3. Loneliness in their own hearts

When they came back, Su Yilin and Liang Shan had already checked out at the counter.

Su Yilin regained his expression in class, and he couldn't see any thoughts, but Liang Shan's eyes were red and swollen, and he should have cried. This seems to be a reversal of the situation when it came.

Su Yilin drove out of the car and proposed to send the two back, but Liang Shan politely declined.

"Shanshan, it's about the last time I'll call you that, and in the future, I will fulfill your wish and become a pure teacher-student relationship with you. So, can I hold you one last time? ”

Even if he guessed such an ending, Liangzi, who was standing at the door of the store, was still shocked when he heard Su Yilin say this.

It turns out that not only does he live like a TV series, but Liang Shan's is many times more wonderful than himself, and it really comes from life.

Liang Shan's eyes were red, and he took the initiative to step forward and hug Su Yilin's waist, Su Yilin was very tall, and Liang Shan's petite head of one meter six could only be buried in his chest.

"I'm sorry. We can only be who we used to be. No one can go back. ”

"I just hope you're doing well, Liang Shan."

"We're all going to be fine."

After hugging, Liang Shan first pulled Liangzi who was on the side and left, no longer looking back at Su Yilin behind him.

I don't know if the time will be in time, and the two of them silently wait for the last bus back to school on the platform.

"It's all up to luck if we wait, if we wait, let's go buy lottery tickets!" Liang Shan tried his best to liven up the atmosphere, but Ryoko patted her on the shoulder, "I allow you to vent in front of me." ”

When sitting on the bus, the two of them had nothing to say, there were very few people on the bus, a few of them were sparse, and the driver was probably sleepy, yawning. Ryoko opened the window of the car and let the wind in, but the wind still carried the warmth of the day.

It feels almost, Ryoko wants to find some topics to talk about, and after struggling for a long time, he just took out the headphones from his bag and asked if he wanted to listen to the song? got an affirmative answer, Liangzi hurriedly turned on the mobile phone, but it turned out to be Lin Youjia's "Lying": "I don't have any shadow obstacles, you must not take it to heart, I am not fragile, not to mention what kind of injury is that, anyway, love is ......not like this" Listening to Lin Youjia's low and affectionate singing, Liangzi felt that the tone seemed to be too sad, this kind of song would only make the mood more depressed, fortunately, there were only three stations away, and the song arrived at the station before it was finished, Liangzi quickly took the mobile phone and pulled Liang Shan's hand to get out of the car.

There are still many students coming and going on campus at nine o'clock, in groups of three or five, or couples snuggling up and slowing down.

The two walked side by side, the tall plane tree blocked the light of some of the street lamps, causing their expressions to flicker and darken, Liang Shan turned his head and said to Liangzi with a smile: "Actually, you don't have to look at my face like this, I'm fine." ”

"Really? I thought I had to buy you two little puddings before your mood would change from rain to sunny, but this is good, but it will save me two little puddings. ”

"No, I have to give you this chance, or I'm afraid you won't go." Liang Shan turned his head with a righteous expression.

"Hey, if you want to eat, just say ......"

Liangzi breathed a long sigh of relief, and being able to joke showed that Liang Shan's mood was not too bad.

A small pudding for five cents is like magic, and after eating it, you can exchange it for a good mood like a rainbow.

After buying four small puddings from the supermarket, Liang Shan proposed to go to the playground to sit.

The two strolled to the new stadium and sat on the commanding heights of the stands looking down at the crowded runway below with students running at night. Xu is far away, dark and swarthy, and a person's face can't be seen clearly. The light in the stands was very bad, and there were several couples sitting sparsely in the distance, and Liangzi couldn't help but sigh, it was really a good place to do bad things between couples.

Even if there is a breeze, the biting mosquitoes around it are annoying, and within a while, Ryoko was bitten in several large bags. The two complained maliciously for a while about the couples not far away, and Liang Shan suddenly sighed heavily and leaned on Ryoko's shoulder.

"Actually, I and No. 8 are also here a lot, you don't know how funny the expression on his face is when I take the initiative to kiss him."

