Li Yue'er

As soon as I arrived at the company after lunch, Wang Hao handed me a document for Mr. Guo to sign.

This is the second time I have entered Mr. Guo's office, and coincidentally, he is talking on the phone again. However, today's atmosphere is obviously more relaxed, and I saw Mr. Guo showing a smile that I haven't seen for a long time, which makes me secretly happy.

I handed the document to Mr. Guo and whispered to him where he needed to sign, he nodded, glanced at it a few times, and wrote his name with a big stroke of the pen. I was about to leave when I suddenly heard him stop me and say, "Are you Li Yue'er from the Administration Department?" ”

I didn't expect him to ask about me, so I quickly turned around and nodded in agreement.

"Your writing is good, the promotional draft last time was very well written, and Wang Hao also praised you several times, do a good job!"

I saw that he was still on the phone, but he said these words to me temporarily, and his words were full of warmth and touching. Although I knew that the encouragement might have come more from his good mood today, I was still pleasantly surprised. After all, it's a good thing to get the company CEO to remember his name.

"Thank you, Mr. Guo, I will continue to work hard."

Mr. Guo nodded with satisfaction, and I walked out of his office, and my mood was as bright as the sun outside the window.

When he gave Wang Hao his life, he stared at me several times, "You look good today, what are you happy about?" ”

Of course, I couldn't tell him that because he got a compliment from his boss, "How can I be, Manager Wang, do I usually have a bad face?" ”

"How is that possible?! The basic conditions of the beauties of our administration department, even if they are sick, they are also Sai Xi Shi! It's just that it's rare to see you so relaxed today! ”

I was laughed at by him, "Leader, our administration department doesn't have easy errands, I have a lot of work, where is it easy"

"Heh, Comrade Xiao Li, now you have also followed those monkeys to learn oil, and you have lost all the excellent style of our ancestors who are modest and cautious, not arrogant and impatient! Alas, the last pure land in our department has also been polluted~" He shook his head as he spoke.

I was a little embarrassed by him, and blushed and said, "Manager Wang, isn't this a joke?" ”

"Yes, of course I do!" Wang Hao's voice was raised, "It's the first time you've talked to me so easily, it's too late for me to be happy, this is like a person in our department, no way, I'm just the upper beam is not right and the lower beam is crooked, an old oiler brought out a bunch of small oil, you don't know, you were so quiet and restrained before, it doesn't match the values of our department, it seriously affects the harmony of the department, I have long wanted to talk to you!" ”

He actually made such a bunch of crooked nonsense with a flamboyant tongue, and I laughed out loud, "Really? Then I must do a good job of self-reflection, so as not to be organized to talk."

"Hah, that's right! Our company has a big business, how can the administration department be easy! Alas, life is bitter and cannot blame the government. He was sighing to himself, and suddenly seemed to remember something, "Hey, I said, we are not easy, but Mr. Guo must be relaxed today!" Do you know? Let's always come back! Wang Hao patted the table and sighed.

"Mr. Chen? Which Mr. Chen? I suddenly had a premonition in my heart, and the smile froze on my face, it turned out that Mr. Guo's pleasant face today really had a reason.

"Mr. Chen Ran, one of the founders of our Kairan, I mentioned it to you before." Wang Hao recalled to himself, "Mr. Chen, that's a technical expert, do you know? Our company's fist products are developed by him, you see, just this technology, let Kairan dominate for so many years, even this year's alternative products, did not steal the limelight, how to say that sentence, 'has been chased, never surpassed'! That's right, that's it, that's it! ”

Wang Haowu gushed endlessly, but my heart was slammed, and there seemed to be a light flashing in front of my eyes, why did I have such a reaction, every time I mentioned Chen Ran, it seemed that thousands of emotions rose and extinguished in my body, so that I could not be freed.

