Li Yue'er

We sent Chen Ran to the hotel, Wang Hao saddled all the way to the horse and settled down, because Mr. Guo specially set up a banquet for Chen Ran in the evening, so we made an appointment to come to pick him up on time at six o'clock.

Saying goodbye to Chen Ran, Wang Hao has been accompanying him with a smile, and I have no choice but to entertain. Looking at his back as he turned away without pause, my heart ached again, the kind of pain, like the fine pain pricked by countless needles, spread from the heart, wandering through every nerve in the body, directly and openly.

The first meeting with Chen Ran made me feel tired, and my face was not very good, on the way back to the company, Wang Hao cared about me several times that I was so sick with motion sickness, I smiled helplessly, how could he know the real reason, but did I know?

I don't know.

After returning to the company and tidying up the dinner and the next day's work, we were ready to pick up Chen Ran. After all, the occasion of the dinner party was different, and I knew that I was not in good spirits, but I had no intention of dressing up any other way, so I tied up my long hair to expose my long neck, so that the whole look was not too listless.

The dinner was set up in the largest five-star hotel in C city, Fulin Hotel, all the middle and senior management of the company participated, and the administrative department was responsible for various logistics receptions.

Zhang Xiaoqi has obviously dressed up carefully today, wearing a bright red V-neck corset, a black short suit, a pair of shiny black hollow high heels, a rhinestone butterfly on the upper is dazzling, his hair is tied up high, and the whole person looks capable and enchanting.

I understand her thoughts, but I think it's normal. Today, it is rare to see all the middle and senior management of the company, and the two bosses are there, and an employee will seize the opportunity to perform well. I also reminded myself to keep my emotions in mind and not to let my own selfishness interfere with my work.

But today I really couldn't muster the energy to face Chen Ran again, so I asked Wang Hao to arrange for me to go to the hotel Zhang Luo first under the pretext of motion sickness, and asked Zhang Xiaoqi to accompany him to pick up Chen Ran, Wang Hao looked at me, hesitated for a moment and agreed. I think it just happened to create some opportunities for Zhang Xiaoqi to save her from being too resentful of me, but I don't know if she appreciates it or not.

The dinner was held as scheduled, and the company's major dignitaries also arrived one after another. I looked at the crowd of people shuttling back and forth, a scene of laughter and harmony, and suddenly felt that this prosperous world seemed to have nothing to do with me, and I just wanted to hide myself in the deepest depths, finish the task as soon as possible, and go home early.

At half past six, Chen Ran walked into the hall accompanied by Wang Hao and Zhang Xiaoqi, Mr. Guo stepped forward, the two of them didn't say a word and grabbed each other, a movement between men is often worth a thousand words, they patted each other on the shoulder, and it took a long time to put it down, but Mr. Guo first gave Chen Ran a punch in the chest, and scolded with a smile: "You kid is finally willing to come back!" ”

Chen Ran smiled eatingly, "Old Guo, don't come unharmed." ”

"Let's go, sit down and talk"

The two sat at the main table accompanied by everyone, and the dinner began, first of all, Mr. Guo's speech, it can be seen that he is very emotional, when talking about the years when he fought side by side with Chen Ran, there were tears in his eyes, "Men don't flick when they have tears", Chen Ran's return is of great significance to Mr. Guo and Kai Ran.

Chen Ran was also moved, he patted Mr. Guo's shoulder and took the microphone: "Thank you Mr. Guo and everyone here for your kindness, a farewell for three years, but most of you here are still old faces, the cohesion of Mr. Guo and Kairan can be seen, and it is this cohesion, appeal and appeal that can accept me to return again today, I want to thank you first!" ”

Chen Ran's opening remarks were solemn and sincere, and everyone was very excited and applauded from time to time.

I looked at Chen Ran from afar, his voice was low and thick, powerful but not noisy, from the personal relationship with Mr. Guo, to the advantages accumulated by Kai Ran, quick thinking, loud and loud, I could see the light in his eyes, it was a man's passion and life burning like fire, scorching, dazzling, I couldn't help but be a little stupid.

The banquet officially opened, and after three rounds of drinking, everyone began to play freely. For a while, the lights were shining, the chips were staggered, and the main table was even more surrounded by water, Chen Ran was naturally the biggest protagonist today.

I'm most afraid of such moments, I drink very lightly, and I usually don't drink at all, which is why I am silent when I have dinner in the department. Usually colleagues in the department are familiar with each other, and everyone understands me, but now they are all middle and senior managers of the company, and it doesn't work to be silent or replace wine with tea.

