I walked out of the morgue, turned my head back to take a look, and now I was still a little scared, and sighed: "Hey, it was so thrilling just now, I didn't expect this corpse to be her, it seems that she is destined not to let me go, forget it, let it be!" With that, he turned around and walked towards the outpatient department.

I came to the office, took out the medical kit, simply wrapped my left hand, and sat here, feeling a little tired, I sat on the chair, and thought in my mind, if it wasn't for my mistake, perhaps, the woman is still alive and well, all of this is my own doing.

"Hey, if I get the chance, I really want to get out of here." I sat here thinking.

"Bang bang."

Just as I was sitting here resting, there was a sudden knock on the door, and I sat here and said a little tiredly, "Please come in." ”

"Squeak."

The door was suddenly pushed open, Zhao Xiaomei walked in, I looked at Zhao Xiaomei, and said a little tiredly: "Xiaomei, do you have anything to do with me?" ”

Zhao Xiaomei sat in front of me, looked at me who was tired at this time, and said, "Dean Li, what's wrong with you?" How do I feel, when you see that corpse, your face changes, is there something wrong? ”

"Hey, Zhao Xiaomei, let me ask you, have you ever done anything in your life that makes you regret?" I asked.

Zhao Xiaomei shook her head and said, "No, what's wrong?" ”

"No, that's nice." I nodded and sighed, "This man! You can't do things that you regret, otherwise you will regret it for the rest of your life, especially for us doctors, we must be careful when treating patients, otherwise the patient dies and you regret it for the rest of your life, although you didn't mean it, but no one will understand you. ”

Zhao Xiaomei said: "Could it be that Dean Li has done something that he regrets? ”

"Yes, I'm not a saint, how can I not do something I regret." I took a deep breath and said, "Me! I have been busy with patients all my life, and I have two regrets that have changed my life, one of them is that I watched my wife die in front of me for the patient's illness, and I was helpless, and the second thing was that the operation, the wrong operation, changed the fate of two people, I really deserve to die. ”

"What, it turns out that Dean Li is married." Zhao Xiaomei asked, "What the hell is going on?" ”

I looked out the window a little sadly and said, "You should know that I used to be the chief surgeon in my hospital, so there were a lot of people who asked me to do surgery all day long. ”

Zhao Xiaomei looked at me and listened quietly to my story.

"Although I don't come home often, my love for my wife is absolutely real." I suddenly left a line of tears, said: "Until one day, my wife finally fell, my life completely changed, my wife was lying on the sickbed, her body was very weak, she was diagnosed with terminal cancer, at that time I looked at my wife who was getting weaker and weaker, the roaring voice in my head sounded, I felt that at this moment, my sky finally collapsed, I looked at my weak wife, and finally couldn't help crying." ”

"I know my wife has cancer, and it's all my fault." I cried, "If it weren't for the fact that I wasn't at home every day and didn't care about my wife, my wife wouldn't have died of cancer." ”

......

Zhao Xiaomei saw me crying, and hurriedly comforted: "Dean Li, don't be sad, it's not your fault, it's all fate, by the way, didn't you see a little symptom at that time?" ”

"Nope." I was a little tired and said: "At that time, I was too busy, and my wife disguised herself in order not to worry me, so I didn't notice it at all, I saw her ruddy face, I thought there was nothing, in fact, I knew there, it was all pretended by him, and when I found out his symptoms, it was completely late." ”

Zhao Xiaomei listened here, couldn't help but shed tears, and said: "I didn't expect that Dean Li, how your wife loves you, it's so touching, I originally thought that these touching pictures can only be seen in TV dramas, but I didn't expect you and your wife to be so touching." ”

"yes." I recalled: "Thinking back to my wife's acquaintance, it was still very fateful, I was still a student of the health school, I went to school alone in other places, so I rented a small building, and on my upper floor, it was where my wife lived, when I went to school, I often saw my wife go to work, my wife was twenty-three years old at the time, they were all in a different place, so they supported and took care of each other." ”

Zhao Xiaomei looked at me.

