Although the light is dim, the distance is also a bit far. But Jing Yan still saw the slightly weird smile on Shen Ruochu's face. Then, somehow, he instantly remembered the time she was crying and laughing in the hospital. Jing Yan was shocked for a while, and a terrifying thought suddenly flashed in his mind...... Could Shen Ruochu be unable to stand the stimulation and go insane?!

Don't look at her usual smugness, a little like a boy. But sometimes the more outgoing and cheerful you are, the more fragile your heart is. On the contrary, those women who are soft on the outside and strong on the inside have a stronger psychological tolerance.

"Ruochu?" Tentatively, he called her softly.

Shen Ruochu did not respond. After a moment's distraction, she withdrew her gaze from him and lay back on the bed. It was as if the man had never been in his sight at all, and was just a cloud of air from beginning to end.

There was a slight darkness on the handsome face. Jing Yan stepped into the bedroom. He closed the door with his hand back and walked slowly towards the bed.

"Ruochu, are you okay?"

"Do you think I'm okay or okay?" Shen Ruochu asked rhetorically, his tone was flat and he couldn't distinguish his emotions.

Jing Yan was silent for a second, then sat down sideways on the edge of the bed, "When you wake up, get up and eat something." Sister Sun cooked your favorite nut porridge. ”

"I'm not hungry."

"Eat even if you're not hungry. You haven't eaten all day. Jing Yan reached out to help her up. Then, a second before touching Shen Ruochu, he heard her whisper in an extremely tired tone, "Jing Yan, I don't want to see you now." Will you leave me alone for a while? ”

He paused, "Okay." But you have to eat something. ”

"Hmm."

"I'll ask Sister Sun to bring the porridge." He stood up. He raised his feet to walk, but suddenly stopped. Jing Yan didn't turn around, her hoarse voice was difficult, "Ruochu, that's your child, and it's mine." I will not be less sad in my heart than you are. The so-called bad situation is just a theoretical inference. Now everything is unknown, and I believe that the result must be good. Because no matter how weak the hope is, even if it is desperate, I will not choose to give up! With that, he sighed inaudibly and left.

The door opened and closed, and silence returned to the bedroom.

Shen Ruochu looked at the crystal lamp sucked on the ceiling, and a glimmer of light flashed in his eyes...... Even if you are desperate, don't you give up? She slowly placed her hand over her still-flat lower abdomen. Yes, there is a life here, a life connected to her blood. For it, even if she is desperate, she will never give up!

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At the end of the corridor on the second floor was a study room, where Jing Yan had gone after leaving the bedroom. The moment the door opened, darkness came over me. He reached out and groped for the wall twice, and there was a "pop-" sound, and the switch of the fluorescent lamp was pressed, and it suddenly became bright.

As if unable to adapt all of a sudden, Jing Yan stood at the door and squinted her eyes, and slowed down for two seconds before walking into the room.

He took out a brand new cigarette from the cabinet against the wall, opened the plastic envelope and pulled out one, walked to the window and lit it. The red spark on the cigarette butt was extinguished, and he took two sharp puffs and let out a long breath, only to feel that his heart, which had been in a state of contraction since above, stretched a little.

The phone rang at this time. He didn't want to pay attention to it, but after a little hesitation, he still connected.

The call was from Qi Yang, and unsurprisingly there was no serious matter. Jing Yan only listened to two sentences, and immediately interrupted, "Don't go." He then neatly cut off the call. Then, before he could put his phone away again, the ringtone rang again

This time it was Jiang Xinyue who called. Jing Yan was stunned, frowned and answered her phone.

“jaryn？” In the earpiece, her voice was slightly distorted. But the tone did not change, as always, fluttering and unsettled, as if it had just been frightened.

"What's the matter?"

"Oh, nothing. I just want to say that the death day of Uncle Jing and Aunt Jing is coming. When are you going to go back? ”

Hearing this, Jing Yan paused for a second. "I'm ...... this year Not going back. ”

"Not going back?" The people over there were visibly surprised.

"I'm not going back."

"What's wrong? Is something wrong? ”

"Nothing. I have something to do this year, so I won't go back yet. If you want, go and worship me! I don't know why, he subconsciously hid Shen Ruochu's pregnancy from her. Either because the child is likely to be unhealthy, or because he is inexplicably unwilling to tell him.

"Alright then, I'll go back and show it for you."

"Well, thank you."

"Do you have anything you need me to help convey to my uncle and aunt?"

"Nope." Jing Yan spit out two words lightly, and then hung up the phone. People are no longer there, and no matter how beautiful you say, he can't hear them. He had something to say to the living. It's a pity that the child won't have a chance before he lands.

He curled his lips a little self-deprecatingly, pulled out another cigarette and lit it. He sat motionless in front of the study window and smoked half a cigarette in one go. It wasn't until he lost consciousness in his mouth that he turned around and left and went to the guest room next to the master bedroom.