"Mr. Chen came back this time, it must be for the replacement product; You don't know, Guo can always talk him back, but he has put a lot of effort into it. Now it's good, the R&D department must be happy, and the backbone is back; The sales department is probably also relieved, there is no need to carry the black pot, hey, Guo Xin, this kid doesn't know if he got the news, I have to call him and talk about it. ”

Wang Hao's thoughts turned quickly, and he had already picked up the phone at hand between words. When I saw this, I automatically retired, and Wang Hao did not forget to tell me while dialing, "By the way, Xiao Li, Mr. Chen's plane will arrive in City C at two o'clock in the afternoon tomorrow, you go with me to pick him up, and you can arrange the relevant matters." ”

I was startled, so to speak, I will see Chen Ran tomorrow.

Walking out of Wang Hao's office, it rained outside, and the sky that was bright and bright just now gradually became cloudy. The rain did not fall in a hurry, but it was also continuous, gradually weaving into a huge rain curtain, covering the huge city in a vast darkness. My heart was stirred up by Chen Ran's sudden return, and the ticking sound of the raindrops falling on the edge of the window seemed to be nothing, like an invisible clock, stubbornly measuring my past and present lives that had nothing to do with him.

The autumn wind and autumn rain are sad, and it has not officially entered autumn, this world is so impatient, I can't help but be irritable, what's wrong with me?

Chen Ran, a person I have never met, how can I sit alone like this?

Rubbing some swollen temples, according to Wang Hao's request to contact the pick-up matter, I put down the phone, suddenly the mobile phone text message ringtone, pick it up, it turned out to be the Pleasant Goat Annunciation.

"Our Mr. Chen is coming back, you know? Now our department can be regarded as liberated. ”

It's Chen Ran again, can't I hide today? Looking at the text message of the Pleasant Goat, I sighed to myself. After thinking for a moment, he asked, "Why?" ”

"You don't care about me too much, don't you know how much headache our R&D department has during this time? They were all harmed by the broken products, and now that Mr. Chen is back, we finally have the backbone."

"Isn't Manager Shen your backbone?"

"Shen Dazhi's guy is still the apprentice brought out by Mr. Chen, how can he compare with the master! Hey, can you not mention him, the people in the R&D department send me and him as a pile every day, this is out of the R&D department, and you have to hear his name like a curse, which is also irritating, and now what I want to hear most is that you, Comrade Li Yueer, fold your hands and congratulate me"

"Huh. Congratulations"

"Hello cold-blooded"

"Miss, I'm busy."

"Okay, okay, don't bother you. All of you in the administration department are ice beauties, and you can't afford to mess with them. Hey, by the way, do you know what Mr. Chen looks like? I heard that the person is a young talent, and the R&D department is finally a little beautiful, and my eyes have been bitter in the past two years~! ”

Pleasant Goat fell into her gossip again, and I didn't know where to hear this, I smiled and shook my head, and ignored her.

But her words seemed to arouse the secret thoughts in my heart, Chen Ran, what will this person I am about to meet tomorrow be like?

I found myself as desperate as a pleasant goat to associate that name with the actual outline, Li Yue'er, when did you become such an impatient person to judge people by their appearance?

I didn't expect this thought to be out of control, as if an invisible hand was pushing me, making me so eager to know a little bit about Chen Ran. I suddenly remembered that I had seen his report in a news article in the company, and I hurriedly found it.

It was just a silhouette of him accompanying the government leaders to inspect the company three years ago, and it can be seen that he is majestic and capable, restrained and calm in his gestures, Wang Hao said that he was born in technology, and he can indeed get a glimpse of one or two.

The photos weren't clear, they didn't have much scrutiny value, and I turned off the computer page and suddenly I felt ridiculous, what is that? The girl's heart of spring? Or is it the curiosity of the world? What am I doing!

Not to mention that Chen Ran didn't know that there was a person like me at all, even if he knew, he and I were just Kai Ran's boss and subordinates like everyone else, and now I was so self-pitying for him, it was really a meaningless and boring thing.

I'm kind of spurning myself.

Looking up at the wall clock on the wall, it was time to get off work, packed up my things, put down the bun on the plate, and scratched the mole on the back of my neck without paying attention to my nails, which hurt.

