Li Yue'er

I heard Chen Ran and Sister Xiaojuan on the phone.

When I happily brought the quilt from the bedroom and prepared to spread it out on the sofa for Chen Ran, I found him standing on the balcony answering the phone. Although it was March, the early spring night was still foggy and slightly chilly. I was wondering why he didn't sit in the warm room and ran to the balcony to make a phone call, when I suddenly heard him ask on his phone, "Is it Xiaojuan?" ”

I was stunned for now.

It's not that I didn't think about encountering such a situation, that trip to D County, and the air ticket I saw when I delivered the scarf later, all of which made me fall into an unspeakable embarrassment and sorrow, but at that time Chen Ran was just an unattainable company owner for me, even if he later became my eldest brother, I also understood that he had been married for many years, and his life was full of traces of him and his wife, and these imprints that would appear at any time and when they would appear were inevitably frustrating at first, but after a long time, I slowly got used to this frustration.

Because I understand that I can't hide, and I can't escape, it's better to shake hands with it and make peace, not to mention that Chen Ran didn't know my affection for him at that time, who understands my hard work, it's better to compromise and let myself go. Because of this, I have always felt mentally prepared to face the impact of these inevitable embarrassments, even now that we both understand and accept each other. That's why I was able to make such a decision in such a short period of time just now, I thought that the long-term practice had made me immune to the little connection between Chen Ran and Sister Xiaojuan, I thought I could face everything with a smile, since I had persisted for so long and was safe and sound, why couldn't I continue like this?

But when I saw Chen Ran talking to Sister Xiaojuan on the phone and heard him call each other's names, my heart still hurt involuntarily.

He stood on the balcony, his hand holding the phone motionless in his ear, and for a moment he didn't say a word, just silence, only the sound of his quiet breathing wafting through the air. I don't know if Sister Xiaojuan is talking on the other end of the phone, but I feel that Chen Ran's speechlessness has an unconcealable depression, which forced him to the end of the night. The stars in the sky tonight have also disappeared, and his back is so gloomy under the desolate sky. I heard him say sorry to Sister Xiaojuan. Why are you sorry? Because of me? Yes, because of me, after all, he became a man who betrayed his marriage and was ashamed of his wife. Even though I could feel his true feelings for me, when he said that he was sorry, his back told me that he was tired and helpless after all.

And such involuntary apologies and unspeakable bitterness were like a dense net, imprisoning me from head to toe, so that when Chen Ran turned around and found me, I still maintained my previous posture and couldn't move. I was two or three meters behind him, and I felt that I couldn't get to him.

Is there so much anxiety bothering me just in the beginning? Just now, she swore to be the woman behind Chen Ran, but she was easily defeated in less than a quarter of an hour? It turns out that I really overestimated myself. It turns out that I am such a fragile woman. If even a phone call is so sensitive, how should I face the next road, how to fulfill my promise to Chen Ran, and how can I be worthy of the affection that Chen Ran gave me?

Li Yue'er, haven't you always done a good job? Sister Xiaojuan is Chen Ran's wife, it is normal for them to talk and meet, you have known it for a long time, and you have long been used to it, why do you want to act like this at this time? Since you have decided to be the woman behind Chen Ran, then keep your duty, practice your own King Kong incorruptible body, have time to care about a phone call between Chen Ran and his wife, it is better to cherish every minute and second you are with him, life must be happy, don't make the golden bottle empty to the moon, tonight and night, the beautiful scenery, how can you live up, you shouldn't live up, don't live up.

Yes, don't let it down.

Chen Ran turned around and saw me, as if he was a little stunned, I took a breath, settled my mind, smiled at him, and gently took his arm to the living room and sat down. He didn't tell me that he was on the phone with Sister Xiaojuan just now, he didn't mind after all, or he was afraid that I would. It's okay like this, it's okay like this, if he doesn't tell me, why should I know, I'll just pretend not to know, between me and him, as long as the two of us are enough, why bother other people anymore, not to mention the role of other people, which makes everyone embarrassed.

It's just that deep down, maybe I still expect him to be honest, otherwise I won't try to comfort my loss. I know too well that convincing myself requires great courage and perseverance, and since I met Chen Ran, such exercises have been staged all the time, and I have persevered with pain and happiness, hoping that a pair of hands will help me and soothe all the panic in my heart. If not, I can only rely on myself, or even rely on this lingering kiss to fill the void in my heart, so I responded strongly to Chen Ran, as if it was not enough to confirm his existence for me.

