098, I love you
Fang Xiqiao's hands are very warm, this kind of warmth will easily make her hands cold and she is reluctant to leave, who doesn't want to get close to the warmth, but after seeing the trace of strangeness in Fang Xiqiao's eyes, she immediately came back to her senses and changed to hold the lower half of the glass that Fang Xiqiao had specially vacated.
After taking the cup into her hand, she lowered her eyes thoughtfully, stroked the somewhat warm wall with her fingertips, and nodded.
"Then I'll go to school first." Fang Xiqiao took back the hand that handed the cup, and when he turned around and walked towards the entrance, he lowered his head and touched the place that Yan Yue had held just now with his other hand, and the trace of strangeness in his eyes in front of him turned into joy, sneaky joy.
Now he only dares to sneak from Yan Yue to get joy and sweetness.
Yan Yue looked at the man's back, her breathing became more and more rapid, and after taking several deep breaths, she finally shouted, "Let's talk." "
The man's footsteps froze, he didn't look back, he wished he had a reason not to turn back like he had left the hospital, he wanted to turn back then, and now he doesn't want to look back.
Fang Xiqiao still turned around: "What do you want to talk about?" Why don't you wait until I get back? "
Yan Yue pursed her lips and didn't speak, just shook her head, but this made it even more impossible to refuse.
The man paced back to the living room, sat down on the single sofa, and as soon as he sat down, he unconsciously lifted a breath in his chest, and he was about to speak, Yan Yue had already opened his mouth in a mournful tone: "Did Mr. Fang have a good feeling about living alone?" "
"There have been before." Before meeting Yan Yue.
"And now..."Yan Yue sniffed, her head leaned back, her neck resting on the back of the sofa, she didn't want the man to see her eyes red, "Is that feeling coming back?" How easy does it feel to live alone? "
Fang Xiqiao opened his mouth, the feeling that he lived alone and was good never came back, since he met the woman in front of him, he never had that kind of thought, all he thought about was whether it would be fun for two people to live together, whether milk should be bought every two days, whether she could hear her coquettish sound every morning, whether there would be a good morning kiss and a good night kiss every day, and every night he would cover himself with a thick blanket and watch TV on the sofa, and he would hold a book and read.
It was as if the two of them had just confirmed their relationship on the night that Yan Yue leaned on him when she was tired of watching TV, and then reached out to wipe the cover of the book he was holding, and would talk to him about what he liked about the book.
Just think about it, he can go crazy, just want to have, desperate, and now he is, but he can't do it anymore.
When something that can break you doesn't appear, anyone can say that it's easy to exaggerate in front of everyone, but when something enough to break your will comes to the surface, you realize that no matter how stiff things are, there is always a way to break them.
For example, if you swear to live, there will always be some people who will come out and disturb your life.
For example, when the boy was young, he made a solemn promise that the sea was rotten, but in the end, he was pressured by money and reality, and easily pushed that promise into the sea.
But obviously he was fearless of all the above questions, why did he still lose his courage, he didn't dare to imagine that in the future, if the two of them got married in the future, he would live a happy life with Yan Yue with peace of mind, and selfishly forget the pain that his mother had inflicted on Yan Yue and her mother, but in case Yan Yue found out one day, ran to question him, and wanted to divorce him, at that time he was really not so confident that he could let Yan Yue go.
Fang Xiqiao did not answer.
Yan Yue, who had never heard a man's voice, had a dull look in her eyes, and when she reacted, her eyes were already occupied by sadness, it turned out to be true, why is a woman's sixth sense always so accurate.
"I've only been in love once, in college." She looked up at the ceiling blankly, the skin on her neck was a little tight, and her throat was a little itchy and suffocating, but she still didn't plan to change her posture, "At that time, I felt that it was troublesome to fall in love, and I had to divide half of my time to each other, even if all your time has been given to clubs, studies and various social activities, but you still can't snub your other half, you must remember to give gifts to each other on every holiday, remember what the other party likes to eat, what you like, and always pay attention to whether the other party is in a bad mood and whether there is a cold." , that's really troublesome, right? ”
Yan Yue raised her hands and pressed them to the back of the sofa, stretching her yawning waist, but her nose was already red and sour: "That was my first love, although I felt the beauty of love, the feeling of being cared for and loved by a completely irrelevant opposite sex, the two of them had nothing to do with each other before, but they held hands and became each other's most important partners, but that was only what I felt at the beginning, because I had never felt it so I felt it beautiful." ”
"But then I felt tired, too tired, too exhausted, very tired every day, but I still need to brace up the energy to say something unnutritious to a person, but I still love him at that time, so I am willing to use the last bit of energy to say that I love him when I am mentally tired, but in the end he seems to feel that I am powerless in this relationship, and he told me to break up, with his new girlfriend."
