Actually, what I really want to ask my grandmother is whether she will be me decades from now.

Because last time I was in Baiguang Hospital, the elevator I took was smart and could talk, but it told me blindly and pointed me to the wrong way. I was going to go shopping, but it turned out to be given to me, pointed to the wrong floor, and arrived at the morgue on the 7th floor! At that time, the girl in the pink nurse's uniform also made fun of me, saying that if the elevator can talk, I'm afraid it will be the elevator in a few decades, that is to say, the elevator I did last time was not now, because the elevator I was sitting in at that time was broken and was being repaired, but the elevator of Baiguang Hospital decades later, and the Dr. Zhou I met was not the current Dr. Zhou, but Dr. Zhou's son?

So who am I? Am I Zhanye who have traveled to the future, or am I Zhanye's child? But the grandmother named Zhan Ye clearly said that she was never married in her life, and she never mentioned the matter of children, could it be said that she had a child out of wedlock? Like Li Tiewang, the security captain of our Lunhong University? Also, if Li Tiewang used to be a corpse watcher at the funeral home, this would be consistent with the phone call that Shi Lanyan received to the funeral home in the middle of the night in the bedroom!

And that strange note that Mo Changjiang gave me, which said, I am you, what's going on? I looked down at the red dress I was wearing, and it was said that on the first day of our freshman enrollment at Lunhong University, the woman who jumped off the building was wearing a red dress.

So, am I her? Am I already dead? Could the morgue be where I should be, and was that takeaway really my order? Is the corpse that Li Tiewang is guarding really me?

Wrong! If I'm dead, why can't I see the guy who told me to take vitamin A for night blindness?

Does he really hate me so much that he doesn't want to see me?

His name is Su Xu, he is the person I had a crush on in college, he is tall and handsome, although there is no way to compare with the Wu Shuai in our graduate class, but in my mind, she is the most handsome person in the world alongside my brother! I thought he would say yes in my constant pursuits, but he didn't! Did he always treat me like a sister, just because I was a few years younger than him? I don't know why, just like I don't even know who I am now.

He was in the Fine Arts Department, and I studied biology as an undergraduate, and after a biology class in our class, I walked around the campus by myself, and then sat under a big tree to rest, and it happened to be raining, and he came over, gave me his umbrella, and then ran back in the rain.

I was very touched by his gesture, because after giving me the umbrella, there were only two people who braved the rain, my grandmother and my brother.

At that time, I began to try to understand him, and found that he was a very good learner, and he would have had a chance to study abroad, but he wanted to stay in China, and his favorite song was, "You always say that my heart is like a glass, pure and transparent like water, even if it is full of heartbreak......"

So I set my phone ringtone to the song he liked, and until now, and at that time, I was waiting for him to ask me for an umbrella almost every day, but he never called, at that age when love was just beginning, I once thought he was for me, that this is providence!

Later I found out that he was my senior, 3 levels older than me, but 6 years older, my freshman and his senior.

The umbrella was very beautiful, with orange and red flowers and a black handle, exactly the same color as the little crossbody bag I was carrying at the time, and of course I was carrying it all the time, because it felt like he had never left me, and these two colors were also my favorite, and I thought he must be a sunny and enthusiastic boy.

I took his automatic umbrella every day, like Cinderella looking for the prince, and I wanted to wait for some rainy day, and then hand over the umbrella he had given me with orange flowers and red flowers, and say to him, "Hello, my name is Zhanye!" ”

Who knows that the world is unpredictable, I heard others say that there is a problem in his family, not only did he not study at his favorite Lunhong University, but he also had a strange illness and could only live for 18 months!

I was about to enter my sophomore year at that time, and I was not very good at socializing, but during the holidays, I was mixed into the major clubs of the art department, and I could be seen, running back and forth in high heels, and finally a week later, I got the address of his home and found his home.

I remember that day he was sleeping at home, so I went and knocked on his door and pretended to be a meter checker, "Is there anyone?" Check the water meter! ”

"Didn't you just check this?" The person who opened the door and hit Hatche was really him, Su Xu, he was not wearing a shirt at the time, in a dilapidated house on the outskirts of Tianluo City, there was no one else in the house, only himself!

When he saw that it was me, he was so frightened that he hurriedly asked me to wait for a while, and then quickly changed his clothes, and when he closed the door and opened it again, he stood in front of me very gentlemanly.

