"I know what you mean, but I'm not thinking about that right now, I'm thinking about how to adjust the state next - adjust the state after our breakup, and remove this distraction! I can't say ...... in the process Although we ......," there were two rare pauses in Lin Jun's words, "I'd rather separate!" But I still want to thank you for being able to say that! "What exactly is Lin Jun going to say? He rarely speaks like this, and I can't guess what's in the two brief gaps in his words. What I can understand is that he really gave his feelings in this relationship, and although he was resolute in his words, he was not a stone man.

"Thank you, no need! I'm saying what I really think from my point of view, and it's a suggestion! Advice as a friend! ”

"Do you think girls like romance?" Lin Jun nodded and asked, his nod in response was courtesy, a negative endorsement - recognition of the kindness contained in my exhortation, and a rejection of my previous advice! And his questioning made me understand that the direction of his thinking has changed abruptly.

"Of course, there's no girl who doesn't like romance!" I replied, in fact, the answer was in his eyes.

"Romantic...... Where is it? Lin Jun muttered, as if talking to himself.

"It's hard to tell! Maybe it was in the aftertaste that I realized that I got it by accident! How did you remember to ask this? ”

"Nothing, just the word came to mind!" Lin Jun said, a mixture of smile and peace on his face, perhaps remembering some of their once warm moments, but the expression was fleeting, like a little light in the distance in the dark night.

"It's up to you to find what belongs to you, right?" Lin Jun asked.

Frankly, I didn't seem to understand what he was asking, I couldn't understand it all at once, and when I said what I was going to do, it complicated the situation. Maybe that's talking about himself, maybe it's time to find his girlfriend himself! Everyone has their own possession, and it is not necessarily less, but they are not yet aware of it. The process of finding one's own happiness, joy, romance, and so on, will vary depending on the goal and the person's personality, and the final result will be more or less, which is a seemingly simple question, but it is not easy to think clearly. What I thought I had found was found in a certain period of time, but I found that it had slipped away unconsciously, and what I was trying to find and what I once thought was extravagant, found it easy to find in a certain period of time, and the process of searching is exactly like this. When you connect his questioning back and forth, you will feel that it is intricate and full of contradictions

"Maybe!" I replied, "There are some things that you can't tell right from wrong. ”

"For her, it's still my fault! The nature cannot be changed, and a lot of torture is because it inevitably happens when the personality cannot be changed, which is the saddest! Unfortunately, I seem to be stuck in this strange circle now, I don't know when I started, I can't be confident in the matter of love, I am always worried, I am worried about disappointment, I am worried about quarrels, I am worried about pain, I am worried about ...... Worry about everything, don't allow any imperfections in the relationship! I don't know how to start thinking like this, always trying to do things that seem impossible to other lovers, but it's actually an endless loop! Hopefully I can get rid of this way of thinking. But the kind of happiness in love everyone wants, and I'm no exception! ”

"'Pathetic?' Isn't that too serious? I asked.

"No, it's not serious! I can recognize that this is an endless cycle, but things have really happened, admit it or not, it has already happened, and it can't be erased! ”

"Adjust your mindset to deal with it, both emotionally and artistically! Because when you think you have nothing, you still have youth as capital! ”

"Conditioning." Lin Jun said slowly. His eyes were staring directly at an old-fashioned gramophone on a bar stool across from the bar, his hands crossed in front of him. After saying this, he was silent until he left the small bar.

What he was thinking, I don't want to guess, he is not the kind of person who can be easily defeated by anything, this is the impression he gave me at that time, the pain that others want to vent in a hysterical way, or the problem that needs to be solved by irrational crazy actions, where he just drowns all this with silence, not anyone can do this, he has a strong spiritual force in his heart to support him, but that power does not come from his girlfriend!