Then, that night, Jing Yan once again fell into a nightmare and couldn't extricate herself.

The things he thought he had forgotten, and the things he wanted to forget but could never let go, all came to the fore.

He saw his father stabbed several times and lay dying in a pool of blood. Seeing being trapped in a burning villa screaming in pain. He also saw the begging and despair on his face as his desperate uncle, who had been cornered by him, knelt down in front of him. However, at the end of the dream, it was the scene of Shen Ruochu lying lifeless on the operating table motionless. Her belly was sliced open and the unformed child was thrown on her lap. Bloody, extremely terrifying. On the side of the operating table, the doctor with a sharp knife in his hand slowly took off his mask and revealed his face...... It's Jiang Xinyue.

She looked at him, her face hideous and distorted, she looked up and laughed, her voice was terrible, "You owe me, your son pays back!" ”

Jing Yan woke up suddenly. He breathed heavily, only to feel cold sweat dripping through his pajamas.

By this time it was already getting light. The faint morning light shone through the gaps in the curtains, forming a beam of light. He let out a long breath and sat up, two words flashing through his mind as his eyes touched the beam...... Retribution!

The evil he did by any means to avenge him back then is now on his wife and children!

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Shen Ruochu was in a state of insomnia in the first half of the night, and slept fairly well in the second half of the night. She has never been a person who likes to be entangled, and the only awkward thoughts in this life are only used on Jing Yan.

She felt that Jing Yan's words were right, even if the hope was weak, even if it was really desperate in the end, don't give up. If you don't give up, maybe a miracle will happen and you will be able to fight back. But if you admit defeat now, you will really lose.

Jing Yan said that he was willing to believe in miracles, so she, as a mother, had no reason not to believe it. Despite her nervousness and worry, she already had a vague glimmer of anticipation. Looking forward to the birth of this child, expecting it to call her mother, looking forward to watching it grow up day by day. It's a boy or a girl. If it is a boy, she will teach him how to be handsome and how to pick up girls, and take him with him to "bring disaster to society". If it was a girl, she would dress her in a beautiful floral dress and tie her with all kinds of braids. Absolutely don't let her be like when she was a child, her father doesn't care about her mother, she can only go out with the chicken nest head combed by her brother, and be teased by the children.

When some things are figured out, it doesn't hurt so much.

So when he woke up the next day, Shen Ruochu's spirit was much better than the day before. The heartbreak is swept away, although it is not as happy and troublefree as usual, but the mood is calm. On the contrary, it was Jing Yan, who had nightmares all night, and was a little sluggish in the morning.

When Sister Sun heard that Shen Ruochu was pregnant, she got up early in the morning and cooked a lot of things for her to nourish.

When Jing Yan went downstairs to the restaurant, Shen Ruochu was already sitting at the table. The steaming soup was placed in front of her, and she was drinking spoonful by spoonful with her head down, a thin layer of sweat on her forehead, which was a little crystal clear under the shroud of the morning light.

Jing Yan couldn't help but be stunned. He stood at the door of the restaurant and pestle for two seconds before he walked away. He was surprised by her mood shift.

He pulled out a chair and sat down across from her, and cautiously said hello, "Morning." ”

Didn't get a response.

He didn't care. It doesn't matter if she ignores him or not, anyway, she is willing to calm down and eat. Otherwise, the radiation did not cause harm to the child, and she was worried that there would be problems with her worries.

When Jing Yan is at home, she usually has a Western-style breakfast. Omelette, sandwich, and a cup of black coffee. Sister Sun saw that he was seated, so she brought his share to the table. Jing Yan habitually whispered "thank you", grabbed the sandwich and took a bite, suddenly remembered something, looked at the person across the table and asked, "Was your mother discharged from the hospital today?" ”

Shen Ruochu was stunned, and suddenly remembered this stubble after being reminded by him. Yesterday was so sad that her world almost collapsed, and she threw everything behind her head.

"Hmm." She snorted through her nose and finally raised her head to give him a straight look, "She should be out of lunch before she can go home." ”

"That's still too late." Jing Yan took a sip of coffee, "Don't go, I'll go alone." Seeing that she frowned as if she wanted to refute, she hurriedly said, "I'm not stopping you." Your eyes are swollen like walnuts, and you're bound to be asked questions when you go. Mom and Dad will be worried, too. And your current physical condition is not suitable for moving around more, so rest at home. ”

Shen Ruochu pursed his lips silently, and took another sip of soup before slowly speaking, "Okay." I didn't go, I rested at home. The ......" said this, and she was a little speechless.

Seeing this, Jing Yan asked, "What's wrong?" ”

"Are you going to tell my parents about my pregnancy?"