Chapter 193: Self-doubt
Gu Xizi cried with tears on his face, Zhong Jinyun stood up and wiped Gu Xizi's tears, but Zhong Jinyun's tears were more turbulent than Gu Xizi's tears, "The important thing is that you are okay, as long as you are okay, the child will definitely have again, you are still so young." ”
Gu Xizi shook his head, "If there is more, then it won't be him, I think the child must be very resentful of our irresponsible parents, he is like an angel who fell into the mortal world, wandering in the sky for a long time before choosing the two of us, but we are so irresponsible that he can't go to this world to take a look......"
Looking at Gu Xizi's excited appearance, Zhong Jin Yun was really afraid that Gu Xizi would have another accident, "Gu Xizi, don't get excited, this will not be good for your physical recovery, you just woke up, believe me, as long as you recuperate well, we will have another child."
That child is gone, I know you are sad, I am also sad, but even if we are sad, he will not be able to live, aren't you the most optimistic and always tell me to look forward to everything? ”
It's just that Gu Xizi can't comfort himself with this big truth.
She really wanted to give birth to this child.
"Gu Xizi, you are mainly taking care of your body now, and I will always be by your side." Zhong Jinyun gently wiped the tears on Gu Xizi's face with his fingers.
"Crying your nose all the time is not conducive to physical recovery, be obedient, don't think too much, believe me, everything will be fine." Zhong Jin Yun stroked Gu Xizi's pale face and said softly in a comforting tone.
On weekdays, if she felt Zhong Jinyun's gentle touch, Gu Xizi would feel very happy, but at this moment, Gu Xizi felt that there was a huge gap between her and Zhong Jinyun, and they were already thousands of miles apart, just like one standing in the southern hemisphere and the other standing in the northern hemisphere, they could only look at each other from afar.
Gu Xizi felt a sense of despair for the first time, she couldn't think about the future of her and Zhong Jinyun in the future, she didn't know how she should face Zhong Jinyun in the future, how to face this man he loved the most who deprived his child of his life, the man she wanted to spend her life with
So at this moment, Gu Xizi began to question whether his choice was a mistake.
Was it wrong from the beginning.
Is it that she shouldn't have chosen to walk into Zhong Jinyun's life from the beginning.
In the past, she was extremely confident, and she never believed in any gaps, and she wanted to enter Zhong Jinyun's life, thinking that as long as she had a cheeky and indomitable spirit, she would definitely be able to win the national male god in the minds of all women.
She got Zhong Jinyun as she wished, and followed Zhong Jinyun like a shadow every day.
She doesn't care about her identity or anything, as long as she can stay by Zhong Jinyun's side.
Later, all kinds of things were that Zhong Jinyun was constantly harassed by women, and after Lin Xiameng left, Lang Xingchen came back again, and when he came back, he bombarded indiscriminately, making her and Zhong Jinyun's lives a mess.
Every day, I have to rack my brains to think about how to deal with that difficult green tea ex-girlfriend, although I was still happy at first, but later I was a little tired of this life.
Gu Xizi sighed deeply and said, "Xiao Zhong, I'm hungry, can you go and buy me some porridge?" ”
Hearing Gu Xizi shouting that he was hungry, Zhong Jinyun was very happy, "Okay, I'll ask the doctor, if the doctor allows you to eat porridge, I'll buy it for you immediately." ”
Gu Xizi nodded, and then slowly closed his eyes again.
Although Gu Xizi looked very calm at this moment, his heart was already turbulent.
After Zhong Jinyun went out, he saw Shu Aohan sitting on the chair outside the ward, Shu Aohan buried his head very low, looking tired.
Seeing the door of the ward open, he immediately stood up vigilantly and looked at Zhong Jinyun with cold eyes.
"Gu Xizi said that he was hungry and wanted to drink porridge, I will ask the doctor, if the doctor says that I can drink porridge, I will buy it immediately, you can help me take care of Gu Xizi."
Zhong Jinyun also looked depressed.
This may be the most embarrassed way Zhong Jin Yun and Shu Aohan look when they see each other, or for the same woman.
