Li Nuannuan smiled and said, "I don't think so, except for the murder of your husband, I think you have always been quite normal." ”

I said, "Then what do you mean?" ”

"You know that." Li Nuannuan said: "I know a lot of things you didn't tell me, and I don't want to ask, I just want you to think about my words, maybe this is a way of thinking." ”

I said, "Okay. ”

Li Nuannuan asked again: "What is the diary that the carp is talking about?" ”

I said, "This is my **." ”

"It's not a **** to publish it." Li Nuannuan smiled and said: "Although I don't know what it is, but from his tone, it is not difficult to guess a thing or two, if you don't say it, how can I help you?" ”

I thought about it and felt that Li Nuannuan was not wrong, once this matter was announced, it would no longer be a secret. In fact, I don't expect Li Nuannuan to help me with anything, just tell her that it's okay.

So I said, "I wrote down the rape I was made by Chi Fengmin when I was a child in my diary. ”

"Rape?" Li Nuannuan was surprised, "Isn't he your first love?" ”

I asked, "Who told you this?" ”

Li Nuannuan said: "Carp." ”

I was even more stunned, "Why did Li Yu say this to you?" He knew it! From the first day he was with me, he knew that I was very scared of Chi Fengmin! ”

"Carp once told me that he thought it might be that Chi Fengmin treated you very badly, so you hated him very much, but it is a fact that you have dating, and he has also doubted this, so please ask me to investigate." Li Nuannuan said: "Your classmates at the time knew about it, they said that you behaved very sweetly, and also told others that you were going to marry him in the future. ”

I'm crazy, this Li Nuannuan's brain shouldn't be a problem, right?

I said, "The matter between me and him is simply my psychological shadow, how can I feel proud to say it to my classmates?" I was just a kid! ”

Li Nuannuan pondered for a moment and said, "That's right." It seems that you should really look for problems from yourself, and I don't think I can even investigate such a trivial matter wrongly, let alone investigate more than one of your classmates at that time. ”

I thought about it and asked, "Then why did Li Yu never mention it like me?" He also acted like he thought I was being raped. ”

Li Nuannuan said: "He felt that you were hurt too deeply, so he didn't want to admit it, so he didn't want you to suffer, so he said it according to your meaning." ”

I suddenly remembered that Li Yu once teased me about this matter, and Chi Fengmin gave me the card, no wonder he reacted so much. He must have had a hard time that time, right? I was almost going to tell about it.

I said, "My heart is so messed up right now......

Li Nuannuan said: "It's just messy, if I were you, I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to sleep tonight." ”

I said, "I can't sleep every night right now. ”

After ending the chat with Li Nuannuan, I thought about it for a long time. I really don't remember any of the things Li Nuannuan said, and in the process of my continuous recollection, I found that I had actually forgotten a lot of things, almost all of which I remembered when I was a child, and there were only very faint pictures. I can't even remember the faces of my brother and my mother, who had passed away only a few years ago.

Moreover, I can't even remember some things after I was with Li Yu, but this kind of inability to remember is not a blank, but a state of "can't remember". If it had been before, I wouldn't have paid much attention to this, and I could have told myself that it was my psychological reason, because it's normal to forget things as I get older.

But now my mood can't help but be complicated, is it really as Li Nuannuan said, I am no longer me?

If this assumption is true, then there are three problems:

Where is I now?

Where was I now?

How did these two "I" not know how to complete the substitution?

I pondered it for a long time, but I still had no clue. Because there's a hard flaw here, which is that I don't feel like I've taken the place of another soul at all, and with what I know about souls now, that's not going to happen.

I couldn't figure it out, so I entered the home of the spirit world and summoned Wu Jingkang.

He was puzzled, "Why are you looking for me again?" ”

"Something is new." I carefully talked about the conversation between Li Nuannuan and me and my thoughts on it, and asked, "What's going on?" ”

Wu Jingkang frowned while listening, and said, "It's her who is talking nonsense." ”

I looked at him coldly, "You don't think this kind of perfunctory thing will make me believe, do you?" ”

"Of course not," Mr. Wu said, "she misinterpreted me." I told her that you are no longer what you used to be, which means that you are no longer the helpless orphan girl you once was, and he can no longer taunt and bully you at will. But I don't want to tell her who you are for the time being, so just a little hint, and she's better to mislead you by misleading you by misinterpreting it like this. ”

I asked, "Really?" ”

"If you really once replaced Song Jiayin's soul, then why are you unconscious?" Wu Jingkang said: "This point makes no sense at all. ”

