Li Yue'er

The days are like a brightly glazed satin, gently gliding through the 9-to-5 cycle. After that night, Chen Ran and I have become a lot closer, and this closeness is more tacit trust and cherishment than before under the commensurate relationship between brother and sister. I felt an unprecedented sense of satisfaction, and I was gradually soaking myself in my body and mind, quietly opening a door in the twenty-four springs, summers, autumns and winters of my life, and the sun was shining in, and a field of flowers was blooming.

When we passed by in the company and smiled, when I accompanied him to complete a certain work task, his undisguised relief and relief filled my heart with joy. Because, so relaxed and real him, in front of me, I saw.

Gradually, I began to look forward to every day of work, the kind of indulgence in the air dotted with sweetness, in this same time and space only I and him understand the tacit understanding, so that I am full of spirit, full of passion for entrepreneurship, weekends for me instead of doing nothing.

I don't know if this is good or bad, even if I call him "Brother Chen", he is actually the boss, and he is already married, he understands, I also understand, we all seem to be careful to control that degree, carefully care for this soft and fragile sympathy. It's just that, at least in the hourly space of Kairan, I am closer to him than most people around me, and that is enough.

That's enough.

Occasionally, it is inevitable that there will be a trace of worry, is my feeling for Chen Ran really just as pure as a brother? If he hadn't gotten married, if he had just been an ordinary colleague in the company, would I still have so many tossing and turning in my heart?

However, day and night, these inadvertent worries and questions were quickly forgotten in more interactions with Chen Ran and unspeakable greed in my heart.

It's good to have it, so why bother about how much you have? Besides, how can I be qualified?

This year's winter seems to be exceptionally cold, and the continuous rain has not stopped since it began, and the wet chill has penetrated into the bones, as if it is completely cold from the inside out. Wang Hao went to work directly without two days of rest after being discharged from the hospital, in his words, he was usually busy, and he panicked when he was idle, and everyone also said that Manager Wang was really dedicated and worthy of being a model for his work. I privately advised him to take care of his body first, but he just smiled and said it was okay.

At this moment, I sat at my desk, looking out the window at the misty rain and fog for a while, and my mind was still hovering over what Wang Hao said to me in the morning.

As soon as I arrived at the company early this morning, Wang Hao called me over and said solemnly, "Xiao Li, the company is about to compete for middle-level positions, do you remember what I mentioned to you last time?" There is a position of assistant manager in the administration department, and I am very optimistic about you". After speaking, he looked at me encouragingly, as if expecting me to react with joy.

But I was stunned.

It's not that I don't want such an opportunity, but that such an opportunity is too fast and too sudden for me at the moment, and I am somewhat uneasy.

As I said before, I am just an employee who has been in Kairan for less than two years; I was the shortest person in the administration department, even if I was more prominent; And the most important thing, in front of me, there is also Zhang Xiaoqi.

I don't know why Wang Hao still left me such an opportunity after my last resignation, but my intuition told me that I couldn't easily accept or participate.

Thinking of this, I carefully said, "Manager Wang, thank you for looking up to me so much, and I am also grateful for your cultivation of me. I have thought about it after you mentioned it to me last time, but as I said before, I have been in the company for a short time, and there are still a lot of things to learn, and many colleagues in the administration department are more experienced than me, so I am afraid that it is difficult for me to take on important responsibilities now. ”

Wang Hao didn't seem surprised, but said calmly, "Xiao Li, you must know that the company is the most qualified place, and what the company wants is ability!"

"I understand, but, in terms of ability, Zhang Xiaoqi is not bad." I gritted my teeth and finally spoke up.

Wang Hao was slightly stunned, something strange flashed in his eyes, I don't think he didn't understand what I meant.

Zhang Xiaoqi must know his thoughts, otherwise he would not have had the last trip to Sanya. Regardless of such a well-known infatuation, objectively speaking, Zhang Xiaoqi's ability is indeed not bad, and his qualifications are far above me, if I am allowed to lick the position of deputy manager, with her and I have already had a dislike of the heart, it is simply to roast me on the fire, why should I set myself on fire. I'm waiting for passers-by, I see it, I understand, it's just that, why bother to mix it up again?

However, Wang Hao only hesitated slightly, and still insisted: "Don't have any worries, you have to believe in my vision, and you have to believe in yourself." I have already recommended you to Mr. Guo, and I hope to have your name in next week's application. After that, he let me out without waiting for me to speak.

The rain became heavier and heavier, and the overwhelming curtain of water was thrown by the wind on the smooth glass wall, and immediately merged into countless curved small columns of water, writhing like a snake and crawling down, as far as the eye could see, the high-rise buildings of the entire city were submerged in a white vast, and nothing could be seen clearly.

