In the past few months, I tried to contact my family again, but there was still no result, and I strongly asked 017 to help me contact my family to pick me up, but although he said yes on the surface, in the end there was no news.

Since the failed attempt to dig a hole and escape, I have become more depressed and have no interest in doing anything, and I suspect that my depression has progressed to severe depression.

There is a detail that I have not been able to figure out when digging the hole before, that is, there is not a single gap in the place where the wall borders the mountain, and even the most clever construction unit cannot do such an effect. If a notch was really made in the mountain during construction, then the notch was too accurate, as if it had been cut out with a laser.

At first glance, it feels as if the wall was born to grow with the mountain.

I can't figure out these questions, anyway, I completely gave up and stayed in the room in a daze all day.

In the blink of an eye, another few months passed, and my heart sank more and more.

Suddenly, one day, 017 brought me a letter when he came on a ward round.

The handwriting on the envelope was beautiful, and my heart jumped wildly.

It was really written to me by Xiao Wei.

Wu Zi:

Hello!

I'm really sorry that my selfishness has made you suffer so much. You must be wondering how I know where you are now, because your parents have been looking for me for months and only recently found me. As soon as I heard that you had degraded personality disorder because of a broken love, my heart was completely broken, and I cried for a whole day.

I'm so selfish, please forgive me!

Your mom and dad are currently working in my dad's company, I explained the situation to him, and he is also very sympathetic to your family's plight, and the incident started because of me, so he also wants to make up for my mistakes, and your parents are currently fine, so please don't worry.

Your dad told me that he had signed an agreement with the Sweet Memories Foundation that he would be free of charge while you were hospitalized, but on the condition that you would not be discharged until the illness had healed, and that you would not be able to visit during the period to prevent your condition from fluctuating.

Originally, I couldn't write to you, but I asked my dad to write this letter with a lot of connections, so you can write this letter after you receive it, and you don't have to reply to me.

The last time I parted with you, I promised you that I would never fall in love with anyone else again in my life, please rest assured that I will keep my promise.

If you are well and discharged from the hospital, I will come and pick you up, and when the time comes, I will intercede with my father and let him fulfill us. I think my parents can tell from this that you are sincere to me and that there should be room for negotiation.

So, please cheer up now, the most important thing is to take care of the illness first, and hope that one day in the future you and I can hold hands and be with us for life.

Love you Xiao Wei

”

After reading this letter, I couldn't help but cry, too many grievances, too much sadness, with the tears released.

It turns out that my parents have been helping me find her, and it turns out that she has really been loving me all the time. Although I don't know how my parents knew about me and her, maybe they went to the internet café to inquire, or when I told the doctor and I forgot about it.

Although our hometown is within the same big city, how much effort it takes to find such a person in the vast sea of people, I remember that I once misunderstood my parents and resented them, and I couldn't help but feel ashamed of myself.

After venting my emotions, my depression symptoms got much better.

Since receiving this letter, I have quickly become a completely different person, full of confidence in life, and I vow that I will be reborn as a different person before I am discharged from the hospital, and I will never live another life.

My fear of the top floor is gone, the next day 017 came to the ward round, I took the initiative to pull him and asked him to take me to do electroconvulsive therapy again, he looked at me a little surprised, after a while before saying that your condition can not do electroconvulsive therapy for the time being, and then give it to me when necessary for a while.

I made a plan to go to the library to recharge my batteries, and after coming here, I only borrowed novels from the library a few times, except for playing football and chatting and watching TV. The library is on the roof of another building, and I found that there is still a large collection of books in it, all kinds of books, which were originally used by patients to pass the time, but now they can be used by me to enrich my knowledge.

At first, I borrowed books related to computers, programming languages, but because there were no computers to practice here, I couldn't go into it for a while.

Later, I borrowed all kinds of books, except novels, 10 at a time, and started taking reading notes.

In the dead of night, there should not be a few rooms in the whole building with lights on, and I am still reading at night for future happiness.