What's more, today's protagonist is Chen Ran.

I really struggled to face him.

Why? Aren't we irrelevant people? But this inexplicable sadness is so clear and clear that I am not in a state, as if there is another heart living in my body, and it hits my internal organs one after another like a hammer in the asynchronous leaky beats, making people powerless and confused.

At this time, all departments have taken turns, and the administration department naturally cannot lag behind. After Wang Hao came on the field to toast, he also wanted to take me and Zhang Xiaoqi to attack in a group. Seeing that my face was embarrassed, he said with concern: "All departments are toasting, we will definitely not be able to get around, you can follow me to take a sip later, it's okay"

"Yo, our Manager Wang really takes care of Xiao Li, when haven't I seen you care so much about us" Zhang Xiaoqi sat next to Wang Hao, and when he heard him talking to me, he couldn't help but snort lightly and said with a smile.

"My aunt, do you still need me to take care of you? When you stand at that table, how many men need to be taken care of! Last time, I drank Mayor Zhao so much that I pulled the secretary to call my mother, and asked him to pour sobering soup! Wang Hao said while gesturing, making everyone laugh.

Zhang Xiaoqijiao smiled and pushed Wang Hao, "You ruin my reputation outside every time"

"Come on, our administration department is unanimous with the outside world, what do you and me, Xiao Li can't drink, let's take care of it a little more later!"

"Got it, act when the opportunity comes!" Zhang Xiaoqi heard Wang Hao say that there is no difference between you and me, with a surprised expression on his face, and suddenly his heart was full of joy and stopped worrying about Wang Hao, and got up to walk with him.

"Yo, the Beauty Corps is here, Chen Ran, this is our company's heroine, last time Mayor Zhao drank to the upper hand, Zhang Xiaoqi from our Administration Department!" Mr. Guo saw Zhang Xiaoqi who was following Wang Hao at a glance, pointed at her and introduced to Chen Ran.

"Yes, Kairan really hides the dragon and crouching tiger, Wang Hao, you kid seems to have attracted a lot of elites in recent years!" Chen Ran said that his eyes swept over me, and he nodded at me slightly, I was slightly stunned, thinking that it was probably because of the afternoon pick-up that I was a little impressed.

Mr. Guo and Chen Ran have both taken off their blazers, and the sleeves of their shirts have also been rolled up. Wang Hao held the wine bottle in one hand and the wine glass in the other, let Zhang Xiaoqi and me in front, bent down and smiled all over his face:

"Mr. Guo, Mr. Chen, I will lead the beauties of our administration department to give a glass to the two CEOs"

"The beauties toast, of course you have to drink!" Mr. Guo looked at us and smiled, turned his head and said to Wang Hao, "However, that's not a beauty, we won't drink it!" ”

understood that Mr. Guo was referring to Wang Hao, everyone laughed, Wang Hao scratched his ears and cheeks and was thinking about how to round the field, only to see Zhang Xiaoqi take a step forward and pick up the wine glass: "Mr. Guo, Mr. Chen, it is Xiaoqi's honor to be able to toast the two bosses with the light of Manager Wang today, I will do it first for respect" After speaking, he raised his neck, drank the whole glass of wine, and then added a full cup, saluted Chen Ran, and still lowered his stomach neatly, and lit up the bottom of the cup after drinking.

"Good!" Everyone applauded, and Mr. Guo also praised it, and poured the wine in the cup into his mouth with Chen Ran.

"Wang Hao, your kid is not shallow, no wonder you are reluctant to leave the Administration Department" Mr. Guo smiled at Wang Hao meaningfully, everyone knew most of Zhang Xiaoqi's thoughts about Wang Hao, and at this moment, he was even more drunk and coaxed, Zhang Xiaoqi was able to let it go, but Wang Hao was a little embarrassed.

"Where, Mr. Guo, the biggest advantage of the administration department is to be able to learn things from the boss, this," Wang Hao pointed at us, and said with a smile, "It can only be regarded as a supplementary benefit!" ”

"This kid is cheap and good! The penalty should be punished! Chen Ran seemed to be interested, and the others also began to encourage him.

"Yes, yes, yes, the bosses are right, I'm too high-profile, not modest at all, I admit punishment, admit punishment" Wang Hao was happy to find himself a step down, and poured himself full of wine.