"I remember once eating some cold dishes mixed with garlic foam, brushing my teeth twice before going out, but after kissing, he complained that I was a good garlic person, and then I firmly remembered the stalk, saying that I was a rough man who was not particular. But the crux of the matter is, Ryoko, you say, isn't garlic just delicious? ”

"Uh...... No wonder ......"

"Shanshan, in fact, all you have are some good memories."

"yes. Good and bad, between me and him, no matter how big or small, I remember it all. ”

"You can't forget him."

"Just let it be."

"You and Su Yilin ......"

"It doesn't matter anymore."

Hearing Liang Shan's low tone, Liangzi deliberately teased: "I thought he would pester you for a long time, and he couldn't get the kind that you won't stop, it seems that your charm is no more than Er'er." ”

Liang Shan raised his hand and gently punched Liangzi's thigh, "Hmph, people's charm is great!" Small fists slam into your chest. ”

"Oh, then I won't break a boulder in my chest!"

"Seriously, everyone is an adult, as soon as the reason is said, it will be clear who will wait for whom hopelessly, no matter how affectionate he Su Yilin is, it is no exception."

"Yes. You see how cruel the adult world is in your mouth, but I still want to hear the story of the prince and princess living happily ever after. Even if the story is that men will cheat after marriage, and women will become yellow-faced women. ”

"And I'm better at cooking dark chicken soup than I am."

"Hahaha, how are you doing on the 8th lately?"

"I don't know. Hope he's okay. ”

"No news?"

"Nope."

"Are you going to wait for him?"

"I don't know, just let it be."

"Shanshan, you say...... What kind of people will we become in the end, are we not destined to be with the people we love? ”

"I really want to know what kind of person I will be in the future."

"What is the dividing line between good and bad? What is the difference between us in the eyes of others and us in our own eyes? ”

"I'd love to know the answer to that question."

"Why don't you know anything?"

"Didn't you ask me because you didn't know......"

Liang Shan is by his side, but each other's hearts are still not completely broken.

What if you say it? No one can help anyone, and the demon barrier in my heart can only be fought by myself.

Because of this, Ryoko in the dormitory likes to get along with Liang Shan the most.

Liang Shan is a smart person, he knows how to observe words and feelings, and every time he can understand everyone's desire to stop talking or embarrassing situations, and solve them in time. For Liang Shan, he is a confidant-like existence, and the soul level of the two is highly compatible, so they are the most relaxed and happy to get along.

Liang Shan, who wants to cherish for a lifetime.

Liang Shan, who is burdened with so many drinking stories......

After hesitating, Liangzi still decided not to confess Huo Heng's matter to Liang Shan.

Liang Shan is a person who loves and hates clearly, right and wrong are clear in black and white, if so, if she talks to Liang Shan, not to mention that the friendship between the two is affected, just from Liang Shan's point of view, she will be in a dilemma regardless of it. But why bother, everyone has their own choice, Liangzi wants to indulge herself to love that person, why embarrass Liang Shan, all the mistakes are her fault, no matter how Liang Shan complains about her in the future, she has no complaints. It's probably an excuse for yourself, isn't it? Everyone will have some unspeakable little secrets hidden in their hearts, so they can't really talk about everything, aren't people such strange creatures in the first place? Occasionally, even the truest self is afraid to face it.

4. Ethics and choice

It wasn't until noon that Huo Heng told Liangzi that he had missed the only high-speed train here.

Liangzi, who had been looking forward to it all day, was a little at a loss, and then discussed with Huo Heng whether the two of them should go to the middle city and stay there for one night. Thinking about it this way, it's a good idea to meet each other anyway, in a city where both of them are relatively unfamiliar.

Huo Heng quickly agreed.

Departure from school at three o'clock in the afternoon, took the train for more than two hours, arrived at the destination at more than five o'clock, only to know that the two went to different stations, Liangzi was a little anxious, how could this day be so twists and turns, Huo Heng asked Liangzi not to move, and came to find her by himself.

It was already more than six o'clock after the two met, and when they came out of the subway, the sky had already darkened, it was really a city with many people, and the traffic flow was also large, if it wasn't for Huo Heng's hand being held, Liangzi would really be nervous when he crossed the street.

Both of them carried their bags and discussed going to the hotel to put their luggage first and then go to dinner.