Shu Aohan didn't speak, just nodded coldly, at this time the nurse happened to walk to the door of the ward, handed the painkiller to Shu Aohan, and told Shu Aohan how to take the medicine, after listening to the nurse's words, Shu Aohan took the painkiller and walked into the ward.
Seeing Gu Xizi staring at the ceiling, Shu Aohan walked to the table, poured a glass of warm water, and took a straw and walked to the bed.
"Let's take the painkillers."
Shu Aohan put two painkillers next to Gu Xizi's mouth, Gu Xizi obediently opened his mouth and asked Shu Aohan to put the two pills in, and then quickly put the glass with a straw in Gu Xizi's mouth, and then put the straw into Gu Xizi's mouth, Gu Xizi drank a few sips of water along the straw and swallowed the painkiller.
"The nurse said that this is an imported painkiller, and the effect is very fast, and the effect will come up in about fifteen minutes, and it will not hurt as much as it is now." Shu Aohan's voice was very soft, and he could only be so gentle and caring when facing Gu Xizi.
Gu Xizi nodded lightly and did not speak.
Shu Aohan found a chair next to Gu Xizi's bed and sat down, looking at Gu Xizi quietly.
"If I had arrived a little earlier last night, this wouldn't have happened...... Shu Aohan's voice was a little hoarse, "I was sleeping last night, and Zhan Ling suddenly called me diàn huà and asked me to open my phone to watch the news, but as soon as I opened my phone, I saw Zhong Jinyun and Lang Xingchen living in a room in the same hotel, so I hurriedly called you diàn huà, but I couldn't get through to your diàn huà."
Zhong Jin Yun said that you had been to the hotel, and then you disappeared, and he couldn't find you, so I also looked for you everywhere along the hotel, and finally thought of going to Zhong Jin Yun's apartment to have a look, just as Zhan Ling drove to the intersection under Xiao Zhong's apartment.
Zhan Ling said that there was a car accident at the intersection, and I didn't take it to heart at all, but when the car passed by, I saw you lying in a pool of blood, and I felt as if the whole world was about to collapse, if I arrived a little earlier and found you earlier than Zhong Jinyun, would I be able to prevent the tragedy from happening? ”
Shu Aohan looked at Gu Xizi, his eyes were full of self-blame.
The corners of Gu Xizi's mouth overflowed with a smile, "Shu Aohan, don't be like this, you don't have any responsibility for this matter, so you don't need to blame yourself, didn't I tell you, there is no if in this world, you have been trapped in this if for a long time and can't recover, thinking about how to prevent the tragedy from happening, but there is never a if in this world...... What happens is what happens, and enough of what you've done for me. ”
Shu Aohan clenched his fists and said, "I should have taken you away from Zhong Jinyun earlier, if you hadn't been unrelenting to Zhong Jinyun......"
Shu Aohan paused, "Are you dead set on the man who can't protect you well, let alone protect the child, and will only hurt you with his ex-girlfriend?" ”
Naturally, Zhong Jinyun was not as disdainful as Shu Aohan said.
In Zhong Jinyun's subconscious, he didn't know the fact that Gu Xizi was pregnant, so chasing after Gu Xizi was naturally unintentional, but the person who caused her to lose her child was indeed Zhong Jinyun.
Therefore, Gu Xizi really couldn't face Zhong Jinyun.
Gu Xizi bit his lip, "I'm dead." ”
Shu Aohan was obviously very satisfied with what Gu Xizi said, could it be true that people can only see the truth if they have been in pain once?
However, the damage has already been done.
But the most fortunate thing is that Gu Xizi's body is fine, but fortunately, this car accident did not bring any obstacles to Gu Xizi's pregnancy and childbirth in the future.
Shu Aohan knew how much Gu Xizi liked this child and wanted this child to be born safely, but the accident still happened after all.
Maybe it was meant to be.
