I raised an eyebrow at him, "What's so good about that?" ”

Li Huaishan pondered for a long time before holding back two words from his mouth: "domineering." ”

I smiled helplessly and didn't continue the conversation.

I don't know what others think of the word "Biao", but in my opinion, Biao Huhu and stupid basically mean the same thing.

From a normal person to a fool, okay?

But given that I didn't lose my mind in the heat of my rage, I consider myself lucky, at least not to be too foolish.

What really scared me was that for a short period of time when I was angry in my heart, I vaguely felt that something in my heart was broken, and it wasn't until I lost my temper that I realized that that thing is called human nature.

At that time, I had almost become a beast with human intelligence, and if it weren't for the fact that there was another force in my heart that restrained me, Chen Dabang and Widow Wang might have been two corpses.

But I'm not sure if this restraining force will reappear when I get angry again this time.

In order to make myself a little more relaxed, I took out my cigarette and lit it silently, swallowing a big puff of mist.

Lately, my craving for cigarettes seems to be getting bigger and bigger.

After this incident, Chen Dabang and Widow Wang were completely honest, and the East House was surprisingly quiet, and the two of them didn't know what they were doing inside, so they didn't say a word.

Li Huaishan didn't know what was going on, he had been in a very excited state since he finished eating at noon, and he gave me the feeling he ...... It's like a person who drinks a lot of coffee, his body is full of energy, but there is no place to vent, and he can only relieve his symptoms by constantly making small movements and talking.

Every time Li Huaishan talks to me, I always deal with two sentences casually, he has unlimited energy, but I am pressed by my heart, and I have no interest in chatting.

Now, Li Huaishan and I seem to have returned to a few days ago, when we had just entered the urban village, and everything had become wrong.

And now we seem to be affected by some unknown force, and we have become less and less like ourselves.

This power comes from the underworld, formless, phaseless, my heart is apprehensive, and on the other hand, there is a strange sense of detachment, as if vaguely felt, after the anger not long ago, Li Huaishan and I seem to be slowly opening a door that should have been open.

A long time ago, we stood in that gate, but for more than twenty years, we have been consuming our talents in the red dust of the market, and gradually left that gate under the trend of reality and worldliness, and now, we are going back.

It may not be easy for you to understand how I felt at the time, but I can't help it, I just try to follow the facts as much as possible and retell what happened in the past as it is.

If I had to define how I felt at the time, I think the most appropriate word would be "chaos".

Yes, my mind was really confused.

On that day, Li Huaishan and I stood at the gate of the fort courtyard and stayed from afternoon to evening.

I remember very well that the night sky was very clean that night, and in the night sky, I could clearly see a large number of stars.

In order to calm down the chaotic state of mind, I raised my head and looked at the galaxy in the night dome, Li Huaishan seemed to have been inspired by some kind of inspiration, he stopped nagging, and also came to me, looking at the night sky with a sense of relief.

Speaking of which, Li Huaishan should be completely ignorant of the stars, I don't know much, the reason why I look up at the starry sky is only because this deep night can bring me extreme calm.

After staring at the night sky for a while, a flickering red light appeared in the direction of the western sky.

At first, I thought I was staring at a place for too long, and my eyes were glazed, until Li Huaishan pointed in the direction of the west sky and asked me, "Do you see it, what is that?" I realized that I was not mistaken.

I straightened up and took two steps to the west, as if that way I could see the red light in the western sky.

It was very vague, like a ball of tulle floating in the night sky, the dark night seemed to turn into deep water, the water ripples were visible, and the red veil also became faint and faint, I don't know if it was really illusory.

When I stared at the red light, I was very aware that something in my heart was being torn apart and broken little by little, and every time it disappeared, my heart sank, and every time it appeared, my heart tightened.

Li Huaishan also took a step and came to me, he didn't say anything, and like me, he silently looked at the western sky.

In an inadvertent moment, the red light in the western sky suddenly became extremely bright, like a red sun hidden in the stars, but in the next moment, this light seemed to be violently hit by something, first trembling, then began to spread, fade, and completely disappear in a very short time.

Later, when I asked the local villagers if they had seen the red light that night, some said that they did not observe the leisure of the night sky, while others told us very clearly that there was no red light at all that night.

