On the first day at the clinic, I couldn't remember which doctor I was with, I gave my first day all to nervousness, my god. Why do I just say that it sounds like slow heat, and to be honest, it's cowardice. I have no skills and no knowledge, everything seems to start from scratch, following Xiao Chen, walking around, like a fly without a head, Xiao Chen is quite generous, let me do this and that, take a cotton swab and take a tape, "You come to tie it?" this patient. Xiao Chen asked. I said wait, and then a patient came, and she asked me to prick me and wait, but she didn't bother to ask, and went straight to herself. When an apprentice can become an apprentice depends entirely on when he can not be intimidated, and the moment he is not cowardly, he will be an apprentice. This is the first day I came to the clinic, I didn't dare to touch the needle, laugh at me, despise me.

After getting off work, saying goodbye to the doctor and Xiao Chen, I collapsed on the bed, and my heart was temporarily relieved. At night, the more I think about it, the more I toss and turn, keep thinking, keep comforting myself, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, you can do it, you can do it, everyone else can do it, why can't you, you must be brave tomorrow, what do you do, that's what you do. Isn't there a saying that does one line of work, one line of work, one line of work, no line, no line. So I have to do it.

I forgot to mention that I have two places of work, one in Xiaobei and one in Jixiang, which requires our nurses and doctors to work back and forth, both of which are one clinic, why do I need to work shifts, one of the big reasons is to take care of the distance of all nurses and doctors. Later, a patient asked me why I changed nurses twice in three days, but we were not afraid that something would happen, so we could avoid responsibility the next day.

My next day came, still followed Xiao Chen, she rented a room outside, and then came to the clinic in the morning to meet me, I went to Jixiang with her with trepidation, and entered the door A middle-aged man about fifty years old sat on a stool, because Xiao Chen mentioned it to me before, I also called this uncle "uncle" like her. "Hello uncle!" I said hello politely, my uncle smiled at me, and then asked me where I was from, I said I was from Tieling Troop Mountain, he said oops, my sister's house is in Tiaobing Mountain, where is your family Diaobing Mountain, I replied that my home is not in Tubing Mountain City, my family is in Gushanzi, oops, my brother-in-law has been in Gushanzi, I have also been to Gushanzi...... Watching him happily talk about how he helped his brother-in-law buy wine at the age of seventeen or eighteen, how he carried a large box of wine on the train, and how he lost several bottles, plus the old man was also easy-going, and suddenly felt a sense of intimacy, this is a down-to-earth, easy-to-get along with and nagging little old man.

A few patients came one after another, Xiao Chen asked me to prick, but I coaxed again, shirking not pricking, and then somehow Liang Jingru seemed to give me courage, an uncle was waiting for a needle in the back room, I whispered to Lao Chen in the disposal room, I will prick this uncle, Xiao Chen said happily, okay. I took the cotton swab, dipped the cotton swab, opened the infusion patch, took the tourniquet, and inserted the infusion set, I was shaking very funny... Came out with something, the uncle honestly lay on the bed, in order to hide the nervousness and the uncle chatted nonsense, exhaust, tie the tourniquet, disinfection, the process of secondary exhaust has been done for a long time, because I am still not familiar with the process, although I remember in my heart that the melon is ripe, but after all, there is still some gap between theory and practice, the uncle must be muttering in his heart, will this girl get a needle, I look at this uncle's hand, it is indeed different from everyone's blood vessels, not ordinary fine, At that time, I was stupid and didn't know how to change my hand, so I grabbed the uncle's hand and didn't let go, holding the needle handle, facing the blood vessel, and just slammed it in, God, I didn't tie it. Uncle bared his teeth on the side and grinned a little unhappy, and hurriedly apologized to the uncle, Uncle I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm really embarrassed, uncle, you rest for a while, and I'll prick you again in a while. Uncle didn't say anything, but his expression was a little complicated, and I repeated the preparations I had just made, but the amplitude of the trembling was very large, and the psychological pressure rose to a certain point. There was a lot of nonsense when I was ready to tie the dripping stream for the uncle, but how could the uncle be in the mood to pay attention to you, you pierced the needle to someone better than 10,000 sorry, this is the truth I understood later, after all, the winner is king, and the loser is the villain. The second shot was another shot, and the uncle's expression was even more complicated, so he threw me a sentence directly, are you an intern? "No, how can it be an internship, I have graduated, and I have finished my internship, uncle." I replied. In fact, what is the difference between me and an internship, and now I am telling this true lie, and my heart is still quite empty. Okay, I really didn't have the face to prick the uncle anymore, so I called Xiao Chen and asked Xiao Chen to pierce the uncle, it turned out that the uncle was really difficult to pierce, and Xiao Chen made up three more injections for the uncle. Uncle has a dead heart, don't ask me how I see it, the atmosphere of the scene is not much worse than a horror movie.

I secretly encouraged myself with a big heart, it's okay, what is this failure, yes, what is this failure, there are more failures behind, haha. After all, I took the first step, and then I let go a little bit...... Countless dots. I was suffering from Waterloo for a few days in a row, wondering if I should change careers, every time I was a little bit of a needle, I didn't dare to go in without blood, and hurriedly shouted Xiao Chen to save the field, and then summed up the problem, that is, the blood vessels I pierced were right, but I didn't dare to send needles in, and finally, I got the first successful injection in my life. A week is almost over, and I can always get lucky, although the rate of hitting the nail on the head is not high, but I have also experienced the joy of success. Thank you Xiao Chen for leading me to take the first step.

Such a week that tested my mind, every day the patients questioned me, I questioned myself, I doubted myself in the struggle, now I think about myself at that time was really useless, but also really growing, how useless the past was, the more I admire my current pampering and humiliation, the more I see, the more broad-minded I become.

Every day after work, I tell myself not to think too much about how tomorrow will be better, and to relax myself, a big heart is really an advantage, not a disadvantage. Although a person like me is not suitable to marry home as a daughter-in-law, but I can live a colorful life of a group of people, that is, I have a big heart, and no matter what, I can live a good life alone, although I was not alone at that time, I will say this, think about my Aquarius girl's thinking is too strange, too fast, like an alien, maybe not suitable for the scourge of earthlings.