124

The seaside in winter is not as beautiful as the legend says. It was sparsely populated, and the cold wind was biting, and it was cold and painful to blow on the face.

I looked at the tall third brother next to me and remembered the plot on TV, either walking hand in hand or laughing and playing, and the two of us seemed to be commemorating the deceased with solemn expressions.

Suddenly, I jumped and jumped on the back of the third brother. First, the awkward atmosphere of the link, and secondly, I was also a little cold.

The third brother only said, "Do you want to go in again?" ”

"Yes, yes!" Then there was a thought, "Don't don't, what if you throw me into the sea, don't don't"

The third brother sneered and laughed, and walked on the shore with me on his back.

"Third brother, have you seen my brother recently? When will he be able to come out. ”

The third brother paused, turned me upside down, and after walking a distance, he said, "I don't need to write to him recently."

"Why?"

"Maybe it's going to be a different place!"

"Change places? Where to go? Where are you going if you're already in prison? Hell? ”

The third brother threw me down, "You just went to hell, can't you curse the good ones?" ”

"Oh, that's wrong, where is my brother going?"

"Ouyang Xiaoxing, let me ask you a question!"

"Well, you say."

"Do you want to see him?"

"Yes!"

"Do you still like him?"

"Do you want to talk to me about liking him or like you? I don't want to discuss it with you. ”

"I'm not going to talk to you about this, I'm just, I'm just thinking about ......"

"What do you think? The first time you squeaked, it didn't fit your style! Tell me what you want. ”

"If he comes out, won't I be able to come to see you again, and I won't be able to carry you on my back like I did just now!"

Forgive me, looking at the third brother's shy expression, I felt that what the third brother just said was very funny, and I laughed out loud excessively.

"Third brother, you are also thinking blindly. Miscellaneous can't come to see me yet, of course you are all brothers, come together. I also have a salary now, I invite you to dinner, okay I can't afford it, KFC can always afford to eat. ”

The third brother kept looking at me, and after saying what he just said, he took the initiative to throw himself into his arms and hug the third brother, "Third brother, I really thank you for so many years, and my brother will definitely thank you." You've worked hard to take care of both of us at the same time. ”

I heard the third brother sigh

Later, I learned that my brother had been released from prison at this time. The third brother didn't tell me because his brother didn't let him tell me, in fact, this time my brother also came to this small city, and he wanted to see the environment in which I lived and worked, but he didn't dare or wanted to see me.

125

My brother is ten years older than me, and my third brother is eight years older than me, and I may still be a child in their eyes, but in reality I have learned to change.

I still remember going home for the Chinese New Year that year, and I invited home early to return home. My mother also began to treat me like a guest. Thinking back a few years ago, I was still indignant when my sister was treated like this. And now I'm the guest, and they're the hosts. I can't help but feel a lot of emotion.

I still went to see Aunt Zhang, and my brother happened to go to the company and was not at home on the day I went. After that, Aunt Zhang told him that I was coming, and he didn't come home.

I used to sit in my brother's study every time I came, there was the smell of my brother, my first kiss, our quarrels, and so many memories of us.

Aunt Zhang won't come to bother me, I'm just here silently thinking, reminiscing, and missing. Sometimes I would sit and fall asleep.

The third brother came at noon, and the three of us had dinner together. They didn't say anything about the brother coming out.

Before leaving, I still took Aunt Zhang's hand and said, "Aunt Zhang, it's almost over, it's been more than four years, and my brother will be able to come out soon." I'm working now, and I can't always come to see you in the future, but I can answer the phone at any time. Aunt Zhang, if you have something, oh no, call me if you have nothing to do. ”

I felt that Aunt Zhang was also a temperamental, and said to me with red eyes, "Child, take good care of yourself when you are out alone" I couldn't say it anymore, so I choked up and went back to the room.

I looked at the third brother and felt strange, in the past few years, Aunt Zhang's mood has been very stable, and it is rare to see her crying again, what's wrong today?

