Chen Ran

Looking at Xiao Juan's name dancing on the screen, Bai flickered, and her eyes were confused like a firefly, and for a few seconds I was out of place. It's like having a beautiful dream, so beautiful that I almost thought it was reality, but suddenly an axe came and smashed the dream, only to find that nothing had changed.

Xiaojuan, heh, Xiaojuan, I almost forgot, Yao Xiaojuan, my wife, how I quarreled with her today, she slammed the door in anger, she stacked cruel words to make us each sober and calm, suddenly made me feel strange and distant, since when did I start to feel like this? It seems like a long time ago, and it seems like it's only a few days.

I realized that Xiaojuan was already in H City, thousands of miles away from me, at this time. Her plane arrived at her destination at four o'clock in the afternoon. Over the years of marriage, no matter what happens, we have always adhered to a tacit agreement - no matter who travels, we must let each other know that each other is safe all the way. This is not only the proper meaning between husband and wife, but has later become the most simple and natural way to care for the family. But today, this agreement that has lasted for nearly ten years has been broken by me, and for the first time I forgot to send care and greetings when she landed.

It's really forgotten.

I don't think it's because of the quarrel, in the face of life and death, this bit of husband and wife quarrel is nothing. But why do you remember the promise of nearly ten years and forget it today? As she walked through the clouds, I frantically searched for Yue'er on the ground; When she re-sets foot on the land of H City with a grief, I am already planning to cut her off. It turns out that we are doing such different things in the same time and space, husband and wife are concentric, their profits are golden, husband and wife are concentric, me and Xiaojuan, is it still counted now?

It's just that Xiaojuan's position in my heart has reached such an insignificant point? The time I spent with Yue'er was so rare and sweet, it made me completely forget about her safety. Should I say that this is the joy of seeing each other in the love that Yue'er and I finally deserved, or is it the bleak sadness in my marriage with Xiaojuan that is coming to an end? Thousands of days and nights are accompanied by each other, but they can't withstand the lingering vigor of a second glance in the crowd.

It's not that I feel a little guilty, even if my feelings for Xiaojuan have become colder and lonelier, but even as my relatives, my family, and even my friends, when she is alone, shouldn't prayers for peace be in my heart, not to mention that she is still me, my nominal wife.

Sighing heavily, I shook my head to myself in my heart, picked up my phone and went to the balcony, and pressed the answer button, "Xiaojuan? ”

There was no response on the other end of the phone for a long time, I thought the signal was not good, I brought the phone to my eyes, and found that everything was normal, a little unclear, and asked tentatively again, "Is it Xiaojuan?" ”

There was a shallow breathing sound coming from the other end of the phone, and it was even more lonely and lonely in the quiet night, for a long time, a sigh that seemed to be nothing, Xiaojuan's voice was like a deep night dew slowly coming, "Chen Ran, I arrived at H City ......at seven o'clock" paused, she said quietly, like a mechanical wave in the air without temperature, "You missed the appointment."

I was suddenly stunned, understood the meaning of her missed appointment, faintly poked at my self-blame and unbearableness, closed my eyes, rubbed my swollen temples, I exhaled, and whispered into the other end of the phone, "I understand, I'm sorry." ”

I heard Xiao Juan's slight helpless laughter from her nose, wrapped in heavy exhaustion and confusion, "Married for so many years, it's the first time you've been like this, why do so many firsts always happen recently, no matter where I went before, no matter what happened to us, the first thing that popped up when I got off the plane and turned on my phone was your message," Xiaojuan's tone was calm and unwavering, without the slightest excitement during the day, as if she had fallen into a long memory, "It seems that the quarrel in the past few days has really hurt you and made you disheartened, I don't even care if I live or die......"

The flesh in the corner of her eyes twitched slightly, and I interrupted her, "What are you talking about, what's the matter?"

Listening to me snatch white, Xiao Juan smiled to herself, her voice was so empty that it seemed to come from the end of the sky, "Chen Ran, you have changed, I don't know why I feel like this, and I don't know when it started, I just feel that you are not the Chen Ran I knew before......"

When Xiaojuan said this, her words seemed to have a thick nasal voice, muffled like a drumstick wrapped in cloth, knocking on my ears one by one. I suddenly didn't know how to answer her words, and for a while neither of them made a sound, just listening to each other's breathing through the phone, and their hearts withered.

There was a rapid coughing sound, there seemed to be a sound of extinguishing the cigarette butt on the other end of the phone, the ashtray touched the desktop and clanked, Xiaojuan picked up the water cup and poured it vividly, I frowned, and couldn't bear to say, "Smoke less...... Why do you waste your body so much......"

