Li Yue'er

I heard Chen Ran say sorry to me, because the surprise he prepared for me was gone, and my tears flowed out even more unscrupulously, sorry? He also said sorry to me, heh, it's all this time, he still cares so much about my little care, and he apologizes for not fulfilling his promise in time. Although I don't know what the surprise he wants to bring me, but at this moment, I just want to tell him, Chen Ran, my love, there is nothing more than your well-being for me is a greater surprise, I can't be by your side to face the hardships of life with you, how can I ask you to worry about me anymore? It's me who should say I'm sorry instead of you, and now I'm thousands of miles away, I can only silently pray that you will get out of this haze soon, and return to City C safely and return to my side.

The eastern sky was gradually revealing the whiteness of the fish's belly, and the cheerful chirping of the morning birds could already be heard in the yard, and I curled up, wrapped my legs, and still held the unfinished phone in my hand, only the busy sound of "beep" echoed in the silent bedroom. Suddenly felt a trace of sadness and fear, is it that in all the days to come, no matter what kind of wind and waves Chen Ran encounters, I can only look at each other from afar? If he lingers on the sickbed, won't I even get a little more intimate greeting? If you think a little further, when we grow old and come to the end of our lives one day, the person who is waiting by his side cannot be me; Even everything about him can only be known from other people's mouths...... I can only hide in an unknown corner, silently cry and grieve for him, and then I have to force a smile in front of others, because no one knows our relationship, no one knows that he is my lover, and if I am happy and sad about the fate of a company boss who has little to do with me in the eyes of outsiders, it will only make people feel extremely surprised and weird.

It's so lonely and desolate, and even now I think about it, I feel heartache.

Suddenly, I felt that reality was like a sharp steel knife, and time was like the smoothest whetstone. Yes, Chen Ran and I are extremely determined, but in the midst of such impermanence and daily grinding, can we still always be like a rock in the gap between the real world and the world we have constructed? I don't know, I don't have an answer. I also don't want to think about it, or even dare not think about it. The sky outside the window has gradually revealed its true gray blue, and the branches and leaves of the banyan tree are gently swaying in the morning breeze, making a fine rustling sound.

The news of Chen Ran's father-in-law's death quickly spread in the company, and Mr. Guo rushed to N City to attend the funeral as soon as possible. The bosses are not in the company, and the internal and external coordination matters directly fall on the head of the administrative department, and they are more busy than usual. Because I remembered Chen Ran and couldn't get his news in time, my work efficiency has been obviously affected in the past few days, and even Wang Hao saw that I was absent-minded, so he called me to the office during the lunch break, and asked with concern, "What's wrong recently, Xiao Li, look at you like you're not giving up." ”

But how could I tell him the truth, so I had to say perfunctorily, "Ah, it's okay, maybe I haven't been sleeping well lately." I'm sorry, Manager Wang, I'll pay attention to my work. ”

"I care about you, and I don't mean to blame you." Wang Hao shook his head and sighed, "I know that you have always been self-disciplined and strict with yourself, but if you are not a sage, who can be without fault?" Those few minor errors in the report are not worth mentioning. He waved his hand and continued, "That's it, there is a secretarial work meeting on the government side in the afternoon, let the companies send secretaries to participate, I think you can go, this text matter is still understood by you dancing and writing, just when you go out for a walk, save a day in the company to hold back your illness." ”

I heard him say this, and knew that he was all for my good, and that it would be good to go out for a walk, so I agreed.

The afternoon sun is extraordinarily bright, shining on the human body with a fine and dense melt light, as if every warp and weft of the clothes are full of warmth. I sat in the car and looked up at the blue sky, the white clouds were long, and it looked even more beautiful in the clear sky. There was a warm wind blowing, as if Chen Ran's hand was gently brushing my face, gentle and affectionate. The corners of his eyes are hot, Chen Ran, what are you doing now? took out his mobile phone, rubbed the familiar name, but couldn't write his heart after all, sighed, and put the phone back in his bag.

