Time passed like this, and every day I met her on campus, I still simply said a few words. On the first Saturday after the start of school, the school organized a theatrical evening to welcome new students, and she naturally became the host of the party. Her hosting talent is outstanding, her demeanor is down-to-earth and generous, the strings of words and the warm-up are all just right, and at the curtain call, someone in the crowd even shouted her name! After the break, I waited for her on the edge of the playground, ready to say a few words to her before going back. She still walked to me with a smile on her face. At that moment, I felt an inexplicable surge of happiness in my heart - a happiness that was about to be suffocated! I must be with her and never leave her! She's the person I've always been looking for, just the age of a high school student, and she thinks of this. I resisted the urge to rush over and hug her, kiss her, the happiness lingered in my mind, I almost cried in my heart, I tried to control my emotions until she came up to me and smiled and asked me, 'What do you want?' Then I came to my senses. I said I didn't think anything of it, and then told her that today's party was awesome, and it was the first time I had seen her party, and it was so good. She smiled and asked me, 'Do you like it?' I nodded vigorously and told her I liked it so much! She smiled and said, 'Let's go!' Then we didn't say anything more, and we pushed our bikes towards the school gate. There were very few people on campus at this time! As we walked side by side, she suddenly stopped, and I stopped, and she put her bike away and walked in front of me, and I didn't understand why she came for a while, and I saw that her eyes were a little strange, a look of restraining her impulsiveness. I didn't know what she was trying to say, I wanted to ask her what was wrong, but before I could say anything, she kissed me! And hugged me tightly, the power was so great, I couldn't imagine it before, it was her power! I was almost frozen in place, unprepared, and she kissed me on campus! I could never have imagined that it would be such a first kiss, and before I could remember to hug her, she let go of her hands and looked at me with a smile, and I noticed that she had reverted to her usual expression and said softly, 'Let's go!' That's when I remembered to keep pushing my bike forward. As I walked, I thought, this is something I will never forget! I'll never forget this moment! I'm going to be with her forever! Forever! At this time, she suddenly said that she had forgotten something in the classroom! Asked me to wait for her, I said yes, and then watched from the edge of the playground as she rode her bicycle along the boulevard in the direction of the school building. I watched her back and watched her disappear around the corner. I stood still, thinking about the scene that had just happened, and waiting for her to come back, which was not only a visual and tactile feeling, but also something that should be experienced and cherished with my heart, because it was so precious! I thought so, then looked at my watch, and before I knew it, ten minutes had passed! She didn't come back! I didn't think much of it at the time, I just kept waiting, and then 20 minutes passed and I still didn't come back! I started to wonder if I should go to the classroom to find her, God knows how stupid I was to wait so long, but it was unbelievably long! I have a very bad feeling in my heart, how can it take so long to pick up something? At this time, I suddenly heard the screams of girls coming from the direction of the school building in the distance! I immediately got on my bike and ran in the direction of the school building where the screams were coming from! When I got to the front of the school building, I saw a scene that made me feel so painful, she jumped off the building and committed suicide! It's her, not anyone else! Her dress was like a blooming white flower of death! I didn't notice any signs of her death at the time! Now it seems like there was a foreboding, but I didn't notice! I hated myself for being so slow to react and not noticing that unusual detail of hers before. She was still smiling in front of me just now, but now she is gone from me forever! The boys and girls around me were afraid that no one would dare to approach, so I walked over slowly, looking at her who no longer had any breath, I didn't want to believe everything in front of me! Her ankles, legs, and waist were completely deformed due to the impact of falling from the building. Her hair was scattered around, her face was still so beautiful, but her eyes would not open anymore, and the surroundings suddenly became so quiet, as if she had fallen asleep! Why is that? That's when the school security came and pushed us all away, set up a temporary cordon, and they had already contacted the ambulance. I took the pen out of my bag and stabbed it my arm, I hope it was a dream, I hope I wake up soon! Until the blood from his arm dripped on the ground, he didn't wake up from the dream, of course it wasn't a dream! When the ambulance arrived, I hoped that a miracle would happen during the doctor's rescue! While the doctor put the white sheet over her face, I still hoped for a miracle! When the doctor lifted her into the ambulance, I still hoped that a miracle would come from the hospital! I kept telling myself that she would wake up! She may just be injured because there is no blood on the ground! Her heart was beating and breathing! She's not going to die! She's not dead! You know, people always expect miracles to happen when they love them! But reality is reality, and no one can change it! The pain is because I feel the preciousness of my lover's life! For a long time afterward, I didn't want to believe that she was dead! Always expect a miracle to happen. As time goes on, the chances of miracles happening become less and less, but I still have hope! Maybe she is out of danger and is just recuperating at home, and she doesn't want to go out on days when she is not healed, she must be at home! ”

Lin Jun said, knocking a large piece of cigarette ash into the ashtray and scratching it on his eyebrows with the thumb of his left hand, as if it was a kind of memory tracing.