Li Yue'er

I was very busy this morning, Wang Hao took Zhang Xiaoqi to the government for a meeting, and the company held a temporary executive meeting, and the preparation fell on my head.

Now Zhang Xiaoqi and I have become Wang Hao's right-hand man because of our own specializations, he only needs to stand on a high place and point out one or two at any time, and he feels extremely relaxed. At the regular meeting of the department, he often talked about "managers should be good at cultivating talents", and the argument was Zhang Xiaoqi and me.

A group of young people in the administration department are the most observant and observant, and after listening to Wang Hao's praise several times, they have a tacit understanding that Zhang Xiaoqi and I are regarded as half of the masters.

But I have always been lukewarm between me and Zhang Xiaoqi, of course I know the reason, not to mention that I really don't have a good impression of her, plus Wang Hao's hazy mind before, I usually subconsciously keep a distance from him, and I turn a blind eye to Zhang Xiaoqi's alienation and indifference.

There was still half an hour before the start time of the meeting, and I reconfirmed the relevant preparations, but I didn't expect that Chen Ran had already arrived in the conference room today and was revising the report on his computer.

I was in a dilemma, and it was the first time I had seen him alone since the last time I was with him, and I always felt a little embarrassed for some reason. After thinking about how it was so unnatural that he had decided not to avoid it anymore, and that normal work contact was so ordinary and ordinary, he didn't want to drive himself into a dead end, so I calmly greeted him respectfully and asked if he needed help.

He looked back at me, "It's Xiao Li, good morning", seemed to pause, and then said, "Please pour me a cup of tea and print 10 more copies of this report, thank you." ”

His voice was polite and polite, and it seemed that it was not the same as that night, and before I could think about it, I hurriedly asked, "What kind of tea does Mr. Chen need?" The company has Pu'er, Tieguanyin, Maofeng and black tea"

"Tieguanyin" he blurted out without looking up, it seemed to be his usual habit. I didn't expect him to favor Tieguanyin like me, and there was a slight surprise in his heart.

I put the prepared tea and materials in Chen Ran's hand, he nodded slightly, and continued to look at the computer intently. My heart was stagnant, and I always felt that today's Chen Ran and that night's Chen Ran seemed to be like two people, and the man who was warm and kind and comforted and encouraged me when I was frustrated seemed to be a shadow that only existed in my memory.

I stood quietly behind him, looking at his closed lips, slightly furrowed brows, and his palms gently rubbing his temples as he thought about the problem. The silhouette of the body under the khaki casual suit was a striking reminder that all I could have was his back.

There was a sudden drop in my heart, Li Yue'er, why did you lose your mind again? Didn't you decide to treat him as an ordinary boss, why did you care so much about his attitude or words like self-pity?

Yes, humble and respectful, respectful as a guest, and even one day you can talk and laugh, but it has nothing to do with Fengyue, isn't it the best state you want most?

Is it? Right.

With a wry smile helplessly, I turned around, and while arranging for relevant personnel to debug the conference equipment again, I placed the printed materials on each seat according to Chen Ran's requirements, and then sat down in the corner and turned on the computer to prepare for meeting minutes.

Meetings went on as usual, and brainstorming time was in addition to lengthy departmental presentations. Today's atmosphere is not good, because Chen Ran's return to the company's performance has improved slightly, Guo Zong and the sales department in order to quickly recover the previous losses, the old thing recalls the strategy of advancing the army in neighboring provinces for a few years, but Chen Ran has reservations on the grounds that it is appropriate to stabilize the local area and seek development at present, the Guo brothers rarely form a united front today, and there are major differences between the two brothers and the two bosses, which makes Chen Ran's role a little embarrassing.

My position happened to be diagonally opposite Chen Ran, and I could obviously see that he was a little tired today, and his well-defined face had also been reduced a lot. In the three years since Chen Ran left, Kairan's development and personnel composition have long been different from what they used to be, and it has become a new challenge for him who suddenly parachuted.

I began to feel a vague worry about him.

The meeting ended in vain, and both bosses said that they would consider it later. Guo Xin was a little indignant, and he was quite disapprehensive of Chen Ran between his words, the sales department's pursuit of performance was understandable, Guo Xin has always understood that the public also understands that when the bosses have not yet agreed on their opinions, the only thing the following people can do is wait and see.

The wind is blowing, and in the C city in early winter, the ginkgo biloba planted all over the sky is sprinkled with gold, like a butterfly in love, flying with the wind, and drifting away. Chen Ran didn't leave, he closed the computer, slowly paced to the window, lit a cigarette and then slowly spit it out, his figure was a little gloomy in the light light, just like the fallen leaves flying outside the window.

