Li Yue'er

I arrived at the station half an hour early and waited for my father, who was about to arrive in City C. Before going out, Chen Ran called me, asked about the weekend arrangements, and told me to pay attention to safety when I was outside, and finally sighed, "Girl, when can I accompany you to see your father?" Without waiting for me to answer, he smiled to himself, "I'll just say casually, don't take it to heart." I know we don't have that right now. After finishing it, he said to himself, "Alas, we still have to create this condition by ourselves."

I bit my lip and didn't know how to answer, so I comforted each other and said, "It's okay, there will always be a chance in the future." ”

Chen Ran sighed, but was noncommittal, "Okay, the time is almost up, don't delay you from going out, go, be careful on the road."

promised to hang up the phone, pack up his things and walk out of the community. The weather was fine, the blue sky was as clear as a pool of jasper, and occasionally planes flew by, rolling up bursts of roar. The sun is like gold, weeping willows are planted all over the Xiuhe River, there are light and white catkins flying in the air, like little by little small snowflakes, falling lightly with the wind, falling softly on the ground and then not being found. When I thought about Chen Ran's words, I didn't feel slightly discouraged. No matter how long the coming day is, can he and I really wait for the day when we have the opportunity? Perhaps both sides understand that this is just an unsolvable proposition. From the moment we decided to be together, the pattern between us was destined to take place only where the sun could not shine, and the freedom of the blue sea and blue sky would eventually be something we could never reach in our lifetime.

There was a sadness in his heart, before deciding to go to me, Chen Ran, had he considered these questions? Have you ever considered a situation like this, where you can't see or speak, or you can't see and speak? Every time we get along, every happy time together, I don't know when, where, for what reason will be interrupted in the next time, where and for what reason, we keep switching between joy and sorrow, so that each other's hearts are more and more fragile and sensitive, as if it was a good soft brocade quilt on a bed, but it was woven into the thin needles for no reason, scattered in unknown corners, and was pierced with pain without paying attention, but I was reluctant to give up the warmth of this sleep, so I had to be pained and happy with a smile on my face. But this kind of helplessness, it's not just him, how can I think about it? I never thought that these bits and pieces would shake me and his deep affection, but no matter how surging enthusiasm can not withstand the repeated snow and rain, day after day, when ordinary things can no longer be ordinary and require us to have some concerns and have to endure, can we still be as firm as we were at the beginning? It is easy to fall in love and difficult to get along, we are human beings, not gods, we will be sad, we will be tired, we will retreat, and we will even give up.

Give up, the word is like a steel knife across my heart, scraping me and sobbing pain. Did you think about giving up at the beginning? I don't have confidence in myself, in Chen Ran? Maybe it's just that I haven't fully adapted to this way of getting along, in my 24 years of life, I have read so many lingering and sympathetic words, and I have seen so many love that depend on each other in life and death, but there is no story where the protagonist completes her love with such a role. Therefore, Chen Ran and I, we are all learning, learning a brand new course without textbooks, in this case, we all have to forgive each other for being unfamiliar and unaccustomed, every time we encounter a problem, every time we are physically and mentally tired, it is just a normal reaction in the learning process, as long as we do our best to face it and solve it, one day we will learn something.

Thinking of this, I am not as sad as I was just now, although my young heart is uncertain, but I can heal myself as quickly as possible. Seeing that the time for the train had arrived, and the exit was gradually crowded, I didn't think much about it anymore, just searched for my father's figure in the crowd.

"Yue'er!" But my father saw me first and beckoned to me in a great wave of dusty faces.

"Dad!" I immediately ran over to take the luggage from him, "You came up alone and brought so many things, why don't I go home and carry it myself!" ”

"Ha, you're not happy about what you said," my father looked at me and smiled, "You don't welcome Dad to City C in disguise?" ”

"Dad!" I took his hand and said, "You always deliberately misinterpret my meaning and treat your daughter's kindness as a donkey's liver and lungs!" ”

My father laughed and patted the back of my hand lovingly, "You know, I don't know my daughter?" Dad is happy to see you, and it's okay to joke with you? ”

"Cheng, Cheng, you are the father and you are the biggest, you can say anything!" I happily took my father's arm, "Let's go, Dad, let's go home." ”

The train station is not far from my rented apartment, five bus stops away. After getting out of the car, my father looked at the community where I lived, "Dad is coming to you for the first time, it's not bad, this place seems to be quite convenient"

"That's, and it's close to our company, the most important thing," I winked at my father and laughed, "The rent is cheap!" ”

The father was noncommittal, nodded slightly, looked around, pointed to a few tall buildings in the distance and asked, "That's a neighborhood, right?" Also by the river and the environment looks very good"

I followed his finger and looked up, it turned out to be the community where Chen Ran lived, my heart moved, but my face was silent, "Dad, you really have a vision, that is the best community in our area, of course the environment is good"

"Is this close to your company?" Father asked, turning his head.

