"Because of his affection for you." Faced with Lin Xi's question, Feng Xiaoxiao replied decisively, "Sister Xi, can't you really consider him?" ”

"It's not that I can't try to love him, it's that I can't forget someone." Lin Xi was still smiling, and bitter emotions became more and more evident on his face, "I tried to love others in the past, but ...... I can't do it yet. ”

In the first semester of studying abroad, in the library, she met Qin Mufeng. That was their first meeting abroad, and Liu Rong had always said that he was studying abroad in Neon, but he didn't expect it to be the same school as himself. Qin Mufeng was very happy to see her that day, and talked to her a lot, and they became friends. She thought that she could find a friend like Ke Yang who took care of her in a foreign country, but in the second semester, Qin Mufeng suddenly confessed to her.

"I have a boyfriend, I'm sorry Brother Feng." That was the first answer she gave him.

"It's Goyas." Qin Mufeng smiled meaningfully, and she nodded, "Wasn't he taken out of the country by his mother?" I heard that you have cut off contact with people you know, but you haven't broken it? Still together? ”

Qin Mufeng's every question was a thorny thorn, but she could only catch it with her bare hands.

It was the 635th day that Gao Yas disappeared from her life, she didn't expect that the difference of that seaside trip would be like this, there was no news, if it wasn't for Min Qian, Min Jieyu, and Gao Zhengnan assuring her that Yas just went back to the United States with her mother, she would have thought that he had an accident like a bloody drama.

"I haven't been in touch, I'm waiting for him." Lin Xi replied.

"Are you going to wait forever? How do you know if he has called a girlfriend, foreign countries are not as conservative as at home, girls. Qin Mufeng smiled.

Although she knew that Qin Mufeng was teasing her, she was still very angry, "That's his business, I like to wait for him." With that, she left.

She's still the same, rarely angry with anyone. Afterwards, she calmed down and realized that she was not angry, but scared. Sometimes, she herself wonders how he is doing now, whether he is doing well. She had a thick diary, and she began to write from the moment she realized that he was not simply going abroad, and that day it was the 593rd chapter.

In chapter 649, Su Mei posted a photo of her and Gao Yasi in the circle of friends and sisters. Circle of friends with text: Finally found you. In the group of sisters, Su Mei told how she found him and how much she suffered in the middle. She hadn't seen him for a long time, and his face was a lot more refined, but the little tiger teeth that laughed were still so cute, but looking at his smiling face, she suddenly wanted to cry. She remembered Su Mei's confession to him when they were at the beach. At that time, she ran away without a fight, and even fled back to her nest.

Now, Su Mei is in the circle of friends: Xi, do you have any meaty love words that I need to bring?

No, he's fine.

She replied. Why should my love words be conveyed through others? I miss him, every day, every day. But why should it be conveyed through someone else?

Then, she blocked the message alerts of the sister group.

Her diary ends in article 774 (October 2013). On that day, Su Mei's Twitter and Instagram posted a photo of her and Gao Yas, with the text: You're my Apollo.

The dynamic picture of the circle of friends update is a photo with Gao Yas, with the text: Finally waiting for you.

The messages of the sister group haven't popped up much since she blocked them.,Every time she pops up, she reads the last piece of the page and deletes it if she's not interested.。 If Jingya looks for her, they are all direct private messages, and sometimes Jingya will tell her some news she heard from Su Mei, but she said, "I don't want to hear about him now, we are all doing well." ”

Yas was taken away by her mother very suddenly, without saying a word. Jing Ya has always been angry about this. Because only she knows how Lin Xi spent the summer vacation when Yas left.

The sister group was blocked until January 2014. During this period, Qin Mufeng tried his best to chase her, took her to many novel places, would also exchange some academic issues with her, and occasionally whipped her twice, intentionally or unintentionally.

One night, she was once again drunk at a party and spouted nonsense.

"Come with me, let him go, I've waited so long, that's enough." He carried her home and told her

In a daze, she replied, "Okay." ”

The next day, Qin Mufeng appeared at her door, she took Qin Mufeng home, and introduced Lin Minyu: "Mom, this is my boyfriend." ”

Lin Minyu just replied "um", then smiled at Qin Mufeng and went back to the room.

Then, she dated Qin Mufeng, played ball together, watched movies, drank, camped, and skied. However, everything was so boring that it even made her feel burdened. For the first time, she felt that dating was not a very happy thing, and it could also be like a subject assignment, a task. But she still tried to devote herself to her relationship with Qin Mufeng.

In March, when she was eating, playing, and watching movies with Qin Mufeng, when she looked back, she always regarded Qin Mufeng as Gao Yas in a trance. Qin Mufeng is very similar to Yas in terms of figure and body shape. The first time she saw him in the high school basketball league, she saw his back as Goyass.

In April, the cherry blossoms are in full bloom. Goyas appeared more and more frequently in her eyes, and then the memories began to drag her into the abyss, and the more she tried to escape, the more painful she felt. And now he was almost everywhere, and even if it was just walking towards her from afar, she could missee him.

