Chapter 42: Enlightenment
My sister's personality has completely changed after this experience, and she ignored my master and me for several days, just staying there quietly and in a daze. I don't feel the same way I felt about her as before, and when I saw her, I couldn't help but think of what Arou looked like in the fantasy world, and the stories we went through.
One day, at lunch, the younger sister broke the silence and asked the master.
"Master, why do you arrange me like this?" she asked.
"Ahh
"Master, do you think I'm such a person?" she was upset.
"Do you think this is a fantasy of mine?" the master asked us.
"Yes, this is the illusion of the master. That's when I interjected.
The master smiled, then shook his head.
"Not a fantasy?!" both of us exclaimed.
"Of course it's not a fantasy! this is the life you will experience in the future. ”
"Ahh
"No, master, I seem to be stuck in a loop, not like it's real. Sister, do you feel like you're stuck in a loop?" I said.
"I didn't, I remembered everything for no reason the day before you came back from a business trip, and I haven't been like you before. ”
"Do you have it ... "I couldn't help but want to ask her if she was cheating.
"I didn't. She replied coldly.
"Master, why did I get into the loop. I asked the master.
"Well, I've made some special arrangements so that you can experience a different life while preserving your memories. ”
"Which time is it true?" I asked urgently, hoping that the last time would be true.
"It's true every time, it's fake every time. The master said with a smile.
"Oh! here we go again, master, can you please stop being so mysterious!" I complained.
"Every different experience you have in there is something you have really experienced! That's why I say it's true. ”
"How is that possible!" I was disappointed with this answer and couldn't accept it.
"Do you think that completely different plots cannot coexist?" asked the master.
"Of course! For example, the first time I killed that person, but then I didn't bother to hit him, it's a complete contradiction!
At this time, the master took out a coin, then stood on the table, flicked it with both hands to make the coin spin at high speed, and then pressed it on the ground and asked us, "Do you say that it is heads or tails now?"
"Can't guess, the pros and cons are random, 50% probability. The younger sister said.
"Is it possible before the master lifts his hand?" the master asked us.
"Yes, there are two possibilities. I replied.
Then the master lifted his hand, and it was frontal.
"And now?" he asked me again.
"Now there's only one possibility, and it's positive. I said.
"Why do the two possibilities become the only ones when I open my hand?" the master asked again.
"Senior sister just said, this is called a random process. "I think the master is pretending to be advanced this time.
"Hehe, there's no real randomness in the world!" said the master.
"Is there a pattern to follow?" the junior sister couldn't help but ask.
"Look!" and then the master turned it again, and opened his hand and the coin was obverse again.
Then he turned it a dozen more times in a row, and each time it was opened head-on.
"Master, don't use spells!" the junior sister complained.
"Didn't I interfere with the result by letting you understand the reason!" said the master helplessly.
"Are you saying that there are many possibilities at the same time before the senior brother enters the door?" the junior sister asked.
Every time his mood changes, it will lead to a different episode. ”
My sister seemed to understand and nodded, but I hadn't fully comprehended it yet.
"This is the master, you interfered in the process, if you hadn't interfered, I would only come for the first time. I said.
"Did you kill someone and get shot that time?" the master asked me with a smile.
"It's so refreshing. I said.
"Then you cried a bird's egg the day before you were shot!" said the master disdainfully.
Oh! I immediately remembered the situation that day, and I did regret it to death.
"Don't you love your wife?" the master said to me, and turned his head to look at his sister.
"I loved it before, but I didn't love it anymore after I entered the door. I also glanced at my sister and said.
"How can there be such a thing, love is deep, hate is cut, love and hate are actually the positive and negative expressions of the same coin. ”
That's right, I can understand that if I didn't love her, I wouldn't hate her so much that I would kill her.
Every time Ding Dong entered the door, his mood was different every time because of the preservation of his memory, so he naturally chose a different result. If I don't interfere, will the outcome be determined by Dingdong's state of mind before entering the door?"
"Yes. We all nodded.
"For the same thing, as long as the mood of the person concerned is slightly different, it will lead to a very different result, which is the reason why the mood moves with the heart. ”
"Demon Buddha turned his mind!" I suddenly realized and cried out loudly.
The master smiled, and the younger sister also laughed, which made me very embarrassed.
"Ding, you're right, but what the master is saying now is not the truth. It's how the state of mind changes with the heart. ”
"At that time, I did it according to the guidance of my heart, and the result came out naturally!"
"Were you not emotional?"
"Of course I had emotions at first, I was mad, but after a few experiences, it seemed to be gone. ”
"Then you were controlled by your emotions at the beginning, so you beat your wife and killed that person, right?"
I thought about it, and it was, and nodded.