"Let's go, I'll take you home." The third brother said.

"Well, good! Aunt Zhang, let's go. By the way, I shouted.

At the door of the corridor, I asked the third brother, "Third brother, where is your car!" ”

The third brother pointed to the distance, "Over there!" ”

"Ah, so far! Carry me! ”

Before the third brother could agree, I had already jumped on his back.

At the entrance of the corridor, there was my brother sitting in the back seat of a car I didn't know, he looked at me and the third brother, watched the third brother carry me to the side of the car, open the door, get in the car, and leave.

After the third brother dropped me off, he went back to his brother's house.

My brother is in the study, reading my message. After my brother went in, I saw the words my brother left in my notebook, and every time I came back to my brother's study, I would write something more. It's like writing a letter, and it's like writing to yourself.

The third brother pushed the door in

"Just now, you saw it all"

"Hmm"

"Hyosung and I ......"

"Needless to say, Shen Jue, if she really chooses you, please make her happy, I don't have the power to be by his side, treat her well."

"She still doesn't know you're out, what do you let her choose? How to choose? She never said she liked me. Yes, I like her, we are all adults, like, is it something that I can do alone? She is different from ordinary girls. ”

The elder brother didn't speak, just was silent.

In the silence, the lighter lid was opened and closed, and a cigarette flickered on and off, and the smoke slowly rose.

"Wang Hao, you really don't want to see her again?"

"It's all nonsense."

"Then why don't you tell her you're out. She may live in that city and never come back. You let her go? I haven't seen any correspondence between you, and I think she'll tell you that she's waiting for you to come out, waiting for you to come out to see her, and you can't bear to be alone in a place where you have no relatives? ”

"That is her family's arrangement, her own decision, even if she is lonely, she must bear it, this is the only way for her to grow up."

"Growth? The way to go? Whether she chooses you or me in the future, do we need her to grow? Do we need her to follow such a path? Compared to her growing up, what I want to see will always be the chubby and silly girl with two pigtails. ”

"Whether she chooses you or me, don't you know what our circle is like? How long can she survive in our circle without a head, without a brain? How to survive? Can we protect her for the rest of our lives? ”

"If you're not ready to protect her for the rest of your life, give up on her and tell her directly."

"Shen Jue, I know you like her, to put it bluntly, you love her, there are many ways to love, have you ever considered the way she wants, the way she needs it. You also said that she is different from ordinary women, the few times you have seen her, do you think she has not changed at all? Is she willing to be a little woman who has been cared for by you for a lifetime? ”

The third brother was stunned by the question. In the consciousness of the third brother, his little girl doesn't need to grow up, as long as she is still the original carefree teasing.

It turns out that love requires understanding each other's spiritual world.

126

The short Spring Festival holiday ended quickly. Since ancient times, I have been sad and parting, and from that time on, I have a deeper understanding of this poem.

Every time my mother saw me off, I would cry in the carriage for a while. This kind of parting makes me very uncomfortable, my heart is very uncomfortable, and sometimes my heart beats faster, and it is difficult to sit still.

After resuming work, after half a year of study, I have basically understood the locals, started to communicate with people, and the whole person is much more cheerful than before.

The third brother rarely contacted me after that quarrel with his brother.

The elder brother officially returned to his company and continued his work as general manager, and the third brother also returned to his original position.

The main reason for the change of blood is that the elder brother established a new company, and the third brother is the general manager of the new company, and the original people have followed the third brother to the new company. Theoretically and emotionally, this may be a good thing, but there are always two sides to the story, and there is no absolute good or absolutely bad. Later, when my brother told me about it, I could understand it.

Fortunately, the third brother and the elder brother have a deep relationship, and their thoughts and goals are to make a big industry, and they neither ask much nor pay attention to these things. The so-called brothers work together to break the gold, which is probably what it looks like.

