and full of memories.

I don't think I'll ever come back.