"If you were as rational as you were at the beginning, you wouldn't beat your wife and kill people, would you?"
"That's right!" I replied, looking at my sister, who seemed to be thinking about something.
"Then have you ever wondered why you are emotionally controlled and beat your wife and kill people?"
"Huh?!" I've never thought about this question, isn't it because people don't have emotions?
"Think about it, Rou Zai, you can also help your senior brother think about it!" Then the master picked up the bowl and continued to eat.
What are emotions?
As long as it is a person, there are seven emotions and six desires, if there is no emotion, is the person still a human being? Isn't it a machine without emotion to do things?
"Master, I think emotions are specifically used to drive people to do emotional things. The junior sister spoke, and then continued: "Only under the domination of emotions can people impulsively and desperately do irrational things, such as killing people. ”
The master nodded with satisfaction, and then asked her, "When the master taught them before, did you hear that emotions are a means for a certain concept to control people?"
The junior sister nodded, I seemed to be a little impressed, and nodded.
When Ding Dong entered the door for the first time, he found that his wife had betrayed him, and he was controlled by several concepts in his mind, and immediately had strong emotions, because he loved his wife very strongly, so these loves instantly turned into hatred of the same intensity, and he would beat his wife from love to hate. When you recall, can you see what kind of ideas control you?"
I thought about it for a while, and then said, "First of all, I think that my wife can't cheat, I can't betray my husband, I work so hard for my family, how can I cheat on other men at home behind my back? Also, I think I feel that the dignity of men has been insulted, and if I let others know about it, I won't be able to be a human being, that's about it. ”
"Well, the master will help you summarize that you had the following concepts controlling you at the same time:
1. A wife cannot cheat and betray her husband
2. The husband is very hard, and the wife must be grateful to her husband
3. Don't steal other people's wives
4. Dignity is insulted
5. Others will look down on themselves because of this
Dingdong, do you think I'm summarizing correctly?" the master asked me after summing up.
"Almost, that's it. I replied
"Okay, you hit your wife mainly because you were controlled by the first and second ideas, right?
"Probably right. ”
"If you didn't have these ideas in your head, would you still beat your wife and kill people?"
"I don't know, but everybody thinks so. ”
"Then why didn't you beat her later, not even your mistress?"
"I... "I couldn't explain it for a while, I couldn't explain it.
That's because you don't have emotions behind you, because a person can only do impulsive things when they are dominated by emotions, and the reason why there are no emotions is that after many experiences, you no longer love your wife, and you no longer regard her as a wife in your heart, so even if you encounter the same situation, these ideas in your mind will not be activated and trigger emotions. ”
"Oh!"
"Why do you beat your wife because you love her, and you don't beat her because you don't love her?" the master asked me again.
"Hitting is kissing, scolding is love!" I replied loudly, and looked at my sister again, and found that she was also looking at me.
"Do you use beating to express love?" asked me in amazement.
"That's not it, I'm not completely unable to control myself after my emotional attack!"
"Well, then tell me why emotions control you to beat the wife you still love. ”
"Because ... Because she betrayed me. ”
"Wrong, think about it again, it was the emotions that controlled you to fight at that time, and it is more appropriate to say betrayal, and those concepts that betrayed you are more suitable. ”
"What's the difference?"
"Of course, there is a difference, when the master used to take classes, didn't he say that the concepts were all instilled from the outside, just a part of the acquired ego, not the real you. You loved your wife at first, but because her behavior did not match some of the ideas you were instilled with, you were controlled by those ideas and triggered emotions and beat her, and you went to kill people and cause the destruction of your own family. ”
"Alas, I regretted it later, I shouldn't have been so impulsive. ”
"Don't regret it, you go back and think about why perception controls you through emotions. ”
"Because any idea automatically maintains its own correctness, and anything that does not correspond to it will be opposed, and it will be unhappy. At this time, the junior sister spoke.
The master smiled, and then said to the junior sister, "You are right, but there is a deeper factor behind this truth. If you just look at the process without looking at the result, you will not be able to find the dominant factors behind it. ”
"Is there a deeper truth behind it?" asked the junior sister in surprise.
"Whenever Ding Dong is controlled by these emotions, the result is either a broken family or a divorce, in short, a complete loss of wife and love, right?"
"Yes. The younger sister said.
"But later, when Ding Dong was not controlled by emotions, although it was always the end of divorce at the beginning, but when he really forgave his wife from the heart for the last time and changed his own behavior, he regained love and protected the integrity of the family, does this mean that he has the ability to choose freely when he is not swayed by emotions?"
"Yes. The junior sister thought about it and said.