I could feel his helplessness, something deep in his heart, at that moment, it seemed to be encroaching on his heart little by little, and from behind, his whole person was shrouded in an indescribable sadness.

I suddenly wanted to comfort him.

"Mr. Chen, I support you," I actually said to his back like a ghost.

Obviously, both of us were stunned for a moment, and I saw Chen Ran turn his head and look at me with a slight surprise in his eyes, and I think my own expression should be the same.

I know that my own recklessness, such words have exceeded my definition of ordinary communication between superiors and subordinates, but just now his sparse figure, his silent smoking appearance, made my heart sink involuntarily, and I was a little distressed.

Even I can't tell whether this distress is because of him or because of myself.

But at this moment, the words have been spoken, and it is difficult to collect the water, I forcibly suppressed the tension and uneasiness in my heart, and simply crossed my heart, pretending to be calm and emphasized again:

"Mr. Chen, I think your idea is right, the company should not attack rashly at present"

My tone sounded calm, as calm as if I was discussing work with my boss.

Time seemed to stand still, Chen Ran stood by the window, the light sunlight projected from behind him, wrapped in colorful dust and dancing, extending his shadow to my feet, palpable, but out of reach.

For a moment, neither of us spoke, and my heart began to cool, little by little, slowly and silently.

I began to worry, what would he think of me? Are ambitious employees eager to perform? Or is it a frivolous woman who deliberately attracts the attention of her boss? However, who can understand that my original intention was so pure that I could not bear to see his sadness.

"Thank you"

As if a century had passed, a voice pierced through the air and came to my face, distant but real, gently supporting my body and mind as I was about to die.

Yes, the strength of the straw is enough to bring me back to life.

The winter sun turned everything in the conference room with a layer of gold, and I looked up in the mood of turning over the river and the sea, Chen Ran, just a few steps away from me, looking at me warmly and firmly, and smiling, like the man who sent me home that night.

And I, at last, stood in his shadow in the slow and heavy steps of time, as if I were one with him in the pouring light and shadow.

I was so moved by such extravagance that I didn't know what to say for a while, for fear that as soon as I opened my mouth, such a moment of tranquility and beauty would vanish.

"Xiao Li, tell me your opinion" Chen Ran sat down on the chair next to him, extinguished the cigarette butt in his hand, and looked at me expectantly and encouragingly.

He blurted out "Xiao Li" like that, as if he had already been familiar with me, casual and natural, like a gust of spring breeze to soothe the anxiety in my heart.

"Mr. Chen, I'm a layman, I can't talk about any opinions, if I say it's wrong, please bear with me."

"It's okay, everyone is an employee of the company, and they should have spoken freely."

I settled down and said in his sincere eyes: "Although this incident has gradually subsided because of your return, Mr. Chen, it has also exposed the company's single product and insufficient core technology protection. Therefore, at present, we should first consolidate our internal strength, explore product diversification, improve the product chain as soon as possible, and strengthen the protection and upgrading of core technologies. If you rashly open up other battlefields, you may encounter an embarrassing situation in the interior and outside if you are not careful, and then it will be much more difficult to make up for the loss than now" I finished my thoughts in one breath, regardless of whether I spit out quickly and made people laugh at it.

But Chen Ran didn't have the slightest ridicule, he listened quietly and carefully, his expression was solemn, and then he sighed and said: "That's a good point, but it's a pity that even the employees of the administration department can understand such an obvious opinion, but it is difficult for me to communicate with my colleagues in the business line." ”

His gaze turned out the window, a little helpless, but also clear. The bell on the wall ticked by, one after the other, and I waited silently, as if waiting for a result that I had already known.

After a long time, he turned back and smiled at me again:

"But communication is always necessary and necessary" in a tone full of firmness and strength.

I knew he would do it, and he would succeed, just as I seemed to have known him for a long time. Time is quiet, time flies, in this lonely early winter warm day, I finally muster up the courage to look at him, the corners of my mouth are smiling, my heart is happy, as if I and his past and future are close to each other.

Chen Ran

I didn't expect Li Yue'er to say such things to me today, after I decided to cut off all my thoughts about her.

So when she brought me freshly brewed tea and printed materials, I just nodded slightly, deliberately suppressing the gratitude and smile that was about to come out, leaving her with a warm back, stiff and indifferent. Even though my heart seemed to be throbbing again.

If you decide to let go, you have to be yourself, don't you?

Today's meeting was temporarily initiated by Guo Kai, but it did not go well. He is anxious, which is quite similar to Guo Xin. I didn't expect the two of them to join forces at the meeting to throw out a plan to enter other provinces, but Guo Kai had not discussed it with me in detail before, which couldn't help but make me a little angry.

