Li Yue'er

I guess I must have looked very sad, otherwise Chen Ran wouldn't have taken such a big risk and shook my hand from under the table. Knowing that he was here for me today, I was full of surprise and emotion, but I didn't expect it to end up like this. My father and Pleasant Goat talked a lot about my love, but Chen Ran and I could only sit silent, and our hearts were turned upside down but we had to endure it in every way.

For a moment, I really didn't want to bear it anymore, I wanted to stand up and interrupt my father and Pleasant Goat, and tell them that I don't want any blind dates, I don't want any young talents, I have my lover, he is sitting next to me now, and the only thing I want is to hope that you can accept him, give me, and accept him and me who love each other like this.

But reason tells me that I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't, because once I open my mouth, not only will I not get the result I want, but I will only push him and me into the abyss from which there will be no return.

So I drank tea to hide my panic, I lowered my head to prevent them from seeing my painful expression, and I even tried to pinch myself with my fingernails to keep myself awake to remind myself that impulse is the devil and that it will only consume people completely.

I secretly fought with myself like this, and only prayed that this meal would end soon, soon. I really don't know how much longer I'll last. My fists were blue and white because of the exertion, my fingers were cold, and there was fine sweat oozing, thin and greasy in every inch of skin texture, and there was an annoying stickiness to the touch, but I couldn't shake it off.

I was speechless, I couldn't sit still, the table was full of delicious food and chewing wax, the food in the bowl had already cooled, and I was confused with my chopsticks, not knowing whether to pick them on the table or put them in my mouth.

Then I felt a warmth that gently enveloped me, very gently, and squeezed it on my fingertips. As if the electric currents spread all over my body, I was startled, raised my head, Chen Ran's bright eyes were like bright stars in the dark night, shining and twinkling, he looked at me so steady, as if there were a thousand words coming to my face, and the flying flowers turned into a warm spring breeze in the rain, only slowly soothing my heart.

But I was still flustered, my father, Pleasant Goat, and Manager Shen were sitting next to me, my eyes swept over them quickly, and I retracted my hand like an electric shock, I don't know why Chen Ran suddenly acted like this, and he just asked me how to protect me? Presumably he was exhausted in the face of such an embarrassing scene, and it was rare to see him so depressed. He has always been a standing existence in my heart, no matter what kind of tricky situation he faces, he can easily strategize, but now he has encountered a problem that even he doesn't know the answer to, he can't solve it, how can I get a glimpse of the clever pull and move the whole body?

My sorrow, in addition to the fact that I can't help myself, comes more from this. If I can't do anything to rely on, how can I have the confidence to sing alone in the storm?

But that warm touch approached me again, no longer a shallow taste, but firmly fixed my hand, holding my fingertips tightly, as if trying to transmit to me endless power. I met Chen Ran's gaze again, with doubts and incomprehension; The warm sun outside the window covered his refreshing eyebrows and eyes, and he nodded at me, his smile with the firmness and calmness of the past, and the frustration of Shicai was helpless, and he only motioned for me to look at his phone.

"Yue'er, don't be sad, don't be sad, please believe me, I will definitely promise you a happy time." The clear handwriting slid through my heart like water, washing away the blinded dust, I don't know why he suddenly said such a firm heart to me, only to feel that the noise of the people around me was completely unheard, the Chen Ran I was familiar with, the shoulder I could rely on, and stood firmly in front of me. At such a sad time, he seemed to have walked through countless landscapes, trampled all the difficulties under his feet, and held my hand to allow me to live a clear and bright life. Suddenly, my heart was relieved, and my whole heart was more stable than ever.

I let out a long breath, looked at him, shook his hand vigorously, and smiled softly. Knowing that I had understood, he withdrew his hand and turned his head to talk and laugh with the crowd, as if nothing could distract him in the slightest.

The dinner finally ended in its happy atmosphere. When my father and I returned home, we were full of food and drink, and he was very happy, and he talked endlessly. I served him to take a nap and went to bed, and then I came to the living room to clean up the things he had brought. The text message rang, and Chen Ran's tone seemed to be extremely relaxed, "Yue'er, how about we go to a movie next week?" ”

For some reason, I always felt that after a brief period of confusion in the middle of today's dinner, Chen Ran seemed to be more enthusiastic about me. I don't know what prompted him to suddenly speed up to get closer to me, but every woman in love, no matter how hard the process of love is, when she receives an invitation from her lover, she is happy and sweet, and I am no exception.

