I looked at him and asked, "What's wrong with the morning?" ”

He smiled, reached out and pressed my head, asking, "Really forgot?" Or is it just that you don't dare to mention it again? ”

"I ...... "I certainly can't really forget," and there is no need to mention that unpleasant thing again. ”

I couldn't help but turn my head to look at him after hearing him for a long time, but I was directly attracted by his gaze.

His dark eyes stared at me uncomfortably, which suddenly reminded me of Chi Fengmin.

As I quickly staggered his gaze and tried to convince myself to calm down, his hand suddenly reached over and grabbed my jaw. That's why I can't dodge him when he kisses him.

He touched my lips first, then opened his eyes slightly, and whispered; "Hold me."

I didn't move, and reached out and pushed him to the chest.

He didn't say anything more, just put his arms around my waist. But I know he's annoyed because he's biting my lip hard.

The pain caused a cold sweat to break down my spine, and I couldn't help but let out a whimper, tears bursting out of the corners of my eyes uncontrollably.

He relented and licked my lips, which I couldn't close because I were trembling. My mouth was numb and painful, but the tip of my tongue was crispy and numb, and it was extremely comfortable.

I'm a person who doesn't like pain, but the pain and numbness at this moment are intertwined, mixed with his unique body odor, and it creates a new feeling, a feeling that makes me can't help but feel sour.

By the time he let go of my lips, I was already in a cold sweat and softened in Li Yu's arms. With my ears in his arms, I could clearly hear his speeding heartbeat.

During these few minutes, none of us spoke.

Li Yu is a person who seems to be friendly, but he wraps his heart very tightly.

And I'm not very smart, I can even say wooden.

Someone like me, who is not spiritual, often has no way to perceive his heart. So, even though so much has happened between us, I'm sure he does love me, but I always feel like he doesn't belong to me.

He loves me and he belongs to me, and those are two very different feelings.

But in this brief moment, I felt that he belonged to me as well. We are like two squirrels hiding in a warm tree hole in the north wind, in this small world, time and space do not exist.

But this moment is going to be broken after all.

After a while, Li Yu's voice came from the direction above my head, "Does it still hurt?" ”

I know he asked my lips and said, "It doesn't hurt anymore, it's just not feeling." ”

He said "oh" and then laughed again, stroked my hair, and said, "I don't see how much you like this." ”

My body stiffened.

He was close to me, and naturally he noticed it, and put his arms around me again, asking, "Why are you upset?" ”

I tried to sit up straight, but as soon as he felt me move, he hugged me tighter, and lowered his head, his forehead against mine, looked me in the eyes, and asked, "What did I say wrong?" ”

I couldn't hide, so I had to ask, "Do you mean I'm cheap?" ”

He frowned slightly, looking puzzled, "What is this?" ”

I said, "You just said I like it, and if I'm not mistaken, do you mean I like to be made hurt?" ”

He blinked, still not understanding my words, and didn't answer.

I really didn't like this position, so I pulled his hand away, sat up straight, lowered my head, avoided his gaze, and said, "I don't like to be hurt, I hate it when people hurt me." ”

He opened his mouth in a playful tone, "You were very intoxicated just now. ”

"That's right!" I couldn't help but clench my fists, "I'm intoxicated, I love it." Not only did they bite me when they kissed, but even when they hit me or even forced, I liked it. That's what you want to say! ”

Li Yu didn't say anything.

Maybe I'm making a big fuss, but I'm very glassy in this matter. I'd love to change that too, but I can't.

After a while, a hand suddenly touched my cheek, and I was still angry, so I naturally turned my head away. Seeing this, he put his arm around me and whispered, "I'm sorry, I didn't think of it when I said it." I mean, it seems that you like it when I kiss you like that, and I don't say that you like to be bitten. ”

After a pause, he said, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bite you, I was annoyed at the time and couldn't control my emotions." ”

I asked, "Are you annoyed that I didn't hug you?" ”

"Yes." He said.

I continued to ask, "The reason why you blacklisted me in the afternoon was also because you were annoyed that I didn't say I loved you?" ”

He said, "Yes." ”

I asked, "Are you deflated now?" ”

"Of course I'm deflated," he let go of his hand, his eyes looking straight ahead of him, his expression calm, "you don't love me in the first place, anyway, there's no point in forcing you." ”

I looked at him and asked, "If you don't say it, you don't love you?" ”

"Yes." He didn't hesitate.

