When Shen Ruochu regained consciousness, he was already lying in the hospital. The snow-white ceiling is a strange and somewhat familiar feeling. Turning his head to look around, he saw neither the doctors and nurses, nor Jing Yandi's figure, and she was the only one in the empty ward.

The dizziness and nausea had subsided, but the limbs were still a little sore. She closed her eyes and lay there for a moment.

Jing Yan pushed the door at this time and entered. He walked slowly to the bedside, and when he saw that her eyelashes trembled slightly, he called softly, "Ruochu, are you awake?" ”

"Hmm." Shen Ruochu closed his eyes and replied weakly, "When did I get to the hospital?" Didn't sleep for a long time. ”

"Not long." Jing Yan looked at her slightly pale little face, her pupils were pitch black, and her emotions were complex and gloomy. After a few seconds of silence, he slowly spoke, "Ruochu, the doctor said...... You may be pregnant. ”

She opened her eyes and sat up. His misty eyes were full of sorrow and disbelief, "You lied to me! ”

The masseter muscle on the side of Jing Yan's face bulged twice, "The doctor only said that it was possible." As he spoke, he raised his wrist and glanced at the time, "The nurse just drew blood for you, and the results will be available in another hour." ”

Shen Ruochu took deep breaths repeatedly, and the tears hanging from the corners of his eyes quietly slid down his cheeks.

"Ruochu ......" Jing Yan paused again and again, and when he spoke again, his chest was astringent and his heart tightened slightly, "Are you unwilling to have this child?" ”

"It's not a question of whether I'm willing to ask for it now!" She burst out suddenly, her voice sharp and decibel high, slamming against the walls of the hospital room with a faint echo. It seems that he is so weak that he still wants to break out of the cage and trap the beast, but after all, he can't escape the fate of failure, so he can only lie in place and wait for death.

Shen Ruochu covered his mouth and sniffed, and said with a crying voice: "Jing Yan, I did a full-body CT and an X-ray within two months. Finally, this time it was the day after we had sex......" She was suddenly choked, coughed twice and then looked up at him sharply, her eyes were as cold as knives, and she asked word by word, "You tell me, this child, how am I going to give birth to it!" ”

Her words were like a 10,000-ton boulder hitting him in the chest. Jing Yan clearly felt that his heart was paralyzed for a moment. He knew that it was a symptom that only showed up when the pain was extreme. He felt it once 10 years ago. It was the day his parents died.

He stiffened and stood straight for a long time. When that paralyzing feeling gradually dissipated, the pain followed.

Jing Yan sighed with difficulty, trying to comfort her in a calm tone: "It doesn't have to be a bad result. Don't worry just yet. ”

"What if it is?" Shen Ruochu asked with tears in his eyes. Without waiting for Jing Yan to answer, she took a deep breath and lay back on the bed with her back to him, her thin body curled up in a ball, shivering.

It's an extremely insecure position. Jing Yan wanted to go over and hold her in her arms, but in the end she still stood there and didn't move.

The next hour was undoubtedly an ordeal for both of them.

A statue was pestled there, its face sinking like water. One curled up on the bed, motionless. At first, her faint sobs could be faintly heard in the ward, but in the end, there was no such sound, only dead silence.

Jing Yan thought that Shen Ruochu was asleep again. He stepped forward lightly, pulled the quilt over her, and was about to cover her. Suddenly, I noticed that her cheeks were damp, and she was still crying silently with her eyes closed. His heart shrank, and he gritted his teeth and didn't poke it. After covering her with the quilt and tucking it away, she turned around and left the ward.

There was still a slight noise when the door closed.

Shen Ruochu slowly turned over, opened his eyes and looked at a certain place in the void, his eyes were sad.

Its usefulness does not wait for the results of the test to come out. She is a person who has been pregnant with a child once, how can she not have any experience at all. Her menstrual period has been postponed. And dizziness, nausea, and some of the physical symptoms are very similar to when she was pregnant three years ago. It's just that this time, she has been holding on to the luck mentality, and the ostrich is unwilling to think about the worst.

What did she do in her last life, and she couldn't keep her own flesh and blood twice!

No matter who the child's father is, it is her flesh and blood, and it is the continuation of her life! Born in her veins, growing day by day in her body. But she didn't have the fate to watch it fall to the ground, let alone the blessing to raise it to grow up, and listen to it call herself "Mom". So it was three years ago, and three years from now, it may still be!

Although she is not a doctor, since her last miscarriage, she has studied many related medical materials and books in order to be able to prepare for the next healthy baby.

In such a short period of time, two X-rays were radiated. What is the probability of giving birth to a malformed fetus?! She couldn't imagine it at all!

Three years ago it was an accident. This time, she is going to kill her own child with her own hands! But if not, how can she face herself and give birth to a monster! Even if she can raise it for a lifetime, how can she have a child to face the eyes of society and others?!