"Slow, Wang Hao" Mr. Guo waved his hand to block Wang Hao, who was about to step forward, "The beauty hasn't finished drinking yet, why are you not a beauty making a fuss?" "Raise your glass to me.

As soon as Mr. Guo spoke, everyone turned their attention to me, Zhang Xiaoqi made a good start, and everyone waited to see how another female general in the Administration Department would show her strength. Even Chen Ran looked at me with interest, as if it was so natural for me to humbly salute and pour another chic toast at this moment.

I was very embarrassed, I thought I would go through the motions with Wang Hao, but I didn't expect Mr. Guo's words to be pushed to the forefront by mistake because of Zhang Xiaoqi. I looked at Wang Hao, he opened his mouth and seemed to want to say something, look at Mr. Guo, and then look at me, but finally swallowed. Zhang Xiaoqi stood aside, shaking the wine glass in his hand, staring at the residual wine in the cup without saying a word, with an indescribable smile on the corner of his mouth.

Knowing that there is no one to rely on and no one to rely on at the moment, no one is reliable, I have to grit my teeth and pick up the wine glass, and barely put on a smiling face: "Mr. Guo, Mr. Chen, I am not strong enough to drink, and I can't compare to Sister Xiaoqi, but today this glass of wine is toasted to the two bosses, welcome Mr. Chen to return to Kairan, thank Mr. Guo for his guidance and care to our administrative department, and hope that there will be more opportunities to learn from the two bosses in the future." His eyes swept over Chen Ran, and he saw that he seemed to be smiling but not smiling, noncommittal, thinking that he was not surprised when he saw this kind of scene. With a slight sigh in my heart, I closed my eyes and poured the whole glass of wine into my mouth.

A spicy irritation hit, and I swallowed quickly, but I was still choked and coughed, my face was swollen and red, and I turned my head in embarrassment.

"You're Li Yue'er, right? Okay, yes, there are many talents in the administration department" Mr. Guo turned his head to Chen Ran and said: "Come on, Chen Ran, we can't save the face of other beauties"

Chen Ran glanced at me thoughtfully while holding his wine glass, and there seemed to be a hint of surprise in his eyes. My heart suddenly felt cold, did he think that I should ride around the wine field like Zhang Xiaoqi? So I found out that I couldn't drink enough, and I thought it was incredible? If that's the case, it's sad.

There was still a little jade liquid left in the cup and swayed, and dazzling light needles floated under the golden light beam, which made people dazzled, like my current mood.

Seeing Mr. Guo speak, Wang Hao took advantage of the situation to pick up the wine glass and saluted, "Mr. Guo, Mr. Chen, thank you to the two bosses for giving our administrative department face, we must work hard to repay the trust of the company!" After that, he didn't wait for the two of them to say more, but raised his head and dried the wine in his hand first.

Finally completed the toasting task in the cup change, I secretly breathed a sigh of relief in my heart, and was about to leave, but I didn't expect Zhang Xiaoqi to muttered to Wang Hao, "Lao Wang, let's still go around with other executives and departments, right?" ”

"Well, this is natural," Wang Hao looked up at me, and stopped talking.

I understood his embarrassment, but because of what I had just said, he would not be really embarrassed because of me alone, I smiled bitterly and said, "It's okay, Manager Wang, I'll follow you around."

"That's okay, you can take two sips then."

It's two sips again, hehe, I can't help but sigh in my heart, when will it be done?

I shook my head, looked at the backs of Wang Hao and Zhang Xiaoqi's husbands and women, and understood that Zhang Xiaoqi's various things tonight were understandable, but it was the first time that I felt the indifference and loneliness of the workplace so obviously, everyone is working hard for interests, taking care of themselves and being too busy, how can I have time to pay attention to others?

As expected, no one will let me take two sips of this circle, especially when Zhang Xiaoqi drank all the way to a group of men, I couldn't get rid of the fate of being drunk, and Wang Hao had already drunk and talked with people on his shoulders, how could he care if the people behind him were awake or drunk?

The group was drunk all day, and Wang Hao wanted to pull Zhang Xiaoqi and me to pay tribute to Chen Ran, but fortunately, Chen Ran resigned, and I was really amnesty.

At this moment, I could no longer hold back the camouflage shell as if I had lost my soul, and took advantage of the last remaining lucidity to slip out of the bathroom under the pretext of going to the bathroom.