"Just cold-blooded?" I continued to ask.

He turned his head to look at me, the corners of his mouth hooked, "No, I was wrong about this." You just didn't give me your blood. ”

I said, "Don't you remember that I've done a lot for you over the past year or so?" ”

"I remember." He looked directly ahead of him again and whispered, "But before you poisoned, you did more and better than you do now." ”

As soon as he mentioned this matter, I completely ignored it, and naturally stopped talking.

Li Yu waited for a while, then turned his head to look at me, seemingly not very satisfied, "Why don't you say anything?" ”

I said, "Or you can kill me again." ”

He said, "I have killed it." ”

I said, "You missed last time, and this time you will kill again." ”

He laughed, pressed my head with his hand, and asked, "You think you are a cat, you are still alive until now is a pure fluke, kill you again, even if there is another lonely ghost, I can't save you." ”

"It doesn't matter." I really didn't mean to be joking, and I didn't mean to threaten him, I think this may be the only solution: "As long as you can feel mentally balanced after you kill me, you can put this matter aside and look at me again." ”

Li Yu was silent for a moment, looked at me, and his tone was a lot softer, "Everyone is gone, what do I think is the use?" Are you sure you're not bothering me? ”

That's right......

I said, "Then you can beat me, torture me, and take my organs...... Whatever you do, as long as you can feel mentally balanced. ”

He snorted coldly, "You really don't know how to balance me?" ”

"I know it's all my responsibility for you to become like this, and I'm willing to pay it back with my life. But since you don't want it, then I'm willing to pay it back with something else. I said, "I know you want to say that you need me to love you." But I also know that this request is a bottomless pit, and I will never be able to meet you. ”

Li Yu's face became even more ugly, "You don't even want to say a word of love for me, but now I've become a bottomless pit?" ”

I said, "I love you." ”

He didn't seem to hear it, but continued: "Forget it, there's no need to pretend if you don't love me." As for what you're talking about, frankly, it sounds like a ...... to me."

He stopped suddenly.

I looked at him and said, "I love you." ”

He looked at me and froze.

I said, "If it weren't for loving you, you might have died a little earlier." I know it's disgusting when I say that, as if I'm shifting the blame to you, but I don't really mean that, I'm just stating the facts. In the end, it wasn't my parents who made me decide to do it, but because I gave up revenge because I loved you. It's hard for me, I dream of them every night, I feel ashamed of them, but I decide to enjoy the happiness you bring me with this guilt and shamelessness. But you lied to me, you called your sister's name when you were with me. I thought at the time, you just use me as her stand-in, no wonder she likes to get involved in things between you and me so much. I think I'm so stupid, why would I believe that a normal person from a normal background like you would choose me with nothing? You don't have many friends, and you seem to be average to your family, but you are very kind to your sister and give her a lot of privileges, even if she scolds me in front of you, you won't say anything. I keep thinking about the details of what you've shown in front of me in the past, and I think you've had sex with you. The reason why you misconfessed that day was to prove that you had this relationship before, so it means that while I was so happy that I gave up on something as big as revenge, you just treated me as a fake, and at the same time guarded the real thing, or just loved her in your heart, or in body and mind. The more I thought about it, the more my emotions got out of control, I hated this self who gave up revenge because I was greedy for you, and I felt that as long as I got revenge, this matter would be over. That's why I decided to kill you, the son of my enemy, but since I also killed the one I love, I'll pay for it myself. ”

While I said these words, Li Yu never said a word, and always looked at me silently.

I also felt a little relieved and finally spoke up.

Although Li Yu has explained some of these things to me now, this is what I really felt at that time.

After I finished speaking, he still didn't say anything, so I said, "You see, there is nothing good about being loved by me, I am so extreme and so terrible, if you want me to love you, then your purpose has already been achieved." ”

Li Yu finally opened his mouth and said: "The reason why I chose to use my sister to stimulate you that day is because I know that you hate my sister, and I think it's because you like the surname Luo, and the surname Luo used to date my sister." After you went out that day, I came out with you, and I saw you sitting outside crying. I feel sorry and want to go over and apologize to you, explain, but I see you're on the phone. I wanted to know who you dialed it to, so I monitored it. ”

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