When I was a child, I heard my mother say that my mole was brought by my mother's womb, and it was not small, but fortunately, it was born on the back of the neck, and it was usually covered by long hair, which was fine, but occasionally when my fingers touched it, it would be painful. Later, when I grew up, I saw in the novel that this was a bitter mole, but I was too lackluster since I was a child, and I had a little ignorance in adolescence and was blown away by the rain and wind silently, and there was really no earth-shattering experience, so I felt that the novel story was written for people to read, and I always had to make up some anecdotes to whet the public's appetite, and it was just some nonsense.

What do you want to do so much, Li Yue'er, pack up your things and get off work!

Chen Ran

Ever since my last dream, I seem to have been in an inexplicable mood. There seems to be an unprovoked person in my heart, I can't afford to pick it up and I can't rest assured, but there is no trace of it after thinking about it, which makes people feel sad and not in a state.

What's even more strange is that it's easy to get distracted lately, passing by the jewelry store on the street, I can't help but stop and look at a jade hairpin like a woman who loves jewelry; Sitting in the coffee shop, I would stare blankly for a long time, just because there was a woman in green sitting opposite, until the other party looked at me with strange eyes, and some of them rolled their eyes at me threateningly, probably thinking that I was a pervert; Even in the face of the mist of the morning light and the endless traffic at dusk, I will feel a lot of emotion, and my heart will be filled with indescribable tenderness and sadness, as well as the heartache that seems to be absent.

Such a heartache reached a climax when Guo Kai called "Li Yueer" on the phone just now.

Li Yue'er, Li Yue'er, I silently recited the name, but I found that every time I had more, the heartache was deeper, as if it had penetrated into my veins, and with the blood flowing, it was naked and flooding all over my body, making people want to stop, so that Guo Kai later expressed his excitement and excitement on the phone, and I suddenly lost interest.

What's wrong with me?

Is it just that my departure has made me sentimental?

Shook his head with a wry smile, Chen Ran, you actually have times when you lose your temper like a woman?

But I have to say that since I decided to return to Kai, in addition to these ungraspable parting sorrows, my heart is actually happy, and that long-lost enthusiasm is active again, as if the dusty cells have suddenly been injected with new genetic code, rapidly dividing and growing, making people rejuvenated.

Even Xiaojuan said to herself sourly, "It seems that I can't compare to Kai Ran after all, in the past two years with me, when have you ever seen you so energetic and windy?" ”

I was stunned, but speechless.

Xiaojuan has been coming home later and later, and the smell of tobacco and alcohol on her body is mixed with the pungent aroma of fat powder, which is decadent and strong, which makes people very uncomfortable. I don't know why a small health bureau also has so many social interactions, but every time I inadvertently ask, she always looks impatient to explain, especially when she thinks that I left her and returns to Kai, and is even more indifferent and disdainful of my care and kindness.

We hadn't spoken well for a few days, and we all seemed a little helpless in the face of the upcoming separation, but we didn't know where to start. I woke up in the middle of the night several times, the pillow was empty, I saw Xiaojuan standing alone on the balcony whispering something to the phone, the cigarette butt in her hand flashed a cold glimmer in the vast night, I don't know who she was talking to, but the sobbing sound and the weak whisper still made me feel distressed for a while, the prosperity was gone, the midnight dream back, under the thin and bleak back, she was still the weak woman who longed for the company of her lover and didn't have to work hard to live.

Really, for a moment, I felt like I was about to give up and return to Kairan, but when the sun rose and a new day came, Xiaojuan skillfully repackaged herself in the mirror as an urban beauty, facing that familiar but unfamiliar face, I felt that the softness of heart at that moment was as unreal as an illusion.

The beauty of those deceased husbands and wives, the stability and peace that can never be returned, seems to be just yesterday, and it seems like a century has passed.

In the end, we still couldn't finish the wine and say goodbye.

Even so, I rented a house near the apartment and took my parents from N City, I have been away for a long time, and my parents take care of me, it will always be better for Xiaojuan, and I can rest assured.

Suddenly I realized that all I could do was that, and I sighed.

Before leaving, my parents told me to go to the temple to burn incense. The mother of the child is worried, their thoughts are very simple, go out, and keep safe. In the past, I must have been disdainful of people who are used to traveling all over the country, but this time I was moved by the spirit. Maybe my relationship with Xiaojuan has finally become a knot in my heart, or maybe those unexplained emotions and inexplicable dreams have made me feel restless, in short, I picked a morning that is not a weekend, to avoid the crowded crowds on holidays, I came to Yikong Temple, which is not very famous in H City but has a long history of thousands of years.