The love I look forward to, if I had to choose between a well-intentioned cover-up or a lie and a cruel truth that does not shy away from it, I would rather choose the latter, even then I may be sad and sad, but at least it proves that the person I love will not weave a false illusion of nothingness to me just because he is afraid that I will be sad, and he is willing to share all his joys and sorrows with me, rather than treating me like a canary in captivity, picking up exquisite meals to feed me. He sees me as his lover, his confidant, and even himself, so that I can really enter his life, his world, and not just lie to myself in the imaginary space of covering my ears and stealing the bell, because I am also like that, as I expect him to treat me, to him.

So when Chen Ran hesitated to tell me that he would go back to H City next weekend, I was relieved like a big stone in my heart. I'm not afraid of him going back to H City, I'm not afraid of him going to see Sister Xiaojuan, I'm not afraid that they will share the same bed or even do what husband and wife should do, the only thing I'm afraid of is that I don't know what he says or thinks where there is no place for me, and the only thing I know is the so-called love between him and me.

If Chen Ran understood me, he should tell me that even I understood that Sister Xiaojuan was a topic that I couldn't avoid between me and him, so why should he hide it for fear that I would be sad and sad. Fortunately, fortunately, although he didn't be open and honest with me at the first time, nor did he mention Sister Xiaojuan's name in the words just now, but at least, he told me, he was willing to tell me that he was going back to H City, in fact, he indirectly told me that he was going back to see his wife, he still told me after all, I was very relieved, very relieved, even if there were a few wisps of slightly sour melancholy, I was quickly relieved, this is normal, this is nothing, I really think so.

So I put my arms around his neck and whispered happily in his ear. I jumped and ran to the bedroom, not hiding my delight. I even took the initiative to tell Chen Ran that I don't need to hide the bits and pieces of him and Sister Xiaojuan from me, because I can bear it.

Then I saw an infinite wave rise in his eyes.

A good night's sleep, a rare day off, I actually slept until three o'clock in the morning before I opened my eyes. When he got up, he found that Chen Ran had left, and there was a prepared breakfast in the rice cooker, Chen Ran carefully kept warm, and when he uncovered it, he even went out to buy soy milk fritters. There was a note from him on the table, "Girl, I'm going to work, the rice is in the pot, and I'll be full when I get up." I bought you a new phone, it is estimated that it will be delivered in the morning, and send me a message after installing the card. Remember to reapply for a bank card later, and don't put any card in your bag next time. Also, the last thing you said to me last night, I thought about it, and I promise you, thank you for the love and trust you have given me. Chen Ran"

My heart was hot, and my eyes were red unconsciously. Rubbing the handwriting on the note, Chen Ran's face seemed to emerge in front of me, patience, warmth, care, and pity, slowly overflowing from between the lines of his words, wetting my heart. At this moment, eating the breakfast he cooked, I chewed slowly like never before, as if I wanted to taste all his affection, and then absorb it into every inch of my body.

When I received the mobile phone that Chen Ran bought for me, I was looking out the window at the newly sprouted buds of the huge banyan tree. On a spring morning, the sun shines brightly, shining through the cracks in the layers of branches and leaves, shining on the newly grown leaves, shining brightly, dazzling, just like my fawn at the moment. From today on, in this world, I, Li Yue'er, am no longer alone, I also have my own lover, and I am extremely fortunate that my lover also loves me as much as I love him, what a happy thing. Although apart from that, it is impossible to have the shortcomings of marriage. But the world is hard to come to terms with perfection, and I am very content to get eight points of beauty.

Open the box and take out your phone. The milky white shell glows with metallic color, and it shines with light and shadow, which is my favorite style. The corners of his mouth were clear, Chen Ran really understood me, and even bought the card for me, and couldn't help but be moved. After installing the card, I sent him a text message as soon as possible, "Chen Ran, I have already had breakfast, and I have received my mobile phone, thank you, I like it very much." After thinking about it, he added, "Also, thank you for being willing to change for me."

His reply was quick and simple, full of sincerity and firmness, "Girl, you're welcome, you should be." ”

Smiled slightly, it was already clear. Knowing that he was busy, he didn't bother anymore. Suddenly remembered that I lost my mobile phone, presumably many people still don't know, so I hurriedly dialed Wang Hao and Pleasant Goat first, these two people are a department leader and a hardcore friend, and they must be informed.

