The news of the competition for middle-level cadres quickly spread throughout the company like wings, which is undoubtedly exciting for a group of young and promising grassroots employees, and everyone is gearing up and eager to try. My colleagues in the administration department, who arrived two years before me, were also a little overwhelmed, and even if the odds were not good, they could not hide their joy and excitement. Indeed, at the moment of opportunity, it is better to actively strive for it than to give up negatively, although the former cannot guarantee that the ambition will be won, the latter will definitely only have a mirror left, and in case of a mistake, who can say clearly about luck? Everyone in the world knows how to survive, but I am so weird, I turn away good opportunities, no wonder Pleasant Goat says I'm stupid.

But why did Wang Hao favor me again and again? Objectively speaking, in addition to being a little stronger in writing, my personality and temperament are actually not suitable for staying in a department like the Administration Department that coordinates internal and external departments with higher requirements for emotional intelligence, let alone comprehensive ability and qualifications. And Zhang Xiaoqi, although he has weaknesses in writing, he is obviously better than me in other aspects, not to mention anything else, just say that the public relations ability of drinking and talking is beyond my reach, there is such a ready-made all-rounder, but I recommend me as a newcomer with obvious advantages and disadvantages, I really don't know how Wang Hao thinks about it.

Maybe it's because of the different things he thinks about me? But the last time I was on the way back to the city from the industrial park, I obviously refused, he wouldn't have understood, otherwise he wouldn't have taken the initiative to divert the topic to avoid embarrassment to each other. In that case, why bother to bring up the old thing now, I don't think my ability to work is so good that he can't let it go.

But he still insisted on recommending me, and I had already rejected him once, and this time if I had to refuse again, where would I put his face? After all, he is my direct leader, and after all, I cannot rely on his previous intentions for me and think that I can do whatever I want to reject his kindness; From the work alone, an employee who always disobeys the intention of the leader must be really no good for himself, to say that he has a strong personal will, and to say that he does not know how to lift, I don't know what to do, I believe that no one wants to be deducted such a hat, especially a newcomer like me who has just entered Kairan for less than two years.

These thoughts came and went in my mind, and I thought about tossing and killing countless brain cells but I couldn't figure it out, what should I do? I seem to have always had choice syndrome, where I can toss and turn for a long time on the slightest thing; What's more, this time is about the future development, and I have no idea again and again, seeing that the registration date for the competition is approaching, but I am still in a dilemma, so anxious that Pleasant Goat scolded me for not having any interest, I really can't help Adou.

Alas, how can she know the story behind it!

Because Wang Hao was hospitalized before, there was a place to participate in remote training, so Zhang Xiaoqi was asked to go. Although she was not in the company, she seemed to be very well-informed, and she submitted an application for the position of deputy manager early, and two other colleagues in the department also signed up successively.

Today, I felt refreshed when I got out of bed, and after I arrived at the company to write a few reports, I felt even more dizzy and had some chills on my body. At this moment in the bathroom, I suddenly got up, I was a little dizzy, and I was busy holding on to the handrail on the door, I closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths before gradually relieving myself.

Just as he was about to go out, he suddenly heard two female voices.

"Really? She's only been here for less than two years, right? How would you recommend her? ”

"Who knows, I heard that it was our Manager Wang who personally mentioned it to Mr. Guo" with a cold "hum", "I can't see that she has such ability at a young age." ”

My eyelids jumped, my eyebrows frowned slightly, I subconsciously clenched the armrest, and stopped behind the door. The voice continued to drift unscrupulously.

"I can't see it! She is usually quiet, doesn't talk much, and is very polite to people, I used to have a good impression of her, but I didn't expect that the back was so powerful."

"Hmph, I don't know my heart when I know people, I don't know my heart, today's college students are not fuel-efficient lamps, and we are not comparable to those days, I think I just graduated from college, I don't know anything, I am a stupid child!"