Slowly I found that whenever it was the middle of the night, especially from 1 a.m. to 5 a.m., my brain would become unusually awake and active, and my reading efficiency was much higher than during the day, so I began to develop an upside-down life routine, sleeping during the day and reading at night.

Time flies, another year has passed in a blink of an eye, but my condition has not improved much, and the difference from the past is that I have expectations in my heart, and my studies have completely enriched my life, so I don't feel worried.

I can't remember how many books I read in this year, but it was very, very much, several times more than the books I read in the ten years when I was in school, during which I read a lot of philosophical and religious books, and I became interested in thinking about the meaning of life and the truth of the world. There are other religion-related things like spirituality that I am also interested in and start meditating and meditating in my free time.

Sometimes in the dead of night, I stand in front of the window, and it is pitch black except for the stars outside, and everyone is sleeping.

Why do humans and many animals need to sleep?

Remembering that I had been depressed all day due to early awakening due to depression, I guessed that there must be a close connection between sleep and spirit. Sleep because it's dark, if you don't sleep, primitive people go outside at night, they will inevitably be easy to see the surrounding environment and fall and get injured, and the injury will be infected, and the infection will be fatal. In addition, wild beasts are often active at night, they have better vision, and primitive people will inevitably be attacked by wild beasts when they go out at night.

Therefore, it is in line with the law of nature to arrange the sleeping process at night, and go out to consume the spirit during the day, and sleep to replenish the spirit when it is inconvenient to move at night.

Everyone understands that sleep can replenish the spirit, but how does this spirit replenish? I'm afraid few people understand!

The transition between day and night is caused by the rotation of the Earth, which revolves around the Sun and brings about changes in the seasons of the year.

So why does the earth rotate?

The explanation in the book is that in the early days of planet formation, the angular momentum brought by the high-speed rotation of a large number of debris brought the power of rotation to the earth, although this explanation is reasonable, but I think there may be more profound laws behind it.

Why does the Earth revolve around the Sun?

Newton discovered that gravitation, a force that attracts each other between matter, called gravitation, is through this force that the earth firmly attracts us, and at the same time, the earth is also firmly attracted by the sun and revolves around it.

Einstein also proposed the theory of relativity, arguing that gravity is nothing more than the distortion of space caused by the huge mass of the sun, just like a heavy ball placed on a flat membrane, the flat membrane will sink downward, and the earth will just circle the sun on the sunken membrane at a certain speed.

So how does mass cause space warps?

Einstein didn't explain.

Due to my illness, I have been trying to find a way to heal myself in books, and in the process, I have developed a strong interest in religion and spirituality, and I have started to practice.

At first, I didn't practice systematically, but just meditated in my spare time. Meditation is just sitting there thinking about nothing, focusing only on your breathing, and if a thought comes to you, don't worry about it, just go whatever you want. After sitting for ten minutes to half an hour, the mind will become very clear, and the efficiency of replenishing mental energy is higher than sleeping.

After practicing meditation for a while, I found some strange phenomena, such as when I closed my eyes before, I couldn't see anything, but now when I close my eyes, especially in the dark, I will have all kinds of pictures in my mind, sometimes the pictures are clear and sometimes blurry, and the content of the pictures is simply strange, which I can never imagine.

What are these images? Are they what is commonly referred to as daydreaming? But shouldn't dreaming be a day and a night? How can you dream about a situation that you have never experienced?

At that time, I was only amazed and amused, but I didn't know that after meditating on the practice, I had unconsciously activated the sixth eye, which is the so-called Tianyantong in Buddhism, also known as the right brain imaging function. In fact, everyone who can daydream is a person who activates the eye of the sky, and each of us has its own eye after birth, but most of them close after childhood, and only a few can retain this function after adulthood.

People in the countryside also know that don't take the doll up the mountain when going to the grave, because they are afraid that the doll will be frightened when they see the wandering spirits in the mountains, because in the countryside it is generally believed that the ghost can be seen before the halogen door on the top of the child's head is completely closed.

