Chen Ran

Yue'er's father and Yang Xi were discussing with great interest the criteria for the objects they were going to choose for Yue'er, and I sat next to them, so close to them, but I couldn't say a word, I couldn't say a word, which once again made me feel powerless and sad, just because, I was not qualified.

Because at this moment, I am the boss of Yue'er's company and the leader of Yue'er, no matter how hard I try to direct and act out this chance encounter, in the eyes of outsiders, I am just a person who can't fight with Yue'er's private life. In front of me, they can not mention Yue'er's personal life at all, or they can talk about Yue'er's lifelong events with great fanfare, because in their eyes, these are completely irrelevant things to me, irrelevant and harmless, so there is no need to taboo or shy away from it, just say it if you want to, come it easily, and export it into a chapter......

What does it feel like? The restaurant was crowded with people, the cups and plates were staggered, and the lights were full of smiling faces.

Suddenly it feels like it's all a little ridiculous today. Since I was with Yue'er, although she tried to express her determination to me several times, I could feel that she was extremely worried and sensitive in her heart. It's not that I doubt her feelings for me, but our relationship, to put it bluntly, is an extramarital affair in the eyes of the world, an extramarital affair, the weight of these three words, for a young girl who has just graduated from school for less than two years and is only 24 years old, it is indeed a huge challenge and test. So I understood from the beginning that this bitter love would only be a single-choice question, and there was only an either/or answer, otherwise it would be harmful and unprofitable for me, Yue'er, Xiaojuan, and all three of us would be tortured in every way, so I made up my mind from the beginning that I would continue to suffer from it, and if I chose Yue'er, the showdown with Xiaojuan would be sooner or later. But Yue'er repeatedly told me that I didn't want to see Xiaojuan get hurt, didn't want me to be embarrassed, and asked me not to divorce Xiaojuan, she said that she was mentally prepared, and she said that she could afford it. But after this period of time, even a little bit of small details, she is also sensitive, she cares about the eyes of outsiders, avoids the topic of relatives and friends, she repeatedly hints in her heart that this feeling is different, like a little beast that has just learned to walk but is lost, with the courage of continuous self-blessing to suppress the innate anxiety and fear, after all, it is a stumbling like walking on thin ice and can't see the future.

This is not the Yue'er in my eyes, let alone the Yue'er I want to see, I don't want to see her lose herself because of this relationship, I have done everything possible to change this situation. So I offered to send her to work, I wanted to take her out on the weekends, I wanted to spend more time with her, try to give her what normal love should be, I wanted to give her what she lacked the most, a sense of security.

Because of this, even though she refused my request to meet her father, I still deliberately arranged this chance encounter in the restaurant, just to make her understand that she was my beloved girl, her father, and I treated her as my own family. I hope she doesn't feel like everyone else doesn't have the opportunity to meet her elders with her lover, and I want to stand side by side with her in front of her father, even if I show up as the boss of the company, and go through the ceremony with her, because it means a lot to me and to her.

But obviously I underestimated the impermanence and helplessness of this world. When I came to the Northeast restaurant that Yue'er said in my mouth, I found that Shen Dazhi and Yang Xi were also present, and a planned lunch of three people paid by me became a five-person party with Dazhi, but fortunately, I am the protagonist in terms of position, and I can greet Dazhi to treat Yue'er's father warmly. Yue'er's father also asked me to persuade Yue'er, persuade Yue'er? Convince my beloved girl to find another man? I could only shake my head and smile bitterly, but I couldn't even answer a word!

It's not that she didn't see Yue'er's painful and embarrassed expression, this situation must have been unexpected by her. It's really dumb to eat Yellow Lotus, Ben came with a full of longing, hoping to see her smile and joy, but it didn't come true, and it was such a situation with a thousand twists and turns! Yue'er's father and Yang Xi talked about his standards, I want to stop him and tell him, I meet your standards, I have a calm personality, I work hard, I have always longed for a stable and peaceful life, I will be very good to Yue'er, I will respect you with her and be filial to you, can you go back and take a look at this young man next to you, he is your daughter's lover!

But how could Yue'er's father hear it, and how could he think of it? In his cognition, I will always be fixed in Yue'er's boss, a man who has been married for many years, how can such a man have anything to do with his daughter? If it really mattered, he should be more frightened than surprised!