"He was very cheerful." I smiled and said, "He will come over to help me cook if he has nothing to do, after all, she is also a person who works hard, and life is very simple, and we are very happy, but one day, I was walking on the way home, and on the way home, I had to cross a bridge, and when I walked to the bridge." ”

"Poof."

The sound of falling water sounded, and then someone was heard shouting: "Help, someone has fallen into the water." "I hurried over, and when I saw the figure struggling under the water, I couldn't think much about it, so I hurriedly jumped into the water to save the man.

"I dragged my wife ashore, and at this time she had fainted because of too much water." I said: "Because I am in the health school, so I have learned simple rescue, I woke up my wife, when my wife saw me, she hugged me here and cried, I don't know why he cried, and finally took her back to his house, I only knew, he originally had a boyfriend, and his boyfriend would not do anything but gamble, and finally they broke up, but this time his ex-boyfriend came to him, ready to let him use his body to pay off his gambling debts, I was very angry when I heard this. ”

When I thought of this, I felt very sad: "Then I took my wife to the police, and finally his ex-boyfriend was arrested. ”

I sighed: "I know that this woman will be mine in the future, and I must not let him suffer in the future, so I studied hard, the year I graduated, I was just assigned to a certain hospital, as an intern, and my wife was officially married, we are very affectionate, I always thought that this kind of day, to last, but I didn't expect that in the end, it would be like this." ”

"Hey...... Yes, that's what life is. Zhao Xiaomei said: "Don't be sad, I believe that your wife is in the spirit of the sky, and she won't want to see you sad." ”

......

"So man! There can be no wrong step. I sighed and said, "If you do something you regret, you won't be at ease for the rest of your life, I've been tortured for the past few days, maybe it's time for me to go to my wife!" I feel that the time is getting closer and closer, maybe it is really coming, if I die, you have to pass on my will, we are doctors, money is second, benevolence is first. ”

"Dean Li, what are you talking about?" Zhao Xiaomei was a little angry and said: "Don't say such frustrating words, think about it, you have saved so many patients, not everyone came back to life in your operation, you are simply a god-like existence, if you really die, then what about those patients." ”

"Hehe......" I laughed dryly: "You say that I am too godly, how powerful I am, I am not a god, how can I not make mistakes, you don't worship me, you know, why didn't I develop in the hospital in the city, but went to the countryside, and it wasn't that there was a medical accident, so I proposed to come here to be a little dean." ”

"What's going on?" Zhao Xiaomei asked.

"It was one day, nearly half a year after my wife left." I nodded and said: "The hospital pushed a woman, the woman had heart failure, and she needed to do a heart bypass, so that the heart could be beating, and the front was doing very well, but I didn't think about it later, the internal organs began to bleed in a large area, I didn't even stop it, and finally the woman died in my operating room, I was very scared when I watched this woman die, a living life, just away from me." ”

"I know, it's all my fault." I sighed a little: "I'm a doctor, a doctor controls everyone's life, he is very sacred, but I, I have tarnished this profession, I am not qualified to save people anymore, I was in the morgue, when I saw the woman's husband and mother, crying and asking me to return them, I really broke my heart." ”

Zhao Xiaomei looked at my face and didn't speak.

"You're disappointed in me when you hear that now!" I laughed: "Not only are you disappointed in me, but I am disappointed in myself, since I became a doctor, the teacher told us that everyone is a living life, so when doing surgery, we must be cautious, cautious, cautious, after all, it is all life, if you are not careful, it is harmful, but I, I killed someone." ”

"Maybe that's my fate!" I sighed a little.

"No, Dean Li, you're doing a very good job." Zhao Xiaomei shook her head and said: "Don't blame yourself too much, I know you must have a bad time every day, after all, people are not immortals, it's normal, don't blame yourself too much, it's not your fault alone." ”

"How can I not blame myself, I don't dare to have surgery since that medical accident." I shook my head and said, "I'm afraid, I'm killing a person's life, I know that person's ghost, has been following me, just want me to blame myself, remorse, I know that I am about to die, before I die, I want to tell you, you must tell other doctors my will, don't let them, this kind of accident also happens." ”

Zhao Xiaomei said: "Dean Li, don't worry, I'll tell you a place, you go there to find an abbot and see if he can help you." ”