Li Yue'er

Now that I have decided, there is no more turmoil in my heart. So when I received a call from Pleasant Goat on the afternoon of the second day saying that she was waiting for me on the roof of the company, I was no longer in the panic and helplessness of being broken by Mr. Guo before, I walked out of the administrative department with an extremely calm attitude and a calm face, walked up to the rooftop on the 20th floor, and walked in front of Pleasant Goat. Since you can't dodge, let's face it with your chest straight!

The sky was as high and vast as ever, and the tall buildings built up an indifferent forest of steel around us, squeezing us into the most inconspicuous black spots, drowning in the glow of the midday sun. At this moment, when I looked at each other at a distance of two or three meters from the Pleasant Goat, the laughter and ridicule of the past were gone, and she put away her usual informality and casualness, and only looked at me coldly, the same as Tang Hai and Mr. Guo's eyes on me. Hehe, this is the eyes of the world, and sure enough, it has a chilling effect, and I can't help but laugh at myself, but I opened my mouth first, "If you want to ask, just ask"

"Is what Tang Hai said true?" Oh, even my name was omitted, how disgusted you must be with me.

I turned around and didn't look at her, I held on to the railing and looked into the distance, there were so many houses and buildings that I couldn't see at a glance, only the farthest part of the sky was met, what else was there on the other side of the city? Is it a mountain? What about the other side of the mountain? I don't know, the vision blocks people's thinking, and everyone is a prison, but they think that they are the whole world. It's ridiculous that I was still thinking about such a boring and strange question in my heart at this time, and realized that the Pleasant Goat was still waiting for my answer, so I nodded, "Yes", and the tone was not struggling, as if I was saying something that had nothing to do with me.

Pleasant Goat was angry, and he couldn't hold back anymore and stepped forward, grabbed my arm, and pulled my body, "Li Yue'er, are you crazy?!" "Her anxiety and anger are clearly engraved on her face, yes, this is the Pleasant Goat I usually know, how can she be so patient, she is angry, very good, it's normal, isn't it?" Don't you know that Mr. Chen got married early? Why are you so stupid, there is a good man in front of you and don't want to be a third party, you say, which tendon is you short-circuiting? Are you in trouble?! ”

"Pleasant Goat, I'm sorry for making you worry about me." I looked her in the eyes, such words were normal, I thought about the scene of being accused by the world countless times, but when it came to the eyes, I was much calmer, "I don't want to defend anything, because no matter how I justify, it can't change the fact that I am a third party." The only thing I'm sorry for is that I hid the truth from you before, let you worry about Zhang Luo so many things for me, and implicated Tang Hai, I'm really sorry. ”

"Yue'er, do you think I'm sorry for hearing this sentence from you today?" Pleasant Goat interrupted me, "I, and uncle, what are these worries, and what are they for, isn't it just to let you have a good home and live a smooth and stable life?!" But you, there are so many choices, even if you are not satisfied with Tang Hai, there are other people, take a step back and say, even if you don't want to go on a blind date now, don't want to fall in love, don't want to start a family, even if you're just like this, it's okay, it's late, it's late, isn't it? But why did you choose this path?! Yes, I admit that Mr. Chen is indeed a good person, but no matter how good he is, he is also someone else's husband, he has a family and a wife, do you remember when I mentioned to you before that Guo Xin was messing around outside? Didn't you also grit your teeth at those third parties at that time? Why is it your turn, you are so confused as if you have changed a person! "Pleasant Goat took a step closer," you say, what is the difference between you and those juniors who destroy people's family marriages? Yes?! Do you see that Mr. Chen is rich? When did you Li Yue'er become such a philistine? If it's for money, let me tell you, Tang Hai's family also has a lot of money, and his father is also in business! But are you really such a person? What do you tell me to say, what do you think of you, Li Yue'er!? Her face flushed with anxiety and anger, but her voice seemed to be crying, and the last few words were actually shouted with a whimper.

My tears rolled out in an instant, and I understood that Pleasant Goat was dedicated to my good, and he really regarded me as a friend to hate me so much. Lowering my eyes, only letting the tears drip silently, I held her hand, raised my head, and said to her slowly, "Pleasant Goat, thank you, how could I not understand what you said." But I can't control my feelings, I love Chen Ran, he loves me, and there is no turning back. ”

"Heh, love ......" Pleasant Goat pulled out a wry smile, "Yue'er, you have read so many books and written so many articles, haven't you heard of 'love and courtesy'?" That's right, Chen is always very good, inside and outside the company, I believe that not only you, but many other women can't resist such a man, do you have to have cuteness? He's married! Are you really willing to bear the reputation of a third person to be with him? Just hide and hide for the rest of your life? Even my uncle and I can't tell such a sneaky? Have you ever wondered how you would feel if your uncle found out? As a third party, are you Li Yueer that kind of person? She stared into my eyes and said, "I don't know what Mr. Chen said to you, or what he promised you, but your so-called love for you is like this, you are roasted on the fire and put in a dark corner to see the light, I think his love is also very false!" If that's the case, he's a hypocrite in my mind! Shen Dazhi and I have always felt that his image is so majestic and tall, I am really blind! ”