Suddenly I felt a pang of boredom in my heart, like stepping on a loose floor tile, muddy and dirty water wrapped in scum black foam splashed on my white trouser legs, shoes and socks, and I couldn't shake it off.

At noon, I ate with Pleasant Goat in the cafeteria, I had something in my heart, and I chatted with her with or without a match. She talked and sang to herself for a while, and when she saw that I was not as good as she always reacted, she squinted at me and said:

"Blank-eyed and absent-minded, let's say, what's going on? Let the smart sheep come to solve your problems" Pleasant Goat is so straightforward and enthusiastic, my mood is unconsciously brighter. told her what Wang Hao said in the morning.

"What?! It turns out that there are still people who are worried about such a good thing? Such a great opportunity, don't tell me you're still planning to give it away! Pleasant Goat didn't wait for me to finish, swallowed a mouthful of rice and waved chopsticks and shouted.

"Can you be quiet?" I expressed my helplessness at the hands of the Pleasant Goat.

"Comrade Li Yue'er, seriously, what do you have to hesitate about? If I had this opportunity, I would like to immediately dissect my head to the leader."

"You don't understand, I've only been in the company for a long time, and besides, isn't there another Zhang Xiaoqi?" I rummaged through the bowl of food.

Pleasant Goat was stunned, "Yes, this Zhang Xiaoqi is not a good stubble", but then said: "Wang Hao is right, the enterprise is a place to see ability, this deputy manager was originally to be equipped with a pen and a pen, you are indeed better than her in writing, what can Zhang Xiaoqi do not accept, now in this society, everyone sharpens their heads and drills up, you must not be stupid because you are worried about other people's opinions and ignore your own development prospects, not to mention, others will not thank you!" "The mouth of the pleasant goat is like a river, for fear that I will be confused for a while and make a big mistake for the ages.

I know that Pleasant Goat is right, this world is all about heroes based on results, who will ask the ins and outs? Too many people do everything they can to harm others and benefit themselves, and even harm others and not to themselves, just for a little opportunity but can't get it, but I, but I turn away the opportunity in front of me, will the world praise my nobility? No, it will only laugh at me for being stupid, so stupid that I can't even seize the opportunity to send it to the door, I deserve to be a part-time worker, this is what the world says about me.

But why am I still so worried? It seems that this opportunity is not bright at all, especially from Wang Hao's seemingly eloquent words, I always feel that something is wrong, and I feel a little uneasy in my heart.

"Alas, why am I not as good as you, our Shen Dazhi, one day only knows how to depend on a bunch of bottles and cans, who cares about the life and death of our part-time workers below" Pleasant Goat sighed, and at the same time took a large piece of meat and stuffed it into his mouth to turn grief into appetite.

"I found out that Wang Hao is really good to you" Pleasant Goat stared at me with blinked eyes, and suddenly this sentence came out.

I frowned slightly, did she see something? Although I understand Wang Hao's thoughts, I don't want anything to happen. I only heard Pleasant Goat pretend to be mysterious: "Otherwise, how can he specifically recommend you for such a good opportunity, yes, I admit that you are very capable, but he didn't consider Zhang Xiaoqi's feelings at all, and you didn't realize that Zhang Xiaoqi was in love with him, everyone could see it, but he didn't say anything for so long, didn't respond, what is it, don't you understand?" ”

I didn't want to argue with her, and I wanted to skip the topic of "You're thinking too much!" Besides, I'm not going to think about this at all right now, I just want to work hard! After that, he packed up the dishes and chopsticks and prepared to leave.

"Hey, why? Wang Hao is very good" Pleasant Goat came to his senses as soon as he talked about emotional topics, and grabbed me and said, "Could it be that you dislike him for being divorced?" Hey, what is this! You're too conservative, aren't you? The older the man, the more tasteful he is, what if he is divorced, and he has no children. People are called golden bachelors, with a house, a car and a position, really, you can think about it, you can think about it" Her eyes lit up, and she was like an ancient matchmaker.

I laughed out loud, "It's so good, then you take it, take it away quickly, don't thank you, hurry up~" After speaking, he turned around and walked out of the cafeteria.

"Hey, Yue'er, Yue'er, don't go, listen to me~" Pleasant Goat looked at the team slowly moving in front of him to recycle the dinner plates, and had to stare at my distant back.

The rain gradually stopped, but the thick clouds overhead did not disperse, piled up over the city, like an impermeable curtain barrier, making people depressed and breathless, I looked into the distance and sighed unconsciously. There is a sentence in the "Book of Songs": "Out of its east gate, there are women like clouds." Although it is like a cloud, I think about it", Wang Hao is good, but it is also "I think about it". It's just that in the bottom of my heart, he has already lived in—

Chen Ran, my big brother Chen, you have made me gradually unable to see other people, do you know?