Walking into the familiar interrogation room, I saw the purpose of the trip, the man with big wavy hair.

To be honest, I love this style, this poet-like elegance, although I long for a bald head and a flowery dress.

"You're in a nice outfit, I like it."

His voice sounded a little hoarse, and I believe that if this voice sang well, it would be very good, and I have always had a unique liking for the smoke voice, because it is like a sense of the vicissitudes of time.

"But even if you like it, I won't accept it if I give it to you."

Remembering his words in the surveillance room during the interrogation, I took off my hat and placed it on the table.

"Yes, it's not mine, I don't like it, and your hair is too long, which will make you look very disadvantaged."

He nodded, looking at my long hair and frowning.

Then, without waiting for me to speak, I remembered something: "There was a time when I had hair like this, but then I felt that I had to change my appearance, so I cut it." ”

Seeing him fold his handcuffed hands over with a pensive look, I knew he wanted to tell his story, so I leaned forward and listened.

I'm here to talk to him, and it doesn't matter to me who is leading the conversation, I just need to find the information I want, even if it takes longer.

"After I graduated from college, I looked for many jobs, but without exception, I quit my job, do you know why?"

He sensed my interest, and the corners of his mouth suddenly went up, and the topic started.

Of course, I don't know why, although I studied psychology, I can't guess what he thought a few years ago, and I didn't meet him at that time, so I shook my head: "I want to hear about it." ”

"My starting point is too high, my family has always been superior, and this sense of superiority has always been with me, even when I was in college, my father was seriously ill, an operation used up all my savings, and my mother was overworked and could no longer overwork, I never felt inferior."

"This is inevitable, and the height of the heart determines itself." I nodded, and put my arms on the table.

"You're right, I have hands and feet, enough to make money to support myself, I love to play, and my brain is not too stupid, so when the live broadcast industry was just emerging, I started game live broadcasting, in order to play that game well, I continued to study every day, and kept in touch with the players of the largest union in the same area, and finally became the queen thug of the union player, and earned my first pot of gold."

"How much?"

"More than 3,000 points, a month's time, not a lot, but after all, my college life is not bad, and in the next time, my business is getting bigger and bigger, the whole district knows me, and the people who watch my live broadcast are becoming more and more, so my income in the second month has reached more than 6,000, which has doubled."

"Then you are indeed very powerful, when I was in college, I didn't seem to have anything to be proud of." Nodding in agreement, I lied to him, but maybe I was too sincere and he didn't see it, but maybe he didn't care what I was saying.

"Because of this, I gave up in the school's financial hardship subsidy slot, although my teacher advised me to fill out a form, but I didn't do it, because I knew that among my classmates at the time, there were people who were much worse than me, like those who had no parents and were raised by their grandparents, and there were only a few such places, and they couldn't get it at all, so I didn't want to grab that, after all, I was able to make myself live a decent life, even if that life was a little tired."

His eyes were serious, but I could tell he wasn't lying, so I thought he was pretty great.

Maybe it's not a good word to describe a murderer, but I can't really think of any other word for a while, and if I could think of it, maybe I wouldn't be paid that little every month.

"But you know what? In the end, the financial hardship subsidy quota was not received by the students who were really in difficulty. ”

As soon as the conversation turned, a hint of sarcasm appeared on his face, and I sat up straight and asked questions.

"You have to know that often students who have real difficulties in their families are quite inferior, they don't know how to deal with people, so many behaviors look like fools and crazy people in the eyes of others, and the final decision on the place is voted on by all students, so the most votes are a girl who holds the latest version of the Apple mobile phone released at that time."

"It does sound sad."

"Well, yes, although I voted for the most difficult girl, she couldn't get the subsidy after all, and the first place subsidy also became the banquet capital of the student who got the bonus, of course, I disdain this behavior, and when I heard that the difficult girl who didn't get the subsidy cried for a long time, I was even more disdainful, but I couldn't change it, and I couldn't comfort her, after all, I wasn't a good person, I still have to live on my own, and I can't take care of too many people."