Booked a hotel room online, but couldn't find the location of the hotel, relying on the map navigation on the mobile phone to toss back and forth near the overpass, Huo Heng was sweating in a hurry, Liangzi was leisurely, he didn't care about anything when he followed Huo Heng, just held his hand tightly.

Ryoko feels very happy like this, as long as it is with him, it doesn't matter if the phone navigates to the ends of the earth.

At the entrance to the flyover was a very old beggar, with gray and messy hair and ragged clothes, half-kneeling on the ground, throwing a few coins in a broken bowl in front of him.

When he passed by for the first time, Huo Heng took out three coins from his pants pocket and threw them in.

When he passed by for the second time, Huo Heng said, "I'm sorry, I really don't have any cash on me." ”

Ryoko wanted to laugh a little, and when she walked to the middle of the overpass, she said, "What did you say to him, I'm sorry?" Aren't you afraid he's a liar? Maybe they're richer than you. ”

Huo Heng stopped, put his hands on Liangzi's shoulders, and looked at Liangzi's eyes seriously, "Liangzi, I know it's very wrong for us to do this, and I don't have the right to ask you for anything." But since you asked, I think it's necessary to answer you seriously. I know that this world is too dirty, let us start to doubt good, doubt evil, but what kind of person you want to become, it has nothing to do with this society, it has nothing to do with other people, it is your business to clean yourself, and it is also your business to go with the flow, so my heart asks me to do my best to help him, and I no longer care whether he is a liar or not. Just like the beggar just now, if I help him, maybe I can let him have breakfast, if I am cheated, it doesn't matter, it is only a loss of three dollars for me. In fact, I'm willing to trade 90% of the odds of evil for the remaining 10% of good. Do you understand? ”

"It's good if you're happy. There are bad people, and there are people who really need help, so aren't you afraid that it's because 10% of your good condones the 90% of evil? So is there a difference between you and those who would rather kill a hundred by mistake than spare one person? Isn't this kind of thinking of yours the goodness that would rather indulge a hundred evils than wronged one? ”

"So the question comes back, is it worth sacrificing one person for the benefit of more?"

"So do you think it's worth it? When a tram is speeding towards and there are five people on the track ahead, and your only option is to flip the wrench to make the train change lanes, but there is also an innocent person, who will you choose to hit? Well? “

"Well, if this is simply the case, then I will naturally save five people and sacrifice one......"

"Oh hey, forget it, don't embarrass you, I don't want to discuss this with you, I don't want to discuss the 'tram problem' with you, this kind of moral choice will hurt your brain to death if you discuss it."

Liangzi pulled Huo Heng and continued to walk forward.

"Also, do you think we're doing something bad?"

Huo Heng smiled, his eyebrows raised: "Do bad things? If being with you is a bad thing, then I'd rather be a heinous bad person. ”

"Did I just say something incomprehensible? Feel your perfunctory. Huo Heng gently scraped the tip of Liangzi's nose with his remaining hand.

"Not really, I just think that everyone has their own ideas and insistence, and he can do whatever he wants, even if we talk clearly, what can he do, and he can't influence the thoughts of others. Besides, so many philosophers don't understand this question, so let's forget it. ”

"You are the character who hides when you are in trouble!"

"Hey, did you just find out now...... I'm thinking about you as a person, too. ”

Walking to the area where there were no street lights, Liangzi grabbed Huo Heng's hand tightly, not afraid, but felt that doing so might make him seem more obedient.

"What's wrong with me? I'll hear it. ”

"Are you very conflicted when facing yourself, obviously what you say and do is very measured, why do you want to treat me and ...... me?"

"What's wrong with you, why didn't you say it?"

"You know what I mean, you still ask, hate."

"When you grow up, you will understand that the world is not as black and white as you think, and there are many gray areas that you can't see. There is no pure distinction between good people and bad people, and just because a person has done bad things does not mean that everything he does is bad. ”

"And what kind of person do you think you are?"

"I can't tell."

"What about me?"

"You're a cutie."

"Who is more perfunctory, hey......"

As soon as the words fell, as soon as he looked up, he saw the hotel's big light sign, Huo Heng took Liangzi's hand and walked straight in.