Outside, the moon is like water, and the cool breeze brings bursts of fragrant grass. I sat on a bench outside the hotel and stepped down from the heels I'd worn for a day, when the exhaustion and burnout of the drink struck again. The surroundings were silent, and I felt as if I was in the vast twilight barrier, standing alone, with few figures, and a heart that was blank.

The night sky is inky and the stars travel through time and space, faintly but continuously flickering, bringing the light and heat of thousands of years ago. I look at them, so far and deep, after a lot of hardships to overcome many obstacles, but I am still separated from the distance between heaven and earth, just like this situation, a wall, laughter is the end of the world.

Tears welled up in my eyes.

The warm teardrops filled little by little, and then rolled down silently, melting into the densely intertwined warp and weft of the emerald dress, and the heavy night around them, drowning in the city's bright lights.

The grand and warm banquet is still going on, and when the wine is hot, I can't distinguish between the real and the false, and the workplace has begun to slowly reveal its true face to me, how can it be as simple as writing a few articles?

And Chen Ran, no matter how much I resist and escape, after all, it has left traces in my heart. From now on, he will exist in the time and space where I and Kairan meet, I will see him often, I will work with him, I will talk to him, I will even face him as I am today, but in the face of a soon-to-be boss, a family man, a person who is a round of time away from me, a person who is not even familiar with me, I really can't think of anything else I can do, and even think about it in vain.

It's not just thinking in vain, you can't even think about it, you can't think about it......

The night was low, the stars were dim, and my eyes were hazy, and I felt lonely and sad to the extreme.

Chen Ran

After settling in the hotel, I sent a message to Xiaojuan to report that she was safe, and it took a long time to receive a reply from her, which was so short that there was only one "um" word, and I smiled helplessly, if this is the normal state for us in the future, maybe we have to learn to get used to each other.

Xiaojuan is now the person in charge of the unit's communication group, and she is in her position, and she has the posture of a manager between her words, including me. Even if I left today, Xiaojuan did not see me off on the grounds of work. I suddenly remembered the night before I left, the lonely back of the person who answered the phone on the balcony, the whimpering sobs, after all, were fixed in the few memories I had with her recently. And who is it, in the middle of the night, who can quietly embrace all the weakness and sorrow of Xiaojuan on the other end of the phone?

Alas.

Turning on the shower head in the bathroom, the bubbling hot water poured on my body from top to bottom, and the winding waterway ran along every inch of skin texture, gradually washing away the restlessness and silent sigh in my heart.

In the evening, Guo Kai set up a banquet to wash the dust for me, and Wang Hao made an appointment to come and pick me up at 6 o'clock. Seeing that the time was up, I packed up a little and went to the hotel lobby to wait.

In fact, I can wait for Wang Hao to arrive and then calm down, but today I really don't want to stay alone in the room and be quiet in all directions, the hall is full of people and the music is beautiful, and it is the best time to divert attention at this moment.

I saw Wang Hao walk into the hotel, and it was no longer the emerald color that followed him, and my heart was slightly empty for no reason.

But it's only a momentary loss, after all, it's someone who has nothing to do with me, isn't it?

Wang Hao saw me at a glance, and hurriedly stepped forward a few steps, "Mr. Chen, I'm sorry to keep you waiting."

"You're welcome, I arrived early." I laughed.

The girl who came with Wang Hao immediately stretched out her hand to me and introduced herself: "Hello, Mr. Chen, I am Zhang Xiaoqi from the Administration Department."

Zhang Xiaoqi is very generous, his gestures are neat and capable, presumably the people in the workplace are already very familiar with the comings and goings, I shook hands with her and said hello, and the three of them left the hotel at the same time.

In the evening, the lights of City C are on, and the carriages and horses converge into colorful lights and shadows in the bright neon, interweaving the grand and indifferent enthusiasm of the city. Accompanied by Wang Hao and Zhang Xiaoqi, I went to the Fulin Hotel where the dinner was held, and the fragrant cars were like clouds, and people came and went, just like before, which reminded me of the years three years ago.

When we walked into the hotel, I saw Guo Kai at a glance, I haven't seen him for three years, he is a little blessed, even though the passion is still there, but the eyebrows are no longer young. For us who have passed the year of establishment, no amount of fame and prosperity can stop the vicissitudes of the world, which is the lingering helplessness and compromise carved by the years.

We hugged warmly, a few jokes, we already knew each other, and I was comforted that time would only make the friendship between men deeper but clearer.