In May, the cherry blossoms have fallen, and the falling flowers always make people fall into a sad whirlpool for no reason. Gao Yas was almost everywhere, even if Qin Mufeng was just walking towards her from a distance, she could mistake him. She was getting more and more unhappy. She finally realized that it was not a question of whether she was like or not, but that she could not escape her own heart.

"Sister, the person you like is not Brother Mu Feng, right?" Feng Xiaoxiao hit the nail on the head.

"You probably haven't seen him a few times, have you?" Lin Xi smiled.

"Just look at it." Feng Xiaoxiao was proud.

What I like is your idol. Lin Xi smiled but said nothing.

"Sister~" Feng Xiaoxiao felt distressed, "Since you don't like Brother Mu Feng, why can you be with him and not with Min Qian?" I think Min Qian loves you more than Brother Mu Feng. ”

Lin Xi still smiled tactfully, "I know, I knew a long time ago that Qianqian's feelings for me are no longer sister and brother, but I have been selfishly pretending not to know, even when he confessed to me, I was still pretending to be stupid, I obviously couldn't give him what he wanted, but I was afraid of losing him." In the end I lost him and made him what he is, and I don't even know how much he hurt me. He can't just linger with me. ”

On Min Qian's eighteenth birthday, she originally promised to return to China to spend with him. But because she was blocking the sisters and all news about Gayas at the time, she broke her promise. But Min Qian still made a video call to him.

At less than ten o'clock in the evening of August 19, she was woken up by an electric bell. Min Qian said that on his eighteenth birthday, the first thing he heard was when she said to him, "Happy birthday, congratulations on becoming an adult." ”

At the hour of the morning, she did.

"I like you, like as an adult, don't deny my liking again this time on the grounds that I'm still a child, okay? I know you like my brother, and I don't ask you to like me too, I just want you to know that my liking for you is never immature or a joke. He said, "If I liked you before my brother, you wouldn't like me." ”

Hearing this question, she made up a bloody drama in her brain, and then replied decisively, "I like this kind of thing and look at the first feeling, my first feeling of you is ......" little fart child, but I can't say it, he will be angry.

"Kids?" Min Qian's tone was displeased, and Lin Xi smiled secretly, "If it weren't for my brother, I would still chase you, I'm an adult now, and no one can care about it." ”

"Yes, yes, you're an adult, and you're still a teenager." She laughs.

"That's your boy, too."

"Good, my boy. Happy birthday and congratulations on finally coming of age. ”

It was her happiest day in the dark months.

And her teenager left her world in January of the following year.

"Are you with someone else?" She put an intimate photo of Qin Mufeng at her house for dinner on the circle of friends, and Min Qian's call hit her mobile phone in less than half an hour.

"Well, I started a new life." She said.

"What about my brother?" Min Qian asked.

This problem she also has on her own. Her answer was: He has a better life, he already has a better life, and I finally don't have to wait for him anymore.

But why did she cry when she was so happy.

"What is he? What are you? How long have you known him, how long have you known us? Why isn't that person my brother, you can start a new life and forget about my brother, why don't you think about me first, I also like you for so long? Why do you end up with someone else? He cried.

"I'm sorry." She only had three words.

Then Min Qian talked to her a lot, questioning, crying, and begging, but she couldn't listen.

Then, their goodbye was the rainy night when they saw Feng Xiaoxiao.

That night, when Feng Xiaoxiao broke away from Min Qian's hand and said to her, "Sister, I'll go first, you can talk", she saw in her eyes that she was deeply hurt in her heart. That night, after Min Qian left, she caught up with Feng Xiaoxiao. Feng Xiaoxiao took the mobile phone and money, and said to her, "Thank you, sister, I'll send it to you when I go back tomorrow." ”

Feng Xiaoxiao's eyes were red, but she stubbornly raised her face and smiled warmly. Her appearance made Lin Xi think of herself, and also thought of Min Qian.

She said, "Sister, go back and accompany him, he should be sad now, and he will really want to be accompanied." ”

"It's okay, he's going home on his own." Lin Xi returned.

Lin Xi stood beside her, she was soaking wet, Lin Xi held an umbrella and approached her side. She smiled and said "thank you" and lowered her head again.

"How long have you been together?" Lin Xi asked.

"We don't count together, it's because I've always wanted to stay with him." Feng Xiaoxiao's voice was almost drowned out in the sound of rain.

"I just returned to China, and this is the first time I've seen him since I returned to China, and he's been avoiding me before." Lin Xi smiled.

Feng Xiaoxiao raised her head and showed an expression of disbelief, "How could he avoid you, he should miss you very much." ”

Lin Xi was stunned, then the corners of his mouth were slightly hooked, looking at her eyes. Her tears were still rolling in her eyes, but her eyes were so stubborn. From that moment on, she seemed to see a different kind of brilliance in the eyes of the girl in front of her.