To say that this plan, in fact, Guo Kai had a prototype as early as three years ago, but it was temporarily shelved because of my sudden departure, and now that I am back, and the previous alternative product incident has affected the company's performance, it makes sense for them to bring up the old thing again. But is it a good time now?

According to my thoughts, the company has just experienced a small crisis, but also exposed some problems such as core technology protection, product single, etc., now is the opportunity to consolidate internal strength, enhance the strength of research and development to expand product development, rash attack other provinces once the water and soil is not adapted, it is easy to cause the situation of being besieged by wolves, then if local competitors come back, the development of Kairan is extremely unfavorable.

Therefore, I strongly opposed it at the meeting, but unfortunately Guo Kai and I, as the only two major shareholders, insisted on their own words, Guo Xin agreed with his brother because of his dual public and private status, and even if other executives supported me, they had no choice but to speak lightly, and they could only sit and wait. In the end, the meeting was over, and although Guo Kai and I both said that we would discuss it later, we knew that it was not easy to convince each other of our personalities for so many years.

I'm a little tired, and this time I returned to Kairan, in addition to more internal and external relationships that need to be balanced and sad, my communication with Guo Kai is not as smooth as before. Perhaps because he has been giving orders alone for a long time, coupled with his current status, it is difficult for Guo Kai to accept different opinions, and his words are often aggressive.

Closing the computer, I didn't leave right away. Light a cigarette and slowly walk to the window. The early winter of City C is neither like the summer and autumn heat of N City, nor like the sticky discomfort of H City wrapped in the mud of the sea breeze, but there is a deep and lonely melancholy, quietly, little by little, slowly immersed in every inch of air, and the huge city is covered with a layer of depression and coldness, just like my mood at this time.

There were few people in the conference room, and I saw that my colleagues from the Administration Department were packing up the conference equipment, and Li Yue'er was running forward and backward, and the command was in place. I looked out the window, and suddenly I didn't want to leave, when I was tired, maybe there was a little greed in my heart, I and her, at this moment, in the same space, even if there was no communication, I felt a little comforted.

Then I heard a voice that sprung up like mushrooms through the air and came from behind me, with a slight tension and determination.

"Mr. Chen, I support you"

I was a little surprised, turned around, and saw her, Li Yue'er, standing at the other end of the conference room, not far from me, and said to me, support me.

Her expression was a little stunned in her expression, as if she had made a lot of determination, I seemed to be able to feel the surging in her heart, and she said, I did the right thing, the company should not rush to attack at present.

At that moment, her shadow overlapped with the woman in green again.

It was as if something had collapsed in my heart, and the long thoughts I thought I had let go of had come back again, cutting and cutting, and sorting out the mess.

Not long ago, I imagined too many encounters with her, when and where I could have even a little bit of greetings and exchanges like friends; I also tried to catch the slightest bit of information about her, and I even checked her file to find out what was going on with the company's employees. Many late nights, when Li Yue'er's figure inadvertently broke into my mind, I couldn't help but ask myself, I, a person who has always been clean and self-conscious, actually have such ulterior motives? What is the difference between me and the kind of people I once spurned who turned their backs on their marriages and families? I just stand and talk without backache. In this intellectual and emotional battle, I kept admonishing and restraining myself, so that more work and meetings could fill my already busy time.

And these tossing and turning emotions were cut off by myself after the send-off and the call with Xiaojuan that night, because I reconciled with Xiaojuan as before, because I thought that I was just an ordinary existence for Li Yueer, and because I didn't want to let myself fall deeper.

And now, when she said those things to me, the shock and excitement in my heart swept through my body like an electric current, and those broken dreams came like falling leaves outside the window, surging in my mind and body, like a person who has been waiting for a long time, after countless hopes and disappointments, without warning, a light tail brought everything to an abrupt end, leaving only a place of apprehension and an indescribable mixture of sorrow and joy.

It seems, as if, in her heart, am not completely unrelated to the person......?

Thinking like this, I was a little stunned, only to feel that at this moment, the wind was clear and the sun was bright, and the stars and moon were shining.

"Thank you" The streamer floated in the soft breeze, and I heard myself say to her, smiling, and with a joy and comfort that she would never know.

Time connects me and her shadow with each other, as if the past and this world have come through thousands of mountains and rivers, let us meet in this narrow year of light and shadow, thousands of words, can not be worth the three words "thank you", all my love and sorrow for her.

Then I saw the glint in her eyes, like the sparkling stars in the clear night sky, pure and moving.