Looking up, the same smiling faces all around, familiar and unfamiliar, all welcomed me with the same expression and language at this moment. It's been three years, and I'm back in the crowd again, and even though Kairan and I are not what we used to be, we are finally reconnected at this point in time.

I greeted everyone warmly and greeted everyone about the changes that have taken place over the past few years. While his eyes swept over everyone, he was also attracted by the emerald color again in that inconspicuous corner.

Delicate and slender, standing with a splendour.

Yes, it's her, Li Yue'er.

At this moment, her long hair had been coiled up, revealing her long neck, which looked more and more ethereal. My heart couldn't help but move, and my steps couldn't help but brighten.

After taking a seat, Guo Kai and I spoke one after another. Because it was an internal dinner in the company, the atmosphere was relaxed, and my return was a happy thing for Guo Kai and Kairan, and the banquet was naturally indispensable to the bustle and excitement of wine and laughter, I was not very interested in these, but today I am the protagonist, and I should try my best to deal with it. I was also drunk for a while, and I drank too much unconsciously.

In the interval between pushing the cup and changing the lamp, my eyes will involuntarily sweep over the table farthest away from us, Li Yueer and Zhang Xiaoqi sit on both sides of Wang Hao, she seems to have few words, since the opening of the table, she has silently tasted and swallowed alone, occasionally responding to the exchange at the same table, quiet like a forgotten fairy in the world.

Her silhouette was hazy and elegant, like a silhouette in a painting in the dazzling halo around her, and I was a little distracted for a moment. So much so that when Wang Hao brought her and Zhang Xiaoqi to toast me and Guo Kai, I was secretly happy.

I was so happy, heh, how could such a straightforward word ever appear in me? I'm a little surprised, it looks like I did drink too much tonight.

Guo Kai said that Zhang Xiaoqi drank a lot, and he really lived up to his reputation, and in an instant, he didn't blink his eyes under two glasses of white wine, which won the applause of the whole house. When it was Li Yueer's turn, everyone took it for granted that this must be the public relations sister of the Administration Department, with beautiful women and fine wine, and there was a lot of coaxing and cheering for a while. Even I rarely beat the side drum.

It's so unlike me!

How so? Even though I don't want Li Yue'er to be a woman in the wine field like Zhang Xiaoqi, but in this current situation, it seems that only this shouting and laughter can make her stay in front of me for a while, and even, it is possible, to notice me.

As soon as this thought came to me, I broke out in a cold sweat. What was I thinking, was I drunk like this? Just because of that dream you had recently? Just because Li Yue'er is wearing a green dress today, do I think she has anything to do with me? It's ridiculous, I, a married man and a big man, actually gave birth to these ridiculous thoughts, which is really in vain for more than 30 years!

Thinking like this, the wine also woke up a little, looked at her again, only to notice her embarrassment and hesitation, waiting for a glass of wine to enter, her difficult cough, red face, finally made me realize that Li Yue'er, she doesn't seem to drink.

This realization actually made me breathe a sigh of relief in my heart.

She looked away and looked embarrassed, but at that moment, I saw the image that had been repeated in my dreams—a black mole on the back of her neck.

Same location, same size, yes, I would never be mistaken! Never! The black mole, like an indelible scar, was deeply seared in my mind and my heart, and now it really came to my eyes, and it made me feel at a loss, and I was stunned in the moment.

I think my shocked expression at the time was enough to make people look sideways, and I saw Li Yue'er sweeping my face with a little doubt. I was a little hasty to pack up my emotions, but my heart was already turned upside down.

Why does Li Yue'er have the same black mole on her neck as in my dream? Why is she wearing the green dress today? Why does my heart ache when I see her or even hear her name? Why do I have so many uncontrollable thoughts in the face of her? Could it be that these are really just coincidences?!

The doubts in my heart did not decrease but increased in the heavy wine, and they were like a mess.

Li Yue'er continued to toast and drink with Wang Hao and his party, her face was solemn and pale, I knew that she couldn't stand up for the amount of alcohol.

I actually began to be faintly angry with Wang Hao, and when he still wanted to bring Li Yue'er and Zhang Xiaoqi to honor me alone, I couldn't help but excuse myself.

I seemed to see Li Yue'er cast a grateful glance at me, but it disappeared in an instant.

I should have been very drunk that night, and woke up the next day with a splitting headache, and the hustle and bustle of the night banquet seemed to leave nothing but the groggy discomfort of a hangover, except for the deep black mole, and its owner, Li Yue'er.