"Although Xiao Zhong didn't do it on purpose, I really can't continue to be with the man who indirectly killed my child, because as soon as I see Xiao Zhong, I will think of ......" Gu Xizi couldn't say any more. Shu Aohan continued: "It's too late to see the facts clearly, in fact, you are good enough, you shouldn't keep stepping on Zhong Jinyun's shadow life, if you want, I am willing to take you away immediately, take you to live the life you really want to live, the life you really should live."
Trust me, the outside world is more exciting than you think, you are still young, you should go out and see the outside world, you should not be trapped in a small circle and repeat things that make no sense, the job of an artist assistant will only bury your talent. ”
Gu Xizi said in a dumb voice: "Then I'll think about it, pain is good for thinking, I just took advantage of the time to recuperate from my injuries and think about the future." ”
Maybe it's really time for her to leave Zhong Jinyun.
This accident seems to have brought the relationship between Gu Xizi and Zhong Jinyun to an abrupt end, and there is no way to continue, everything happened very suddenly, but it was very real.
is so real that Gu Xizi now feels like he is in a dream, a particularly unrealistic dream.
So she also unrealistically began to think about what kind of ending she and Zhong Jinyun would have had if it hadn't been for yesterday.
"A man like Zhong Jinyun who can't give you a future at all is not worth your sadness at all, you should hate him." Shu Ao said coldly.
Gu Xizi said with a smile: "I still love Xiao Zhong very much, but my feelings for Xiao Zhong are very complicated now, so complicated that I can't tell myself, but there is a fact that exists, my love for Xiao Zhong is incomplete, and ......it is incomplete."
Because of the miscarriage, she can no longer face Zhong Jinyun like before, and she can't surround Zhong Jinyun every day as if nothing has happened.
Those heartless days seem to be gone forever.
Those reckless days seem to be gone forever.
The days of crazy love like that really seem to be gone forever.
At this moment, the nurse knocked on the door again and came in, Shu Aohan turned his head to look at the nurse and asked coldly, "What's the matter?" ”
In the tray in the nurse's hand are some medical supplies, drips**, and some iodine wine swabs and the like, "I'll change this xiǎo jiě for drips**, this ** is an anti-inflammatory drug." ”
Shu Aohan nodded, and personally watched the nurse finish changing Gu Xizi's medicine, and then the nurse smiled at Gu Xizi, "Xiǎo Jiě, I didn't expect you to wake up so quickly after being so seriously injured, we all thought you would fall asleep for a day and a night." ”
Shu Aohan tugged at the corners of his mouth, "That's her great fortune." ”
The nurse smiled and continued: "Xiǎo Jiě shouldn't know yet, if Shu Dashao hadn't donated 500 blood to Xiǎo Jiě in time, Xiǎo Jiě wouldn't have been out of danger so quickly, you must know that yesterday Xiǎo Jiě had a massive abdominal and intracranial hemorrhage, and excessive blood loss has been in a dangerous state."
This is a private hospital and there is no blood bank, Shu Dashao stood up and donated blood to xiǎo jiě, you must know that the normal amount of blood donation cannot exceed 300, but Shu Dashao was stunned to draw 500 blood to save xiǎo jiě's life, which shows that he is really in love with xiǎo jiě. ”
Hearing this, Shu Aohan immediately glared at the nurse, "Mouthy, who told you to say that?" ”
Of course, if this nurse didn't say it, Gu Xizi wouldn't know about it.
The nurse continued to ask: "By the way, the doctor just remembered this incident and asked me, let me ask Shu Dashao if he feels uncomfortable?" ”
Shu Ao shook his head coldly, "I'm fine." ”
"The doctor asked me to tell Shu Dashao that for the sake of the body, it is best to eat more blood-replenishing foods recently, such as animal liver, and to absorb more sugar to help the body recover quickly."
Shu Aohan's face was cold, "I know." ”
Then he glared at the nurse, "Have you finished changing the medicine, if you do, you can go out." ”
The nurse saw that Shu Aohan's face was extremely bad, and she didn't want to continue to stand here and affect the two of them, so she bowed to Shu Aohan after packing up her things and nodded and hurriedly went out.