According to the time announced, I arrived at the venue of the government building on time. Because it is a meeting organized by the office, the scale is not large, and there are only seventy or eighty people in the small conference room, almost all of whom are secretarial staff of various companies or units. There were two or three people sitting on the stage, and when they heard the introduction, Fang Zhi was the deputy director of the office and the leader of the secretarial team, but the team leader seemed to be a little familiar, and when he looked at it, it turned out to be Tang Hai, who he met on a blind date last time.

Oh, by the way, didn't Pleasant Goat say that he was the pen of the government office, but I didn't expect it to be the head of the secretarial team, it seems that the pen is really good. From a distance, he was still wearing a meticulous suit, white shirt, blue tie, polite and scholarly style, no different from the one he saw that day. At this moment, the deputy director's speech has ended, Tang Hai calmly took the microphone, and after a little tidying up, he was not in a hurry to talk about it. His voice was deep and deep, but his words were clear and coherent, and it took him an hour to explain everything.

After a while, the participants came out, I remembered the experience of the last blind date, and felt that there was no need to say hello to Tang Hai, so I walked out with the flow of people.

Outside the building, there are trees and flowers all over the place. It is the late spring season in April, Jiamu is thriving, the famous flowers are fragrant in the wind, a cluster, a cluster of clans are red like fire, dazzling people's eyes. The cherry blossom trees and pear trees planted on both sides of the cloister are now containing fragrant narui, looking like a sea of flowers from a distance, occasionally the wind blows, it is like raindrops falling one after another, drifting into the corridor, accumulating a thin layer, stepping on it as if stepping on the soft carpet, even the feet are fragrant. Countless birds perched on the trees and chirped happily, and the majestic government buildings behind them were a little more vigorous. I was a little crazy for a while, and I unconsciously stepped on the stone path in the garden, just wanting to be closer to the rare colorful colors in this downtown area.

Suddenly, I screamed in my heart, and when I looked down, sure enough, the heel of my high heels was stuck in the crack of the stone road. I moved slightly, the heel of my shoe did not move, and I increased my strength, but I found that only one foot could be pulled out, but the seam was as if it were tailor-made, and it was firmly stuck in my shoe. Looking around, the crowd of people rushed through the avenue, and occasionally a few eyes were projected, but they were quickly withdrawn without caring about themselves. I stood in the middle of the garden in such a strange posture that I wanted to leave, and secretly complained about why I was greedy for the beautiful scenery and put myself in such an awkward position. I was in a hurry, so I pulled out my heart ruthlessly, but I didn't expect the center of gravity to be unstable, my feet were crooked, and my body fell straight to the side, seeing that there was nothing to rely on beside me, I couldn't help but close my eyes, and secretly said "miserable", and I thought of myself falling into a ugly home.

"Be careful!" With a soft cry, a pair of warm hands firmly grasped my body that was about to hit the ground. I turned my head in a hurry, but saw that Tang Hai was already standing behind me at some point, looking at me with a smile on his face. Beside him, there were papers scattered all over the ground, thinking that they were because they hurriedly helped me accidentally drop. I was stunned for a moment, and found that my arm was still in his hand, and his tilted body seemed to be surrounded by him, so he blushed suddenly, hurriedly stood up straight, and said to him, "Ah, Tang Hai, thank you." I'm so sorry. Seeing the dense handwriting on the paper scattered on the ground, it must be some important material, and the movement of Shicai has attracted someone not far away to follow the sound, and he didn't feel embarrassed, so he squatted down to help him pick it up, but because Fang Cai broke his foot, a pain struck, and he couldn't help but "ouch" and sat on the ground.