With a sorrow in my heart, I looked at Yue'er and met her eyes. In those eyes, there were worries, grievances, unavoidable suffering, and unspeakable heartache. The corners of her eyes were slightly sour, and my heart was numb for a while, and I didn't know what words to use to comfort her heartache and soothe her already sensitive and fragile sorrow. Retracting my gaze, I stared faintly at the wine glass in front of me, the residue in the glass shook silently, shattering the soft light of the room, and the laughter in the restaurant was endless, but I suddenly felt that the fireworks in this world seemed to be separated by a world, leaving Yue'er and I standing alone in another time and space that could be seen but not touched.

This feeling of powerlessness instantly engulfed me, and something called exhaustion slowly soaked into my heart. I picked up the bottle next to me and watched as I filled the glass in front of me, it was a huge glass, I rarely let myself linger between the glasses, but now I seemed to have no scruples, and I tilted my head and poured the whole glass into my mouth.

There is a spicy stimulation transmitted to the whole body, provoking the call and sorrow in every nerve, I took out my mobile phone, the effect of alcohol made my vision a little blurred, I struggled to find the handwriting on the screen that did not look clear, and the ignorance was unprecedented gloom and helplessness - "Yue'er, you tell me, what should I do to protect you?" ”

I think I'm a little tired, although I've always been a low-key and introverted person, but even when I encounter difficult and difficult problems, I rarely let negative emotions dominate me, I always believe that everything has a solution, and there are always more solutions than problems. But today, I have never felt a trace of fatigue and panic, as if the proposition that had been clear before began to become unsolvable, and I actually wanted to seek the answer from Yue'er.

Then I saw Yue'er staring blankly at her phone, motionless for a long time, and when she raised her head to look at me again, she was already teary-eyed.

I couldn't help but wake up.

What am I doing here?! Chen Ran, are you stupid? Knowing that Yue'er is already overwhelmed by sensitivity, what can support her is that she believes in your firm heart for her, the only thing she can rely on is you, and the only thing she can rely on is you, but you, not only did not pass on more strength to her to stabilize her wavering heart, but instead pressed the last straw on her body!

Chen Ran, are you a man? Haven't you always prided yourself on being open-minded and responsible? But you actually let your lover, let a weak woman face these worldly problems, you are embarrassed to ask her for an antidote, a little girl, can bravely accept a married man like you, willing to bear the pain of the so-called "third party" has paid a lot of dignity and effort, you can't afford to bear this burden and can't hold up a piece of the sky for the other party, and you still push these problems to others! What's more, these problems, in the final analysis, aren't they all caused by you?!

If you are not married, if you are just an ordinary company owner, a bachelor like Guo Kai, no one can talk nonsense even if you find a student, how can there be such a problem, how can Yue'er be tortured like this. A marriage contract has blocked how many children's affection, and how many involuntary ones have been sown. You asked Yue'er, how to protect her, how to protect her? Could there be a simpler question? - Marriage! Give her marriage! Only by giving her a marriage, letting her hold her head high in front of the public, so that she can stand side by side with you in front of her friends and relatives, acquaintances and strangers, and say that this is my lover, is the real way to protect her, and the best choice to protect her!

My heart was shocked, as if in an instant, countless doubts were clear in my heart, yes! There is no third answer to some questions, Yue'er is too young to fully understand the truth that "long pain is better than short pain", but I can't pretend not to know because of her self-righteous peace of mind. I am forty years old, and I have been in the prosperous world for half of my life, and the relationship between men and women can be regarded as a sea, do you remember what I said to Yue'er about the chance? If chance has pushed us to this point, then leave everything behind and go with the flow!

Aren't I going back to City H next weekend? Perhaps, this is an opportunity given to me by God, so that Xiaojuan and I can face to face, calmly, and cherish each other.

Thinking of this, I have secretly made up my mind, and when I raise my eyes again, I am no longer confused and hesitant just now. Looking at Yue'er, she still had a sad face, and she was stirring the cold food in the bowl indifferently, as if petrified. I couldn't bear it, and I couldn't help but shake her hand from under the table, hoping that this little comfort could pass on some strength to her. She seemed to be alarmed, and suddenly looked up at me, her eyes full of doubt and incomprehension.

I looked at her with unquenchable affection in my eyes, smiled slightly, took out my mobile phone and edited a text message to her as quickly as possible, which read, "Yue'er, don't be sad, don't be sad, please believe me, I will definitely wish you a happy time." ”