Yikong Temple is located on the cloud mountain on the outskirts of H city, taking the meaning of "ten thousand sects are one, all fate is empty". The temple was built in the Tang Dynasty, and was damaged by fire in the Ming and Qing dynasties, and was later repaired and renovated. Because it is far away from the downtown area, the scale of the establishment is far away from the famous royal temples such as Huangde Temple and Lingshui Temple in the city, and few people usually come, at this time, the morning light on the horizon is slightly dewed, the mist is shrouded on the cloud mountain, and the water vapor is steaming, the bells in the temple are bursting, the emptiness is far away like the fairy music curling endlessly, like a paradise in the world, it makes people feel relaxed and happy, and there is a sense of where they are tonight and night.

When I entered the temple, I saw few people, and there were two or three pilgrims who kneeled to burn incense in all directions according to the established procedures. In the main hall, a group of monks sit and chant scriptures. I was not a devout disciple, and I didn't know how to pay attention to it, so I learned that others first went to the merit box at the entrance of the temple to rejoice in the merits, and then picked up three pillars of incense from the table next to it, lit it and inserted it into the incense burner outside the temple, and then put my hands together and made a wish.

In fact, my wish is very simple, life is peaceful, and my heart is stable, but in the end I still embarked on the opposite path, begging for peace and tranquility in the middle of the opposite, is it too greedy?

That's it, it's a wish of my parents!

I sighed and prepared to leave. Walk to the front of the temple gate, only to see a low table and chair at the door, a thick merit on the table, after years of accumulation of writing, it is old and yellow, next to a stick, which contains dozens of red-headed bamboo sticks, the sign looks like some years, and the black oil has long been unable to distinguish the true color of bamboo. An old monk who looked to be in his sixties sat at his desk, carefully transcribing the scriptures stroke by stroke.

My heart moved, and I involuntarily stepped forward, took out a hundred yuan and handed it to the monk, only to see him put his hands together and silently recite "Amitabha", take the money, ask my name, and respectfully write it in the merit book. Then he handed over the lottery holder and said to me, "Donor, please draw lots"

Seeing that I didn't know why, he immediately explained, "This temple is far away from the hustle and bustle, and the incense is not comparable to the royal temple. ”

I see, looking up, I saw the old monk smiling, his voice was calm and solemn, I couldn't help but be solemn, a little calm, and then I took the nearest one of the lottery holders and handed it to the old monk, waiting for the following.

"The nineteenth sign gentleman asked about the return date is not due and the flowers bloom two do not know that the red dust comes and goes for thousands of years to gather and disperse sometimes, well, in the flat sign" The old monk stroked his beard and repeatedly read the signature twice, was silent for a long time, and then raised his eyes and said to me, "Donor, I don't know what you are asking for, judging from this signature alone, it should be the image of the vicissitudes of life finally returning to silence." The red dust is disturbed, nothing more than the words profit and love, but although the two people in the world are struggling to find, but in fact, there is a fixed number in the reincarnation, and those who come are safe, and those who go are also allowed to go, all of them are just the same fate, and the donor should also relax his heart. ”

The words of the old monk are still in my ears, but I was stunned on the spot, as if I felt that there was a real god in the underworld, so well versed in the world's mental barriers, and all the indescribable disturbed minds in this deep ancient temple in front of the Bodhisattva of Compassion at a glance.

So, for me and Xiaojuan, is it also time for the intermission of this play?

Let the distance and time fill the waiting and silence between the two halves.

The mist in the mountains has long since dissipated, and the sun hangs brightly on the top of the mountain, sprinkling thousands of golden rays of light, so bright that people can't open their eyes. I looked in the rearview mirror of the car, and the temple was hidden deeper into the mountains and forests in the light, and faded away behind me, never to be seen again.

This time tomorrow, I'm already on my flight to City C.

If you come, you will be safe, and if you go, you will let it go.

That's it, so be it.