But I've never seen a ghost in reality, and if I want to imagine a ghost, of course Sadako's appearance will pop up in my mind, but when I open my eyes, I can only see the real world.

Because this visual function appeared after practicing meditation, I naturally understood that there were some small results in cultivation, so I practiced harder, and sat down to meditate whenever I had time, sometimes in the ward, sometimes in the library, sometimes in the stadium, but fortunately, this was originally a mental hospital, no matter how weird things you do, everyone thinks there is nothing strange.

In addition to practicing meditation, I also developed a strong interest in astral projection, the so-called astral projection is the soul out of the body, I couldn't think of how there is such a thing in the world, as soon as the soul is out of the body, people become dead?

But I found a book in the library called "Astral Projection", written by a foreigner named Robert Bruce, which teaches you how to let your soul slip out of your body while you are half asleep and play, and after the soul leaves the body, it is tied to a strap, and then you can swing around and play around, and when you have had enough, you can come back and wake up in an instant.

To be honest, I was skeptical of this at first, and I was scared to experience it, if the strap broke, I would never come back?

I don't want to die by myself, if I die, I will never see my parents and Xiao Wei again.

But after reading that book, I couldn't help but want to try it, because it says that everyone is good at leaving the body, but they just don't know it. Guess what the book says?

The book actually says that when we sleep every day, we are automatically leaving our souls!

This statement is simply insane!

But it seems to make some sense, it says that when everyone sleeps, the soul floats out to absorb the spiritual energy between heaven and earth, and there is not only one soul in each person's body, but several souls, layer by layer, just like the Russian nesting doll, when people are asleep, a nesting doll slips out of the big nesting doll, the nesting doll releases a small nesting doll, and the small nesting doll jumps out of a nesting doll, which is as many as six or seven layers.

Sky!

I have to admit that the author's imagination is rich, but it is outrageous!

Do I have a lot of souls living in me? Which soul is the real me?

Actually, I've thought about this question before, who am I?

Am I a particle of matter?

Apparently not, if I am a particle, then I ate pork today, am I becoming a pig?

So am I my name?

Obviously not, if I go to the police station and change my name, I am still me, and the name is just for the convenience of interacting with others.

So am I DNA?

This statement is more reliable, although the form of each of our cells is different, for example, the cells that form bones and the cells that form skin look completely different, but the DNA in the nucleus is exactly the same, only in the process of cell differentiation in the fetal period, some control switches in the nuclear DNA open and close, and cells with various functions are changed.

But DNA is not the real me, if I have an identical twin brother, the DNA of the two people is exactly the same, the two people are exactly the same, the two people are exactly the same, and the personalities and interests are also very similar, is he me, am I him?

Some crazy Nazis are trying to find Hitler's remains, trying to clone Hitler out through cloning technology, is the person who is cloned exactly like Hitler himself?

I don't think so, just like identical twins, although outsiders can't find the difference between the two, but their parents are easy to distinguish, because the habits of the two people are not exactly the same, and people close to them can tell by looking at each other. The eyes reveal the message of the soul, and this feeling cannot be expressed, only felt. If you tell your twin brother that you are your brother, I'm afraid he won't be able to accept it. Although they have the same appearance, they each have their own different souls. But the topic of the soul is so ethereal that only the soul can show what it looks like through deeds and words while a person is alive, but will the soul still be there after a person dies?

Have you ever seen a soul?

I haven't seen it, but the methods described in the book "Astral Projections" may help me to confirm that the soul exists independently.

Although I don't like reading since I was a child, I have always had a strong desire for knowledge, and I am very interested in all extracurricular knowledge, but I am not interested in the knowledge taught by the teacher in the classroom, isn't it strange?

In order to verify that the soul really exists, I decided to take the risk and give it a try, just try once, and then I won't play, after all, life matters, right?

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