"But it's not, no wonder I asked her if she was considering competing for the job, she still talked about him left and right, I just asked casually at the time, and when I saw that she didn't want to answer, I smiled, thinking that she shouldn't have any chance, but I didn't expect people to be behind the scenes, how can it be like we are still stupidly handing over the application form here!"

"You're so naïve! In other words, if Zhang Xiaoqi knew, I don't know how angry he would be. originally didn't have a good impression of her, if Manager Wang really recommended her, Zhang Xiaoqi would probably go crazy. ”

There seemed to be a gloating low laugh, "Okay, okay, I said you, don't be too careful, according to this situation, this position is estimated to be between Zhang Xiaoqi and her, let's play soy sauce is considered a sparring partner, just wait to see a good show." ”

"Hey, you don't know me yet, haven't we also been mixed in Kairan for a few years, so if you want to show loyalty to the leader, we are also a good young man who is willing to go up, I don't know how many pounds I have? I'm just going to have a good time, if you want to talk about the position of the deputy manager, if Zhang Xiaoqi is on it, I still take it, who called someone from a famous S family, and drinking is better than us. ”

"Yo, why does that sound so sour? But it's true, although Zhang Xiaoqi is arrogant and has qualifications, she should be scared, how can it be better than that person on the throne. Tut-tut, I really can't imagine that she has to call her manager when she rides on our heads, and now she still calls you my sister, I can't open my mouth to call her manager! ”

The two smacked their lips, their voices revealing disdain and disdain, and they drifted apart. I stood behind the door, as if I had forgotten to move, my fingers clutching the door were already white, and my body was already weak today, and I was even more cold in a cold sweat at this time, and I didn't even know how to get back to my seat when I stumbled.

These two voices are not unfamiliar to me, although they usually don't get along with each other in the department, although they are not very close, but they are also harmonious, I didn't think about "everyone is gold, and the knife kills people quickly", I never knew that Longquan on the tongue was so powerful! Suddenly remembered that in the past two days, everyone looked at me and seemed to be a little evasive, and the words were not as polite as in the past, and I knew that promotion, honor and disgrace, fame and fortune, are always not long feet and run the fastest, and can be spread all over every corner of the company, even the tiniest door cracks, there are warm rumors and rumors. I sighed lightly, I couldn't avoid it, this thorn was finally rooted in everyone's hearts.

There was a deep sense of powerlessness and helplessness spreading in my heart, rubbing my swollen head, I forced myself to dig out the cold medicine that was always available in the drawer, physically and mentally exhausted, unable to do anything, it should be my current appearance.

When the phone rang, I took it and looked at it, but it was my father's phone. Although I haven't seen him for nearly a month after New Year's Day, it seems like a long time has passed, and when I hear his voice at this moment, I can't help but have a sour nose and am about to cry.

"Dad"

"Yue'er, are you busy? Did Dad's phone call bother you? ”

"No, no", I wiped my eyes, not wanting my father to hear my movements, "Dad, what's the matter?" You call me during very few working hours. ”

"Yes, Dad knows that you are busy with work, so he is afraid of disturbing you," Father smiled self-deprecatingly, "I didn't have a dream last night, I dreamed that you seemed to be very unhappy, looking at Dad with teary eyes, and didn't say anything." Alas, although it's just a dream, I can't always rest assured, think about it or think it's better to call you, Dad is now old, and he has begun to be superstitious, talking and doing things like a mother-in-law Mother-in-law, don't be annoyed. Father laughed, "Yue'er, you haven't been doing anything lately, right?" ”

Pity the hearts of parents all over the world, my father is always like this, both a father and a mother, always worrying about me. My heart warmed, and most of the grievances of Shicai seemed to have been dispelled, since I was so hesitant now, maybe I could ask my father's opinion? Thinking like this, he told his father about the competition.