Dialing Wang Hao's phone, he seemed to have just woken up, there was still a trance and fatigue in his voice, and he woke up a lot after learning the news that I was robbed, "No wonder I couldn't get through to your mobile phone yesterday afternoon, how about it, people are okay, right?" ”

"I'm fine, I've already reported the case, thank you Manager Wang."

"It's okay, it's okay, you know," the other end of the phone seemed to pause, "I can only have this little thought of wishing you well."

I couldn't help but be stunned, I understood what he meant, but I didn't want to break it. With Wang Hao's character, I believe that he can gradually indifferent his feelings for me and quickly get out of such unrequited love. It's just that once you love, there will always be traces, I understand, so, leave everything to time, it is the most healing medicine.

Pleasant Goat's phone call was a different story, "Oh my God, my eldest lady, you finally appeared!" If you don't say anything, I'm going to call the police! Do you know how many calls I made to you yesterday? Give me back the shutdown, hey! I thought you were sick and dead! ”

"Good luck, you crow's mouth!" I laughed at her, her voice deafening, and I took the phone to tell her what had happened to me, and of course, her reaction was as fanfare as I expected.

"What! You were robbed?! All the mobile wallets are gone?! Hey, are you alright? You okay? It's just that you, the yellow flower girl, lose your wealth, if you lose your body or something, then how can you live! ”

I smiled wryly into the phone, "Pleasant goat, how do you want me to live!" You are shouting so much, as if you are afraid that the world will not be chaotic. I'm fine, don't worry! I'll go to the bank to reissue the card right away, just to report a safe life to you, and by the way, tell you that this is my new number, please raise your hand and write it down! ”

"Okay, okay, I've got it!" Fu sighed again, "Alas, you said that you are also a big boss, why do you always make people feel uncomfortable?" One day it was another car accident and a robbery, well, the passing year is unfavorable, the passing year is unfavorable, and you have to transfer it! I see, Bacheng is a person who has been alone for a long time, this woman, there is no man around to take care of it, it is hard in the end, just let the little one pay attention to a wishful husband for you? Shen Dazhi has a lot of young talents among his graduate students, just waiting for you to summon him! ”

I sneered, this little girl has too many whimsical ideas, it is too wonderful, since she fell in love with Manager Shen, she can no longer see the loneliness of the single women around her, and she is eager to try to save people from fire and water for love every day. I didn't bother to pay attention to her, so I hung up the phone on the pretext of going out immediately, leaving her alone on the other end of the phone and glaring at me.

Everything went smoothly on the way to the bank, after the card came out, it was noon, seeing that the time was not early, I was too lazy to go back to cook, so I chose a nearby restaurant, ready to go back after lunch.

Picked up a place near the door and sat down, and was about to send a message to Chen Ran while waiting for the meal, when he suddenly heard a familiar voice coming.

"Hey, hey, Mr. Guo, can't we put our hands down? Look at so many people, how bad it is! ”

"What are you afraid of! I, Guo Xin, is like this! Who did I provoke when I hugged the woman I liked? Who wants to see go! Hey, I said, Xiaoqi, you don't usually squirm so much in the company, why are you so uneasy to have a meal with me now! I still want to poach you into our sales department, you can't let go like this! ”

Guo Xin and Zhang Xiaoqi! I secretly screamed in my heart that it was not good, no matter how I went, I would run into Zhang Xiaoqi's narrow road. I saw Guo Xin with his hand on Zhang Xiaoqi's shoulder, Rao is latter's refusal was obvious, and he was still imprisoned by him and couldn't move. Didn't Zhang Xiaoqi love Wang Hao, why did he look like Guo Xin when he turned around, I shook my head secretly, understanding that it was not suitable to stay here for a long time, so I lowered my head and pretended not to see that I planned to finish eating and leaving as soon as possible.

A cold light swept over from his intuition, making people feel excited for no reason. Raised her head slightly, but saw Zhang Xiaoqi and Guo Xin half-pushed and half-glanced at me, obviously she didn't expect to see me here, she couldn't help but be stunned, seemed to forget the struggle of Shicai, Guo Xin grabbed her shoulders and followed in. It's just that the moment he turned around, he slashed at me fiercely, and threw it straight at me like a flying knife with a cold front, freezing me in the moment.