"Why, why are you saying such things?" Cortana said a little sadly: "Obviously we are still fine, you, why are you saying this, we are about to get married, but now you say that you want to break up, are you real, really don't like me anymore, are you, are you really going to leave me, why?" ”

"Cortana, don't say anything." I shook my head and said: "You are really good, just blame me for not being good, I have thought about it, our relationship has come to an end, since we are destined to break up, then I have to break up bravely, in fact, I have no advantages, no bright spots, even if you don't have me, you will find a better one, I sincerely wish you and sincerely hope that you are happy." ”

"No, no matter what you say, I can't accept that fact." Xiao Na shook her head frantically and said: "Since you are destined to break up, why do you want to say this, can you make it clear to me, can you not break my heart like this, for me, you are all my dependence, I can't live without you." ”

"Cortana, calm down." I see how sad Cortana is, in fact, my heart is also very sad, if I don't do this, when she sees me dead, it will only be more sad, I can't make Cortana too sad, I can only play a bad person, and before I say this, my heart hurts like a pinprick.

Just imagine, with the person you like, suddenly propose to break up, and a few people are not sad, people are emotional animals, even if they see others separated, they will be sad, let alone themselves, but no matter how sad I am, I have to do this, because I have no choice.

Because if I don't break her heart and make her despair of me, I'm afraid that when I die, she will really do stupid things, as long as she is disappointed in me, so that I can protect her, so I have to be strong.

"Cortana, listen to me." I looked at Cortana and said, "Our fate is over, there is no fate, Cortana, we have no results, you just let it go!" I believe in you, I believe in you, you will find your happiness sooner or later, and I, you will forget about me! ”

"No, I can't forget." Cortana shook her head and said, "I can't forget, how we have been together for many years, and we are even about to get married, why are you only talking to me now, do you know, I can't do without you, why do you say it now, why, is it, do you like someone else, don't you, don't you want me?" ”

"Well......" I looked at Cortana and said: "Cortana, although I don't want to admit it, but I still have to admit it, yes, she is my childhood sweetheart, we have been together since childhood, today she suddenly came to me, it was before you went to work, she found me, I have no way to refuse, so I have promised her, she died soon after she got seriously ill, and her last wish is to be with me, so I'm really sorry." ”

"What!" Cortana was stunned, time felt like it had stopped at this moment, and I could feel the sadness in Cortana's heart.

"Hehe, I see." Xiao Na smiled and said: "Since this is the case, there is nothing to say, after all, she is your childhood sweetheart, and she is seriously ill, I respect your choice." ”

......

Although I saw Cortana smiling, I could see that Cortana had tears in her eyes, which were sad tears, even so, Cortana was still smiling, and my heart was sour, but I couldn't say, I couldn't tell this truth, I couldn't tell this cruel truth, I could only say things against my will, so that Cortana was disappointed in me and sad for me.

"Cortana, I'm so sorry for you." I shook my head and said, "Cortana, you forgot about me!" I'll leave tonight, and I won't be back in the future, and I'll turn off my phone when I appear in front of you again. ”

"Nothing, I understand." Cortana nodded frustratedly and said, "No matter who you are with in the future, I hope you can be happy, I am willing to let go for the sake of that poor woman, I am willing to ......"

"Cortana, thank you." I said sadly, "It's really ...... very emotional."

"Well, I thought about something else, so I'll go first." Cortana hurriedly interrupted me and said, "You can eat here slowly!" I won't bother you. ”

After saying that, Cortana stood up, put on her coat, and walked out, after walking out, I also heard the crying sound faintly coming from outside the door, I know that Cortana is really very sad, I can feel Cortana's sadness, in fact, I am also very sad in my heart, Cortana is my favorite woman, her gentleness and kindness, and the heart of tolerating each other, I am very moved, but even so, I can only say this, hurtful words, and her feelings draw a happy end.

I know that only in this way can I really love her and protect her, we estimate in the future, we will never be able to meet, and I have to face it, I must bear this consequence, I now understand that loving someone is not to have the other party, but to protect the other party, not to let the other party be harmed, so that it can be regarded as truly loving someone.

There is a good saying, don't care about how long it lasts, only care about what you once had, you don't need to love someone, you can be together for a long time, as long as you have had, that love, you feel very satisfied, you don't need the other party to do anything, and you don't need the other party to pay anything, as long as you have this feeling, even if you are far away, as long as you can remember this feeling.

I don't need the other party to give anything, or even make any promises, as long as I can see the other party live well, this is my expectation of love, I don't want to see that after I die, Cortana will do stupid things for this, I don't want to see Cortana do stupid things, so I can only break Cortana's heart, I am all about loving Cortana, protecting Cortana, this is how I love someone.

"Cortana, thank you." I sighed: "Perhaps, I haven't done well enough, but now there is no way, you and I are destined to separate, I feel very satisfied now, I can spend time with you in the end, what a good time, I already feel very happy, and in the days without me, I believe that you will live well, I believe in you, you will be strong and alive, I hope you can find someone who loves you more than me, I hope you can find someone who loves you more, I will bless you." ”

......

The Buddha said, there are eight sufferings in the world, birth, old age, sickness, death, resentment, love and separation, and can't beg, this is the suffering of life, everyone lives in this world, has to experience these eight sufferings, no one can escape, and I have experienced love and separation, begging, but for me, these are nothing, as long as the person I love can live well, it is the best reward for me.

I don't care about being able to live forever, I only care about what I once had, I don't care how much she hates me, I only care if she can live well, even if she kills me, as long as she can live here well and live well, I have no regrets, I have no regrets when I love someone, I have to be selfless to dedicate, not selfish possession, this is how I love someone.

I walked around Cortana's house, I looked at Cortana's previous photos, and my heart was lonely, I left alone, I really felt so lonely, and even when I died, I'm afraid no one would know, no one would know, no one would know, I had left, and I felt really sad.

"Alone and alone." I muttered, "This may be my best ending, no matter what, as long as Cortana can live happily, I'll be fine, it's okay to leave alone, hehe, Cortana, I hope you can be happy!" ”

I laughed a little and walked out, and in the rest of the time, Cortana didn't come back because she was sad, she should have gone to work, I knew that when I said this, I had been deeply hurt, a woman's fragile heart, and I also knew that this was very unbearable for Cortana.

But even so, I can't help it, because I can't tell Cortana the truth, I once wanted to call Cortana, but Cortana's mobile phone was turned off, I knew Cortana wanted to be quiet, time passed slowly, and when it was six o'clock in the evening, I walked out of Cortana's house alone.

Since I'm going to die, I don't want to, dying in this place, I want to leave quietly, if I die here, Cortana should think that what I said is actually a lie, I was walking alone on the way back to my house, and the cold wind blew on my body at night, making me feel scared and shivering, but I don't feel it now, there is any cold.

I walked slowly back to my house, I closed my door, and took out a diary from the house, and wrote it here, I wanted to say, but I didn't dare to say it, I felt that there were a lot of words, I said it to Cortana, but I didn't dare to say it to Cortana, I was afraid that if I really told him, my heart would be completely soft, so I usually write these words down in the diary.

Whether I am sad or happy, I will write it down in my diary, on the one hand, to keep the evidence I have left, and on the other hand, I want to remember these beautiful diaries forever.

I slowly wrote down the diary here, I wrote down all the things I wanted to say the most in the diary, but these words maybe, no one will ever see it, maybe this diary will disappear without a trace with my departure, and no one will even see it, even so, I still have to write, because this is what I want to say the most, this is the only evidence I have left, I have to write these diaries.