Yan Yue closed her somewhat dry eyes: "I think the best love is probably that the other party's unnutritious news will become a stimulant when you are tired, not a burden, so I feel a little regretful that I did not become a stimulant when Mr. Fang is tired." ”
These times, she can feel that this man is powerless to talk to her every day, just like she was in that relationship.
This man is tired and tired, and her presence seems to make him more tired and anxious now.
"You're me..." Fang Xiqiao subconsciously wanted to retort immediately, but in the end, he used his last reason to pull his emotions outside the 38th line.
Yan Yue heard the man's impatient voice, sat up straight and looked at the single sofa diagonally opposite, her face full of anticipation did not get the answer she wanted, and she could no longer raise her head to hide her embarrassment, "I am very grateful to Mr. Fang for taking care of me during this time, and thank you for working very hard with me, if there is no Mr. Fang when the Internet is violent, I may die." ”
Fonsijo heard "If not... Maybe" such a causal relationship, I also saw Yan Yue's tired and sad expression, the look of his pupils seemed to have been cut in half by a pair of scissors, and the look in his pupils was also, at this time, what he was thinking and doing in his heart was like a stream, and he said uncontrollably: "I love you." ”
After feeling that he was out of control, he added, "So you don't have to thank me." ”
"Thank you, because..."Because you don't love me now, maybe you still do, but this love is not enough to support us to continue to get along.
"Because we're friends..."Yan Yue took a deep breath, then stood up and walked around the sofa and walked to her room, the moment she turned around, tears flowed uncontrollably, and she tried to keep her voice steady with the last bit of energy after the all-night, "I still need to say thank you to friends, I'll go to bed first, Mr. Fang, go to work quickly." ”
After speaking, he walked directly into his bedroom.
The sound of the door closing made the stunned man come back to his senses suddenly, and then he only heard the man's self-deprecating chuckle, he looked at the door, and his body fell back to the sofa, he was holding back, not wanting the grief in his heart to run out and roar at him.
Endured it to the end, he gritted his teeth, reached out and grabbed his hair with some chagrin, and pulled his tie, but this still couldn't stop the suffocating feeling in his chest, so he subconsciously reached out and wanted to sweep all the things on the coffee table to the ground, but thinking that Yan Yue was in the room not far away, he withdrew his hand, held it tightly and got up and walked to the door.
With a heavy opening of the door, a crisp closing of the door, he had left.
They broke up.
Yan Yue cried in the room for a long time, because of the tiredness of the night, she woke up at twelve o'clock at noon, was woken up by the phone of the decoration master, the master who decorated the dessert shop for her asked her what color she wanted to paint on the wall, she answered and said that she had to go there first to see with her own eyes before deciding, and then immediately washed and changed clothes, and hurriedly ran to the dessert shop.
In the end, she chose a darker color, and the part near the floor was made of wooden wall panels, which she thought could be painted on or by the children who came to the store, so that she didn't have to worry about the noisy children brought by the parents.
Actually, this shop is said to be a dessert shop, but she plans to sell coffee in it at that time, and the deep walls will match the coffee, and the painting in the lower part will match the dessert, the painting will make the eyes happy, and the dessert will make people feel happy.
"By the way, big sister, the person who came to renovate the bathroom in front of me said that you would have time to go over and settle the bill." Workers working on the walls turned their heads.
Yan Yue nodded, said thank you, and hurriedly ran outside the store, the shop that helped install the toilet sink was also nearby, after she took out her bank card and settled the account, she suddenly remembered that Fang Xiqiao's room book and bank card passbook were all there for her, as well as the ring on her hand, and when she went back, pack up all the things and return them.
Because she was too lazy to take the car, so the dessert shop finally chose to open on the street not far from the apartment, the location is very good, there are universities and kindergartens nearby, and it can be reached in half an hour from the apartment, and that store was also looked at by Fang Xiqiao in advance, a long time ago.
The deposit for the store must have been paid by him, and this must also be repaid.
As long as there is no relationship between two people, then they want to return everything, others want to draw a line, and she just wants to tell the man that she can live without him, she can't live without him, although she transferred the wrong account in front of her, but who turned her into a person who can't live, she used to be able to live alone.
She doesn't have to rely on anyone anymore, no one anymore.