I nodded and said, "That's what I can't figure out." ”

"I can't figure it out because it doesn't exist. Her assumptions simply don't hold water. Wu Jingkang said unhappily: "This woman is really smart, I think I still have to teach her a lesson." ”

I said, "No need. She's a spectacle person, and I can feel that she treats me a lot better because of this thought, and I don't have to tell her the truth, just enjoy her. ”

Wu Jingkang said: "It's okay." He smiled again, "You are indeed the same as before, after all, you have begun to awaken, and you will become more different in the future, and when you fully awaken, you will show your noble charm as a god." ”

I said, "Don't talk like that, it sounds really hard to me." ”

Wu Jingkang only smiled.

I said, "But for what she said about my relationship with Chi Fengmin, and the fact that I once slandered Yu Wen, I want you to investigate." She said both of these things clearly, and I don't remember doing it myself, and I don't think I could have done it. ”

Wu Jingkang said: "Okay. ”

I said, "Hurry up and give me an answer, and don't drag me as you did with Fanyin." ”

Wu Jingkang smiled and said, "Don't worry, there will be an answer soon." Then he looked at me and asked, "Is there anything else you would like to command?" ”

I said, "It's not that I was commanded, it's that I'm a little sad in my heart." ”

"Sad?" Wu Jingkang asked: "Is it for Li Yu?" ”

I nodded.

I can feel that Li Yu is very indifferent to me today, and even disgusted. It seemed to happen in an instant, and I always felt like we were tired of being together not so long ago, and then it turned upside down overnight.

If you have any opinion about me, why can't you tell me?

You can argue with me, quarrel with me, but why betray me directly?

That's the saddest thing for me.

Wu Jingkang stopped talking, just looked at me with sad eyes.

We looked at each other, and for a moment we were both silent.

Finally I spoke first, and by this time I had adjusted my emotions, "Why don't you comfort me with those strange words?" ”

"I suddenly remembered what had happened before." Wu Jingkang said: "I feel that my heart hurts, and I am not in the mood to speak. ”

I asked, "What's the matter?" ”

Wu Jingkang sighed softly and said, "Guess why I know that your lover betrayed you?" ”

I said, "Do I always tell you what is on my mind?" ”

"No, you don't tell, you once said that only the weak will tell others what is on their minds, and the strong only hide their hearts in their hearts." Wu Jingkang said: "You take me to the tomb every year, and you tell me that there is no one in that tomb, and it is your love that is buried." Every year at that time you sweep because your love dies then. ”

I said, "I really didn't expect that the last time you said that I beat you, the scene described me as a cruel and ruthless person." ”

"No, you're just strong." Wu Jingkang said: "You are also very kind, it is precisely because you are extremely kind in your heart that you will be disappointed in the world and want to change the world." ”

I said, "You go on." ”

Wu Jingkang said: "You have been doing this for more than 100 years, until one year, you didn't go, I thought you forgot, so I reminded you." You say you don't have to go, you've put it down. Then tell me that you had a lover, but he betrayed you, and he left you to marry a human woman, with whom he bred generations of people. You still felt like he was alive, but that year, you told me he was dead. Soon after, you were killed. ”

I said, "That's ......."

Wu Jingkang looked at me and was silent for a while, and then wondered, "Don't you ask?" ”

I said, "Ask what?" ”

"Something else about your lover." Wu Jingkang said: "Aren't you curious about him? ”

I said, "I'm not curious. Do I need to be curious? ”

Wu Jingkang was a little helpless and said, "You used to love him very much. ”

I said, "But he betrayed me anyway." Speaking of this, I couldn't help but smile bitterly, "It seems that I have been unlucky in my previous life and in this life, and the men I love have betrayed me." ”

Wu Jingkang showed a pitiful expression.

I said, "Okay, you go and help me investigate, I'm going back too, I feel that Chi Fengmin will probably come back today, I don't want him to find out about my situation and invite a lot of doctors to come." ”

It turned out that I was right, and just as I was back in my body, the moment I opened my eyes, there was a knock on the door.

It's a short housekeeper.

She happily told me that Chi Fengmin would be there soon and asked me to get up and clean up after myself.

I cleaned up as I said, put on makeup, changed clothes, went downstairs and waited for a while, and Chi Fengmin came back.

He didn't seem to think that I was going to wait for him here, and when he saw me, there was a look of surprise in his eyes, and then he came over and made a gesture to hug me.

I took a step back, smiled and said, "Don't." ”

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