"Hey, hey, slow down!" Tang Hai didn't have time to help me, and when he saw this, he couldn't help but sigh, "What's the hurry, it's not an important thing, just pick it up slowly for a while." As he spoke, he crouched down and checked my feet, "How are you, can you walk?" ”

I frowned, shook my head helplessly, and said embarrassedly, "The shoe is stuck." ”

"Oh" Tang Hai noticed my high heels at this time, he thought about it, and said to me, "You wait", I saw him pick up the materials that fell on the ground, put them under me and motioned for me to sit up, turned around and said, "The ground is cold, you will sit down first." I'm going to pull my shoes out. ”

I was a little surprised for a while, I didn't expect him to be such a careful person, and I was grateful for it, and I hurriedly said, "Thank you, Tang Hai"

He smiled slightly, not careless, just pecking how to pull the shoe out without hurting the upper. After looking at it for a long time, he found a small branch, held his shoe in one hand, and slowly pulled it out from the crack in the stone slab with the other hand, and finally pulled out the shoe completely after several times.

I propped myself up and put on my shoes, thanked him on the one hand, and thought that I knew that it was him but deliberately didn't say hello, so I was a little surprised, and hurriedly said to him, "Tang Hai, thank you, it's been too long for you, you hurry up, I'll go back first." ”

"Your feet are swollen, are you sure you can go back?" Tang Hai ignored my words, looked at my ankles, and said, "You wait for me, I'll drive the car over and send you back." ”

When he said this, I found out that my ankle was bruised, swollen and high, and it hurt with a little force, but the acquaintance with Tang Hai was already embarrassing, and now it has caused people trouble, how can I still let him send me back, and hurriedly excused himself, "No, no, Tang Hai, I'm fine, I'll go out and call a car." ”

He looked up at me at this time, was silent for a long time, and suddenly smiled to himself, "Xiao Li, don't be polite to me, we are also fellow countrymen, how could I watch you limp back alone?" Without further ado, he turned around and walked to the parking lot next to the garden, "You wait for me here, and I'll drive over at once." Don't shirk."

I couldn't help but be speechless, and after hesitation, Tang Hai had already driven the car in front of me, and the matter had come to this point, so I had to get into the car as I said.

Tang Hai wanted me to go to the doctor, but this little injury required so much trouble, not to mention that he still worked with Tang Hai, under my strong resignation, he finally gave up, but he still bought me safflower oil at the roadside pharmacy, and told me to remember to take the medicine on time.

Although I promised on the surface, I was very hesitant in my heart. I understand that because we know each other on a blind date, Tang Hai's contact with me has finally brought a little bit of ambiguity that is inexplicable. And I didn't spare any time to refuse, how could I have expected that I would have the opportunity to meet him again. Today, I have received his help to me, and I really can't put a straight face on the other party's kindness. At this moment, he had to take the safflower oil and smiled awkwardly, "Thank you, Tang Hai." I'm really bothering you today, so I'll go back first. After saying that, he wanted to turn around and enter the community.

"Xiao Li" Tang Hai stopped me again, as if he wanted to say something and stopped, and finally looked at me and said, "Can you give me your phone number this time?"

I couldn't help but be stunned, and I didn't know what to answer for a while. Tang Hai's request is not excessive, especially when he has just received his kindness, but who knows my hardships. was hesitating how to refuse, only to hear Tang Hai say again, "Xiao Li, to be honest, it's not difficult for me to know your phone number, I can get it from my senior brother, but I still hope that you will tell me in person." After a pause, he continued, "Although we met on a blind date, we are also fellow countrymen, no matter what you think, I think this is also a kind of fate, just make more friends, leave a phone number, contact if there is anything, call when you need help, I think it's okay." What do you think? ”

His voice was gentle, without the slightest aggressive gesture; His request couldn't have been more reasonable, and there was really no suitable reason to refuse. Looking at his calm and sincere eyes, I silently said to myself in my heart, maybe it's nothing to leave a phone call, just like he said, a friend, a fellow countryman, are just normal characters. After a long silence, biting my lip, I finally looked up at him and said, "Okay." ”