Nodding, his body curled up slightly, as if he was more relaxed.

The past is the most difficult time to be wary of.

"What happened to those two girls?"

"Who knows? After graduating from college, I went my separate way, I didn't like to connect with people, and I always felt like I didn't need friends. Shaking his head, he said he didn't know.

"Friends are still needed, and they can help you a lot of the time." I disagree with that.

"Well, you're right, but I don't think so." He nodded, but kept his thoughts.

It's a contradiction, but I know what he means.

He recognized his friends, but he had to comfort himself in this way because he had no friends.

"I'm sorry." Apologetic, he said politely.

And I said yes: "I'm interested in your story. ”

"It's all a very simple thing, maybe it's happened around you, but since you're interested, I can say more, during college, I was basically doing live broadcasts, but then I didn't increase it, basically this number, you have to know that if you want to play a lot of games now, spending money is always necessary, so I will invest a third in it almost every month, but even so, I'm always inferior to those who are really rich, so I'm tired of playing, a thing that is always inferior to others, What's the point of doing it? ”

"Character online games are indeed an endless thing, there will always be people who are richer than you, just like life, and games are the epitome of a person's real life."

"That's right, so after graduating from college, I realized that I couldn't get the life I wanted if I went on like this, but because I didn't have any other income at the time, I had to do it disgustingly, but these things on the Internet, the update is too fast, the live broadcast industry is getting hotter and hotter, there are always people who want to do better than you, and if you want to make money, it is necessary to invest first, I can't compare to them, I can only be squeezed, gradually, my income is getting lower and lower, and I can't do it anymore."

"You must have been confused, didn't you?" Listening to his narration and contemplating the situation, I asked.

"Yes, the word confused is very apt, so I went home, from the city to the county, back to home, spending the only savings, thinking about what I could do, I thought about it for more than two months, almost never left the house, and my hair was only raised at that time, just like you are now."

Looking at my hair, he was a little distracted, and I quietly didn't disturb him.

After a while, he came out of his memory, looked at me still looking at his eyes and smiled slightly, looking at me with an extremely sincere expression: "Really, this kind of hair is not chic at all. ”

"I know, I'll cut it out when I get back." I nodded and replied earnestly.

It made him smile even deeper.

"In two months, I figured out a lot of things, so when I cut off the troubles, I started looking for a job, but this year, it's really hard to find a job, I've done sales, I've been a waiter, etc., etc., but I've never done well, to be honest, the service industry is really a difficult thing to do, and because I'm not very interested in this kind of thing, so I can't put down my heart to fight, I think why I was better than this in college, and now it's not as good as then?"

"Maybe times are changing, and we're moving too slowly?"

Even though I said this, I was also asking myself.

When he heard this, he fell into thought, but soon he shook his head.

"No, we didn't go slowly, we just went wrong, they all said that all roads lead to Rome, but there are still some dead ends, so in fact, we are going wrong."

His tone was firm, and his demeanor could not be refuted.

So I nodded: "You're right, people go the wrong way sometimes." ”

"But there are some wrong paths, and you can't come back." Speaking of this, he looked a little sad, looked down at the handcuffs on his wrists, and clenched his fists.

Seeing him like this, I knew that it was necessary for this conversation to end, and that emotional fluctuations were not conducive to conversation.

"Maybe you should take a break."

I pushed the cup of hot water near him a little in front of him and stood up.

But he suddenly raised his head: "Don't go." ”

"Huh?" I turned my head and looked at him.

His eyes were a little red, but the request on his face was very sincere, so I sat down again.

"I don't want to suffer any more, so let me finish all these things at once, those police just want to confirm my incriminating evidence, never thought about what I think, I know, you are an expert in this area, through me, maybe you can make others not make the same mistakes."