"Then what is the meaning of these concepts and emotions in life? Is it true that concepts are only used to seal people and restrict people's ability to make free choices?
I was completely stunned by my master, and my sister couldn't answer this question at all.
"If you still can't comprehend, let's stop eating and take you to a place. As soon as the master finished speaking, he put down the dishes and chopsticks, and instantly took us to a strange place.
"Where is this?" I asked curiously.
"Shooting range. The master said as he walked, and we followed him.
"Is it a fantasy conjured up by the master?" I asked him.
"No, the range is not far from our house. ”
The master took us to a target shooting place, and then the master picked up a gun and fired a shot at the target in the distance on the opposite side, firing a blue-white beam, which turned out to be a laser gun.
"Clank, you jump on the countertop, pull the trigger with your front paws, and see if you can get there. ”
I had never shot a gun before, so I jumped up and played with the gun excitedly, and finally took aim and pulled the trigger according to the master's instructions, and a laser instantly ignited, and green smoke came out on the target.
"Aim for the bull's-eye!" the master ordered me.
I got the hang of it after firing a dozen shots and started hitting the bullseye every time.
"Rouzai, you go to the front. ”
"Ahh
"Why do you want to let my junior sister go forward, how dangerous it is!" I asked, puzzled.
"Rou Zai, you go to the far left in front of you, away from the target surface. The master said solemnly.
"Okay. The younger sister reluctantly walked to the opposite corner.
"Keep fighting. "Master ordered.
I looked at my sister, it was far away, it shouldn't be dangerous, so I concentrated on firing a shot and hit the bull's-eye.
"Rouzai, take a step towards the bull's-eye. The master shouted loudly to the junior sister.
The junior sister took a step obediently.
Master, what does he want to do, I began to feel a little hairy in my heart.
In this way, every time I fired a shot, my sister would take a step towards the bull's-eye, and when I reached 3 meters away from the bull's-eye, my palms began to sweat. When I was still two meters away, I felt that my hands were starting to tremble, but fortunately, my sister refused the master's order and got closer to the bull's-eye.
The master was very angry, walked to the target himself, and said loudly to me, "Keep fighting!"
"Master, I'm afraid!" I shouted to my master.
"I'm afraid of a bird's egg!" shouted the master.
"I don't fight!"
"If you don't dare to hit you, don't call me master, get out now!" the master looked really angry.
I had to calm down, control my hand shaking, and fired another shot, which turned out to be a bit off the bull's-eye.
I didn't expect the master to take another step, his head covered the small half of the bull's-eye, and shouted loudly: "The last shot, leave after the shot." ”
"Master, I really don't dare~!" I was about to cry, and my sister also nervously approached the target and looked at the master.
"Ding Dong, don't worry about fighting! The master lied to you just now, this is an illusion, don't worry about fighting!"
Hearing him say this, my heart was a little relieved, but my hands still kept shaking, the master is the only relative in this world, he raised me since I was a child, taught me to cultivate, what should I do if something happens.
"Don't miss!" I repeated in my heart, then concentrated, controlled the shaking of my hand, aimed the cross of the anchor mirror at the bull's-eye, and pulled the trigger, and I closed my eyes and did not dare to look.
"Ah~!" only heard a scream from my junior sister.
When I opened my eyes, the master was gone, as if lying on the ground!
I immediately rushed over, my sister was already kneeling on the ground and crying, I ran to the master's side, and found that the master's brain had been hit by a laser, burning a big hole.
My mind went blank in an instant, and the world spun around, and I collapsed to the ground and fainted.
Fortunately, it's an illusion, and the master is too bad, so he actually tested me like this, aren't you afraid of scaring me to death?
"Senior brother, senior brother!" seems to be shaking me.
I woke up and saw a lot of people, but the master was still lying motionless on the ground, and the sister was looking at me with red eyes.
Isn't it a fantasy? Master, why aren't you over?
A sense of helpless despair began to rise in me.
In the end, they loaded the master on a stretcher, carried him to a car and drove away, and we cried and chased after us, and after a while, there was no shadow of the car, and we could only cry all the way home.
"Senior sister, the master is not dead, is he?" I asked her crying on the way back.
"I don't know. She also answered me crying.
After returning home, the master was not there, and I fell into infinite self-blame, and my sister comforted me and said that it was not my fault, maybe it was really the illusion made by the master, didn't we stay in the illusion made by the master for more than ten years last time?
Although I had a hint of fantasy in my heart, I was thinking about what happened in the last few days all the time, why the master had to arrange the target shooting session at the end, but died tragically under my gun.
After thinking and meditating, one day, I finally realized it!
At the cost of his life, the master finally made me understand the greatest mystery in the world, the one I mentioned repeatedly in the previous story.