Pleasant Goat's words made me speechless, she was right, if it were me, I would know the same thing like this, and then understand everything with emotion. It's not me, let alone Chen Ran, how can the mood and feelings of the parties be clear to outsiders, although at the moment I don't know whether this choice is right or wrong, but at this moment, just as I made up my mind last night, whether the road ahead is full of thorns or flowers, I must at least take a look to understand. "If you don't reach the Yellow River, you won't die, and if you don't see the coffin, you won't cry", heh, I actually have such a decisive time.

Thinking of this, I bit my lip and finally spoke under the gaze of Pleasant Goat, "Pleasant Goat, give me some time, let me face and deal with it myself." Until then, I only want you to promise me one thing. After a pause, I looked her in the eye, "Don't tell my father." ”

Pleasant Goat sighed heavily and clenched my hands, "I know, how can I go and tell my uncle that I still have this bit of proportion." She raised her head and looked up at the boundless sky, was silent for a long time, and then patted me on the shoulder, "Yue'er, don't blame me for saying so many cruel things today, I really hope that you are happy, and you deserve to be worthy of righteous love." Then he said no more, looked at me one last time, stomped his feet, and passed me.

Pleasant Goat left, and I was the only one left on the rooftop. It seems that the fate with this rooftop has been lonely recently, or has my fortune been marked by loneliness from the beginning? lost his mother when he was young, his family relationship was thin, he had few friends, and his love was so helpless. Laughing to himself, he suddenly remembered a story he had seen, there was a gray whale named ZUO Alice, known as one of the loneliest animals in the world, and the frequency of its sound was 51.7hz, much higher than that of normal whales. The sound waves of the whale can travel half the world, but this whale has been singing at the bottom of the sea for a lifetime, but no one of its kind can hear it, and no one of its kind can talk to it, it is like a lone wanderer who plays and sings by himself, and he is alone all his life, which makes me think of idioms such as "lonely self-appreciation" and "self-pity", and now I seem to be not much different from it, or that I am likely to be so lonely in the future. The only comfort, at least for now, is Chen Ran, and a warm embrace to accept all my weakness and bravery.

I took out my mobile phone and sent a message to Chen Ran, telling him that Manager Shen, Pleasant Goat and Tang Hai all knew about my relationship with him, and only omitted how the two of them talked to me about the process of decomposition.

Chen Ran's text message quickly replied, but he didn't ask them how they knew, just a simple sentence, "Girl, it's okay, it's a matter of time or time, don't mind too much, life is ultimately our own" With the clarity and calmness that knows everything, it is in touch with my heart at this moment.

I smiled slightly, "Chen Ran, I understand, I don't mind, since last night, I don't mind." ”

"Oh? Is it? Why? Chen Ran asked knowingly, and actually sent a smile, perhaps to comfort the ups and downs in my heart, but he underestimated my determination, although it was hard to imagine that such a serious person as him could be so playful, I still laughed out loud.

"yes, why?" I also started Tai Chi, "I don't know, can you tell me?" ”

"Haha, you girl will be so poor now!" Chen Ran's smile overflowed between the lines, presumably relieved, his call came as scheduled, "Yue'er, what are you doing?"

Suddenly enjoying such a short time when no one was disturbed, Chen Ran and I, like ordinary lovers, laughed softly, said love words that only understood each other, and embraced a moment of peace and happiness in this disturbing wind and rain world.

"I'm looking at the scenery" I looked at the blue sky, stretched out my hand, and the warm wind and sun seemed to be within reach.

"Oh? I don't work well during working hours, but I'm actually looking at the scenery? Chen Ran feigned anger and said, "Is the scenery as good as mine?" ”

I sneered, "At the moment, the wind is clear, the light and shadow are bright, and I look much better than you!" ”

"Really?" Chen Ran's laughter fell like a pearl on a jade plate, splashing with heartfelt joy and love, "I'm so sad to say!" But there was no sadness in his voice, only full of pampering and pity.

"Yue'er" suddenly heard Chen Ran call me gently.

"Huh?"

"This weekend, let's go out and have fun" Chen Ran paused and said gently, "Let's climb the mountain"

There was a slight hesitation, but he was also quickly pleased, "Okay, where are you going?" ”

"Keep it a secret, and I'll tell you over the weekend." Chen Ran's voice also became relaxed and cheerful on the other end of the phone, "Girl, I still have something to give you then." ”

"Wow, that's so mysterious," I sighed, "and I have a gift to receive, Chen Ran, you give me too much, it will make me insatiable." ”

Chen Ran's answer was like Feihong skimming across the lake, stirring a pool of spring water, "Girl, here in me, you can be infinitely greedy for it, and I will never get tired of it."