The first time I saw her was when I went to the mountains to relax, she sat alone on the ground, although she hurt her leg, but there was stubbornness and arrogance in her eyes, as if even death would not open her mouth to beg me to save her. I laughed in my heart, but I was just a ten-year-old child, a little girl who was two years younger than me, how could she be so stubborn?

When I carried her down the mountain, she cautiously asked me why I didn't look down on her, because everyone in the village would look down on the Miao people. I was shocked, it turned out that she was the pair of Miao masters and apprentices that my uncle said. I heard my uncle say that this pair of Miao people is different from ordinary Miao people, they can do witchcraft, and they can poison people, put Gu on people, and have a vicious mind, which is very powerful.

Before my mother left the cabinet, I was most favored by my uncle, and I knew that my uncle also wanted to avenge my mother, but the enemy's power was too great, and we didn't have that ability. If you can get the help of this pair of Miao masters and apprentices, maybe there will be hope for revenge. I made up my mind in my heart, and I smiled and said to her, all beings are equal, why should Miao people be looked down upon.

Since then, I began to deliberately please Lan Lin, and I found that this little girl looked strong and ruthless on the surface, but in fact she was very fragile inside. If you are good to her, she will be ten times better to you. So I stopped the children in the village from isolating her again and took her to play with everyone. Although the children in the village didn't like her, they didn't dare to resist my words because of her uncle's face.

It's just that what I didn't expect was that Lan Lin actually confessed to me that day, she said that she liked me and wanted to be my bride when she grew up. I was taken aback, although I said that I didn't look down on the Miao people, but as a Han Chinese, I still felt that the Miao people were barbarians and were not the same race as us. What's more, I was sent by my parents to receive an elite education since I was a child, and I don't necessarily have a common language with people like Lan Lin who don't necessarily recognize all Chinese characters. I smiled and said that she was still young and didn't understand love, so I politely rejected her.

I thought that my refusal would make her retreat, who knew that this little girl was very persevering, almost every month will confess to me, a whole ten years, every time I see her timidly standing beside me to confess when the surface is stubborn and strong, but in the bones there is some fear of injury I have a little bad taste in my heart, slowly, I am about to find a reason for refusal.

After ten years of getting along, I have pity for her, but whenever I see her poisoning people who say she is bad behind her back and girls who approach me, I can't express my disgust. How old she is, she was taught so viciously by her elusive master, poisoning people at every turn, and a few girls who walked close to me would have lost their lives if I hadn't interceded. This kind of behavior made my disgust continue to rise. I also think about the way back, if I use her to take revenge but don't marry her, I'm afraid that I will end up being poisoned to death by her, right? Instead of that, it's better for me to run away first so that she can't find me, so that she won't be killed.

The plan I had been planning for ten years was finally implemented at the age of twenty-two, when I learned that the people who had killed my whole family had returned to that ancestral house, I tricked Lan Lin into helping me go down the mountain to take revenge, I thought I had long been accustomed to Lan Lin's methods, but when I saw the group of enemies she was begging for death, I still couldn't help but feel a chill rising from the soles of my feet. It turned out that in the past, she really only punished the people in the village slightly, and the really vicious methods were only now seen by me. I couldn't help but have mixed feelings in my eyes when I looked at her, there was disgust, fear, and pity, but more often than not, I wanted to run away, and I didn't want to see this woman who scared me again.

I thought that if these people died, our revenge would be over, but they didn't want to underestimate this family, their relatives actually invited a mage to fight against Lan Lin, and Lan Lin was seriously injured and almost died. At that moment, I felt a little guilty in my heart, and when I saw her miserable little face, I couldn't help but say that I would take care of her for the rest of my life. At that moment, something shiny in Lan Lin's eyes sparkled, but I didn't know that I regretted it after I exited.

Later, I sent Lan Lin back to her master to recuperate, and I left the small village where I had lived for ten years after leaving a letter for my uncle. I went to Shanghai, the big city I have always longed for. I remember when I was a child, my father always wanted to send me here to study, and my father said that when I grew up, he would send me here to study in high school and college, and he said that he wanted me to experience the prosperity of the big city.

I've come to this big city that my dad has mentioned countless times and I've always longed for. But I didn't expect this big city to be as easy to mix as I thought. This is a place to watch people cook, I don't have a good family background, I don't have much money, I don't even have a craft, I can't even find a decent job, and in the end the owner of a small shop saw that I had studied for a few years, and took me in to be a bookkeeper in the shop.