"I'm here to return your umbrella! Look at this umbrella of yours, doesn't it look like this little crossbody bag of mine? As he spoke, I pointed to the bag I was carrying.

"It's raining outside! It's going to be cold, right? He thoughtfully draped his white coat with the scent of laundry detergent over me.

"Won't you let me in and sit down?" I don't know who gave me the courage to talk to a man like this, this should be what girls often say, love is great!

"This, it's not convenient, right?"

But he rejected me, in fact, this scene has appeared many times, every time I go to their class outside to wait for him to get out of class, when I want to return the umbrella to him, she says no for various reasons, he is in the rain on a rainy day I have seen it several times, I don't know why, he didn't buy an umbrella, he should only have this umbrella, so I have to return it to him, I am the more frustrated the more courageous, the more I don't want to give it to me!

I feel that I don't look like me anymore, if I usually have a bad temper, I would have thrown away the umbrella a long time ago, but I haven't been angry with him once.

When he finally went to their house, he opened the door and dressed neatly, and then said generously, "Come in!" ”

As for his father and mother, I don't know where they are? He didn't want to say, and I didn't ask.

As soon as he came in, he couldn't control me, so I began to clean up his room everywhere, which had never happened in my own bedroom and at home. Then, like a real girlfriend, if class is late, I will call him and tell him to eat on time.

As long as the class is early, I will take the bus for more than 1 hour to his house, rain or shine, and it is also a strange thing, basically every time I go to his house, it is raining, or it has just rained, and he always gently touches my head and calls me the rain god. Actually, the food I learned to cook for him was not delicious, but he liked it!

At that time, Deng Deng often stopped me, he said that he was instructed by my brother, in fact, my brother should have worked as a teacher in a three-school college in Lunhong City at that time, and he was already married to my sister-in-law, how can he have time to care about me? Later, Deng Deng said that at the behest of my grandmother, there was no mistake, my grandmother's memory at that time began to be not as good as before, not very good, often forget things and people, and confuse someone and something, although Deng Deng said that he lived close to my grandmother's house, but he never dared to come to my grandmother's house, in fact, Deng Deng was a person, that is, bullying students who were about the same age as him, and he immediately coaxed his parents.

Anyway, at that time, Deng Deng didn't know why he was looking for trouble with Su Xu everywhere, and he got rid of the image of a father who was afraid that his daughter would be bullied, although Deng Deng had already fallen in love with Gao Shuzi at that time!

And Su Xu and I have already said that our attitude towards Deng Deng is not to care, not to complain, and not to take the initiative.

So that's it, as the relationship between Deng Deng and Gao Shuzi slowly stabilized, Su Xu and I had time to be together, but we were not in love, because I had never determined the relationship with him, he didn't mention it, and I didn't have the face to say it!

Su Xu told me a lot of truths at that time, but now I am a little vague.

But I clearly remember that it was a sunny afternoon after the rain, I went to him after class, and brought him the bread I bought the night before when I went to work in a fast food restaurant to make money, and the leftovers that the customers of the fast food restaurant ate, I stared at it and it was not dirty at all, it was eaten by children, I gave it to him, and then gave him a laughing and laughing meal, and almost choked, we looked at each other, and did not speak. He just kept his head down, but after a few minutes, he suddenly said to me, "Zhan Ye! Do you want to check out my favorite college? ”

"Okay! But will it take a long time from our Tianluo City to Lunhong City? ”

"Hmmm! It's going to be almost dark when you get there, are you afraid of me? ”

"Of course I'm not afraid! Besides, you're not an infectious disease, I've had chickenpox before, my grandmother is not afraid, and she still takes care of me, if I'm afraid of you, will I come over to accompany you every day? ”

"But you'll go back to your grandmother's house before it gets dark!"

"Well, that's because I'm night blind! I can't see clearly at night! ”

"I'll protect you, Zhanye!"

"Are you confessing to me? Su Xu! I looked at him mischievously, expecting what he would say, but he stopped answering and started a different topic!

"Wan Bao is from the Fine Arts Department of Lunhong University, and I hope to become a master painter like him in the future!"

"Who is Wanbao? I've studied art before, but I'm not as good at painting as yours! I love drawing too! But what I love the most is being a model! ”

Su Xu glanced at me and couldn't help laughing.

"What are you laughing at? I'll be embarrassed! ”

"Zhan Ye! What do you see this is? ”