My job is relatively simple and not challenging, but I'm also quite flexible, even though I'm a little fatter. The only thing I need to exercise for this job is to sit still, eight hours a day, and I have to be able to sit still. In order to practice sitting skills, I bought a cross-stitch, which happened to be popular at that time. I can also pass the time, the company is far away from the city, I don't have any transportation, I usually don't go out, and there is no TV and computer in the dormitory, cross-stitch has become my main activity after tea and dinner.

I don't know when, every day at a fixed point the third brother will call, two people in Shannan and Haibei talk a lot, a phone call usually lasts about an hour, hang up the phone before going to bed and always send a message, sometimes I always complain to him, tell him that he is okay and don't always call, he is so busy, the phone bill is so expensive. Every time I said that the phone bill was expensive, he would pay me the phone bill. That's it, if you don't answer the phone, you can't reply to the text message, otherwise there will always be a sense of guilt in your heart.

In the blink of an eye, it was the middle of the year, and the company received instructions from the superiors to organize employees to donate blood. My colleagues in the unit all looked at me with strange eyes. The first is that I think what a girl is donating blood for, and the second is that I think I am donating blood for welfare. In fact, at that time, I didn't know that there were benefits to donating blood.

The company sent a total of five comrades, and the other four were gay men except me. After donating blood, the company leaders invited us to dinner, and it turned out to be chicken soup. A bowl full of chicken soup with flowers, I don't want to drink it at all. Who would have expected that the leader specially filled me with a bowl, and said vigorously, "Drink it, comrades, you also contribute to the company." I'm still sitting next to the leader, it's not a problem if I don't drink, so I pretend to pick up the bowl and drink, it's okay to serve the bowl, one end is startled, and there is a chicken feather in the bowl. I feel so embarrassed that I can drink it.

Finally, the tortured banquet was over, and after the end of the ceremony, the director of the office took us to the supermarket and said that we would be given 300 yuan in benefits to each person to buy supplements. The director of the office said, "Let's be humane, 300 yuan per person, buy what you want."

This time, the comrades were all happy. Just buying supplements is not the point, the point is on the way back to the unit, and the director of the office said, "Each person will be given a subsidy of 1,000 yuan, and another week's vacation"

I couldn't sit still, "Director, don't deduct your salary during the holidays"

"Of course not"

"What are the formalities to be done?"

"No"

I immediately began to figure out what I was going to do for this week's vacation.

The next morning, I explained the reason to the department manager, picked up my bag, and got into the car home.

I don't know what it feels like to go home until I leave home, and I don't know what I miss until I leave.

I didn't inform anyone that I was going back. I wanted to surprise them. I didn't even go back to my own house and went straight to my brother's house. In addition to my parents, the person I want to see the most is the third brother, and if my brother is outside, I think I would like to see my brother even more. But it's not easy to see my brother. There was a hint of sadness in my heart.

On the way, I called the third brother: "Third brother, where are you?" ”

"At Wang Hao's house"

"You're at your brother's house so early"

He suddenly realized that he had said the wrong thing: "Oh, the refrigerator at home is broken, I'll come over and take a look earlier." ”

"Oh, is that fixed? Will you leave in a moment? ”

"I, I. What's the matter with you, are you still checking the post? ”

"I didn't check the post, why should I check your post, it's okay to call and ask you. Let's hang up first. ”

With an extra 1,000 yuan subsidy, I went to my brother's house in luxury. Suddenly there was a special urge to see the third brother, it's good, he's here.

The third brother and the elder brother are discussing work matters.

The elder brother asked, "Hyosung called you?" ”

"Well, the headless one didn't say anything."

"Let's go to breakfast first, and then go to the company for a meeting."

Taxi soon arrived downstairs at my brother's house, I walked like a fly, and when I got to the door, I had the key, so I opened the door and entered. shouted "Third brother, I'll come back......"

I was stunned by what I saw.