For the first time in three years, Shen Ruochu regretted it. regretted that he fell in love with Jing Yan. If it weren't for her willfulness, if she hadn't been bent on going her own way, how could she have twice affected her own flesh and blood.

If she had found an ordinary person to marry, wouldn't these things have happened?

Tears had long blurred his eyes. Shen Ruochu raised his hand and wiped it on his face. Lift the quilt and get up and get off the ground.

…………

Jing Yan thought at first that Shen Ruochu had eaten the wrong thing, and when she brought her to the hospital, she went to the gastroenterology department first. It wasn't until the doctor said she might be pregnant that she was transferred to the obstetrics and gynecology department.

This hospital is one of the most authoritative hospitals in City B.

The middle-aged female doctor's surname is He, and she is the director of the Department of Obstetrics and Gynecology. She was in charge of Shen Ruochu's miscarriage three years ago, and she was also responsible for Shen Ruochu's rehabilitation for a long time after that. It's an acquaintance. Occasionally, during the New Year's holidays, Shen Ruochu would send her a text message or call her to say hello.

It was almost lunchtime, and there were no patients. There were only two people in the office, her and Jing Yan.

She glanced at the test sheet twice and smiled, "Mr. Jing, your wife's blood HCG value is 1000-3500IU/L, which should be about two weeks pregnant." I wanted to say "congratulations" again, but I found that the faces of the patient's family were too gloomy, so I stopped. Somewhat inexplicable. Although she receives countless patients every day, there are only a few people like Jing Yan. So she still vividly remembers his disappointment when he learned that his wife failed to keep the baby three years ago. Afterwards, he was repeatedly told to let his wife recover in the shortest possible time. But at this moment, when I heard the news of my wife's pregnancy, it seemed like the end of the world was coming.

Jing Yan is a blank in the world at the moment. When he heard the phrase two weeks pregnant, his heart went into a momentary arrest. This is followed by boundless self-blame and remorse.

At the end of the day, it's all his fault. If he hadn't teamed up with Qi Yang in the middle of the night to act and deceive her, the car accident would not have happened. If he hadn't thrown his hands away that day, then she wouldn't have fallen so badly!

"Dr. He." After a long silence, Jing Yan packed up her mind and said in a deep voice, "My wife has had CT and X-ray examinations before, and she is pregnant now, will it affect the fetus?" ”

Dr. He was slightly surprised, "When did it happen?" I mean, when did Mrs. Jing's check-up be done? ”

"Once it was almost a month and a half ago, whole body CT. Once it was more than three weeks ago. ”

Dr. He's face turned serious, and after a moment of consideration, he slowly spoke, "Theoretically, we advocate that women of gestational age should avoid any ionizing radiation for two years before they are ready to become pregnant. But this is only a theoretical reference value, but Mrs. Jing's situation ......"

"The worst?" Jing Yan interrupted her with a loud voice.

She was silent for a second, "It's possible that genetic mutations can cause fetal malformations!" ”

Jing Yan's pupils shrank.

"Mr. Jing." His face was too pale, and Doctor He hurriedly spoke out to reassure, "Don't get excited. Mrs. Jing's situation is somewhat peculiar. She is currently two weeks pregnant and was last X-rayed more than three weeks ago. Medically speaking, it takes about 10 days for sperm to implant in the uterus. In other words, Mrs. Jing was not pregnant at that time, and the embryo was not directly irradiated. In the past, the protection was not good, and many of our old radiographers only wore lead suits to work. I didn't take it off when I got pregnant unexpectedly, and I was still alive and healthy when I was born. So, maybe it won't be the worst. And even if it is a fetal malformation, it is good or bad. ”

Jing Yan's jaw tightened, "What is the probability of the worst-case scenario?" How big is the good one? ”

"This ...... I can't say. ”

"So everything is just your inference based on the theory in the books, right?"

Doctor He hesitated for a moment and nodded, "But the possibility of a bad situation will be greater." After a pause, she added: "In fact, fetal malformations are also divided into degrees, such as rabbit lips. Some children have cleft lip and palate that is not serious, and the surgery is not a problem at all. It really doesn't have to be the worst. ”

Jing Yan let out a "hmm", feeling a little impatient. He raised his hand and pressed his eyebrows, and then continued to ask, "If it is really the worst-case scenario, will it hurt my wife to induce labor halfway?" ”

"Worst-case scenario......" Dr. He was a little reluctant to speak.

"Just say it."

"Mr. Jing, a fetus with severe malformations will not survive when born. Actually, this is not the most serious for your wife. I advise Mrs. Jing to persevere until the end to give birth to the child, even if she is choked. The most serious outcome is stillbirth, which must be aborted or induced. If that's the case...... Mr. Jing, your wife injured her uterus last time she slipped the fetus, and if she miscarried or induced labor again this time, you should be prepared to not be able to have children in the future. ”