"No, you don't have to worry about it...... Xiao Juanwu coughed to herself and was still so rebellious, "Forget it, if you don't answer me, I can't force it, today is indeed not a suitable day for talking," after a pause, her voice returned to calm, "I'm calling you, there is another thing to tell you, didn't you ask me to make an appointment with Director Zhao last time, I made an appointment, next weekend, you go back to H City, let's visit him." ”

Listening to Xiaojuan change the topic, my hanging heart seemed to be a little more relaxed, remembering what I said about the consulting company a year ago, that Director Zhao didn't know where it was sacred, I heard that he once wanted to take over the company by himself, and then found three or five friends to take over the job, the ability seems to be not small, the people in this government department can't be offended after all, I still have to come forward to meet him for a while, thinking of this, he nodded and said, "Okay, I will let Wang Hao book a ticket back to H City on Friday tomorrow." ”

hung up the phone and looked through the phone, only to find that there were still Guo Kai's missed calls and text messages, "Chen Ran, you are a brother, why did you run away after eating?" Don't answer the phone, your brother and I are getting married today! Don't come to make a scene for our troubled cave room, you don't know that everyone in your younger siblings' family is a demon, Guo Xin and Wang Hao can't stand it! ”

I smiled slightly, looked at the time, it was almost ten o'clock in the evening, and it was no longer appropriate to call back at this time, so I simply edited a text message and sent it over, "Brother can't help it, it's a little urgent for the time being, the Spring Festival is worth a thousand gold, I won't bother you now, and I'll accompany you another day."

Looking at the text message prompt on the screen, I deleted Guo Kai's message, turned around, and found Yue'er leaning against the door frame of the balcony looking at me. There was a smile on her face, hidden in the inky night, so indistinct that people couldn't see it.

My heart fluttered for no reason, when did Yue'er get behind me? Why didn't I feel it at all? Did she hear my call with Xiaojuan? Did you hear it or didn't you hear it? Her expression looks calm and calm, I shouldn't have heard it, but I don't know her for so long, the person who can best hide her inner emotions, if she hears it, does she also see the uneasiness and embarrassment between my eyebrows, and does she also feel the little inexplicable struggle and melancholy in my heart?

Frowning slightly, I squeezed out a smile at Yue'er, pretending to be casual, "What's wrong?" It's late at night, and it's still a little chilly outside," rubbing her arm a few times, "Let's go inside." ”

Yue'er didn't answer, just looked at me fixedly, her eyes seemed to have thousands of complexes rising and falling, as if the stars in the sky were bright but distant, she stared at me like that, staring at me a little panicked, the outside of the house was more exposed, but my back was covered with a layer of fine sweat, unconsciously cleared my throat, I asked her a little hesitantly, "What's wrong?" ”

Yue'er suddenly grinned, as if she was just joking with me just now, "It's nothing, Chen Ran," she naturally took my arm, "Call you, the sofa is laid for you, I added an extra bed quilt, it shouldn't be cold." Hurry up and wash up and rest, everyone is tired today" After speaking, he stretched his waist, "I am really tired and falling apart during this time, and I can finally sleep comfortably tonight!" She raised my hand, put her little hand into my palm, gestured finger by finger, and murmured, "Chen Ran, your hand is so big" took advantage of the situation to hold me and her fingers together, raised her eyes and smiled at me, "Big hand hold small hand, walk forward together"

My heart seemed to be lightly bumped by something, but it sinked into countless ripples, rippling wisps of tenderness like water. I couldn't help but kiss the innocent and lovely person in front of me who was as delicate as the most cheerful bird in a spring morning, and the rosy lips were as sweet as cherries.

Yue'er's response seemed stronger than before, she hugged me tightly, her nails were about to sink into my skin, there was a faint fine pain, as if she was grasping something for fear of losing, and she tried her best to entangle her lips and teeth, as if she was not so sure of my existence for her.

After a long time, we slowly let go of each other, and there was infinite tenderness in my heart. Touching her flushed face, I sighed lightly with satisfaction, and said softly, "Good, rest early" I put my phone on the coffee table in front of me, suddenly remembered something, thought about it, or said it, "Girl, I'm going back to H City next weekend, and the consulting company over there has something to deal with" Brushing the broken hair on her sideburns behind her ears, "When I'm not there, do you have to take care of yourself?" You can't make it with your body anymore, you know? ”

Yue'er looked at me, her eyes seemed to be a slight autumn wave, but the curvature of the corners of her lips slowly spread, shining brightly like water and cold nights. She nodded heavily, put her arms around my neck, and whispered in my ear, "I promise you, don't worry." ”

I chuckled and patted her on the back, "Good, go to sleep, have a good dream"

"Well, Chen Ran, good night, good dreams" Yue'er jumped and ran to the bedroom, such a lively and happy appearance made me feel as if my life seemed to be much less sorrowful.

"Chen Ran"

"Huh?" My eyes have never taken off her back, and I am now very happy, and suddenly I heard her call me, so I replied with a smile.

Yue'er stood at the door of the bedroom, stopped, turned her head, and slowly opened her mouth, "No matter what happens in the future, no matter what happens, can you tell me?" Her expression was solemn, completely lost the playfulness and cheerfulness just now, only the words and sentences like the sound of Zhong Ding vibrated in my ears, "You don't have to care too much about my feelings, don't be afraid of hurting me, since I have decided to be with you, I have enough psychological preparation and endurance to face your family, your wife, and everything related to her." ”