When his father heard this, he was silent for a while, "Yue'er, you have always been a brave child, although you have a quiet personality, you have a tenacity in your character. The father paused, as if falling into a distant memory, "I still remember that when your mother died, you were only a twelve or thirteen-year-old half-old child, relatives and friends said that without your mother, how can your little daughter's family bear it, but you have always sensibly talked to your father and me about your mother's funeral, and you have never shed a single tear in front of people." In fact, Dad was most worried about you at the time, but he had to force himself to cry like an adult at a young age, you don't know, Dad hoped that you could cry out like other children and shout it out to be reassuring, but you are so strong, I am afraid that you will hold yourself out of the problem! Until the night of your mother's first seventh, I saw you crying alone in front of her portrait, and did you know that Dad was crying behind you at that time? I'm crying because I finally saw you let go of yourself and release the emotions that have been pent up for a long time, only in this way can you concentrate on moving forward without looking back, life has to go on after all, right? ”

My father intermittently told me about the past, I couldn't help but be stunned, I didn't expect that the night many years ago I would make my father so worried and cry, I couldn't bear it, "Dad, don't say it, it's all over, I understand......"

"No, Yue'er, I don't say this to make everyone sad, but to tell you that you are strong and brave, which is a good thing, but sometimes you have to learn to let go of yourself, don't always compete with yourself." The father's voice became solemn, with encouragement and hope, "So this competition, since your boss is optimistic about you and recommended you twice before and after, it proves your value and proves that you have the ability to hold this position, which is of course a rare opportunity for you, why not take advantage of it?" Everyone lives their own lives and walks their own paths, so why care about what others think? No one is perfect, as the saying goes, 'Who has no one behind their backs, and who doesn't say people behind their backs?' If you ignore your future because of these rumors, it is very worthless! Father seemed to take a sip of water and continued, "Besides, there are very few things in this world that happen when you are well prepared, and maybe when you are ready, there will be no chance. To put it mildly, Dad is retired now, and he is old, he hasn't been able to make much of a name, and he can't help you much at work, everything has to rely on you, since you have a noble person to help, why not take advantage of the trend? When the judgment continues, you will suffer from the chaos, Yue'er, you have to have confidence in yourself and the descendants of our old Li family! ”

"Dad, I see what you mean, it's just ......"

"I know your worries, aren't they just terrifying? But there are people everywhere in this society, can you keep the world's mouth shut? People are terrible, just be cautious in your words and deeds, and you can't give up a great opportunity because of this! You have to think about it, if you give up this opportunity, you don't know when the next time will be. ”

I understood that my father's words were all right, the same as what Pleasant Goat said, and maybe not much different from what most people in this world think, but what happened today has made me unable to deceive myself into turning a blind eye to the words of the people around me, so I said, "Dad, I'll think about it again." ”

After a long silence, the father sighed, "Okay, you can think about it again, or if you have friends or something, you can also ask their opinions, and if you listen to them, you kid, you always think too much when you encounter things, and you can't get along with yourself." The father seemed to smile helplessly on the other end of the phone, "Okay, enough talk today, don't disturb you at work, work hard, remember to come back early for the Spring Festival"

"Okay, Dad, then you take care of yourself" I promised and hung up.

My father asked me to ask my friends for their opinions, but apart from Pleasant Goat, I didn't seem to have any more friends who could explain the matter. I couldn't help but feel gloomy for a while, it turned out that I was so lonely that I was so lonely? I've always been a believer in making friends rather than indiscriminately, but when it came to the end, I found that I couldn't even find more than one person to talk to, and I really didn't know if this was good or bad. I flipped through the phone book and rubbed the few names on it, but the first thing that caught my eye was Chen Ran's number. yes, don't I have a big brother besides my friends? How did I forget about him, thinking about it, his position and role in the company should be the best choice for my advice, but I hid in my own world and turned over and over and walked into a dead end. My body shook suddenly, the haze in my heart was swept away, and the dawn seemed to appear in front of me, at this moment, how I wanted to hear his voice.