"Yes, it's only a 10-minute walk. At the beginning, I rented it because it was close to the company and convenient for life. ”

"Well," my father nodded thoughtfully, and after a while, he said to me as he walked, "Yue'er, you also work now, a girl, it's not a problem to rent a house like this." After thinking about it, he continued, "Dad also has some money saved at hand, and I'm wondering if I want to buy you a house?" Just across the river from the community, it looks pretty good, and it's close to your company. This person has to have a house and a home of his own, so that he doesn't feel like he is drifting, especially in a big city like City C."

I lowered my head, it's not that I haven't thought about the house, but now I haven't started a family, I've just been working for two years, and I haven't saved much money. As a daughter, I can't always be by my side, and I feel even more sorry to reach out to him to ask for money. Thinking of this, I interrupted him, "Dad, no! You keep the money for yourself, and now that you're older, I'm not usually around, so you have to keep some money on hand in case you need it. You don't care about the house, I also work now to earn money, and in two years I should be able to save a down payment, now the mortgage loan, buying a house is very convenient, why do you need to take out your old capital? ”

"Hey, silly girl, what money does Dad keep! No matter how much you stay, it's not all yours! My father patted me on the head, "Dad is alone now, he can't spend a lot of money on food, he has medical insurance when he is sick, and he has followed the Communist Party for decades to make a revolution, and he still doesn't have to worry about the basic living security after retirement." You will listen to me about this house. After two days, I will inquire about the housing prices in the community, and if there is a suitable one, let's pick one first, you settle down, and I can rest assured that I am a father. The next step is to find me a son-in-law! He looked at me and laughed.

"Dad!" I was embarrassed by my father's words, and the phrase "son-in-law" seemed to touch my most secret feelings, and I couldn't help blushing, so I just turned my head and stopped talking.

My father laughed, unaware of my thoughts, but I was embarrassed, "What's so shy, this daughter naturally wants to marry when she grows up, and I am very open-minded Dad." As he spoke, he looked at me and said, "How is it, is there any movement from our daughter?" Report to Dad? ”

I frowned, looking at my father's eyes with anticipation and relief, but my heart was as cold as the ice edge in the ice cellar. I want to tell my father, you don't have to worry, don't worry, your daughter has found her lover, this person is very good, upright, kind, loves me, is very good to me, I still want him to meet you, I want to get your approval and affirmation, I have so many things I want to tell you, but I can't say anything, I can't do anything, I can't do anything, just because, my love, he is married.

There was a deep sadness welling up in my heart, and my face was a little pale, but I had to force a smile and say to my father, "Dad, no, I will report to you as soon as there is a situation." ”

"Still say no? Lie to me? Look, the men's slippers are ready, tell you, Dad, I'm a big eye! My father pointed to the slippers I had just bought for Chen Ran on the shoe rack at the door, came to my side and smiled, "What's so embarrassing in front of Dad!" Who is he? Colleague or friend? When will you bring it to Dad? ”

I couldn't help but "chuckle" in my heart, and I forgot to put away Chen Ran's slippers, and was gagged by my father, so I had to say in a hurry, "Dad, these are the slippers I bought for you!" ”

"Oh? Is it? The father seemed a little surprised, and asked the letter.

I hurriedly took off my slippers and urged him to change them, "Of course, knowing that you are coming, I went to the supermarket yesterday to buy you shoes." ”

"Okay, alas, I'm happy for nothing", my father shook his head and sighed with a smile, "I thought there was a surprise this time, forget it, forget it, let's not be in a hurry, not in a hurry, ah?" Saying that, he patted my back and said with a pleasant face, "My daughter picks slowly, chooses slowly, this is a lifelong event, you really have to look at it, you can't be in a hurry, you can't be in a hurry." ”

I lay on my father's lap and listened to his gentle whispers, but I couldn't say a word myself. The headband that bound my hair fell, but I didn't realize it, and let the long hair cover my face, just not wanting him to see the melancholy and sadness in my eyes.

My father, however, seemed to be in an unaffected mood, and told me to put down my luggage while preparing lunch. I grabbed him, "Dad, don't be busy." Dare to let you cook for your daughter's first meal? That daughter is too unfilial, let's go out to eat at noon! ”

"Whew! It's just the two of us, just eat a little bit, what are you doing with that money? The father excused himself as he picked up the things he brought, "Look, I have brought so many delicious foods from the house, and picking up two casual ones is enough for our father and son to have a full meal." ”

"Dad! You just let your daughter show filial piety, and you won't be able to eat a few meals throughout the year. I grabbed his arm and took down the things in his hand for him, "Come to a long time, let's eat these things slowly, I also want to go outside today to relieve the cravings, you should accompany me, okay?"

My father put down his luggage and looked at me lovingly, "Okay, okay, okay!" "Scratch my nose," my daughter can say anything! We all laughed.

I deliberately chose a Northeast restaurant not far from home, because my mother is from L Province, and my father is also very fond of Northeast cuisine. He looked around and pointed to a few bunches of corn and red peppers hanging on the wall, and his thoughts seemed to drift into the distance, "I still remember the first time I went to your mother's house, and your grandmother also hung a lot of corn ...... at home."

"Yue'er! Hey! What a coincidence! Meet you here! The voice was so familiar that I immediately turned around, and sure enough, it was her!