Even a few years ago, I had checked all the special astronomical phenomena that had occurred at the end of '07, but there was not a single document to prove that the red light I had seen had actually appeared.

But I knew that it must have actually appeared, because Li Huaishan and I had seen it, and what happened next seemed to show that the head of the Sky Cloud Dao in the Bohai Bay also saw the appearance of this red light.

I remember very clearly, when the red light dissipated, I suddenly felt that my whole heart was opened, and the whole person entered an unprecedented transcendent realm from the inside out, and that feeling was as if the filth that had been pressed on my body and heart before was suddenly washed away, and I was so relaxed.

Li Huaishan also smacked his lips and said to me: "If you are not, how do I feel that my heart seems to be undepressed all of a sudden, no, I can't say that, I should say that, my heart is very relaxed now, but it is not that ordinary relaxation." But, in addition to being relaxed, I was quite worried, to be honest, I didn't know what I was worried about, anyway, I was very worried, as if I was lost. ”

Li Huaishan is right, I, like him, am extremely relaxed physically and mentally, but also have an unusually strong sense of loss.

Who am I, where am I, why am I here, why am I standing here looking up at the stars?

These meaningless questions recur in my mind, I don't know why they appear, let alone how to answer them, they all seem to have obvious answers, but I feel that the answers to these questions seem to be out of reach.

Just when Li Huaishan and I looked at each other speechlessly, and our brows became tighter and tighter, there was a sudden slight buzzing sound in my pocket - the phone vibrate.

I took out my phone and looked at it, and the screen showed that there was a new message in the mailbox, and the sender was none other than the head of the empty cloud.

Open this text message, there are only a few words on the screen with a white flash: "Broken and then stand, you are still you." ”。

Li Huaishan snatched my phone, put his whole face on the phone screen and looked at it, and then raised his head to look at me with a blank expression.

I looked at Li Huaishan briefly for a moment, then looked up and looked at the night sky again.

After a long while, Li Huaishan asked me, "What does this text message mean?" ”

I turned to look at him: "Let go of the baggage and let it be." ”

Li Huaishan scratched his head, looking like he didn't understand.

I added: "Man is the law of the earth, the earth is the law of the sky, the heaven is the Tao, and the Tao is the nature." ”

Li Huaishan was still full of doubts.

I asked him, "Why are you lost?" ”

Li Huaishan pondered for a long time and said, "I don't know, I just suddenly have this feeling......

Before he could finish speaking, I interrupted him directly: "If you don't know the reason, why are you lost?" ”

Li Huaishan looked at me with a frown, and his expression was just like when I looked at the Chief of the Sky Cloud Dao when he was talking to me.

I then said to him: "To break and then stand is to break free from the shackles, you are still you, and it is the nature of all laws." To be unintentional and to respond to all changes with the same, isn't it just the two of us? If you have no intention, why do you still feel lost? ”

When I said this, I finally understood what I meant by what Sky Cloud Dao Leader and Gai Dong had said to me in the first place.

To let go is to be born again.

To put it down is to break and then stand.

Let go, it's nature.

Speaking of which, I would also like to thank the widow of the king, if it were not for her, I would not be angry, and if I were not angry, I would not be able to break the shackles in my heart completely.

The epiphany was only in a moment, and from then on, Qi Ruofei finally became Qi Ruofei.

Li Huaishan can see the red light in the western sky, which seems to indicate that Li Huaishan has finally become Li Huaishan.

However, the so-called epiphany does not mean that once we are enlightened, we will become immortals, on the contrary, we are still mortals, mortal bodies, and ordinary hearts, but on this night, we have found ourselves.

The world is so big, the red dust is deep, and it is not only the two of us who have been lost and are still lost.

But Li Huaishan and I were very lucky, at least we went around in the red dust, and after crawling all the way, we finally returned to the source, in a way that none of us expected.

Although there are some things that Li Huaishan can't understand now, one day, he will understand.

As the night deepened, Li Huaishan and I stood outside the gate of the fort, looking at the stars in the night and falling into meditation for a long time.

When I left the house, I thought that as long as I understood the words of the head of the empty cloud, the trip would be considered complete, but after I really understood his words, I realized that I wanted to get more out of this trip than I had imagined earlier.

(End of chapter)