So without thinking about it, the word "good" had already blurted out, and after thinking about it, I still asked, "Chen Ran, don't you mind what happened at noon today?" ”

soon received Chen Ran's answer, but it was full of affection, "Mind me, how can you not mind?" How could I be happy to see my beloved girl being pushed to other men by her family and friends? But Yue'er, you have to understand that our current relationship will never be avoidable. Your father, your friends, they just do normal things, and they are all for your own good. If you have to fight against these, you will only suffer yourself, you know? So, I tell you not to be sad, not to be sad, since you have chosen me, please believe me, I will definitely have a way to change this dilemma. I am your lover, and it is my responsibility to hold up a piece of heaven for you. ”

It's not that I am not moved, when I am hesitant and lost, when I am swaying in doubt, there is always someone by my side to shelter me from the wind and rain, telling me not to worry, so that I believe that no matter what happens, he will be by my side to protect me, clear the fog for me, and attract the stars in the sky to illuminate the future. There are warm tears rolling down from the eyes, ticking and splashing on the mobile phone screen, as if the ice crystal butterfly fluttering its wings and stopping, I also told myself in the shimmer of the small squares, Li Yue'er, listen to his words, you have to face the existence around you calmly, accept and tolerate your own apprehension and sensitivity, love him, believe in him, Chen Ran, it is worth you to deliver this life time for him.

So I began to slowly learn to find and adapt to my way of getting along with him. Chen Ran picked me up and dropped me off and off every day as usual, but I consciously got on and off at the intersection some distance from the company. During the day, I would sit in the back of the car and keep my distance between the boss and his subordinates who were taking the ride. At night, I will sit in the passenger seat next to Chen Ran, and I will try not to look at the night scene outside the window, leaving only a back to the outside view. In the company, he is not in charge of the administration department, and I am just an ordinary employee under Wang Hao of the administration department. As we passed by in the hallway, I nodded my head and greeted him, smiling and hurrying away. At the meeting, I poured his beloved Tieguanyin for him, and he would politely express his gratitude; Occasionally, he would ask me to deliver him a document or give him some official orders, and only when it was just the two of us would he call me a girl, whisper a few words of love to me, and gently shake my hand when no one was around. And at this time I am often ashamed and happy, in the time and space that no one knows, I and him, really like a pair of lovers secretly weaving our love, I even think that this does not seem to be as bad as imagined, since this happiness is stolen, let us from form to content, are completely unified. If we want to carry out love to the end, then don't drill the horns, take a step back and fulfill the other party to fulfill themselves.

Although Chen Ran kept laughing at me for being too cautious, he also said that it was not necessary to be so careful. But at my strong insistence, he didn't say anything more, just rubbed my hair and muttered, "Girl, I won't let you wait too long." Then I smiled softly, I didn't think it meant anything to me at the moment, and now I seemed to be able to accept it calmly, and it didn't seem to matter what to wait for or not to wait. Of course, he is willing to comfort me in this way, and he is willing to be considerate of me, and I am also happy. I love the way he is engrossed in his work, the gentleness with which he rubs my hair and calls me girl, and even the lazy cool way he holds the steering wheel in one hand and puts a cigarette on the car window in the other.

So when I realized that watching a movie with him would be our first date, I dressed up on this day. I put my hair up and only a few strands of soft hair hanging down from my ears, and put on a long black slim trench coat with a white dress and knee-high boots. When I appeared in front of Chen Ran with my bag, I saw that his eyes seemed to light up, and he was unprecedentedly humane by his appearance, "'There are beautiful women in the north, peerless and independent. One look at the city, and then look at the country'. I want to say that the beautiful woman is not only in the north, but there is one in front of me? My Yue'er is so beautiful today! But such straightforward compliments are also very happy in my heart.

The love words of people in love, when it is never enough to say and not listen enough, but after all, I was not carried away by such joy, after arriving at the theater, he offered to go his own way with Chen Ran, he went to buy tickets, I waited in the car, he returned to the car, gave me tickets and drinks, we went into the theater separately, successively to the seats, after sitting down, the two smiled at each other, intimate as before. Chen Ran let me arrange this way carefully, didn't say much, just kissed my forehead in the carriage, I asked him what movie he chose, he said to be with me, of course, to choose the movie that best suits his mood at the moment - "Heartbeat".