In the past, I always looked down on the things that Lan Lin learned, maybe it was influenced by my uncle, and I always felt that those were crooked and heretical, and they were things that could not be put on the table. But when I really came to the big city, I realized how popular a master with spells like Lan Lin was among the rich, and he usually spent a lot of money to ask them to do something. As for the women in this big city, they don't look down on me, even the kind of very poor civilian daughter is not willing to find me, a country from other places to settle down, and there is no father and mother, maybe it is the person who is a father and mother.

After seeing too many girls looking at me, I suddenly missed Lan Lin, remembering that she would never dislike my background, would not dislike me for not having a father, would not care if I had a family property, and would not care if I could afford to support her in the future. As long as I say a word, even if I give up my life, I am willing. Thinking about it, her heart couldn't help but throb.

In this way, I spent several years in Shanghai. Maybe it's my luck, because of my excellent looks, I was looked down on by the daughter of the owner of the shop where I worked, this owner only has such an only daughter, the owner told me that if I am willing to join their family, he is willing to pay to support me to continue my studies, and in the future, this huge family business is also my and his daughter's, and even the second child can follow our Duan family's surname.

The owner's daughter was a delicate and beautiful little girl, much younger than Lan Lin, and she stood timidly beside me, telling me her love for me with a shy face. At that moment, the delicate figure in my memory and the figure of the little girl in front of me inexplicably coincided. I suddenly found that every time the figure in my memory showed me love, my heart was happy, silently engraved her every word and every action in my heart, but when the little girl in front of me showed love, I had an inexplicable resistance in my heart. It turned out that I don't know when Lan Lin had lived in my heart, and I had already been moved by her, but I didn't know it.

Everyone thinks I'm going to shit luck, a poor boy from a poor country is about to fly up the branches and become a phoenix. But I rejected this family business in the surprised eyes of everyone, packed up my things and went back to the small village, back to the place where I first met her, and to my surprise I met her here who had just returned from a foreign country. Looking at the familiar face that he had recalled thousands of times in his memory, he couldn't help but blurt out the words of the proposal.

At that moment I saw her burst into tears, but told me that it was too late. She said we would never go back to where we were.

After that day, I followed Lan Lin cheekily, and I could see that she still had affection for me in her heart, and I was unwilling to give up. How can you forget the love of ten years. I followed her to Nanjing, the imperial capital, and when I arrived here, I learned that Lan Lin had lived a life of being a man over the years. His master has a close relationship with the Xu family, one of the four major families, and she is also engaged to the current head of the Xu family. Here, there are countless people who want to climb their master and apprentice.

Lan Lin's master was annoyed that I had deceived Lan Lin and almost killed me directly. After that, although he left me alive, he didn't have a good face for me. Lan Lin is now in charge of the sect created by her master, and there are dozens of disciples under her sect. Among them, there is a disciple about the same size as Lan Lin, who is said to be a close disciple of Master Lan Lin, who is extremely talented and cares about Lan Lin very much, and I can see the love for Lan Lin in his eyes.

I don't know if my return untied Lan Lin's heart knot, since we met that day, Lan Lin's personality has become peaceful, and she began to get along with the boys around her, especially her junior brother. Whenever I see the two of them getting along harmoniously, my heart is sour. But what can I say? I missed it myself! I once hurt her so deeply, what right do I have to ask for anything from her.

Even though I lied to her and used her, she still allowed me to stay by her side, even raising me, a half-waste who had no ability in the eyes of everyone. I heard that one of the people who has a good relationship with her is named Zhou Ruoshui, who is a master of Xuanmen and can predict the future fate of others. I secretly begged the master when the master came to Lan Lin to discuss things, and asked her to tell my fortune to see if Lan Lin and I were still together.

Master Zhou stared at me for a while, sighed, and said that some people missed it and would not come back. At that moment, there was unprecedented pain in my eyes, perhaps the pain in my eyes stung the heart of the master Zhou who would soften her heart when I asked for two words, and she shook her head and left. In the next second, I saw the picture of Lan Lin and her junior brother coming out to see Master Zhou leave.

My heart ached. I remembered that day when we met again sitting in the mountains, she was clearly in tears but pretended to be strong and smiled to tell me about the past, telling me what kind of affection she has been harboring in the past ten years, listening to my heartache, in the end, she said that since I chose to leave, then she also chose not to love me anymore, you have no intention of me to leave, we will have nothing to do with each other in the future. Let me forget about her and find a new lover.

But, Lan Lin, I have been loved by you like this, how can I still love others in the future?

I want to grasp the beauty again, but I can't hold it anymore, holding the handkerchief in my hand when I was a child when she carried the blue rain down the mountain, I unconsciously burst into tears, in fact, I already have her in my heart, it's just ...... It's been missed for a long time......